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Chapter 7 : Dreams

Bella's POV

I couldn't sleep. I had grown used to Edward's cold arms around me during the night. I was afraid that I would end up back in the forest, back in those horrid nightmares, back to the place where I had been when Edward had left. But this time, I had been the one to say goodbye. I tossed and turned and found that I was not going to sleep any moment soon. I thought about how things had turned out. How could it have happened so fast? How had I gotten over Edward this fast? Had he meant so little to me? It couldn't be possible. He had been my life; the sole reason for my existence. Could my anger have triggered this attitude towards him and hence lack of emotion? I knew only one thing for sure; that my heart throbbed for Jasper the way it had never throbbed before and I knew that Jasper was definitely no rebound. But I was afraid that I was doing something wrong. I was undoubtedly hurting Edward by moving on so fast. Sure, he had been possessive and he had hurt me too in his own way – in many ways in fact. But this was mean. I was going on a date in two days' time and I had already kissed Jasper. The mere sound of his name as I whispered it sent warmth running all over me, inside and out. His name hung in the air in my room confined within the four walls, floor and ceiling, not even trying to get out of my open window. And I wanted it to stay there. I wanted him to stay and I knew it. I wanted Jasper with me. I needed him. I needed his arms around me. With him by my side, holding me, I would never lay awake another night before the time came for me to be changed. I needed him to make me feel safe. I was afraid of so many things; I was afraid of my emotions becoming too much and me crumbling back to my depressed state the previous winter, I was afraid of being alone again and I was afraid of Victoria. I knew she had not forgotten about me. Victoria was neither stupid nor forgiving. She wanted her revenge, and somehow she was going to get it. And I needed him to reassure me. At the same time, I wanted him to stay away ; I didn't mind if she did away with me as long as he remained alive along with the rest of my adoptive family and Charlie. I loved my father even though I didn't show him much emotion; he had become an important figure in my life and he had put up with so much unacceptable behaviour last winter. Poor Charlie; what a horrible daughter I must be.

My emotions became overwhelming much too soon and I started to cry helplessly. I wanted to call Jasper over but I didn't want him to see me like this, so I lay in bed and stared at the wall opposite me, my back to the window – I didn't want to look outside; I didn't want to risk myself seeing a head of flame-red hair with blood red eyes staring at me and burning into my soul.

Jasper's POV

I looked up at the stars. I wanted Bella to be close to me more than ever before. She was such a sweet baby girl. I loved her, with all of my heart, and I had no doubt that I wanted to spend the rest of my existence with her. I wanted so desperately to go and see her, but I didn't want to invade her private space; she deserved a few hours away from me. I didn't want to take over her life. I wanted her to be with me whenever she pleased and not to feel obliged to spend every waking hour with me. I loved her and I wanted her to be happy, even if that meant long hours of loneliness for myself.

"She won't mind," a soft yet deep voice suddenly said. I looked around. Edward was standing behind me in the middle of the clearing. He moved at a human pace until he was standing next to me and then sat down to join me on the grass.
"She won't mind if you go and check up on her," he told me, "I used to spend every night with her and she wouldn't let me go."
"Maybe she feels differently about me," I replied, "You were with her for a very long time Edward and you were her first love."
"Jasper," he said. I could feel his emotions. He was broken and I felt sorry for doing this to my brother. I sent over waves of regret and some waves of calmness over him.
"Don't regret anything Jasper," he told me, "this was the way things were supposed to be. I know that you have been fascinated by her since the moment you laid eyes on her and I appreciate your respect towards me for as long as you have been standing in the shadows in order to prevent standing in my way. I thought it was about Alice but now I know better. You're a great brother, and I'm sorry I was willing to fight with you."
"You're being really nice Edward," I replied, "You're making it hard for me to carry on following my true emotions. I feel horrible about everything that has happened yet I can't bring myself to stop loving her; it's not possible."
"It never will be," he told me, "You're her soul mate. I could see it in her eyes and I can see it in yours. She has never felt this strongly about me even if she tries to make herself believe that she ever did. Jasper, if what you're looking for is my blessing, you have it. I can't say I'm going to be ok or happy, or that I won't sometimes break down and get furious at your thoughts. In my head she will always be mine, but I want you to know that when my head is thinking clearly, I'm ok with it."
"Oh Edward," I replied, "I'm sorry."
"I was a jerk Jasper," he told me, "I deserved it. Thank you for saving her from me. I think you should go check up on her now. You were meaning to do that before I interrupted."
"Edward," I said, "You will never cease from being my brother, no matter what happens."
"I know. Same goes to you," he replied. I hugged him in as manly a way as I could and then I dashed off to Bella's house. Her window was open and I climbed into it. As soon as I entered the room, a pang of worry hit me like thunder. I heard her sniffle and I could tell that she was crying. I wanted to hold her in my arms and never let her go. So I moved at a human pace and walked up to her bed, and slowly, I got on it and lay down beside her.

