-1Finn was laying on his bed with his hands behind his head and his feet hanging over the end of his bed just thinking about everything that happened in the past week. He was on his holiday vacation for Christmas; a holiday that he use to look forward to, but ever since the tree farm incident with Rachel on Wednesday he wasn't really in the mood to celebrate Christmas. He was so mad at her, he just couldn't understand how she could do this to him. After everything he's been through the past year with the whole Puck and Quinn thing he thought he deserved to be happy for a change. He felt as if it was inevitable that he was bound to be miserable and screwed over by girls.

He was roused from his thoughts by a knock at the door. Although he wasn't really in the humour for company he felt he should make an effort, after all it was Christmas time. 'Come in!' The invitation came out a bit harsher than he meant, but lately he was finding it hard to hide his emotions. He nearly cried the other day after football practice when he went to his gym locker and found an old note from Rachel. At the moment that note was under his pillow so he was close to her in someway.

Kurt opened the door and just stood there in the doorway looking at him as if he was afraid he was going to get the head chopped off him. He was looking forward to catching up with Finn, but if he was in such a sour humour he wasn't sure if he still wanted to. He decided to take his chances.

'Hey Finn, everything okay?' He took this opportunity to sit down on the computer chair Finn had at the computer desk he had in his room.

Finn didn't even bother to look up as he answered with a dejecting 'No!'

'What's wrong; is Rachel still angry with you over the whole sleeping with Santana thing?'

Finn sat up so he could actually see Kurt and propped himself up against his head board. 'No, actually I broke up with her. She kissed Puck to get back at me and I'm not ready to forgive her for it yet.'

'WOW! How come all the interesting stuff happens when I'm not there anymore?' Kurt received an icy glare from Finn when he said this.

'Yeah well I don't see why all the bad stuff has to happen to me all the time. God! I really thought Rachel was one of those good, nice, sweet girls. Sure she's definitely selfish and conceited as well but I honestly thought she loved me. Then she thinks after a couple of weeks I'm just going to be ready to forgive her. What she did was just mean. She knew how sensitive I was about Puck after the whole Quinn baby thing and she went off purposely to hurt me. I guess I never really knew her.' Finn stopped his rant when he saw the look on Kurt's face. 'What's that face for?'

'This face is because I can't believe the words that are coming out of your mouth. Did you ever say any of this to Rachel's face?' Kurt asked Finn really praying the answer would be no.

'Of course I told her I was annoyed about the kiss. I think she gets that by the whole break up thing.' Finn was kinda annoyed with Kurt. Finn was confused as to why Kurt was still looking at him like he was the fool when it was obvious that Kurt was the one who wasn't keeping up with the story.

'God and she's trying to get you back? She must really love you.' Kurt said absolutely shell shocked that his new step brother would actually say to his girlfriends face that she was selfish and conceited.

'I didn't do anything wrong. I wasn't with her when I slept with Santana. I didn't cheat ,she cheated on me. Why are you taking her side?' Finn was fuming with Kurt. He thought brothers were meant to stick together. He obviously had a lot to teach Kurt about the brotherly rule.

'You honestly think you didn't do anything wrong? My god Finn you have to be the worst boyfriend in the history of the world I swear to Gucci, the amount of damage you've caused that girl over the past year is unimaginable and you can't forgive her for one kiss! You don't deserve her.' Kurt was looking at Finn like he had two heads. Finn clearly didn't know how good he had it with Rachel.

'What have I done over the past year that could ever cause her as much pain as I'm in now?'

'Well lets see shall we? Forgetting all the slushies that you threw at her, there was the fact that you kissed her while you were dating Quinn, and after you gave her, her first kiss you ran out of the auditorium and right back into the arms of your girlfriend at the time. You cheated on you're girlfriend again when you went on a date with Rachel to a bowling alley, only for Rachel to find out you were using her for your own selfish means , even then she still came back to Glee to help you out though. You can't possibly imagine what it must have felt like for her to have to sit in Glee and watch you fawn over your pregnant girlfriend and have to sing and dance with you while her heart was breaking. Then when you went and wailed on Puck and told all of us that you were done with us. Rachel was so upset that day; but of course you didn't care. Then the first time you were dating you broke up with her and told her that she wasn't good enough for you and your reputation. You flirted with other girls in front of her and just kept breaking her heart; and when you wanted to get back with her and she had a boyfriend you did everything you could to make her feel bad about it. So then you finally get together again and after she tells you she didn't sleep with Jesse you still lie about sleeping with Santana. You made her feel like crap Finn the whole time you were dating this time round too. You never stood up for her when anyone upset her. You laughed along with Santana when she made fun of the way Rachel looks and you're always telling her she's selfish. She' s given you so many chances it's hard to count and you can't give her one? Honestly?' Kurt finished his rant and let Finn digest what he just said.

