a/n::: well im going to start this authors note off by saying SORRY. Im so sorry I took so long to update. My iPod touch fell into the toilet and I got it out the water SUPER fast. [[the water was clean. If it wasnt I would have left it there for my baby daddy to get lmao]] It didnt work for like a week. The back-light went out. So I left it alone and one day I turned it on and it was working [[I literally jumped for joy]]. As soon as I got the chance I started on this chapter and then all the sudden the back-light goes off again. So I get pissed of and leave it alone to rest. The next day it works and im excited because I can continue my story. Im writing all night until im tired and I go to sleep and wake up the next morning. I check my iPod and the fucking touch screen isnt working. [[And it still doesn't work till this day]] So I was beyond pissed because I lost my chap 9 to this story. I tried to re- write chap. 9 but I was to mad to and then a whole bunch of crap started to happen in my life. So I gave up for a while. But now I bought a new iPod touch and I re wrote this chapter. OH and im going to make sure my iPod doesn't get any water damage because my 2 year warranty doesnt cover that.

Okay now I would like to thank *drum roll* nfanpepsi, tashay789, NessaTheQueen, Jakelover, The-Black'Tulip, RazzleDazzleBaby, Jadlyne, ohiopaige, xxxlookingformyedwardxxx and kmddeprez1122. Thank you so much for your reviews :D

disclaimer- I dont own the ppl u recognize from twilight saga. And I dont own the song 'Best I Ever Had' by Drake. Also know as The light skin guy who is in a wheel chair in Degrassi orrrrr Wheel Chair Jimmy lmao.

-love erin..

chap 9.

I Refuse to Belive...

JACOB POV

"What?!" I shot up out of bed. I thought someone was calling me. Then I realized I was probably dreaming. It was dark outside and so was my room, I looked next to me and I didn't see or feel Nessie. What the? Where she go?

"Ness?" I called out and than I heard crying. It was Nessie crying. I quickly go out of bed and put on my boxers and ran towards Ness.

She was in the bathroom, her head over the toilet. My baby girl was sick and I felt guilty, like it was my fault. How the fuck did I let her get sick? I saw her her body jerk forward and I quickly snapped out of my thought and quickly went to her side and held her hair as she threw up. When she was done, I told her I would be right back, she gave my hand a tight squeeze before she let go. I ran to the kitchen and got her a bottle of water and ran back.

She was standing in front of the sink rinsing out her mouth and than turned around and faced me leaning against the sink. She looked up at me and our eyes met. She looked so sad I wanted to cry.

"I got you a water." I said and handed her the water. She took the water and drank it all in a matter of seconds.

"Well you were thirsty." I was trying to lighten the mood I guess.

she laughed, and instantly I felt 10 times better. "Yea, what time is it?" she asked.

"umm like 5:30." I answered.

"humm, well im sleepy." she said and walked right past me and to my bedroom and I followed.

We laid in bed and I held her in my arms. " Your fridge stinks, you need to clean it out asap." she said as she nuzzled her head into my chest.

"Oh, okay. Is that why you were sick?" I asked

"yea, I woke up hungry and I went to get something to eat and when I opened the fridge it smelled really bad." wow so all I had to do was clean out my fridge and she would be all better, shit that's easy.

"okay well I will clean it out tomorrow." she kissed my bare chest softly. "Thanks, I love you."

"I love you too." i said and kissed the top of her head and we dozed off.

An hour ½ later.

"Jacob!!!" Nessie yelled. I sat up quickly and fell off the bed landing on my stomach.

"Fuck." I said under my breath. "Jacob, get up! I had a bad dream!"

I got up quickly and sat on the bed next to a scared Nessie. "Babe its okay, what was your dream about?" I asked, and rubbed her arms softly.

"there was a fuckin clown chasing me, Jacob. He was huge and ...and, he wanted me! Dammit, I hate clowns!" she was getting mad now, and it was turning me on, but I had to calm myself down because I knew she wasn't in the mood, buttttttt I could always get her in the mood. I held Nessie closer to me and dug my face into the crease of her neck.

"i know baby it was just a dream. Do you want to do something that can get your mind off of those ugly clowns" I said trying to use my sexy voice. But sadly that didnt work. She quickly moved out my arms and socked me on my shoulder.

"Jacob! I just had a bad dream and all you could think about is sex! Your a fuckin ass, you know that? Well that didn't work.

