A.N. Sorry for the ultra long wait, but I've had so much to do lately and my mind has been preoccupied with all sorts of things. So I hope this will make it up to you. Another dedication towards my awesome friend James who is reading and loving this fic :)

Chapter 16: Talking

Bella's POV

Wait, Edward? "Edward; what are you doing here?"
"Bella," he said, his musical voice close to human in comparison to Jasper's, "Alice saw you and I had to come. I couldn't just leave you here waiting for yourself to die. You were eventually going to die. She wanted to come here and is in fact on her way but I came here faster."

"You didn't have to do that Edward," I replied, "I'm not a part of your family anymore. Jasper even removed my necklace when he left."

"What exactly happened?" he asked me.

"I'm pregnant Edward," I replied.

"You're what?"

"Pregnant. And Jasper thinks I have cheated on him, but I haven't. He's the only person I have been with."

"But we can't…"

"Apparently you can," I told him, "He thinks I cheated on him with Jacob, but I would never do that."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes, Edward," I replied, "So you don't believe me either?"

"No I do," he replied, "But it's so difficult to explain. We have to explain this to Jasper."

"He doesn't want to see me, ever." With that, the tears started rolling down my cheeks again.

"Bella, don't cry. I'm going to make things right again, I promise," he told me.

"But I want Jasper to make things right. I've told you a million times that all we can be is best friends."

"That's all I'm going to give you," he replied, "I am not going to intrude. I am going to be your friend and nothing else, but I will be a shoulder to cry on and you can rely on me until we get Jasper back. Alice has started looking for him but his mind is flashing from one situation to another. He knows how to avoid her visions."

"This is bad," I told him, "Really bad. What am I going to do?"

"The first thing you have to do is to come with me so that I can take you to see Carlisle. He might know what has happened and what to do about it."

"Ok," I replied.

Edward and I talked all night long. He told me about Alaska and I told him about college to try and get my mind off of things.

"So," I said, "Have you found anyone else you're interested in?"

Judging from the look in his eyes, I could have sworn he would have blushed if he could. He slowly nodded and smiled slowly at me.

"Alice," he told me. I could feel a smile forming on my face. Happiness filled my heart and for a moment my sorrow was partially forgotten. I wrapped my arms around him and congratulated him.

"I am so happy for you," I told him, "Does she know?"

"Of course she knows," he replied, "She saw me falling for her and telling you. She feels the same; I've read her mind!"

"Stop prying around people's brains," I told him, "You're going to be one gifted couple." He smiled at me.

"Well…" he told me, "She wanted to see your reaction before we became a couple. After seeing you when Jasper left, she said she didn't want to risk us upsetting you but I had to tell you how I felt."

"I'm ok with all of it," I replied, "Jasper's going to be the only one for me…until I die…which I will; since I have no purpose to become one of you any longer."

Edward hugged me and held me while I silently cried and in the morning, Alice arrived and I hugged her so hard I almost crushed my arms around her marble waist.

"Gosh I am so happy for you," I told her. She smiled at me and held me close to her and then all three of us went to the car downstairs and drove to the airport. The plane ride was excruciating. I remembered being on a plane with Jasper on our way here. All of the precious memories I had came rushing through my mind and the moment he left me got stuck there; like an image embedded into my brains and it wouldn't go away. I didn't want to burden Alice and Edward so I bit back my tears. Alice scowled at me for doing that but I decided not to cry anyway. When we arrived in Seattle, we got into a car which seemed to have been brand new and was probably stolen, and sped off towards Forks. Alice used the hidden routes to avoid anyone noticing me. I didn't want my dad to know yet or perhaps not at all.

When I saw the Cullen residence, happiness and pain flooded through me. I was happy because I was going to see the rest of my adopted family but I knew that one of them would be missing; Jasper. And I wanted him so badly. I missed him and I needed him. I needed his arms around me, holding me and keeping me safe. I needed his love enveloping me. But I knew it wouldn't be there so I started to try and resign myself to my fate. But I couldn't. Not now, and not ever.

Esme was the first to hug me when I entered the house. Alice must have called them. And Rosalie followed. I knew they would be crying if they could, but they couldn't so they weren't. Emmett was next in line. He looked at me with sad puppy dog eyes and I couldn't help but to hold him close to me and cry on his shoulder. He stroked my hair and kissed me on top of my head and then he told me that he wouldn't let anything happen to me ever. Alice grabbed my hand and we went up to Carlisle's office.

"Bella," he told me, "How are you feeling?"
"Horrible," I told him, "But I'm happy that I have seen all of you. I thought you wouldn't want me anymore because of Jasper. He took my necklace and automatically kicked me out of your family.

