The Twentyfirst Day

"You guys can go, mommy and daddy said that Hikaru could take care of me," Kaoru explained as he sat down in the living room with Tamaki, Kyoya, and Hikaru. Kaoru had his new cellphone in his hand and was trying to get Kyoya and Tamaki to leave so he could be alone with Hikaru. Kaoru had begged his mother the night before when no one noticed, so technically Kaoru wasn't lying when he was explaining this. "Come on guys, give us a break. You can even call them and ask."

Kyoya shook his head and responded, "No reason to bug them, come on Tamaki."

"What? But I wanted to take care of our daughter!" Tamaki insisted.

Kyoya growled and turned around and glared at Tamaki. He snapped, "Then YOU take care of him! I'm not doing this if I don't have to, understand this? If you can't, then you'll understand when I walk out of this house, never to return unless I NEED to! Understand THAT much?"

Tamaki gulped and nodded his head, afraid of angering Kyoya even more. Kyoya had fallen asleep on the Hitachiin's couch at about five A.M. so he was really upset when he was woken up at around seven, he told them that he'd only gotten two hours of sleep, but they didn't listen to him. No one seemed to listen to Kyoya when someone's life was on the line, or something "valuable" was about to pass them by. Kyoya thought they were all idiots and imbeciles, but he didn't want Kaoru getting sick.

After all, Kaoru was the Hitachiin's son.

Kyoya wouldn't admit that he cared about Kaoru like a daughter or son. He'd never admit in public or even to a stuffed animal. He did though, he cared about his three children a lot, and if anything bad happened to them, he'd be the first to leap into action. He'd think of an excuse while working so that no one could say that his was emotions. As far as Kyoya was concerned, emotions were bad and got in the way, and everyone would be better without them.

So, Kyoya stormed out of the house. Tamaki looked at the twins as they huddled on a couch.

"You? A doctor?" Tamaki seemed to tease. "You'll kill my daughter if you take care of her, you can't even put a band-aid on."

"You can't even boil tea," Hikaru threatened. He smiled as he remembered when Tamaki was trying to make tea for Haruhi's dad to make up for being found on top of his daughter. "Don't you think that I'd be better at taking care of my darling Kaoru than you?"

Tamaki scowled.

"We'll get a doctor."

"I hate doctors," The twins chimed.

Tamaki shook his head and stood up and walked out of the house.

"Have it your way!"

Kaoru smiled and snuggled up to Hikaru. Kaoru was hoping for this, which was why he spent a whole hour begging his mother to let Hikaru take care of him. Karou couldn't stand the way that Tamaki and Kyoya treated him, like he was an actual teenager. He liked how Hikaru treated him, like a baby who couldn't do anything on it's own. Couldn't bathe on it's own, eat, dress, or sleep even. Hikaru never let Kaoru do anything when he was sick, Kaoru loved it. Kaoru loved Hikaru hovering over him every minute, never let their hands stop touching, or never letting their legs stop touching, or their arms. Hikaru wouldn't let Kaoru out of his site, even when Kaoru was sleeping.

Now Kaoru couldn't even walk without Hikaru, Kaoru liked this best. Hikaru had to pick Kaoru up and carry him to the area he needed to go to. Hikaru even did this bridal style to ease the pressure and pain on his poor brother, Kaoru. Kaoru could limp, but Hikaru wouldn't let him. Kaoru was never let out of Hikaru's site or touch, and when he was or Hikaru forgot about him, Hikaru spazzed, trying to find him. Kaoru did this someimtes just to know that Hikaru still loved him.

Kaoru doubted Hikaru even knew that Kaoru loved him. He knew that he had said he wanted to marry him infront of his parents, but did Hikaru think it was just a joke? Hikaru was worrying the same thing about Kaoru.

"I love you," Hikaru cooed as they snuggled in the bed, the room dark, for their mid-day nap.

"I love you too."

The two weren't sure what kind of love the other one felt towards them. Kaoru reached forward and gripped the side of Hikaru's abdomen. He snuggled his face into the crook of Hikaru's neck and the other arm was under the pillow, holding Hikaru's mirror hand. The two repeated the gesture, the only difference between the two peaceful forms was that Hikaru's head wasn't in the crook of Kaoru's neck.

"You know, people always think you're the weaker," Hikaru finally broke the silence.

"Mm, maybe I am?" Kaoru yawned.

Hikaru shook his head. "No, I mean... like... you're the... well, like I'm the dominant."

Kaoru raised an eyebrow and shook his head.

"Boy, it's like, they actually know that we have sex or something," Kaoru laughed.

Hikaru kissed his brother's head and whispered in reply, "Maybe they just think we do and don't know we do. It's possible, with all those Otakus like Renge. It scares me sometimes. When we have sex though, don't we switch who's dominant?"

