It felt like this was what he was longing for the past month, oddly enough; it was like he was quenching his thirst. He felt like someone was holding him back for a month, and they finally let him go. All caution had left his head, and now he had turned them over so that he had Brooke pinned against the couch, as he hungrily devoured her mouth.
It was as if nothing had ever happened, none if it lingered in his mind now, all he could think of was the gorgeous girl beneath him.
Brooke's fingers raked through his hair the way that drove him nuts. There was something about the way her gentle yet lingering touch the made him want more of her.
One of Nathan's hands rested steadily on her waist, the other one on the small of her back, pulling her selfishly up against him.
Brooke moaned out in pleasure, and that's what brought Nathan back to reality.
"We've decided to get married again"
Nathan frowned, remembering the glow on Haley's face at her declaration.
He pulled away from Brooke abruptly, quickly get off of her and stepping away from the couch.
Brooke sat up breathlessly, "What's wrong Nathan?" Brooke asked, not bothering to hide her disappointment.
Nathan looked away, disgusted with himself, "What the hell were we just doing?"
Brooke sighed, "I know, but-…"
"No, Brooke you don't know! I'm friggin engaged to your best friend, and you're dating Lucas, my step-brother. You remember them, right? So don't tell me the shit that I had begged you to say a month ago."
Brooke rubbed her head in frustration, "I don't know what got into my tonight, I'm sorry for initiating that," she muttered, motioning to the couch make out session, "But Nathan, everything I said tonight was true, I do have feelings for you and I don't want lose you. I know what I did hurt you and maybe I was wrong, but you can't punish me like this, you can't marry Haley." Brooke persisted, standing up to face Nathan.
Nathan shook his head, "I have to get out of here,"
Brooke took his hand, "No, please don't go Nate," she whispered, new tears forming in her eyes.
Nathan pulled away from her, "You're crazy, you don't know what you're doing. You're recovering from a fever, which takes a while, and its making you say crazy stuff okay? I'll send Lucas over here, and he'll take care of you, but I have to leave, I can't stay here with you."
Brooke bit her trembling bottom lip, "Nathan, can we just talk please?" she pleaded.
Nathan shook his head in panic, "Shit, I can't believe I did that to Haley," he muttered, turning toward the door.
Brooke pulled at his arm, turning him to face her.
"Nathan, you can't marry Haley, I don't care you just can't. I love you so much!" Brooke yelled, causing Nathan's mouth to open slightly in shock, "There, I said it. I've always loved you. I only went back to Lucas because he was sick, and I didn't want anything happening to him. But this whole past month, I cried myself to sleep so many times, wishing to be with you, to be near you. When you went to Haley, my heart broke in so many pieces that you'll never know. You don't know what you did to me, I felt more pain then I could ever tell you, I couldn't bare the thought of you and her together, of you being with her. But I knew how happy it made Haley, and so I stayed away, and kept with Lucas. But I never thought you'd decided to marry her again." Brooke stated, her voice quivering, "And I can't let that happen, I can't lose you,"
Nathan sighed, his hand going to Brooke's cheek soothingly, "Stop it Brooke! Don't cry, I hate seeing you like this. But I can't leave Haley now. You hurt me so much. Just recall on the things you said to me at that time, and you can't blame me for giving up on you. I had wanted you so bad and I was ready to fight for us, but you fought so hard against us that you won. I was brokenhearted when Haley came along again. She reminded me of all the things we had shared together; she reminded me why I had loved her so much at one time. She was so caring and patient, and I know I hurt her a lot, but she wanted to fight for me. And it took me time to start caring for her beyond friendship, but it happened. And I love Haley, and I won't hurt her like this." Nathan explained to the hurt Brooke, "She doesn't deserve that,"
Brooke shook her head, wiping away her violent tears, "You're right. She deserves to be with a man that loves her and only her. Not someone who had initially gotten back with her to get back at someone else. It's not fair to Haley that you marry her when you still love me, and it's not fair to us that we don't get another chance," Brooke insisted desperately, her eyes locked with Nathan's.
Nathan shook his head, turning away from her.
"If you want to leave, fine, but answer me one question first," Brooke stated.
Nathan looked at her sadly.
"Do you still love me?"
