Dislcaimer: I have not, do not, and will not own the rights to Criminal Minds ever.
A/N: I have written the next chapter and it is awesome! At least I think so. WARNING: Some lines of dialouge are taken directly from the episode Revelations and there WILL be spoilers. Also, some lines my not be exactly right so don't kill me if its not. Do not read if you have not seen the episode and want to.
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On the jet, everyone was silent. Garcia was staring blankly out the window. Alice was fiddling with a string on the chair. Hotch was watching them both. He knew he had to talk to Alice. He got up form is pot across the plane and sat down next to her. "Are you okay?" he asked.
"Oh, hells yeah. I'm amazing. My boyfriend was just kidnapped by a psychopath, but you know, other than that small wrinkle in my life, everything else is goddamn perfect," she snapped sarcastically.
"I'm sorry." Hotch apologized. "What I meant was, how are you holding up."
"I knew something bad was going to happen. I knew and I told him, but I let him go anyway. I didn't push hard enough for him to stay. I should have made him stay home. This is my fault."
"Hey, this is not your faullt. It's nobody's fault. If you balme yourself, it'll tear you apart inside. You just have to remember that we're going to find him and he's going to be all right."
"I'll tell you what, Hotch," she said without looking up at him, "I'm gonna do my best to believe that."
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When the trio arrived, Hotch began giving Garcia instruction and the only thing Alice heard from the converstion was Garcia's comment, "My guess is, it'd tell us to get the hell out." She could only assume they were talking about the old house they were walking up to.
They walked into the house of Tobias Hankel, their unsub who had abducted Reid. JJ had said, "Welcome to our nightmare."
"Morgan," Hotch said, "take Garcia and get her set up please. Prentiss, will you take Alice into the kitchen and get her some coffee?"
"Sure," Emily responded. "Come on sweetie."
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Ten minutes later in the kitchen, Alice still hadn't touched her coffee. "This sucks," she said.
"I know," Emily replied.
"You know, I feel like-"
But she was interrupted by Morgan's shout of, "You guys, get in here!"
Both of the women sprinted up the stairs and arrived into the room where their real nightmare bgan. Spencer Reid was on the surrounding computer screnes and Hankel was there too.
"He's been beaten," Emily said. Well, no shit Sherlock, Alice thought but only because she was way to shocked to speak.
"I'm gonna put this guys head on a stick," Morgan growled.
"You choose who dies, I'll choose one who lives, otherwise they all die," Hankel had said, talking about the people on the computers he had stolen mere hours before.
Just choose Spencer, Alice desperatly thought. You don't always have to be the hero Spencer! Please just choose! No one here will blame you. The name and and phone number of the one saved was given and the video feed went black. "No!" Alice exclaimed. She was trembling uncontrolablly and she heard Morgan shout, "Hotch, she gonna faint!" Then everything went black.
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Aaron Hotchner was leaning over the woman lying on the couch. Alice had fainted from the shock of seeing Reid, and he had caught her just in time. He was wiping a cold washcloth on her forehead when she woke up. As Hotch had supposed, she flipped out. She was screaming and he grabbed her wrists. "Its me! It's Hotch! It's me. Okay, calm down. It's okay."
"No, no, no, no, no it's not okay! Did you see Spencer? It's not okay!"
She was hysterical and she began sobbing. He held her close hoping to give thr young woman some comofort. "Shh. Shh. It's all right," he said rocking back and forth and rubbing circles around her back. "Shh…"
When she could no longer cry she laid back down and sighed. "I'm sorry. You should be focusing our energy on finding Spencer. Not comforting his hysterical girlfriend."
"It's fine," he replied. "You bascially just did what all of us wish we could do. Hey, JJ!" he called. "Sit with her for a few minutes."
"Sure , Hotch," JJ said softly.
"You stay lying down," he told Alice. She nodded and he walked away.
AS soon as Hotch was out of earshot, JJ said, "I'm sorry. This is my fault."
"JJ-"
"We split up and we should have. I should have been more forcful for him to stay with me."
"JJ-"
"It's my fault. I know it is. Even Morgan thinks so, but he won't say it."
"JJ!" Alice yelled and JJ fell silent. "Sorry. I just needed your attention. When we were coming over here on the plane, Hotch told me that it was nobody's fault. And he's right. I realized that everyone is going to feel guilty about this but if you blame yourself for things out of your control…it…it'll tear you apart." Tears were now falling down both women's cheeks. "Please. I can't stand to see Spencer in so much pain, but with all of you beating yourselves up for this...is just too much. Please. I know that you're still going to feel guilty but, just try to feel less guilty."
"You could be a psychiatrist, you know," JJ said wiping the tears away. Both women laughed. "I'll be back, okay?"
"Okay," and JJ walked towords the bathroom.
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A/N: Kind of a short chapter but my sister wants to get on the computer so I have to be quick. New chapter will come as soon as I can get it. Sorry guys!!! :(