"You will always be a part of our family Bella, no matter what."

"Thank you Carlisle."

"So," he said, "Will you tell me exactly what you felt?"

"Well," I replied, "it was the usual symptoms of pregnancy; morning sickness and all of that stuff…so I went to a doctor and he made me try out pregnancy tests and they were positive."

"I see," he told me, "Well I phoned up some old vampire friends and apparently there have been rare cases like you; very rare though. There's no saying of how things will go. You have to eat healthily and relax. Especially after we remove the…child…"

"What? No! We can't do that," I told him, "I can't remove the only thing Jasper and I still have together. No. I love him. And I love this thing inside of me."

"Bella," he told me, "It could easily kill you. All past cases resulted in the mother's death. We can't let that happen to you."

"I don't care," I replied, "I would rather die than kill Jasper's child. No."

"Oh Bella," he told me, "You are so stubborn. What will it take to get you to agree?"

"Nothing will get me to agree," I replied.

"Very well," he told me, "Then we will try to find out ways to prevent both losses. How does that sound?"

"Much better," I replied.

That evening, I stayed in the living room and had a chat with Rosalie. She said she would do anything to be in my position and I told her that once the baby was born, if I died, she could raise him or her for me and if I didn't, she could help me. She was overjoyed. I had found a true sister in Rosalie and I loved her deeply. She said she loved Jasper with all of her heart but that she was mad at him for not giving me a chance to explain things to him. I told her I still loved him with all of my heart too and that I would never stop.

There was not much explaining to do. Everybody believed me when I said I had never been with anyone else. But now there was someone I needed to call, and that call was not going to be very pretty…

Jacob…

Jasper's POV

I hugged my knees close to myself. I was starving. Hiding in alleyways all night long and all morning was not proving to be good for me. There were no animals to feed on; all the cats were ill and with tainted blood. And I couldn't go back to feeding on people. I knew Alice was searching for me; I just knew it, and I was doing my best to avoid her visions. I was constantly moving around like a nomad; a very hungry nomad. My next stop would have to be somewhere where there were a lot of animals. Perhaps I should go to Canada next.

But my hunger wasn't the most unbearable thing of all. It was the pain…it felt like I had taken what was left of my dead heart and my missing soul and ripped them out and left them back at our apartment near Dartmouth. I had left them with her. I wondered how Jacob had taken it. I was sure he would be taking care of her; Jacob was a great guy and a great friend to her. And I knew he was deeply in love with her even though he had never told her. Well I hoped they were happy, even though I wasn't.

I needed to hold her just once more, to feel her lips against mine and to touch that beautiful brown hair of hers. I needed her. I would have helped her with the child; I really would have, but it wasn't my place to do that. It would have been selfish of me.

But I wished I had been selfish. I wanted to go back to her.

But no, I had to stay here and suffer because she deserved to be happy with him. I remembered her heartbreak when I left – the way she was broken and sad. But I knew that once she saw the reality of her situation, she would be grateful that I had left her gracefully to go to her real lover.

I just wished that her real lover was me. I sobbed silently while invisible and non-existent tears subconsciously rolled down my stone hard cheeks.

Bella's POV

Every night I dreamt of Jasper and every night I woke up crying and screaming. Every night I saw him leave me over and over again. It was like a tape that was being replayed in my head mercilessly. I hadn't called Jacob. Neither him nor my father knew I was here. I was staying hidden inside the Cullen home. Three weeks had passed since I had found out, which made me about six weeks pregnant. I was still not showing. Carlisle took this as a sign that it was going to be a normal human pregnancy. I wondered if the child would look like Jasper; I hoped so, because he was so beautiful while I was just a common freak.

So that morning I woke up and decided that I had to call Jacob. I dialed the familiar number which I hadn't dialed in ages. He finally answered. His voice was rough and deep which meant that he had been sleeping.

"Jake?" I asked softly.

"Bells, is that you?" he asked. There was so much joy in his voice. I didn't want to ruin it, but I had to tell him; I owed him that much.

"Yeah," I replied.

"How are you Bells? How's Jasper?"

"I don't know Jake. I don't know how he is…"

"What do you mean; did you guys break up or something?" he said. There was so much concern in his voice, I almost started to cry.

"Yes Jake," I replied.

"Why?" he asked.

"Jake…I'm pregnant."

A.N. Ok, hope you liked that :) Wanted to leave you with a Cliffy. Hope you liked the little bit of sneak peak into Jasper's situation and hope you understand that he's in as much pain as Bella is even though he self-imposed it without knowing. So read and review, and next chapter will be uploaded so much faster :)