A.N.: Sorry for the long wait but I've had a lot on my mind lately. Thank you for the wonderful reviews :) And the baby is not going to be like Renesmee. It's something I made up myself :)

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Chapter 17 : Jacob Black

Bella's POV

His breathing became shallower and I could easily hear the tremor in his voice.

"You're what?" he suddenly exploded, "How can you be pregnant? They're dead…sterile!"

"I know," I replied, "Which is why Jasper thought that I had cheated on him…with you…"

"How could you get pregnant Bella? You're 18!"

"I know," I replied, "It's not like I wanted it to happen."

"You're reckless; you should have been more careful."

I broke down at that moment and couldn't stop crying.

"I'm sorry I made you cry," he said as he calmed down, "I should be ashamed. I should be supporting you not shouting at you. Have you told Charlie?"

"Not yet," I replied, "And I don't plan on telling him either."

"What do you mean?" he asked, "he's your dad. You have to tell him. What will you do when he asks you to visit him on Christmas?"

"I don't know; I'm so confused!"

"Why don't you just come here so that we can talk properly?" he asked.

"I can't. I have a Cullen inside me; I can't cross the line. We can meet halfway. At that clearing where you destroyed Victoria and the newborns. Do you remember?"

"Yeah," he told me, "I'll be there in a few." We hung up and I went to my room which used to be Alice and Jasper's. I picked out a loose blue skirt which went down to my knees, a comfortable loose blue shirt and a white jacket. My belly was slowly expanding. I had been pregnant for seven weeks already by now. It appeared to be quite a normal pregnancy. I had the usual symptoms; morning sickness, cravings (mostly for chocolate), and my breasts were growing as well as my belly. I brushed my hair and went downstairs.

"Esme, I'm going out to meet Jake ok? I'll be back in a few hours," I said to my adoptive almost-mother.

"Ok dear," she said. She handed me a silver phone, "Call us if you need anything."

"Ok, thanks," I replied. I hugged her and walked outside into the woods. It was quite a walk; fifteen minutes, but I took it easy and welcomed the fresh air. As soon as I arrived, I saw the figure of my best friend anxiously waiting. He was sitting down on a log, tapping his feet anxiously and running a hand through his hair. The moment I walked into the clearing, he stood up and rushed over to my side. He wrapped his arms around me and hugged me softly.

"I won't hug too hard, don't worry. I don't want to hurt you," he said. Tears were streaming down my cheeks. Every time I remembered, I started to cry. He stroked my hair and held me close until I calmed down.

"Ok," he told me, "Now…what happened exactly with Jasper?"

"Well, you know we…"

"Not that part Bella! I meant after it happened…"

"Oh," I replied. I could feel the skin on my face and neck turning crimson with embarrassment.

"I," I continued, "I thought I was sick. He was out hunting. So I went to a doctor but he had me try out two pregnancy tests and they both came out positive. At first I couldn't believe it, but apparently male vampires still have the ability to conceive a child with a human. Just not the female vampires. When Jasper came home, he knew none of this. He thought I had cheated on him with you and he left me like that. I feel so lost without him. Edward came to take care of me, only as a friend; he's seeing Alice now. And Carlisle is monitoring my condition."

"Has this ever happened before?"

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"This type of…mating I guess. Has it ever happened before? Does the doctor know anything about it?"

"He called up some friends and carried out some research. It appears that it has occurred but the human mother always died."

"We can't let that happen!" he shouted, "No way!"

"Stop," I replied, "Don't say anymore. He's been trying to convince me to remove the child but I won't; even if they force me to. I will kill myself if they take it away from me, I swear. So instead, he's doing his best to find a way of keeping me alive."

"Bella," Jacob whispered, "The truth is I didn't want to shout so I'm sorry. I just can't bear the thought of losing you. I can't bear the thought of imagining you dead. I just can't. You're my best friend; I can't lose you like I lost my mother."

"You won't lose me, and even if you did…you have to be prepared. As long as you're phasing, you won't age and I will continue becoming older until I finally die."