"Ummm no I didn't, and babe I know you had a bad dream but you look so cute when your mad." I slowly leaned closer to her, and I could hear her heartbeats pick up. OH yeaaa!

I kissed her softly on the lips than took her plump bottom lip into my mouth. She tasted good kinda minty and sweet. Minty from the toothpaste and mouthwash. I new she loved it when I sucked on her bottom lip.

She let out a low moan. Score! "Ja-Jacob....NO!" she pushed me back and quickly stood up and crossed her arm. "Jacob Black, we are not having sex!, I am mad at you. I had a bad dream about one of the ugliest things ever and your just going to try and sex me, what the fuck, don't you love me?!"

What. The. Fuck.? She never got like this over clown dreams, she had the same dream like 5 times in the last 3 months, and we always ended up having sex if I was with her, she said it cheered her up. So why all of the sudden is she all moody about it.

I grabbed a pillow and covered my unhappy little Jake who was happy until now and looked up at the ceiling frustrated. When I knew I was okay and calm I looked back at Moody Nessie who was still standing up with her arms crossed.

"im sorry, your right I shouldn't have acted like that." she let out and exaggerated sigh and sat on my lap.

"No im sorry, I don't know what came over me, I shouldnt have got all ...weird on you. I love you". She kissed me sweetly than pulled away to soon. I gave her my sad look. And she laughed and stood up walking to her drawer that I gave to her to put some of her stuff in.

"Oh relax, I gotta go home." than I remembered we had school tomorrow and she was staying at the Cullens since her other parents were out on a business trip.

"oh yea, well im driving back." I was dieing to see how fast that car would go.

"okay, but dont think your gonna be driving like a speed racer." damn she new me too well.

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NESSIE POV

"Dammit Jake!" I yelled getting out the car slamming the door.

"Baby, do you really expect me not to drive fast in THIS?" he said laughing and pointing to the car.

"Yes!" Jake walked up to me and wrapped his arms around my shoulders. "Okay, I wont do it again." He promised. "Okay." I sighed and looked up at him, he looked down at me and smiled and kissed my forehead.

We headed to the mansion hand in hand. When we walked threw the door Esme hugged me immediately.

"I missed you" she said still hugging me.

"I missed you too grandma, wheres everyone?" I asked looking around the empty living room. She let go of me and hugged Jacob.

"ohh there out hunting. They should be back in about an hour, only me and your grandpa Carlisle is here."

"alright." and then all the sudden I felt a very uncomfortable pain in my lower abdomen, and I quickly ran to the bathroom throwing up nothing, just water. Jacob and my grandparents were there in the bathroom quickly. I could hear Jacob panicking and talking to Carlisle, and I could feel Emse rubbing my back softly and holding my hair. When I was done I brushed my teeth and rinsed out my mouth. Esme made me some tea and I went and sat down on the expensive comfy couch. Carlisle was upstairs in his office talking to Jacob about something and I was watching TV with Esme.

When Jacob and Carlisle came back downstairs, Jacob sat next to me and held my hand. Carlisle sat in the loveseat across from us with Esme. They were all looking at me.

"Uhhh, is everyhting okay?" I asked starting to get hot. I hated when people stare.

Carlisle reached out and grabbed my hand. Uhhh ohhh.I'm bout to get some bad news. I straighten myself out and gave Carlisles hand a soft squeeze letting him know that I was ready for whatever news that was about to come. He gave me a soft smile. " I think your pregnant Nessie." at first it didn't hit me. But as I sat there letting what he just said sink in, I started to panic. Fuck fuck fuck. I'm pregnant, this can't be, I have school, I want to travel with Jacob and do stuff!.....wait.. He just said he thinks. Ha, okay so there's a chance I'm not. GREAT. I looked at Jacob and he looked...scared.

"You okay Jake?" I asked. He blinked a couple of times and he started to
Smile.

"uh yea, your not mad?" ha, I have no reason to be mad. I'm not pregnant.

"no, I'm not pregnant" i gave him a small happy smile.

"Nessie, there's a chance you are. You have all the symptoms." Carlisle said. I got really irritated with him and Jacob after that. I got up and gave Esme a hug. She was smart to stay quiet the whole time. Jacob stood up after and grabbed my hand. I looked up at him.

"where you going?" he asked. He looked so worried. Good.