Nathan frowned, "Brooke-…"
"Nathan, just answer the question please," Brooke whispered challengingly, "Because from what happened tonight, I think it's obvious you do, but I could be wrong, and I want to hear the answer from you,"
Nathan tried to keep his eyes locked with hers stubbornly, but he failed and looked away.
"Why does it matter anymore, it's not going to change anything,"
"Nathan, your answer can change a lot of things, but that doesn't matter right now, I just need to know your answer,"
"Well, then I don't Brooke. I don't love you."
"Nathan, look me in the eyes and say that," Brooke responded, her fingers bringing his chin up to face her.
Nathan gulped, "I don't love you Brooke Davis," he stated stubbornly, "There, happy?"
Brooke smiled, "You do love me,"
Nathan frowned, "No, I don't,"
"Yeah you do," she whispered, "I can hear you heart beat faster with my every touch,"
Nathan shook his head, stupid heart, even it betrayed him.
"Not true,"
Nathan stepped closer, causing Nathan to step back, and then she pushed him back into the chair behind him. Before Nathan could realize what was happening, Brooke leaned down, her arms on both sides of his head, and her face inches away from his.
"Will you be able to marry her, when you want to be with me?" Brooke asked huskily, imitating the time at the hospital when he had whispered the same thing to her.
Immediately, Nathan remembered the time at the hospital. Nathan turned his head away from her.
"Will you be able to love her the way you love me?" she challenged, her finger traveling up his chest, causing a sharp intake of breath on his part.
"Will she be able to love you the way I do?" Brooke persisted. Nathan looked so miserable that it broke her heart. She knew he was in a tough position, and she wasn't going to let him make the wrong decision.
Brooke went to his weak spot, lowering her mouth close to his ear, letting him feel her warn breath on him.
Nathan squirmed a little, causing Brooke to smile.
"Brooke, please don't do this,"
"Will she be able to love you the way I do, Nate?" Brooke asked again.
Nathan didn't answer, closing his eyes shut, trying to keep the hurt off his face.
"Will you be able to live the rest of your life without me?" Brooke asked, her voice quivering violently now.
Nathan slammed his fist down on the arm rest in frustration. "You want to know the truth, I don't know Brooke, because the fucking truth is that I love you so fucking much that I don't know what the fuck to do. You piss the shit out of me and are still able to make me want you." Nathan yelled, pushing the teary Brooke off him, "But you like playing games Brooke. You've done this shit to me before, when I give in; you remember Lucas and back out. I'm sick of it, and I don't want to get hurt again, but sadly, that's what you cause me every time I let myself get weak in front of you. Haley keeps me happy, and doesn't cause me pain. I might not love her the way I love you, but I'm happier with her long term. Every time we're happy, it doesn't last long, but with me and Haley, we can be happy without something or someone coming in the way. So yeah, I admit that my heart beats a thousand times faster when you're around, but I smile a thousand times more when I'm with her. And you were right all those times about us being together causing way too many people pain, and I don't even know if we'll be happy for long, so let's stop all this drama, and be with the people we were meant to be with! I don't know if I'll ever love her the way I love you, or if I'll be able to be happy without you in my life, but it doesn't matter, I'm marrying Haley and that's it!" Nathan yelled, his eyes filled with tears, but Brooke knew he wouldn't cry, he would never show her an emotional him, because he didn't trust her anymore.
Brooke leaned on her tiptoes and pressed her lips against his. Nathan could feel the salty tears on them, and his anger slowly started washing out of him again. Like the time in the car, it wasn't a kiss; it was just the feeling of having their lips against each others.
Brooke pulled back, and simply just looked at him.
"I understand Nate, I know I cause you pain, and everything you said was right. I don't want to hurt you or anyone else, so I'm not going to fight you anymore. You told me you still loved me and that's all I wanted, it'll be all I need to comfort myself. You go be with the girl that keeps you smiling, that's all what I want for you." Brooke whispered her eyes emotionless.
Nathan felt so torn, he had never seen Brooke like this. Her eyes were always either shining in happiness, firing in anger, or even teary with hurt. But they had never been so empty like they are now.
Her tears were dried, and she wore no emotion on her face.
"Goodbye Nathan,"
A/n Intense ? It's getting strong eh, who would have thought that this is what would happen to that happy couple on the beach ? The two people always full of life would have to go through this ? R&R. Just imagine what could happen in the next chapter !