here's the next chapter. sorry it's taken so long. hope you enjoy
I wish you knew
Twenty things Remus Lupin always wanted to say or do...but died before he could
1. When he was young, he wanted to ask his father exactly what he did to piss Fenrir Greyback off.
2. There was a time, he thinks it was like second year or maybe third, that he wanted to kiss Alice.
It had to be third year-she was already going out with Frank
3. He can't remember if he ever told his parents 'thank you' for not giving him up
4. Before the sorting, he really wanted to be sorted into Hufflepuff, but by the time it got to his name, Sirius Black had been sorted into Gryffindor, and he just had to get to know that boy.
5. After Lily and James died, he tried to get custody of Harry. When they told him that he wasn't allowed, he almost told them to screw themselves, but he didn't want to join Sirius in Azkaban.
6. He wanted to join the other boys in learning to be an animagus, but didn't have the guts
7. There was a time in his life, just before the end of the war, when he really wished James hadn't saved Severus
8. "James, Sirius, SHUT UP!"
9. He had absolutely no regrets when it came to his friends- he was glad he had them as long as he did.
Excepting, of course the whole 'blame Sirius for what Peter did' thing, that he will never forgive himself for
10. He never went to Ireland...if he had had the money; he would have loved to go
11. "What possessed us when we thought we could create a map of the entire school, and forget to put in the Room of Requirement?"
12. He was more afraid of falling in love with Dora than he was when the other Marauders found out he was a werewolf.
He wishes he had remembered how both times worked out, because he's pretty sure both of them ended in a pillow fight… or ten.
13. "You know Sirius, sometimes I forget he isn't James too" it was the truth.
14. For some reason, he felt more betrayed when he found out it was Peter than when he thought it was Sirius, he wishes he knew why
15. "Dora, I'm absolutely terrified that I'm going to hurt you, or you're going to leave me, and I can't let that happen"
16. He knew Harry the first time he saw him, even before he saw his eyes, his scar or his glasses- he was another eleven year old James, and he wished more than anything else that he had gone over to say hello with the rest of the Leaky Cauldron.
17. "you really think you can do this alone, Harry? Because your dad did too..."
18. When he left for Hogwarts that night for the battle, he knew he was going to die. He wished he knew how
19. "Remus, I love you. Stay here, don't go fight." "I have to. For Harry" what she didn't hear was the-"for you. For Teddy"
20. Every year, around the tenth or so of June, he made his way to Godric's Hollow to see Lily and James. Every second Tuesday of the Month, unless there was a full moon around that day, he went to St. Mungo's to visit Frank and Alice. Every First of September, he went to platform 9 3/4. But he only once ever went back to the Shrieking Shack, and he never regretted that action.