Kaoru's grip tightened and he shut his eyes tighter, a blush going across his face.

"Don't talk about sex please."

Hikaru laughed, "Fine, have it your way, princess."

Kaoru smiled and loosened his grip and calmed a bit.

He doesn't love me the way I love him. Not really, he just pretends he does to make me feel better, Both twins thought at the same time.

Oh, they're just like children. So naive.

Hitachiin Household: Later

"Kaoru's taking a nap on the couch?" Haruhi inquired as she sat on the twins' bed with Hikaru. She shook her and sighed a bit, almost like this was something she should've suspected. "Well, I guess I should leave then?"

Hikaru smiled sadly and nodded a bit, then shook his head.

"I don't know... what're you looking at?"

Hikaru walked over and sat on the bed next to Haruhi, reading a notebook.

"What's this?" Hikaru and Haruhi questioned.

"I don't really know when my view on him first changed. Maybe it was when we were younger and in the bathtub. It was the first I noticed how his skin tingled under my fingertips, how his eyes glowed and shined when he looked at me, the way he was happy around me. My life seemed to wither whenever he was sad or not smiling. He didn't smile much. So I guess that's what messed me up. Haha, but I remember everything: the way his leg felt, his face, the way those eyes glinted and gleamed, and the way his lips felt against my skin. It was so hard to deal with, those lips. They were like swearing the oath on the bible in court, I just couldn't lie to them.

My sweet, Hikaru. I can never tell him how I feel, because it would never work out. You see, we're brothers, the same age, twins if you will. I love him so much, so much more than he can ever return. I can never tell him, and I'm finally starting to accept that. I know he's going off and falling in love. That's alright, as long as he's happy. My only problem is that when our carriage turns back into a pumpkin, how can I survive?

I still remember the first time our lips touched. It was on accident, but it's like my nicotine. I just can't get enough of it, it's what I need for my mind to truly experience pleasure, I need those lips on mine, that smooth, soft skin next to mine. I know it's wrong, I know it's bad to have sex with your twin, your relative, someone the same sex as you, but I couldn't help it. He was asking so many questions. We knew how a boy and a girl fit together, but how did a man and man fit together? We... tested it out. It was addictive. It's always been addictive to me. To feel the pounding of your heart.

I can never tell him that though. I can never let him find this. He's my brother.

He'll never love me back. I'm his subsitute, when we have sex, it's because he's testing things out. It's not like he actually wants to be with me. Hikaru wants children, hell, I bet he even wants kids like Lex! I don't ever want children. Children are too much to deal with. I love them, sure, but I don't want any of my own. Maybe I'll adopt some. I don't want children because I'm afraid they'll end up like me, or worse, they'll be twins. I don't want twin children, that'd be horrible. I don't want anyone else to feel this pain. I want to get rid of this, to not be siblings with this man anymore, to be a female even.

He'd love me then, I hope.

I just want him. Nothing else matters to me, I can't stop thinking about him. He never leaves my mind. He's like a drug, you can't stop thinking about it until you have it, and then it's gone, and you need more. You have to get it back. You need more than what's given to you. That's what Hikaru is to me. He's my drug, it's how I live, it's how I stay sane. Sometimes I even doubt I'm sane. I guess, Hikaru's what keeps me from blowing my top off, what keeps me so calm.

Those strong, warm arms. That soothing breath and majestic voice, that smooth and magnificent hair, the smooth skin. I just... can't get enough of him. Just to think, he'd be all mine if only himself didn't get in the way. If myself didn't get in the way. I still regret it. I just regret it all so badly.

Hikaru hasn't had sex with me lately, but it's all I want, to feel that body next to mine again, all warm..."

Haruhi had already stopped reading, she didn't want to see anymore.

"It's not graphic, Haruhi," Hikaru laughed. "You freak!"

"Lex-chan's downstairs, I should see her," Haruhi excused herself as she ran out, her face burning red.

Hikaru laughed and stared at the text in front of him again. Kaoru's inner thoughts, the thoughts that Hikaru hadn't been able to get into contact with, lately. He loved reading this, it was like Kaoru's diary. Reading Kaoru's diary was a fun pasttime for Hikaru, until Kaoru hid it better and Hikaru hadn't seen it since. Maybe this was Kaoru's diary and he'd just forgotten to put it away? Hikaru scanned the page, looking for a signature, and sure enough, it was at the very end of the long entry. Hikaru smiled, he'd just found Kaoru's diary, and what was in it was like heaven to Hikaru's eyes. He found his spot and began reading it again.

"...and sweaty, I just can't help but blush and cringe. His eyes and voice, so calming. It's like, he just overpowers me. He's the only person in the whole world who can do that to me, and he shares my face. But we're not the same, not in the least, Hikaru's much different than me. I wish he wasn't. Sometimes I wish we were like one person again.

