I watched you from afar.
Did you know that?
I watched your graceful movements
And watched how you moved in the air with your broom.
When you teased me or was cruel I always went to bed
With a smile.
Because at least I got to see you before I walked off with my friends.
I never meant to get caught in that witches clutches
But it just happened.
And I needed someone to lean on for support.
The redhead was it.
I may admit I fell for her once but I always thought of you.
I longed to hold you and touch you and kiss those
Cherry lips of yours.
The kisses with her felt like nothing I felt no spark.
My stomach always did flip-flops when I saw you look at me.
With those cool steel gray eyes.
I always wondered how you could be so smug around everyone
And act as if they don't really matter.
It made me feel so empty and hallow.
I never new what the word 'love' meant.
But when I found it in you...
You were far gone with Pansy and I was with that Weaselet
That's when I tried to forget you...
Forget your body.
Forget your looks.
Forget your smug smile.
And most importantly forget those gray eyes.
But the more I tried the more I wanted you.
It seems funny but I never really hated you
For those cruel words you said to me.
It made me want you more and more.
But I had to act tough for the golden trio
I never meant those words I said to you never.
It always tore me up inside when I said such awful things.
But I did that because I had to delude my friends into thinking
That I hated you.
That I wanted nothing more then to punch your
Face in.
I tried to move on and forget you.
But when I saw you on the Hogwarts platform holding hands with Pansy
My heart stopped and my breathing slowed.
It was like a thousand knives were thrusted into my stomach.
It was that painful. And when I locked eyes with you I faked a smile
And looked away hoping and praying you didn't see that one single tear
Slide down my cheek.
I hated myself for not fighting for you and now here I was with
Ginny and our children.
And I new that from that last look we gave each other.
I new that I finally lost you and I couldn't forgive myself.
I should have fought for you instead of let you slip
From my grasps.
But I didn't want to make you unhappy.
Or have your life extra complicated.
You had your family and I had mine.
We were both happy right?
Did you know I watched you from afar?
That I fell heads-over-heels in love with you?
But when I saw you with her.
My heart was shattered and
I died...