"I'm fuckin irritated and I just want to go home, in La Push." I said snatching my hand out of his. The look on his face made me want to cry and hold him in my arms and tell him sorry but I couldn't because I was feeling very pride full st the moment. I walked out the house and into my car. I put my seat belt on and I started to feel nervous. I'm bout to drive, without Jacob. I took a deep breath and put the keys in the ignition and started the car. I was startled when I heard the passenger door open. Jacob sat down I took a deep breath inhaling his manly nature sent. I started to relax. Jacob didn't say anything. He just sat there. Good, because I wasn't in the mood to talk.

I drove home slowly, I still wasn't 100% comfortable behind the wheel but whatever, I don't care. Nothing was said on the home. When I pulled up to my house I slowly got out, Jacob didn't even move. He was completely still. I got out and closed the door. I walked over to his side and opened the door. I stood there, waiting to see if he would say or do something. He didn't say shit and he didn't even move, not one bit. I was officially pissed, I was not in the mood for this crap, I was tired and hungry.

"Jacob." i said annoyed. He looked up at me. Finally. But the look on his face was sad and hurt. I didn't feel pissed, tired or hungry anymore I just wanted to make my Jacob feel better.

"you don't wanna have my baby Nessie." he said sadly. I hurt me to see him like this. And it hurt even more to know I was the reason he was looking so sad. I sighed and sat on his lap. I turned my head to the side to look at him.

"Baby, I would love to have your kid but not right now Jake. I wanna do shit, I wanna travel with you and have sex anytime I want and anywhere with you without having to worry about the baby." I had to make sure he knew how I felt.

His face soften and I knew he understood. "sooo, you want to have my baby....just not now"

I nodded. Yeas baby not now.

"Okayy, well your pregnant, I know it." he was smiling now, really hard. "No Jacob, I'm not." I was very serious, why was he telling me this? I just got fucking done telling him that I wasn't ready to be a damn mom!

He didn't say nothing, he just laughed and wrapped his arms under my legs and back and got out the car holding me. " Jacob, put me down." I was trying to sound serious but I couldn't and I think he new that because he was smiling from ear to ear.

When we got into my house no one was home and that was expected since no one was parked in the drive way. When we were inside I thought he was going to put me down but I was wrong. He just kept walking until we were in my room. He laid me down on my bed gently, like i was a piece of thin expensive glass that would brake any second. I liked that, Jacob was usually a little rough with me and I liked that too.

He threw himself on the bed next to me, he threw his arm over my chest and let out a loud sigh. "what's up with you?" I had to ask. Jacob let out another loud sigh, blowing my hair in my face. I smiled because I knew he did that on purpose. "ohhh nothin...I'm just tired, and I really don't wanna go to school tomorrow."

School?? Fuck! We had school tomorrow I completely forgot. Then I was the one letting out the big sighs. Jacob laughed and his hand slowly started moving down and stopped on my belly.

What the fuck. This dude must really want to get drop kicked.

I slowly looked at his hand and then in inhuman speed and strength I smacked it off. He huffed and sat up facing me.

"Ness seriously-" I cut him off before he could finish because I really didn't want to hear what the fuck he had to say.

" Jacob seriously quit it before I fuck you up." I was fuckin serious. I wasn't in the mood for fucking games and baby shit. I wasn't pregnant and he just needed to get over it.

He smirked and raised an eyebrow. " Look here woman, you need to calm down before I spank you."

I laughed at that, Jacob has never spanked me and just thinking about him doing that seemed funny to me. " Whats so funny?" he questioned, crossing his arms trying to look serious. It didn't work.

" you. Your funny." i said, when I was done laughing. " really?" he asked slowly moving closer to me.

" yess" i answered, sitting up.

"you don't think I'm serious?" he climbed over me and stood up. I looked up at him smiling. "nope"

"okay" he said simply and before I could blink he was sitting down on my bed and I was over his lap. I know I'm half vamp but Jacob is still stronger than me, so when I tried to get free, it didn't work. I was laughing and so was he.

I looked back and I saw his open hand pulled pack by his head. oh shit.

" who's your daddy Ness?" I laughed so loud. He can't be serious.

"Jake-" he cut me off. "who's your daddy?" he asked again.

