Brooke woke up in a cold sweat. She frowned remembering the awful dream … or nightmare.

In the nightmare, Nathan and Haley were getting married again. She was the bridesmaid, and had objected to it. She had begged Nathan to not do this to her, and him and Haley had sneered at her. She saw herself with a ripped dress, at Nathan's feet begging him to stop the wedding.

"You did this Brooke, not me." Nathan had hissed cruelly, kicking her away.

People had grabbed her, and held her back as Nathan and Haley had said their vows.

And just as Nathan had opened his mouth to say I do, she had screamed… and woken up.

Brooke rested her hand on her chest, trying to calm down her racing heart. What the hell was happening to her? Why did she have a dream about them getting married, and saw herself desperately trying to stop her best friend from marrying the man she loved.

No, Brooke shook her head, he couldn't get back with her, he had just been with her yesterday to see her reaction, he didn't actually plan on getting back with Haley… he couldn't.

You did this Brooke, not me.

Those words sent shivers down Brooke's back. There was something about those words, and the voice he had said it in that haunted her. Brooke knew she had to be with Lucas, but she didn't want to push Nathan and Haley back together in the process.

… She just wouldn't be able to take it.

Brooke felt ashamed,how could she be so horrible? She didn't want Haley to have the man she's always wanted, even though Brooke herself wasn't going to be with him. Brooke couldn't be with Nathan, yet she didn't want him with anyone else either.

Was Nathan right?

You don't care that your best friend Haley is getting back her ex husband, you're just so fucking upset that you don't have me on the side yearning to be with you

No, he wasn't right. Because he didn't know that she had really loved him. She hadn't used him to get back at Lucas, she had truly loved –and still loves- Nathan with all her heart. She didn't want him with Haley because that would mean there would be no chance of them. A selfish part of her wanted Nathan to convince her to be with him and not care about Lucas. She knew that he would still have been doing that if she hadn't claimed to be using Nathan to get back at Lucas. But she had said that for Nathan's sake. If he would hate her, then he wouldn't want to be with her, and wouldn't be hurt when she would stay with Lucas. But she didn't think he would go back to Haley so soon. Who was she kidding; she didn't expect him to go back to Haley at all. She expected him to be hurt, and not be with anyone for awhile.

Brooke hated herself for her way of thinking. She couldn't help it. She wanted Nathan to be happy, and Haley too, but she just couldn't stand them getting back together. She didn't think it would hurt as much as it had yesterday. The sight of them and burned right into her with so much force, it was unbelievable. It had been hard to see Lucas and

Peyton hang out after everything, but this was so much worse.

She had admired the love Nathan and Haley once had, but the love her and Nathan shared was so different from anything she's ever had before. She had thought she knew love with Lucas, but she didn't.

And now, Nathan hated her, the words that had come out of his mouth yesterday were so … cruel. She had been stung with every comment out of his mouth, and the way he had just left after that.

Brooke slung her legs off her bed, and dragged herself to the shower, but was interrupted when the phone rang. She grabbed the phone and put it against her ear.

"Hello?"

"Hey Brooke, it's me Karen. Come to the hospital as soon as you can."

"Is everything alright Karen?" Brooke asked worried.

"No, actually it's great. Lucas might be allowed out today, so I want everyone he cares about there, okay?"

"Yeah, that's great. I'll be right there!"

An hour later, after brushing, showering and getting ready, Brooke finally stepped into the hospital. Brooke walked to Lucas's room, and saw Karen outside.

"Brooke, only one visitor, so I'm just going to go in and see him, and be with him when he steps out, if that's okay with you?"

"Yeah, that's cool, I'll wait out here." Brooke smiled.

Karen gave her a quick hug, before disappearing into his room. Brooke took a seat, and grabbed a magazine from the table to flip through.

Brooke only looked up when she heard a familiar pair of voices. Nathan and Haley walked into the room, together, holding hands.

Brooke felt the air being sucked out of her. She opened her mouth, but nothing came out.

And image of her nightmare flashed through her head.

Haley smiled at her and led Nathan over. Brooke squirmed uncomfortably in her seat, when Haley and Nathan took a seat on both sides of her.

"Guess what?" Haley asked excited, "Me and Nathan have decided to try and work on us,"

Brooke turned her head to look at Nathan, who looked back evenly.

"That's … great,"

"We're glad you think so," Nathan said, giving her a fake smile.