"I can stop phasing any time I want," he told me.

"No you can't. You're supposed to be alpha and are currently beta. You're one of the best they have. I can't have you stop phasing. I'm going to die someday anyway."

"Bella," he told me, "I would stop phasing for you. You know that."

"I don't want you to," I replied, "I mean, what if I die after giving birth? You would have stopped phasing for nothing."

"You won't die," he told me, "Look…as long as you stay at least partially alive…as long as you exist…they can change you and the pack will have no problem with it."

"Isn't that really up to Sam though?" I asked.

"If he doesn't back off, I will take my position as alpha and they will have to listen," he told me.

"And why should I want to be changed? Since Jasper doesn't want anything to do with me any longer, I can't bear to live forever."

"Bella! How could you say that? I'm your best friend and the Cullens seem to love you…"

"Since when are you on their side?" I asked.

"I'm not! But I don't want you to die, regardless of what it may cost me."

"Oh Jake!" I wrapped my arms around him again. We talked for a while about the situation and then he tried to take my mind off of things and told me that Seth and Leah Clearwater had broken into a fever and would be expected to start phasing pretty soon. He said it was the first time that a girl was going to phase and that it was going to be hard to read her mind for Sam because he knew she still despised Emily and loved and hated him at the same time. I really felt for her. All she had wanted was to be with the person she loved, but he had dumped her because of imprinting.

"When are you going to imprint?" I asked him.

"I don't know," he replied, "I guess the right person hasn't come along yet. I want it and I don't want it at the same time. Cos to have it means to feel love, but to not have it means that I will be free. But I guess I want to find someone to love. Then I'll have to stop phasing for sure though."

"Mmm," I replied, "I don't want you to die while I'm still immortal. Maybe I won't change after all…I have nobody to change for anyway now."

"Don't say that. We'll find him and we'll bring him back so that he can give you a chance to explain. It was very unlike him, what he did."

"I know," I replied, "I know more than you that it was unlike him. But now I'm broken and alone and I don't know whether or not I want to live. I only want to survive because of the baby but apart from that, I don't think I have the motivation to carry on any longer. It's becoming too hard for me to cope Jake. I can't take it anymore."

"Bella," he told me, "Don't do anything stupid."

"I won't," I replied, "Not until I have the baby anyway."

"Even after that," he said, "You will have the baby to live for. Don't you think that it will want its mother? I should know; I was raised without one…"

"Oh Jake!" He wrapped his arm around my shoulder and pulled me close and then he stroked my hair and comforted me. It was the best he could do and I appreciated it.

"I wish you could come to Emily's; she's been asking about you. But you can't cross the line."

"I miss Emily and the pack too," I told him, "And I kind of feel sorry for Leah."

"She doesn't like you very much," he told me, "She thinks you used me when Edward wasn't here but then ran back to him. She also said you're too different to be liked."

"I never used you Jake!"

"I know that," he told me, "I know. You've always kept seeing me even after Edward wouldn't let you. I know you never used me. And I know you never will. And I like you because you are different not in spite of it."

I hugged him as hard as I could without crushing my belly against him.

"You are the world's best friend," I told him.

"I know," he replied, "And I feel smug about it." I punched him lightly on the arm and hurt my fingers in the process but no damage was done.

Esme's cell phone started ringing. I answered.

"Bella dear where are you?" Esme's worried voice breathed into the phone.

"I'm just with Jake," I replied.

"Oh, thank goodness," she told me, "Cos it's been a while and we were getting worried. Make sure he brings you home. It will soon get dark and I don't want you to walk home by yourself."

"Ok Esme," I replied, "I'll make sure he walks me home."

"Thank him for us," she told me.

"I will," I replied. I hung up.

"They trust me," he told me.