"Edw-" before i could finish, my ass was stinging from Jacobs hand. It hurt but not that much it just made me laugh even more. Jacob left his hand on my ass and started to rub the spot where he hit me softly.

"I'm going to ask you again, who's your daddy?"

He pulled back his hand again getting ready to spank me again.

"Okayy!!! Okay. Your my daddy" I laughed. I felt his body relax, so I relaxed, slumped over his lap.

I felt his hand on my ass again rubbing softly. He used his other hand to move my hair out of my face. He bent down and kissed the corner my mouth softly. His lips lingered there for a second.

I got up and sat on him so I was straddling his waist. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled my self closer to him. He wrapped his arms around my waist and started kissing my neck softly. I shivered to his touch. He continued kissing my neck softly moving down towards my collar bone. I tilted my head back as he moved his kisses up my throat than to my chin. I put my head back down and finally his sweet lips were on mine. He kissed me with so much love I wanted to cry.

We kissed until we were tired. I fell asleep in his big warm arms.

Morning time.

I woke up hearing poring rain. Great.

I sat up and I saw Jacob still asleep next to me all sprawled out on his belly. Part of his leg hanging off the bed. He looked so cute.

I smiled and moved so I was sitting on his back. I leaned forward so I could kiss his ear softly. He moaned and smiled.

"Good-morning baby" i whispered in his ear. I rubbed his shoulders softly.

"mmmmm, that feels good" he mumbled. " yeaaaa I know, I would continue but we gotta get ready for school." I got up off his back. He sat up and rubbed his eyes. I went to the bathroom to take a shower. Jake came in and we had a quicky. When we were done we started to get dressed.

"I might as well move in." Jacob said as he put on his black t shirt. He always wore plain Ts. He says wearing shirts with designs is gay.

"you should, we would have a lot of fun" I said winking. I wasn't lying we would and not just in a sexual way, Jacob is still my best friend so I'm pretty fuckin sure we would have fun without fucking/making love.

We finished getting dressed and eating breakfast. When we got in the car (Jacob was driving, because we didn't want to be late.) I turned on the radio and one of my favorite songs came on by Drake called 'Best I Ever Had.'

"oh shit, I like this song" said said turning up the radio. "I dedicate this song to you baby." he said and leaned over to kiss me on my cheek. I blushed and playfully pushed him away. "keep your eyes on the road Romeo."

I listened to the song carefully. Iv heard it a million times but never really paid attention. I stareted to sing along to it.

'Cause she hold me down every time I hit her up
When I get right I promise that we gonna live it up
She make me beg for it till she give it up
And I say the same thing every single time

I say you the fucking best, you the fucking best
You the fucking best, you the fucking best
You the best I ever had, best I ever had
Best I ever had, best I ever had, I say you the fucking

I loved the song Jake dedicated to me. I was kind of butt hurt when the song was over but o well, I'm gonna download it later.

We got to school 5 min before the bell rang. Me and Jake had first period together. We walked to class hand in hand. When we walked in we took our seats. I sat in front of Jake. The rest of my classes went by pretty fast. When lunch came I wasn't very hungry. My stomach was hurting and I had a bad ass headache. Jake was freaking out and it wasn't making it better. We sat at out usual lunch table with all the pack and all my chicas. They were concerned too. Leah was acting weird though. She asked me what was wrong and I told her. Than she asked if I was keeping anything from her. I said no because i wasn't. She looked at me closely and than at Jacob. She gave us a fake smile and mmhum'd us and turned her attention back to Marcus. They were really close now and always making put in public.

Kim was worried as fuck, she kept asking me if I needed anything and if I was going to throw up. I told her no over and over and that my stomach just hurt really bad.

"Renesmee, I'm fucking serious you better not fuckin through up. I love you and all but I have a huge phobia with puke. I freak the fuck out so please don't. I will get you anything, do you need water?" Kim was seriously freaking out that it made me feel even more sick. So I told them I was going outside for some fresh air. Kim looked freaked out and relieved at the same time. Jake came with me leaving his unfinished food.

We were outside for the rest of lunch. When the bell rang we walked to our 5th period class. One more class to go and I'm out of here. Thank God.

I sat at my desk next to Jake. We were talking about random shit until Becky aka The Fucking Cunt walked in. She wasn't in this class why the fuck was she in here. I saw her hand the teacher her schedule. She got her classes changed . Wow, Fuck me.