"Yeah, we're past everything that happened between us. We talked it out, and he told me how you and he got together to get back at me and Lucas, and I…"

Brooke didn't hear the rest of what Haley was going on about, she couldn't help but gasp at Nathan.

Brooke excused herself, and quickly rushed to the bathroom.

Brooke couldn't believe what was happening. Nathan and Haley were getting back together, and he said he had used her? What if he had? No!

Brooke was sure he hadn't, he had been so upset when he had found out about her staying with Lucas, and he had begged her to be with him. She was sure he had just said that to get back with Haley. But what if… it would make sense, he had been hurting that day at the beach, and Nathan had loved Haley a lot when they were together, maybe…

Brooke couldn't think like this, she was with Lucas, nothing else mattered. Brooke stepped out of the bathroom to see Nathan leaning on the wall across her.

"Hey, I could see how happy you were for me and Haley," he said smirking at her.

"Why the hell don't you leave me alone, Nathan, like go be with your loving girlfriend," She muttered bitterly.

Nathan shook his head, "I just came to get a snack for the girl I want to spend the rest of my life with, from the vending machine, surprisingly, not everything is about you,"

Brooke felt the sting at his words to describe Haley, just like he had meant them to.

Nathan raised his brow waiting for her to go on.

Brooke wanted to so badly tell him that she wasn't really using him, and that it had all been a lie, and she still wanted him.

Brooke couldn't let him be with Haley, it hurt too much.

"Nathan, I-…"

"Hey Nathan," Peyton greeted walking up to them, "Brooke," she acknowledged smiling.

Nathan smiled at Peyton, "Long time, where you been Peyton?"

"Oh, I was just a little hesitant on meeting Lucas, we haven't really talked in so long, and he was pretty upset the last time, you know. I just didn't want to overwhelm him, or make anyone uncomfortable," she mumbled, glancing at Brooke.

Nathan rolled his eyes, "Everything's cool Peyton, nothing should stop you from meeting Lucas when he needs his friends most, and I'm really glad you came today."

Peyton smiled, "I'm glad too, I met Haley on the way here, I heard the good news, congrats, you two really deserve to be happy together,"

Nathan smirked slightly at Brooke, bringing Peyton into a quick hug, "Thanks, I mean everyone kind of figured we'd find our way back to each other, it just took us a while that's all. I mean, some even call us soul mates,"

Brooke looked away, kicking herself for saying that. She put into words what she had feared the most. That Nathan and Haley might be … soul mates.

Peyton smiled, "Yeah that seems to be the perfect words for you two. Honestly, I'm really glad that you two are giving your relationship another chance. I hope you guys all the happiness, you two actually give others hope that there might really be true love out there, you know?"

Brooke restrained herself from gagging.

Nathan laughed, "Wow Peyton, thanks …I guess,"

Peyton laughed, "Alright, later guys, I'm going to go wait with Haley,"

"Yeah, give me a second; I'll come with you, let me just grab a snack for Haley,"

He punched in something from the vending machine, "Want something Peyton?"

"Yeah, get me some chips. I'm going to go to the bathroom real quick, be right back,"

Nathan punched in another number, "Hey Brooke. What can I get you? Is there any specific chocolate that a self centered slut would want?"

Brooke felt anger rise up inside her, "Yeah, to be left alone by a fucking stalker." She snapped before walking off.

Nathan watched her go. He knew he still loved her, but the sight of her angered him more then anything. The way she could make him feel inside with a simple glance, made him hate her more. The fact the he could still love her after what she's done, after the fact that to have him fall in love with her was just her plan to get back at his brother, made him hate himself.

He wished so bad that he could really hate her. More then that, he wished he didn't love her.

It was so confusing; she sent him so many different signals. At times he felt like she did love him, when she looked at him the way she was able to, but then at other times, like now, it made him think she was the whore of Tree Hill.

"Alright Scott, pass me my chips, and lets go,"

Startled, Nathan almost dropped the snacks.

Peyton laughed, grabbing her chips, "What were you thinking about?"

"Uh, Nothing. C'mon lets go," he muttered, Peyton smiled and linked her arms with Nathan.

They arrived back in the room, and Nathan cringed.

Lucas was leaning against the wall, lip locking with Brooke.

"What the fuck!" he exclaimed.

A/n Its longer… JUST like I promised. Right. lol. Anyways, I really hope you guys enjoyed this chapter, and Brathan fans, I'm sorry, be patient! I promise to make you guys real happy! Read and Review! Please…