First of all i wanna say sorry for letting you all wait so long for a new chapter but i had a good reason i moved and i had no internet all the time.

That is fixed now and i can start to update my stories again. Yeah!

I hope you like the chapter and reviews are welcome :)

Oliver felt pure rage when Sara told him about the conversation she had with Felicity. The thought of her with a child made him see red. He couldn't say why he felt the way he felt when he thought about Felicity and the possibility of a child from someone else. Something snapped inside of him thinking about it.

How could she think that she was alone, he was there for her. They were together for the good and the bad.

He never liked it when Felicity told him she had a date but he had never worry to long about the guys she was dating. As fast as they came into her life as fast they were out of it again. He would never confess that he more than once kept her from her dates. Oliver knew that non of the men Felicity dated were good enough for her. He told himself over and over that his action had nothing to do with his relationship to Felicity he just looked out for her.

A child wouldn't leave again, it only would make Felicity leave. You couldn't have a child and do what they do at night. He needed to make her see that all of what she told Sara was not true. He needed to talk to her. He told Sara that he needed to check on something and that he would be back late. He drove straight to Felicity.

Things happened that he never thought would happen. He just wanted to talk...

After Felicity kicked Oliver out of her apartment he drove around town with no destination. He tried to understand what just happened and what it had done to him. He felt alive for the very first time since he was back. He tried not to smile, he knew he shouldn't smile but he felt happy. Oliver knows that what they did was wrong but how can be something that feels so good be wrong?

Felicity made him feel things that he thought he couldn't feel anymore. Being the Arrow didn't make it easier for him to see the good of the world. He wanted to see the colors of life but he saw to many bad things that he forgot that life can be different. How could he been so blind to see what was right in front of him.

Oliver had no idea where he was in Starling City everything was blurred around him, his only focus was Felicity and what happened in her apartment. He could still feel her touches on his skin, taste her on his lips. She taste like sunshine after a rainy day. Could he ever look at her lips again and not think about how soft they are.

What will happen now?

Felicity made it clear that she didn't want him close, but that was the only thing he wanted. He wanted to crawl back through her window, so he could hold her, kiss her, be one with her.

How can he go back to his life as it was before this night. Could he go back to pretending that they were only friends. He would do anything for her. He couldn't lose her even if it meant to stay away from her.

The sun started to rise on the horizon and slowly he found his way back home. Not once since he left Felicity he thought about Sara and what it would mean for their relationship.

He cares for Sara and for the longest time he tried to tell himself and the world that it was love what he felt for her. From the start of their relationship he knew deep down that he didn't love her the ways he should love her. She was the safe choice. She is damage like he is. He didn't need to open up to her, he didn't need to tell her of the island and what has happened to him. That what made it so easy for him to be with her. With Felicity he had to face all the demons.

He asked Sara to marry him because that was the next step in a relationship and everyone around him expected it from him. Not once he saw himself with her in front of the altar.

Should he tell her that he cheated?

He silently made it upstairs to the apartment he shares with Sara, trying not to wake her. He couldn't face her, not until he knew what he should do. He knew he should take a shower before he go to bed next to Sara but he couldn't wash away the smell of Felicity on his skin. Her smell embraced him and kept him together. He needed a few hours of sleep before he had to face the world again and change his life forever.

Felicity spend the night crying. Every time she tried to lay down in her bed, pictures of her and Oliver flooded her mind and new tears started to roll down her face.

How could she been so stupid? Why didn't she stop him? Why was she so weak? How could she do that to Sara? Wasn't she supposed to be her friend? Friends don't sleep with the others boyfriend. Friends don't betray each other like this.

Felicity tried to wash away her sins. She stood under the hot shower trying to wash away Oliver and the night. Her skin looked like a lobster. She could scrub his smell of her skin but his touches lingered under her skin. She wished that she could savor the feeling her left on her skin but she knew she couldn't.

She isn't a home wrecker. She hates herself for what she did. She wanted to hate Oliver too, but she just couldn't. It wasn't his fault that she wasn't strong enough to resist him.

She is the one to blame for what happened and she is the one that has to do something to safe Sara and Oliver and the Team Arrow.

And she knew only one way.