im love you all! Everyday i see how many people i have gained and it makes me soooo happy. Also sorry but no sexual tension release just yet but this chapter will be wayyyyyy better than the previous.
Clary's POV
When I opened the door Jace was on his bed, knees to chest and he was yelling gibberish. I carefully walked over to his bed and placed my hand on his arm. I kept saying his name over and over but nothing happened. He looked so hurt and sad I had to wake him up.
I started to shake his shoulder say his name louder. His eyelids twitched and he was crying. Suddenly his eyes shot open and he took a huge breath.
I stopped shaking him and looked into his eyes "Jace hey look at me you are with me in your apartment" he started thrashing around so i tried to straddle him and hold his arms down but he quickly threw me off.
When I hit the ground I felt my wrist turn at a bad angle and I screamed in pain. Seconds after I saw Jace bolt up right, eyes red and wide. He looked at me and quickly fell on the ground looking at me.
"Clary please im sorry I didn't mean to hurt you let me see your wrist" his voice was raw from screaming, i was still in pain but I assures him. "Jace im fine it was mainly shock, hey jace look at me im ok now you need to sleep, you're exhausted." he had bags under his eyes and sweat was gleaming on his forehead, not to mention his clothes.
I took his hand when he held it out to me but the I noticed he had a split knuckle. "Jace what did you do! Oh whatever come on we need to clean this up". I took his hand and dragged him to the bathroom where I cleaned it it and put a small bandaid on it.
Jace never said anything but he did wince every time I touched his hand. when i looked into his face he reminded me of a child who had lost his mother and was all alone.
"hey Jace come on forget about going to eat you need to sleep" I led him to his bed room. I layer him down and told him to sleep. As I walked towards the door I heard a small raspy voice across the room.
"Clary, stay please. I.. Im.. Scared"
I looked back at Jace he looked so defeated and sad. "Of course jace, I'll sit with you till you sleep". When I said that he smiles just a bit. I walk over to him and sit on the bed crisscross, I put a small pillow in my lap and look at Jace. His eyes are red and defeated, he just looks so sad.
He moves his head so he laying on the pillow in my lap. The he speaks up and says something I never thought he would.
"I watched them die. My best friend, my brother. Alec was both, even though we was my adoptive brother he was still family. We did every thing together, we told each other every thing. He even told me he had a boyfriend, they loved each other so much. But then he went to the army, they still spoke but..."
Jace was freely crying now, instinctively I started running my hands through his hair. It was surprisingly soft. Then he started talking again.
"Alec died while trying to save me, it was my fault. I was shot and he was killed because he wanted me to live. How messed up is that. Then there was Simon, that scrawny ass twig was my best friend. He was a lot like you, small but so strong. He was shot 5 times before he went down. I watched him, it was horrible"
Thats when he looked at me. "Clary I died up there with them, my soul and spirit but some how my body ended up here"
I looked into his sad, sad eyes "hey Jace just sleep, im right here to protect you.
Within minutes he was fast asleep, i was still mindlessly running my hands through his hair when I pulled out my phone.
I dialed the number and they picked up on the third ring. "Hello? Isabelle Lightwood, yes this is Clarissa Fray. Sorry we couldn't meet at the diner, Jace had a breakdown. Can you meet us tomorrow at the apartments. Yes 3:00 sounds good. Bye."
And with that I fell asleep with Jace's head in my lap and my hands tangled in his hair.
ok that was sad sooo sorry if you are crying