The Thirteenth Day Hitachiin Household

"Aii, Kaoru!" Hikaru called.

Kaoru snarled and walked into the bathroom. "What?"

Hikaru shut the door.

"We're taking another bath, you taste nasty again," Hikaru scowled.

Kaoru laughed and automatically began undressing. Hikaru smiled. He loved how Kaoru went so easily with his words.

The two sat in the tub together, Kaoru embarassingly flustered and Hikaru waiting for Kaoru to notice the way he was touching Kaoru's leg. It annoyed him greatly, Kaoru didn't spazz, Kaoru didn't say anything.

Hikaru began standing up which make Kaoru turn around, Hikaru sat back down and they sat face to face to face.

"Why... did you stand up?" Kaoru asked annoyed.

"To get you to look at me."

"Wha-? What are you suggesting?" Kaoru stammered.

"You hate it when I leave without telling you. What else would I mean?"

Kaoru blushed and refused to look Hikaru in the eye.

"Nothing..."

Hikaru pulled Kaoru close to him quickly and kissed him. Kaoru's face was burning, he was definetly sick. Whatever it was, Hikaru wanted it.

"What was that for?" Kaoru snapped as Hikaru stopped.

"Practicing my kissing. Did you like that style? Or-" Hikaru teased as he pulled Kaoru back into another kiss and pushed down on Kaoru's back. Kaoru trembled and tried to get away.

"In the tub?" Kaoru asked disgusted as he pulled away. "How much worse can you get?"

It bugged Kaoru. Severely. It's all a game to him. He doesn't see me the way I see him.

"Kaoru, come on," Hikaru whined.

Kaoru couldn't stand it. It was all a game to Hikaru. Their love was a game. It was just to satisfy him, until he got a real girlfriend. I'm a damn substitute!

Kaoru got pissed and was about to climb out when Hikaru pulled him back and he sat up and faced Kaoru.

"No, seriously, what kiss is more comfortable to you?" Hikaru asked, seriously.

He stared into his big brother's eyes, and he got even more pissed. Just by the look of love. It's all a gag. My whole LIFE is a gag! Kaoru thought and he got angry and put Hikaru's hand in his face. "The kiss where you kiss yourself!"

Kaoru stood up and began drying off.

"Kiss yourself, maybe you'll learn. It's not much different than kissing me, I mean, we're exactly the same!" Kaoru scowled angrily. He stopped as he felt a force around his stomach, and he felt sick, like all his blood was pounding through his head. He couldn't even think.

Kaoru'd forgotten about his dreams. Now they flooded at him full force.

"Let me go!" Kaoru screamed as he struggled.

"Kaoru! Settle!" Hikaru spat.

Kaoru decided to listen and stopped.

"Let me explain, I feel really bad about yesterday. I wasn't a very good brother, and I shouldn't have threatened Chris-kun like that. It was no where in my position to get mad at him just because you like him," Hikaru sighed.

"I like him?" Kaoru asked in amazement. "Since when? He likes me!"

"Then who is that you like?" Hikaru wondered, a tone of shock in his voice.

"You're an idiot," Kaoru snapped. "Let me go."

"No."

Hikaru put his lips on Kaoru's neck and began to kiss him lightly up and down his neck.

"Hikaru!" Kaoru snarled. "Stop it!"

But Kaoru wasn't struggling.

"We have to go with Chris to the amusement park today," Hikaru reminded Kaoru.

Kaoru didn't respond, he held his hand on Hikaru's that was wrapped around him.

"Kaoru?"

"You're ruining the moment, Hikaru."

Hikaru shut up and licked Kaoru's neck, making Kaoru shiver.

I'm just a substitute.

Kaoru closed his eyes.

"The amusement park, you remember that don't you? Our first real date?"

Kaoru smiled and shook his head. He turned around and held Hikaru's face in his hands, tears in his eyes.

"K-kaoru? Are you crying?"

Kaoru kissed Hikaru and wrapped his arms around his body, totally ignoring the fact that they had literally no clothes on.

I'm just a substitute. A measly substitute.

"We're just brothers," Hikaru reminded Kaoru. "This is to practice our kissing for the play."

Kaoru smiled. I'll never stop being a substitute, but I guess it means something that he chose me to be his.

"I know," Kaoru replied, crying. "I know."

Kaoru kissed Hikaru deeply again.

"We won't make it to the park," Hikaru noted.

"I don't care."

I'll be the best damn substitute I can be. As long as he needs me. As long as he needs me.

Hikaru's POV

Kaoru's been acting really weird lately. He cries more again, and he pretends I'm not looking. I dunno, should I tell him I see him? Would he get mad at me?

I'm surprised Lex isn't chew us out. She's a mind reader, right? Can't she tell what Kaoru and I are doing behind the scenes? When we're at home? Oh man, she'd have a million things to bug us on if she saw us at home.

Kaoru stares out the window a lot. He doesn't talk to me. Mentally or verbally. I'm lonely.

Should I tell him? Or just sit here and bear it?

I want to tell him, I want to cry it all out. I'm the older brother though. It'd be stupid if I tried to even talk to Kaoru like that. He's the younger, he's supposed to cry to me. But when he kisses me like that, I just can't control myself. I don't know how my emotions are gonna swing.

But he's my brother. That's all I can ever let him be. He'll never be anything more. Kaoru doesn't like me that way.

Oh God, I wish he did.