The Fourth Day

"Thanks Milord," Kaoru thanked in relief.

Tamaki smiled at him and replied, "No problem Kaoru, I just couldn't stand seeing that child torture you again for another minute."

Kaoru closed his eyes and shook his head.

"She's right, you know."

"About what?" Tamaki questioned.

"Everything..." Kaoru whispered to keep from crying. "I did try to get out in that game, I do lie a lot now, but I don't worship Hikaru... and I... have commited..."

"With who?" Tamaki butt in.

Kaoru stopped walking and looked away from him, feeling like crying again.

"I-I can't say," Kaoru replied, quietly.

"Hikaru?" Tamaki asked in disbelief.

"Don't ask questions please."

Kaoru began walking again, past Tamaki.

Tamaki stood still for another moment, staring at Kaoru and sighing. Everyday, he saw a bigger difference in personality. He'd began to see it the moment he realized he'd broken their barrier, their safe keeping. Whenever the twins played the game, Tamaki pretended to get it wrong, and he noticed that even if he got it right the twins still said it was wrong. That's when he realized what he discovered by knowing who was who. With this knowledge, he secretly watched the twins and their development, how Hikaru always kept Kaoru safe. How Kaoru had that hurt look in his eyes whenever he looked at Hikaru recently.

"Kaoru, are you gonna be okay?" Tamaki asked as he began walking again.

"What's that supposed to mean?" Kaoru asked with no hint of emotion in his voice at all, but Tamaki could feel Kaoru's tension.

"I was just wondering, if you were okay."

"Fine."

"You're going to hell," Lex had told him.

Kaoru wouldn't go to hell, he couldn't. It's wrong to even think that, he's been tortured, he doesn't know how to react. Lying is how he reacts. It's how he stays safe. Tamaki thought as he caught up to Kaoru. It's how I keep myself safe sometimes too, sometimes I even trick myself.

"You're thinking a lot today, Dad," Kaoru whispered.

"Oh, am I? I didn't notice!" Tamaki laughed.

Kaoru smiled and looked at Tamaki.

"She really bugs you, huh?" Tamaki asked quietly.

"Yeah, who does she think she is?" Kaoru scowled, looking forward again, a distant glaze on his eyes. "Calling Hikaru and I different, what does she know?"

"A lot from what you said earlier," Tamaki pointed out.

Tamaki held his breath as he noticed tears form at Kaoru's eyes and his body began trembling slightly.

"I'm not Kaoru," Kaoru whispered to himself. "Kaoru's secure, Kaoru has a loving brother. I'm just the actual Kaoru in an alternate universe, in the place of the insecure Kaoru and no one knows that I have a loving brother."

Tamaki frowned as the words hit him.

"You are Kaoru," Tamaki replied. "You do have a loving brother, no one knows though."

"How do you know I'm Kaoru? Maybe I'm just really good at acting as my younger sibling," Kaoru scowled.

"Hikaru's not as sad as you," Tamaki whispered. "He's not as angry as you on the inside."

Kaoru stopped and began sobbing and Tamaki wanted to reach out and hug him, but he wasn't sure if he should.

"Is it that easy to tell?" Kaoru cried.

"I've always known that," Tamaki replied on accident. "Not when I was playing the game, but when you began in the club. I noticed the differences. I've payed attention to your development. Like a father."

"Wouldn't a father hug his child?" Kaoru whined. "I don't know, my parents were never home, it was just us..."

Tamaki wrapped his arms around Kaoru and brought him over to a bench and Kaoru tried to steady himself.

"Now I'm all alone," Kaoru sobbed.

"No, you have the Host Club," Tamaki reassured. "We're always here. Daddy's here."

Kaoru shook his head and placed it in his hands.

"What good is that? When you have no brother to love you?" Kaoru sobbed and shook his head again. "I want my Hikaru."

"Do you really?" Tamaki whispered.

"No... Hikaru needs to leave our world," Kaoru replied. "But I'm not sure I can."

Tamaki closed his eyes and whispered, "I thought about what you said, about how I don't want our statuses to change, and you're right."

Kaoru sighed and sobbed into his hands even harder. Tamaki rubbed Kaoru's back and closed his eyes; the feel of Tamaki's hand soothed Kaoru so he stopped crying. They sat like that until the rest of the Club came to get them after Haruhi took Lex home.

"You okay, Kao-kun, Tama-chan?" Hunny asked as he walked next to Mori, Kyouya and Hikaru were staring curiously, wondering the same thing.

Kaoru smiled and picked his head up out of his hands and nodded.

"You know what? I think I am," Kaoru laughed.

Hikaru smiled and walked forward and grasped Kaoru's hand.

"Let's go home, I'm exhausted," Hikaru chuckled.

Hikaru's POV

I didn't tell Haruhi, but that little demon wouldn't leave me alone. She kept nagging for Kaoru and wouldn't stop complaining about how I was going to hell. She's just one child though, Lex won't be my child when I'm older. I can't wait until I have my own children, I'm make sure they're nothing like that. Nothing like a religious fanatic.

Now that I think about it, I heard Kaoru say something about how he never wanted to get married or have children. He also said he was in love already though. With whom?

Does Kaoru not like girls or something? I've noticed that he's nervous around me lately, I wonder if I've done something wrong.

I want to ask him, I really do.

Only, whenever I get close he asks me if he's gonna go to hell. Then he asks if I'd come with him.

I want to... but...