I haven't talked to that bitch since Jake broke up with her. People tell me that she talks shit about me but I don't say nothing about it because I want to be the bigger more mature person, so I just kick that shit to the side. She's never even made fucking eye contact with me... Until now.

She walked passed me and Jake giving me some ugly glare look that made her look like she was sniffing some dog shit.

I arched an eyebrow and i was about to stand up and call the bitch out but before I could do that i felt
Jakes hand on my arm holding me down. I looked at him and then at his hand.

"Babe, don't waste your energy on her, she is just trying to get to you." he said softly.

He was right she was just trying to get to me, and I wasn't going to waste my energy on her. Fuck that fuckin cunt.

The rest of class went by smoothly and when the bell rang me and Jake walked out before the fucking cunt so she couldnt give me anymore funky looks.

6th period was easy and fast. Sadly Jake wasn't in that class but the fucking cunt was but she didn't pull no dumb shit. Good for her.

Wen class was over I met Jake outside in the parking lot. He was at the car talking to Quil, Paul and Embry.

When I got to him he kissed my lips softly. I stood next to him listening to Paul talk.

"Man I can't believe I fuckin imprinted on Krystal, she's a...a Bitch." Paul winced when he called his imprint a bitch. Wow Paul really imprinted on Krystal. He never winces when he calls someone a bitch. That's gonna be one exciting relationship.

"wow you imprinted on Krystal." I asked

"yea and Embry imprinted on Tiffany" Paul said

"WOW." that was all i could say. Well I could wish Paul good luck because Krystal was a crazy bitch. She was one of the girls who hated Paul. She said he was a short tempered asshole who need to get his emotions under control. And I guess I could have wished Embry good luck too, Tiffany wasn't like her twin Krystal, she was actually nicer than her twin but she hated Embry just as much and Krystal hated Paul. See Tiffany used to like Embry but as the days passed she noticed that Embry was always with different girls and cheating on his girlfriends and dumping them left and right. And that disgusted her. She was so turned off by him that she never called him by his name but by Man Whore or just Hoe. He hated it.

I looked over at Embry who was just standing there with his hands on his neck looking down and then I looked at Paul who was rubbing his forehead in frustration. Damn poor guys. Then all the sudden both there eyes snapped up and they were looking at me. Awww fuck, I already knew what they were thinking. They wanted MY help because I was friends with them.

"Ha, fuck that, you two are on your own." they deserved this. Paul was an asshole and Embry was well... a Hoe.

I went into the car and Jake wished them good luck and then go in the car. We looked at each other and both laughed.

"Man they are so fucked." Jacob said once he stopped laughing. We were on our way to my vamp fam's house.

"yeaa I know." I said and all the sudden I started to feel sleepy.

Me and Jake talked about Paul and Embrys situation until we got to the we pulled up to the drive way we were greeted by Bella and Edward.

"Hi sweetie, hi Jake " Bella gave us both hugs. "hey mom." I said and hugged her back

"sup" Jake said giving her a side hug.

Edward was next giving me a hug and a kiss on the forehead. "Hey dad" I yawned. Edward looked at me and smiled. Your sleepy, you should go to the cottage and take a nap. Esme is cooking for you two so when you wake up you can eat.

That sounded like a good plan. I nodded and looked at Jake. He smiled and kissed my lips and then my forehead." Go get some rest babe, i will be here when you get up." I smiled. I looked at Bella. " Mom you wanna go with me there? I don't like to go there alone." she smiled and nodded. We took off and once we were there I changed into one of Jakes T shirts and laid under the covers. I called Bella into the room. She was there in a instant.

"Hey, you wanna lay next to me until I fall asleep?" I don't know why but I really wanted someone with me. I didn't want to be alone.

She smiled and it looked like she was going to cry. " oh! Of course!. Do you want me to sing to you? Me and your father used to when you were a baby."

I said yes immediately. She hummed a lullaby my father made for me when I was a baby. I just laid there thinking about my family, Jake and I couldn't help but wonder if I was really pregnant. After a while I dozed off.

a/n::: I hoped you liked it. I wont update until I have 10 reviews. Thats a little for how many people read this story. Lol.

Happy New Year.. oh how was your new year? Did u get drunk? I didnt, but I saw my friend throw up like the exorcist.. It was sick. Thats why I dont drink. Soo what u do for new years?and whats your new year resolution?