Chapter 3- Realization

EPOV

I was absolutely frustrated. Why can I not read her thoughts! It was highly aggravating. After nearly 100 years of hearing what people are thinking whether I want to or not, I had become accustomed to it. But the one time that I really, really needed to hear a human's thoughts…I could not. Not only was it infuriating, it was causing me to think up wild scenarios. What if she is not a human? What if there is something wrong with me?

I was so concentrated on trying to read her thoughts that I had not smelt her blood. After nearly 100 years, I have become pretty used to the smell of human blood. How each person smelled a little bit different to each vampire. How the humans each smelled differently, almost as if their blood was a reflection of their soul or personality. The way my family of vampires' lifestyle, 'vegetarian', was safe for the humans. But Bella, was far from safe.

When she had said good night, I had turned to go to my room to sort things out. There was a lot on my mind. It seemed that in just a few hours my organized dull life had exploded as soon as I met her deep, chocolate, gorgeous brown eyes. Wow, Edward. A little too soon to be saying gorgeous eyes.

I had sat there for a couple of hours, and then I was brought back from my pondering from a slight knock on the door. I said come in very quietly. I knew by my sister's thoughts that it was her knocking on the door. She had been worried about me when Bella and I had left her at her room.

"Edward, are you okay? Is Bella okay?" Alice asked in her quiet musical voice.

"I do not know, Alice. I think Bella is my singer. But it is different. It is almost as if I want to be with her. Like I cannot stand sitting next to her, listening to her blood pulse through her thin veins, but I cannot live without the sound. I know not what to do my sweet sister!" I was flabbergasted that I had gotten it all out. It all seemed so jumbled up inside of me. I felt like a 1 million piece jigsaw puzzle. And when I talked to Alice, it seemed all the pieces just fell in to place and then in to the right words.

"Edward, please don't do anything drastic. Just take things one-step at a time. And please know what you are doing before you do it and mess everything up." She replied.

I knew she did not mean it in a bad way but when she said, "don't mess everything up," but her words lost an effect on me.

"Alice, I have more self-control than that. I will not mess things up."

"Edward, I know that you have self-control. It is just that if Bella is your singer, then there will be some trouble entailed," Alice countered.

"I know, Alice, but the thought of killing her just seems weird to me. My mind does not fit with what my hunger is telling me to do. My hunger says to kill her now, but my mind says, keep her and you will prosper."

"Edward, I know that you are confused. Maybe you should just let the relationship play out between you and her," Alice said.

"Okay, but I do not know what will happen if the Black comes around again. I have just met Bella, but I already felt protective over her. There is no way I am going to let those 'dogs' be around her."

"Okay, Edward. Just remember to stay calm and not do anything drastic. Don't let your temper get out of control."

"Thank you, Alice."

"Good night, Edward." She was almost out of the room when she asked, "Do you think I should check on Bella?"

"No, she will be fine. She went right to sleep after she told me exactly what she should have. She is just trying to stay neutral even though she absolutely no idea what goes on between the Blacks and us."

"Well, that is good Edward. You might want to keep it that way."

"I think it will, Alice. Thank you."

"Mhm." With that, Alice pranced silently out of the dorm. I did not even hear the door shut. But I did not need to.

I had come to a realization. Bella was going to be as dangerous to me as I was to her. And that said a lot. Especially considering I was the mind reading vampire that could kill her at a moment's notice.

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