'I wasn't that bad was I?' Finn asked with a look of utter shock on his face.

'Worse. I didn't even mention the time when Rachel ran into the bathroom crying after hearing you tell Ms. Pillsbury she had small boobs.'

'She heard that? Oh god I was a terrible boyfriend.'

'Yeah you were so maybe you should make up your mind if you forgive her or not because contrary to what you make her feel she is beautiful, and someone else will snatch her up.'

'I've told her she's beautiful.' Finn answered eager to defend himself.

'Not nearly enough. Finn she has such low self esteem. I mean have you not noticed all the extra weight she's lost? Or the fact that she's ditched all her horrible animal jumpers? She's trying to change herself so you'll think she's hot and beautiful like you think Santana is. Puck always calls her a hot Jew. It's probably the reason she went and kissed him in the first place. She just found out about you and the girl who torturers her and ran to someone who makes her feel hot.'

'How do you know all this actually?'

'Girls talk and they talk to me!' Kurt moved off the chair and walked towards the door.

'Finn I know you're my brother and all but she deserves so much better than you, and maybe you should realise that before she does.'

Finn lay back down on his bed when Kurt left the room and just thought back over what Kurt said, and more that Kurt didn't even know about; like all those times he stood her up for dinner, or the times when he use to ignore her in the halls or bleachers so he wouldn't be associated with her. After about fifteen minutes of thinking he came to the conclusion that he was in fact the worst boyfriend in the history of the world, but the main thing he came to realise was that after all he's done wrong on her; she definitely deserves a second chance.

Finn hopped up off his bed threw his shoes and jacket on and made his way out his door, into his car and over to Rachel's. Kurt was looking out of his window and smiled when he saw Finn peal away in the direction of Rachel's house.

Once he got there he haphazardly parked his car in front of her house and ran up to the door to ring the doorbell. Rachel who had been hanging around the house in a hoody and sweats opened the door with puffy red eyes and shock clearly registering across her face when she saw Finn there. She had spent all day thinking about him and putting away everything that reminded her of him in a box that is now well and truly hidden under a pile of extra blankets in the spare room. It was too painful having anything of his around. She couldn't handle it.

'Finn what are you doing here?' She was hoping he wasn't here to ask for his Finn necklace back as that was under a whole pile of junk in that box and she wasn't in the humour of reopening all the scars she had already had to open today.

'I forgive you Rachel. I still don't think that what you did was nice or fair to me, but I forgive you and I think we should get back together again. You can be my girlfriend again.' Finn said smiling down at her.

Her heart ceased in her chest. If only he had said this on Wednesday or any day before today she would have said yes in a heartbeat and thank all the Broadway Gods for giving her this second chance. However after a day of looking back over her and Finn's relationship she came to the conclusion that he never really loved her. If he loved her he would have forgiven her before now and he never would have made her feel as bad as she felt for the last year. She didn't want to move on she really didn't because she undoubtedly loved him with all her heart; but the problem was her heart wasn't whole anymore. Finn had been chipping away at her heart from the moment he joined Glee and after all the heartache he caused her she just had nothing left to give. She felt as if her heart was just a pile of dust in her chest barely beating.

'That's great that you forgive me Finn. I'm glad; but I don't forgive you.' Rachel said in a small scratchy voice. She was trying to hide the fact that she had spent all day crying, but she knew she wasn't doing a good job.

Finn's smile dropped right off his face from this revelation. This was not the reaction he thought he would get. He thought he would still make it out to be her fault so he didn't draw attention of how shit of a boyfriend he had been. Clearly this was not the direction to go.

'What do you mean? On Wednesday you wanted to get back together.'

'Yeah on Wednesday before you left me at a tree farm with no way of getting home. Wednesday when I had to walk eight miles home as it began to rain and my dads are out of town so I had no lift. Wednesday before I realised you never loved me, because if you did you could never hurt me like you have this past year. I realise I messed up, but you messed up first and I forgave you so many times Finn, so many times. If you even cared for me one bit you wouldn't have left me there on Wednesday with no way to get home and I didn't even have my rape whistle, I was so scared and you didn't even care. So now I'm done caring about you. Happy Christmas Finn, you'll obviously be happier without me.'

With tears streaming down her face she closed the door on him. She hunched down to the ground behind the door as her body was wracked with heart wrenching painful sobs and just let her emotions flow.

This was the last noise Finn heard as he headed towards his car, already coming up with a plan of action to get his girl back and show her how much he cared.