Hikaru stopped having sex once we joined the Host Club. He's said he'd do it again, a few times. It's... never happened.

I ran away and got my foot caught in a trap when I was running after a hobo that stole my shirt. I really want that shirt back, I guess it's because a strange, random person took it that makes me want it so badly. There's nothing special about it, I guess, I just want it. It's like, once somebody else has my stuff, it suddenly becomes extremely valuable, almost enough to cry over. I know Hikaru's worth crying over.

'I want to marry Kaoru,' Hikaru had told mom and dad. Oh, I'd love it if he kept to those words. If he married me. We could adopy a child, or help Haruhi take care of her children, or babysit Lex even! I don't know, I've kind of taken a liking to the little horror. I wish life was simple.

I wish life was as easy as sex, call me perverted, but it's true. Sex is easy and carefree, and it's with the person you love usually. That's how life should be, should it not? I want my life to be with Hikaru and I want it to last forever. Be immortal maybe! Hikaru and I could be evil dicators, watching everyone suffer.

Hikaru wouldn't stand for that though...

I guess, not everything's perfect. Even twins.

It would've been perfect if Cupid hadn't decided to be an ass and shoot me when I was a child. I NEVER stop looking at Hikaru! So, naturally, I fell in love with him. I fell in love with his body, his voice, his hair, his soul, and most of all, his body. Oh, I said that already, didn't I? I don't know, I just love his body so much, so smooth and it reflects his soul well. It's like God spent years on creating Hikaru and perfecting him. Then he found a rag doll and made it looked as much like Hikaru as a rag doll could, and call it Kaoru.

I really should be going now, my foot is starting to hurt, and I miss Hikaru already.

Sincerely,

Kaoru Hitachiin"

Hikaru smiled as he read the finishing of Kaoru's journal entry. He laughed and closed it and put it under the matress, where he'd never looked before for Kaoru's diary. So, that's probably where Kaoru hid it. Hikaru now had ideas on how to make his darling brother happy. One was pretty obvious.

"Kaoru!" Hikaru called as he began walking down the stairs.

Lex and Haruhi sat, laughing on the other couch as they threw random fruits at Kaoru. Kaoru moaned and rolled over.

"If I could walk, I'd kill you," Kaoru moaned.

"Kaoru," Hikaru scowled as he walked down and touch Kaoru's head, feeling no difference in their temperatures.

"He has a fever," Lex reported.

Hikaru frowned, that meant he had a fever too. He wouldn't use this excuse until Monday so he could get out of school and stay home with Kaoru, unless someone said it was okay for Hikaru to stay home and watch Kaoru. Hikaru found it odd, that they were both sick. He wasn't about to say anything about it though.

"It's nap time, Kaoru," Hikaru cooed. "Come on."

Kaoru moaned and groaned as Hikaru scooped him up. Haruhi and Lex left, laughing and giggling. Now Kaoru glared at Hikaru with his sick and angry eyes and he scowled, "We just finished nap time!"

Hikaru smiled as he walked into their room and shut the door with his foot and locked it after he put Kaoru down on the bed. He walked slowly over to Kaoru and climbed on top of him on the bed and purred, "I know."

Haruhi's POV

Kaoru and Hikaru are seeming to be getting better, they're more like they were before Lex was here, maybe a bit better than before. It's really nice to see, actually.

I only have one problem.

I can't get those damn words Kaoru wrote in his diary out of my head! It was... disgusting, reading the journal entry of someone who's homosexual with his brother. I guess, me not being too aware of genders, can't really say that in all honesty, but... Kaoru has a way of describing things. It just has this way of being disturbing and intriguing at the same time. I found it hard to look away. The only way I could was when I realized that the person who wrote that was the innocent Kaoru who was just downstairs and it was about the crazy kid who sat next to me. That's how I finally got sick enough to move away and leave the room.

When I saw Kaoru as I got downstairs, it was obvious that nap-time was just ending.

Why did Hikaru say that to get us to leave? I don't really wanna know.

Lex's POV

Hika-chan and Kao-kun have gotten a lot better since the last time I got to talk to them. I haven't been doing it much anymore because they're sinners, and my mommy told me to avoid them. She still is in the hospital, it's kind of depressing when I go to visit her now. Her damages have gotten worse, and now the doctors think it's cancer. It can't be, mommy is pregnant. I don't want to lose a new sibling, I like siblings.

Hika-chan and Kao-kun haven't been listening to their parents, I can tell that, and they probably have done some dirty things too. I'm not going to bug them about that though, they need a break from me, I suppose.

Ah, the tragic love story of Juliet Kaoru and her Romeo Hikaru.