Bella's POV

I felt a pair of cold arms wrapping themselves around me. And I knew by the touch, to whom they belonged.
"Jasper," I whispered. I felt relief bubbling from deep inside me. I turned around to face my wonderful god-like lover.
"You came," I said, "You came to me. Thank you Jasper." I wrapped my own arms around him and buried my face in his chest. I knew I was going to mess up his shirt with my tears but I also knew that he wouldn't mind.
"Don't cry sweet darlin'" he told me, "Tell me what's bothering you so badly."
A wonderful warmth enveloped me as he let his natural accent take over and as his lovely voice wrapped itself around me.

"I'm so scared," I managed to say, "I'm so scared of being alone, so scared that I'm doing something wrong Jazz. I'm afraid that I'm moving on too fast, because I know that you're no rebound. You're the one Jasper, and I'm not sure why I moved on so fast."
"Maybe it was meant to be sweet pea," he told me, "You don't need to be afraid of anything. And just so you know, Edward gave us his blessing. I know it's harder to be mad at him now, but you deserve to know."
"I know Jasper," I replied, "Thank you for being so honest with me. You truly are one of a kind. He used to keep so many things from me, he lied so much. You're different Jazz. And he's nothing when compared to you. And that's what I feel bad about. I'm not used to feeling this way about people. And it feels wrong to think of him that way. He used to be the reason I carried on, and now it's like he never existed; just like he had promised me in vain before he left me last September."
"Oh Bella," he told me, "These things just happen sometimes. You either accept it or you try to go back to the way things were." A sense of fear spiked up and I knew that he was projecting it without knowing.
"Jasper," I said, "Don't be afraid. I won't leave you. Ever."
"I know darlin'. And for the record, you look really beautiful with your face so red, but I really hate it when you cry sweet pea."

And as he planted a soft kiss on my hair, I drifted off to sleep in his wonderful arms.

Jasper's POV

She was talking in her sleep. I could feel confusion and pain flowing from her heart. There was also a lot of love.
"Edward," she suddenly said. I couldn't help but to let sadness take over me. So she loved him still? But …
"No Edward don't!" Was she dreaming of him leaving her again? Was he still that important to her? Well, I didn't blame her; she had just broken up with him, but she had said that she loved me, but why was she feeling love towards him.
"No Edward, not Jasper."

Not me? I could feel my dead heart breaking into pieces. How could Bella do this to me? She was openly rejecting me for him. And yet, I loved her with all I had. I wouldn't leave her. I would never leave her. She could kick me out of her life but I would love her until I turned to ashes, maybe even after that if Carlisle was right about our soul.

"Not him. No Edward, please. Don't…not him…please Edward. I'll go with you. Not him." Every word made my heart break and I couldn't take it. I had to get out of this room. I would come and see her again in the morning, but I couldn't take the love she was emitting from her very soul, love she claimed was for Edward. Her subconscious was speaking for her during her dream, and clearly I did not hold the place in her heart which I had previously believed that I held. I had to get out of there. I planted a soft kiss on her forehead and lay her down gently and I sped off into the forest, back to the clearing where we had shared our first kiss.

Bella's POV

I was in the clearing again with Jasper and we had just shared yet another amazing kiss. I loved him so much and I would never stop. I didn't care if it was wrong; I wanted him more than I had ever wanted anything else in my entire life.