"Yeah," I replied, "I mean…why should they not trust you? You've never harmed me or done anything wrong to me or with me. Only Edward was aggressive towards you because he thought you were going to take me away from him. And then Jasper…I think the thought broke his heart. He had grown to love you so much. It felt like a double betrayal to him. I know what led him to believe it though. I mean, he's supposed to be infertile and I'm pregnant. You're the only guy I was alone with. He would have smelt any other guys on me. It was the only reasonable conclusion. He probably didn't want to believe it at first."

"I had grown fond of him too," Jacob said, "But he should have given you a chance to explain. I am very mad at him right now for leaving you this way. If it were me, I would have stayed even if you had cheated on me."

"But that can't happen," I told him, "Cos we're just friends. And anyway…I'm Jasper's forever. I'll never be with someone else as long as I'm alive or existing."

"Don't say that," he told me, "You might find some other vampire who catches your eye."

"That's unlikely," I replied, "I only like vegetarian vampires and the odds of finding another one that's not a Cullen or a Denali are slim to none. And the only Denali male is married."

"Oh don't worry," he told me, "You will find someone. And if you don't; you'll always have your family, the Cullens, and me, your best friend. Jasper will come back to you one day. I'm sure of it."

"I'm not so sure," I replied, "I have given up any hope of him ever coming back. And it breaks my heart knowing how Carlisle, Esme and the rest of the Cullens miss him. Alice and Edward are pretty mad at him because of how he left. Alice said she tried to call him but he didn't answer and when she tried again, she was told that the number didn't exist. He's also hiding from her visions; making last minute decisions which change all the time so she can never be sure where he is."

"He's pretty cunning," Jacob said, "But I don't want to speak badly of him in front of you. I know it hurts you and that's the last thing I want. Don't you think we should tell Charlie?"

"Not yet," I told him, "I'm not ready yet."

"Ok," he said, "I should really take you home then. They seemed to be getting worried. But we can meet any time you want. I'm not going to school any longer so I can come visit you or we could meet here any time you'd like to."

"You have other stuff to do," I told him as we started walking back, "Like running around with the pack and having a life."

"Life is not worth living if I can't live it by my best friend's side," he told me.

"If people knew how close we were, they would think we're in love," I replied.

"Nah," he told me, "You're like a sister to me and even closer than that. It was like fate had us meet. I mean your dad and my dad are best buddies and then what happened with Edward brought you close to me. And I don't ever want to drift away from you. I love you so much."

"Only as a friend I hope," I replied, "I don't want to break any more hearts than I've already broken."

"Of course," he replied, "Only as my closest friend in the world; the one person I know I can trust with anything."

"I love you too," I replied, "And you have no idea of how I appreciate all of this time and energy you are wasting on me."

"I'm not wasting anything," he told me, "I wouldn't have it any other way."

We soon arrived in front of the Cullen home. He hugged me and kissed me on top of my head and as I walked in through the front door, he sprinted back into the woods towards the Quileute Reservation.

Jasper's POV

Every night I wait for something to come and break me to pieces and then set me aflame. I cannot live, think or survive like this any longer. Every thought of mine is consumed with my love and obsession for her; for my beautiful Bella. Why did you do that to me Bella? Why? I loved you and still do with all I have, all I had…

Now I'm lost. And I wait for the death that will never come. I feed on stray animals in the hot Mexican sun as I travel constantly to avoid Alice's visions. I can't risk being too thirsty and killing someone. That wouldn't make her feel proud of me at all.

I wondered how she was doing with Jacob. I hoped he was keeping her happy. Oh well; of that I had no doubt. He always had a way of making her smile when nobody else could.

Had I not despised the Volturi with such a passion, I would have gone and asked them to kill me; but I couldn't sink down to their level and had decided to suffer in silence instead.

So I wait for the death that will never come, as I trudge through the Southern sun with a broken heart, a shattered soul, and sad broken eyes.

Bella…I love you.

A.N.: Ok I hope you enjoyed that :) I hope it was worth the wait anyway! This is one of my favourite chapters so far. In it we see the possibility of Bella being made a bit happier thanks to Jacob again and we see the love Jasper still feels for his one and only. :) Review…please? ^^