The Eighteenth Day? The Ninteenth Day? The First Day?

Kaoru cuddled close to Hikaru. Hikaru wrapped his arms around Kaoru as they sat on the bed. They hadn't had the same bed for long now, they'd just always crawl into the other persons bed.

"Hikaru..." Kaoru whispered as he closed his eyes and started to fall asleep.

Hikaru kissed Kaoru on the head and pulled Kaoru closer. He smiled at the warmth of his brother and he licked Kaoru's upper neck and sucked on the same spot for awhile. Kaoru was uncomfortable with this, but he didn't argue. He didn't want to argue. Not with him. Not with Hikaru.

"My darling," Hikaru whispered as he stopped sucking on Kaoru's neck and the warm breath made Kaoru blush even more.

"Yes?"

"Nothing."

Hikaru licked Kaoru's jaw line all the way to his chin.

"Hikaru, I'm scared."

The arms caressed the younger boy's naked upper body.

"Why?"

"You're gonna leave me."

A cackle released the older's lips as he moved his hand farther down Kaoru's stomach.

"So?"

Kaoru opened his mouth and opened his eyes but stopped before he said anything.

"I just... wanted you to stay with me."

"You're so selfish."

Kaoru's throat choked and he began to cry. A hand went over his mouth and he couldn't breath, so he struggled. He tried to shout his brother's name, but he couldn't. The fingernails of the hand dug into the skin around his lips.

"Don't cry," Hikaru hissed. "It bugs me."

Kaoru began tearing up but he stop crying. The hand retreated down Kaoru's chest again.

"I'm sorry," Kaoru replied.

"You better be."

Hikaru pushed Kaoru down onto the bed and Hikaru crawled on top of him. Kaoru looked through Hikaru's eyes, trying to figure out what Hikaru was gonna do. Instead of an answer, he saw something flash through Hikaru's eyes... hatred? Joy? Whatever it was, it roused something in Kaoru's senses. He spazzed and he kicked wildly, tears flowing freely.

"Hikaru! I don't like th-"

Hikaru's lips covered his screams, and the older's tongue silenced the younger's.

Kaoru's body began to relax and he wrapped his arms around Hikaru's neck and rubbed one down the naked back. His hand zinged, that smooth, smooth skin underneath his fingertips. Hikaru's skin under his fingertips.

"Don't cry, I'm here now," Hikaru whispered as he took his mouth away for a breather, saliva dripping off his lips. Kaoru blushed.

This... looks like something out of a perverted book.

Hikaru came back towards him and began kissing him again, his hands going up and down Kaoru's body. Kaoru tried to smile, but he found when he did it was harder for Hikaru to kiss him. That might mean Hikaru would stop. Kaoru didn't want Hikaru to stop.

Hikaru... became a little more daring and he began kissing Kaoru's chest.

"Stop it."

Hikaru took his head up and stared at his brother in disbelief.

"Stop! Stop right now, Hikaru!"

"W-why?"

"I'm going out with Haruhi now, this isn't right."

"She's cheating on you, why shouldn't you cheat on her?" Hikaru asked, his lips forming into a malicious smile.

"Cheating on me? With who?" Kaoru questioned.

Hikaru cackled and brought his face level to Kaoru's.

"Yes, she's cheating on you with Tamaki," Hikaru replied.

"So why should I be unfaithful too?" Kaoru shouted back.

The hands sprung around Kaoru's throat.

"Shut up."

Kaoru closed his eyes as the grip came tighter. He was starting to think he liked the perverted moment better than this.

"Just shut up. You talk too much. WAY too much."

He struggled under the grip of the hands.

"Let me go!" Kaoru choked.

Hikaru smirked. "No one will know. Why can't I do what I want with you? Why do you think Nekozawa is so interested in you? Because you're a puppet."

He rested his waist on Kaoru's and smiled as Kaoru shivered.

"You're my puppet, you think anyone will care what happens? You're my twin."

He cackled again and rubbed Kaoru's body with one hand while the other pushed it's thumb deeper into Kaoru's throat.

"They think I love you. I can play with your body and I can kill it. No one will know. Because they think I love you."

"You don't?"

"Please, stop trying to make me laugh," Hikaru hissed.

Kaoru struggled. "Hikaru! HIKARU!"

"What?"

"You're not my brother! My brother loves me! He loves me!" Kaoru whined. "He loves ME..."

Kaoru opened his eyes and stared at the face looking back at him.

"Maybe you're Hikaru..." the person hissed again. "You'd never know. You can't tell the difference. Everyone acts like they know the difference, because they know the outward differences. Haven't we ever switched and we didn't know which one we were? Maybe I'm not really Hikaru, maybe I'm really Kaoru."

"NOO!" Kaoru sobbed.

The hands came up to his neck and pushed down hard until it pierced the skin abit. Kaoru couldn't breath.

"Or... maybe I'm you."

"What?"

The face smiled. "I'm you."

"Kaoru..." Ranka, Haruhi, and Lex tried to wake Kaoru up. "Stop crying."

His eyes finally opened.

"Where am I?" Kaoru wondered. "What day is it?"

"The day before the Romeo and Juliet play first of all..." Haruhi scowled.

"You woke me up..." Ranka whined. "Now I'm gonna be tired at work."

Kaoru looked between them all. "I'm sorry."

"Nightmare about Hikaru?" Lex guessed.

Kaoru was about to object, but then he decided it was better if they didn't know. So he nodded.

"Yeah."

"Well, it's the Eighteenth day that I've been here if you count midnight as the start of a new day. Otherwise it's the Seventeenth night," Lex explained.

Kaoru nodded and closed his eyes. "I'm really sorry."

"No problem, Kaoru," Haruhi replied, smiling.

Kaoru smiled and he sat there.

At first, that was Hikaru. Then it was me... but... I think I liked it better when it was Hikaru, the way he kissed me, the way he held me...

I'll miss him.

Hikaru's POV

I can't believe Kaoru is sleeping over at HARUHI'S house! I told this to Milord and he flipped, I wish I wasn't there. I wish Kaoru was... Kaoru deserved to feel the pain of watching the emotionial distress Milord went through. After all...

Kaoru did cause it.

I'm just so mad at him, he refused to come home. He refused to come home because I was here, I know it.

Is there anyway I can mend what I broke?

I love him, I don't want to lose him. Can I make Kaoru see how much I love him before Kaoru ends up hating me? Kaoru probably does hate me now anyway. It's kind of depressing. How much I love him. When I kiss him at home, I mean it. When I lay in bed with him, I mean it. When I tell him I love him, I mean it. When I have sex with him, I mean that most of all. I just want to say it to him.

"I love you more than anything Kaoru, I want you to know that."

Like I'd ever say that. Besides, he'd probably me that he hates me. I can't stand hearing those words. I get so mad at him sometimes, it's not even funny. I just wanna rip his head off. When we have out fights, sometimes I mean every last word I say. Then he yells back at me, and I think he means those words too. It scares me. We don't really talk much afterwards. It's cold being alone. I'm cold when I try to sleep at night. Is Kaoru sleeping alone, scared? Or is he happy for being alone in his own bed?

I wish he missed me.

I want to make him love me back.