Edward appeared out of nowhere and he was furious. His eyes were a pitch black and I knew that he was not thirsting for blood; just for revenge.
"Edward," I said.
"Stop Bella," he told me, "Let me deal with him." He was suddenly at our side and he had grabbed Jasper and slammed him against a tree.
"No Edward don't!" I shouted. He looked at me and then he turned back to his brother, the love of my life, and bit him on his shoulder. Tears started rolling down my cheeks.
"No Edward, not Jasper!" I said.
"He took you away from me," Edward said, "he took you away. I want you back. And in order to do that, someone has got to get hurt." He was looking at Jasper, almost biting him again and I walked up to them and tugged on Edward's sleeve. He looked down on me and I opened my mouth to speak.
"Not him. No Edward, please. Don't…not him…please Edward. I'll go with you. Not him."

"You still love me," Edward said as he let Jasper drop to the floor. I looked into my lover's beautiful golden eyes that matched so well with his beautiful golden hair and then I looked up into the stranger's deep black eyes.
"No Edward, I don't. I love Jasper," I told him, "But I won't let you do this. Take me, do whatever you want with me. Force me into marriage, never change me, I don't care. As long as you never touch Jasper."
And I looked into my lover's beautiful Southern eyes for one last time, before Edward's teeth sunk into my throat and sucked the life out of me. I woke up in a night sweat, with tears rolling down my cheek. I was in my room, alone again. Where had Jasper gone? I needed to see him. The dream had been too real; I had to make sure that he wasn't hurt. I looked at the alarm clock on my bedside table. It was three in the morning. I knew where Jasper would be if he had wanted time alone. He didn't need to hunt; of that I was sure. Right before I slept, his eyes had been as golden as ever. But maybe he had wanted some time to think, and I knew I would find him at that special clearing; the clearing from my dream. I jumped out of bed and threw off my shorts and my tank top. I folded them and placed them at the end of my bed and then I grabbed the first pair of jeans and t-shirt that I could find, locked the door to my room from the inside to prevent Charlie from finding my room empty and walked to the window. It was quite a long way down; for a klutz like me anyway, but I needed to do this. I imagined myself cliff diving, and I jumped down the distance, Edward and Jacob and now Jasper had jumped down before me. I knew I had twisted my ankle the moment my feet hit the ground, but I couldn't stop. I had to make sure that Jasper was ok; that I had not done anything to upset him, and I ran with my foot in unbearable pain, but I ran like my life depended on it.

Jasper's POV

I knew that I would be crying, had I been able to, but I wasn't able to so I couldn't cry. I just let the pain and sadness take over me like an illness and I looked up at the stars, thinking about the girl I loved. I would never let anything or anyone hurt her, but I would allow her to hurt me even if it meant the end of me. I loved her, and nothing she said or did with Edward or with anyone else could change the way I felt about her. Edward had been wrong; she didn't love me the way she had loved him because she loved me more; she only loved me differently because she loved me less – maybe not at all. He had mistaken the look in her eyes for something completely different. All of a sudden, I could make out a faint heartbeat in the distance, somewhere within the forest. And there was a lot of concern and love coming from the source of the said heartbeat. I wondered who it could be. Bella was still at home, dreaming peacefully and happily about her Edward. It couldn't be a wolf, could it? Maybe it would tear me to shreds, and save her the trouble of telling me how she really felt. I would lie and tell them that I bit a human and they could kill me. The heartbeat was increasing in frequency and intensity. I knew the person was getting closer and more anxious and he or she was headed directly for the clearing. Perfect. I felt release taking over.

Bella's POV

My heart was beating erratically. I could feel pain and sadness being emitted from somewhere within the forest. Jasper…he was the only one I knew who could project his feelings. What had I done? Or had it been someone else? No, it was probably my doing. I was already feeling sorry for whatever I had said or done to make him feel this way. He was my love, the one, and I couldn't let him feel like this. I needed to make him feel better, to make everything ok. I ran desperately on my injured foot, towards the clearing and the emotions became stronger. A sense of release suddenly appeared from within the sadness and pain. I ran harder than I had ever run before.

Jasper's POV

I looked behind me , expecting to see a Quileute boy in the process of morphing into a wolf before ripping me to shreds, but what I saw was a very beautiful, concerned and worried Bella running as fast as she could to get to me. But she was supposed to be asleep, dreaming of the wonderful Edward. Was I imagining things?

And then Bella screamed, and I lost sight of her, and if my heart had been beating in the first place, I would say that at that moment, my heart stopped beating. Bella, no!

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