As my twenty-first birthday present to you all, after half a lifetime of obsession and Fanfiction, I present to you one of my favorite characters to work with.
 Because she died so young, I have chosen to do things a bit differently than with the others.

On that note and without further ado I do proudly present to you my loving readers…

I wish you knew

Twenty-one things Lily Evans Potter once did, would have done if she hadn't died or wanted to do before said death

1. When she was young, she wanted her and Petunia to grow old in houses right next door to each other. She wanted to be married with fifteen children and a cat. When she was little she wanted her life to be perfect.

2. If November seventh had come around that year, she would have found out that she was pregnant. She would have gone to the doctor and eventually found out that she was having a girl.
If November seventh had come around that year, she would have been one step closer to having the family that she always dreamed of.

3. When she first met Severus, she really just wanted to run home with Tuney, but she was eventually glad she hadn't.

4. If she had had the chance, she would have introduced Petunia to Remus before Tuney had the chance to meet Vernon. She always thought he was the reason Tuney stopped trying to talk to her.

5. "Remus, keep and eye out for Peter for me would you? He seems a bit lonely" she said one time in sixth year. When he responded with something along the lines of "I wish I could but we're going to throw a box of Filibuster's Fireworks in the lake and see what happens" she almost smacked him.
Five years later, when Voldemort knocked down her front door and it occurred to her that Peter was the traitor, oh god did she wish that she had gone through with that smack.

6. There had once been a time, way back in fourth year, when all she wanted to do was lock herself in one of the broom closets with either James or Sirius (or sometimes both) and snog the hell out of one of them.
Years later, when she told this story at a Christmas party for the Order while James was off on a mission, Sirius asked if she still wanted to and she locked him in the closet with Fabian Prewitt. He never looked at her the same way again.

7. She was ready to say yes to James on the first day of sixth year. When he didn't ask her out at all she wondered why. Part of her wondered if he really was just messing her around.

8. If James hadn't asked her when he did, she would have asked him out.

9. Her best friend was in love with Sirius Black. Said self-claimed best friend was also Potter's cousin. When she was twelve that was a nightmare. When she was fourteen, it was amusing because Taryn had super blackmail on all four of the boys. When she was fifteen going on sixteen, it was pure torture, because she didn't know if she hated or loved Potter.
When said best friend died just after Christmas in sixth year, she almost let herself forget that she didn't like potter.

10. She absolutely loved the order. Years after she was gone, during a late night chat between friends and family, Remus and Sirius compared her to Molly Weasley for Tonks- she was the mother hen at only twenty years old, and she loved everything about it.

11. James asked her one time when planning their wedding where she wanted to go for the honeymoon- she told him she didn't care as long as they were together.
They ended up going to a Quidditch match in Nepal and she spent the whole time wishing she didn't love him so damn much.

12. If she had made it to December that year, Petunia might have shown up on her front porch at midnight with her one year old Dudley in her arms and a suitcase at her feet. She might have invited her in out of the cold and given her some soup for dinner with a warm bottle for Dudley. Petunia might have told her she was sorry for being an idiot and asked if she could stay with them while trying to get back on her feet.
If she had made it to December that year, she might have had her sister back

13. As it was, there was one time after Hogwarts when she almost got along with Petunia again. She was eighteen and her parents had just died in a car accident. When she and James got to the funeral, Petunia just hugged her for all she was worth saying that she was sorry and asking how the trip from Scotland was. Lily smiled at her through the tears and said that everything was okay before going to say hello to a friend of the family. When she looked back, James and Petunia were talking. James never told her why but Petunia ran away crying shortly after and James said he had to leave for a second.
What she never knew was that James was asking for Petunia's blessing-she gave it to him and then went to cry.

14. While she loved the order, she did NOT love everyone in it. There were many times when she wanted to curse that paranoid son of a …Moody…to Azkaban and back for the way he treated her husband and his friends.
When he came to her house one night at two in the morning to tell her that James was in the hospital for "failing to practice 'constant vigilance'" she almost lost it- screaming at him from the bedroom while she put robes on and got ready to go see her husband with whom she still wasn't quite sure what was wrong.
When she found out how he handled the death of the Prewitt brothers, she smacked the older man so hard his fake eye came out. When she found out why he handled it that way, she almost started crying.

15. When James' parents died bairly a month after his birthday, she was afraid to tell him, knowing how close he was to the two of them. She mentioned something to Caradoc instead and when James came home that night, he said, "Mad-eye told me, don't worry." Before going upstairs to what would soon be the baby's room. The next time she saw Moody, she hugged him.

16. While she never told James this, she was more upset about his parents' passing than she was about her own. She always felt like she had to pretend around her family, but the Potters loved her for who she was- the girl that made their only son the happiest man in the world. She almost wished she hadn't gone into labor at their funeral.

17. If she would have been alive when Harry started school, she would have probably killed the boy for being so damn reckless.
Though to be fair she probably would have killed Albus and Severus along the way.

18. When she was in school, her favorite teacher was always Slughorn. He just always knew what to say to make her feel better.
But the year after she graduated, as she made her way to her first ever Order meeting after her parents funeral, she saw Minerva McGonnagall standing in Benjy Fenwick's living room with a glass of wine in her hand, actually smiling at her. The older woman had let her cry on her shoulder for hours after she found out about Taryn in sixth year and that night Minerva sat next to her and handed her a handkerchief when she thought no-one noticed her crying.

19. When she found out that her son was marked for death, although she was known for being a bit of a crier, Lily didn't shed a single tear.
No, instead she got piss drunk with her husband and his friends and ended up getting into a 'charms duel' with Bellatrix Lestrange and Narcissa Black. Apparently, it was all in good fun though- she woke up with blue hair and pink skin.

20. She never doubted her friends. She wanted even less than James to believe that a member of the order was a spy. But when it came down to it, Lily Evans-Potter was smart (she wasn't head girl for nothing) and she knew that if someone had to betray the Order, it was most likely to be one of the Marauders.
With that said, she still almost killed Sirius for saying he thought it was Remus and vise-versa. If she had been thinking straight, the answer would have been clear to her and, maybe then, she wouldn't have died.

21. "James you're a bleeding idiot!" came to mean "I love you",
"You'd better hope that comes out of those robes!" came to mean "I'm not asking where you were but you had better kiss me before I hit you with a frying pan and feed you to Moony",
"WHAT THE HELL WERE YOU AND SIRIUS THINKING!" came to mean "Run. I'm getting my wand and I have a new spell to try out",
But through all of that, she knew that James knew she loved him, and she knew he loved her. And for Lily, that was always more than enough.

I hope you enjoyed this one. I think I like it. Tell me what you think and I'll try to get another chapter up before the end of the month.

Also, I'm thinking of making part of this chapter into a story. If I were to do that, what number or numbers do you think i should use?

I always apreciate feedback, so thanks in advance for any that you can think of,

Aliey