A/N

This the longest chapter so far and took me the longest to writte and I loved it

7. You are not a monster you are family

Jake's hot hand ran upward from its place pressed against my heart to the side of my neck his long fingers curling around to the back. His hand caught in a spiral of hair that had escaped from my bun and I felt his fingers play with it. I sighed and tried to fight back the desire rising up in me. But I lost. His warm lips fightet for control and i let him win as much as i loved Jacob i wanted to be on top. I turn him over so i restet on his tighs. i grabbed his hair and as soon as i did so. He turn me over and i could feel the sand under me again.

"Maybe we sould stop" he sighed.

"No"

"we on the beach honey"

"nobody watching"

"Renesmee" urgh my full name this never god.

"ok" i sighed and got off his lap.

We were on first beach just sad in silent's for a few minutes. I had spend a lot of time with Jacob since Charlie naturally was a little freaked out.

"Charlie mention something the other day" I blurred out when my conversion with Charlie. And remember our first kiss he never did tell who she was.

"What? "

"About you were in love before"

"oh" that doesn't sound good.

"I have thought about it for a while and i don't want to sound like a jealous girlfriend. 'cause i don't want to be one i see girls on TV and movies and jealous girls usually lose the guy and i don't want to lose because i love you and..."

"shh Ness your blabbering"

"oh sorry"

We sad and looked at the water in silents. I wannet to hear about her. The girl that had Jakes heart. "anyway who was she"

"no one special"

"she must have been special if you lo.." I didn't get to finish the sentence before he interrupted me.

"Could you just drop it" he sounded almost angry i had never seen him just snap at me like that.

RING
RING
RING

" i gotta get this."

"Jake are you mad?." My faced panicked I didn't want him to be mad at me. And for no apparent reason. My brain overpowered me with questions. Who is she? And why would he snap like that? He never snapped at least not to me. He must see it because he grabbed my chin gently with oversized hands and whispered.

"I'm not. Look Ness am sorry i snapped" and kissed me gently and very sweetly and very Jacob-ish

Ring

"Hey Bells"

I watch him walked away and i couldn't help but think about how lucky i was. After awhile i decided to see what was taking them so long. I got up and walked a few feet.

"Please Jake don't do this." Mom voice sounded almost desperate.

"I am and soon sorry." He whispered into the phone. He hung up as soon he so me

"Hi what did mom want?"

"Oh nothing" he put his arm around me. As we made our way back and had a perfect afternoon. But I had to go 'home' some point.

After about a couple of make out seaissons and quick skinny dip I got in the car and drove back and though that home was hell og Charlie's place is much worse "Charlie I'm home" I yelled as I enter the house like he would care anyway since he found out that I am a monster that my family is monsters he's been avoiding me only speaks when its necessary and that not often he's been sort of living with Sue I walked by the kitchen Sue was standing in the kitchen making food Charlie was reading the paper

"hi Sue"

"hi Renesmee"

"I'm going to my room"
"wait" Charlie called when I was half way up the stairs
"yes Charlie" I answered on my way back I used my speed so I was in the kitchen I second after he called
"so Edward is a vampire?"
"yes"
"and Jacob is a werewolf?" he knows this so why is he asking
"sounds about right" I shrugged
"you can go now"
"alright?"

On my way to moms room I heard him murmured.

"she sure knows how to pick them."

I got to her room when I glance up on the watch 6:47am. I haven't eaten all day but I wasn't hungry or at least not that kind of hungry. I hav to go hunting tomorrow yeah fun… not I strip down and took my PJ's on if Charlie isn't in a better mood tomorrow am sleeping at Jake. I promised myself before I let myself take a trip to dream land

I was standing on a Stage singing the song was very sexually exiplit. I looked eyes with a guy cute dark hair green eyes he stared. I kept singing but it was like I was singing to him I moved my hips from one side to another. This dream was weird one I was singing. I only sang in front of my father at music Tuesday. Two. I wanted this guy not like love with Jacob but his smell was mouth watering. When the song was over I handed the mike to a guy heavy build. I knew him he was a friend he smiled at me.

"Good night V they loved you."
"…and I loved them great crowd."

I walked of stage and found the guy. He was about to say something when I "shh'd" him. We went out the back entrance what I now knew as a club. on a big neon light sign it said, *Dan's* When we where outside he grabbed my thigh and ran his other hand up and down my body. His lips touch mine a second after that his tough was trying to get in. But I catch his bottom lip and started sucking his blood. He screamed but I ignored him he was dead within minutes. When I was down I dried my lips when I heard somebody clapping but it wasn't human. A pale blonde man came out the darkness and smiled.

"Well well well little Renesmee Cullen a succubus what is it love don't you remember me"

"Dimitri?"

He came closer to the point where I could feel his cold skin he started trailing his hand op down my torso then he kissed my cheek and whispered
"I haven't seen you since I picked your flower so to say. That one night in Italy. A night in Roma"

I woke up screaming covered in sweat. that was the first night I had that dream. it had became quite unusual for me not to have it. I haven't thought about Demitri for months now. I feel quit ashamed thinking about what we did. Nobody knows about and nobody will ever known. My dream it was so vivid I laid down and closed my eyes and slipped into an dream less sleep.

A WEEK LATER

I woke up with a note next to me with a scrawled note next to me

Renesmee
Hi sweetheart am sorry we can't hang today but me and the guys are going on patrol but tonight am all yours meet me at the 3rd clift at first beach on the meadow I'll be waiting
p.s wear this dress its under your bed
All my love
Jacob

My face still daze from my sleep grow into a grin when I so the packed under the bed. Of course I was sad that I wasn't spending the day with Jacob. But then I remembered I haven't seen Claire since the accident at Emily's. She and Quil wasn't to the later cancelled pack meeting last week. What if she realist I was a monster. I mean I could had killed her maybe I am a monster. No Renesmee call her don't jump to conclusions. I grabbed my cell to and dial her number but she didn't pick up. A minute later I got a text.

Hey can't talk but can text if that's okay – C
Oh yeah haven't seen you in like two weeks – N
I been spending a lot of time with Quil hope you not mad – C
No – no just miss you – N
I miss you too sweets – C
Can you hang out today the pack is going on patrol. So girls day you and me. – N.
Hey Ness its Quil. Claire busy right now ;) but am leaving in a half hour so she can see you at your house there – Q
Are you guys busy or are you Busy - N
Busy - Q
Well se ya in hour only one dress and my door steep have fun – N
Oh we will – C & Q

I couldn't help by laugh. Well didn't know how close they had gotten but I shouldn't judge I lost it at 9 if I count in earth years. I got up and got dressed I wanted to go to the manor. As I guess Charlie didn let up. So since 5 days ago I had been crashing at Jacob's after I got dressed I went into the kitchen where to my surprised Billy, Sue and Charlie were there Charlie looked scared when I walked in
"Hi" was the only sound that escaped my lips

"Hey Ness" Sue and Billy said I sync.

"Renesmee" Charlie murmured while looking down

"Grandpa" I nodded at him I didn't really feel like dealing with him today.

"Charlie needs to talk to you sweetheart sit would you"
I hesitate but took the site next to Billy that smiled kind hearted at me and so kept looking at Charlie after a couple of moment of awkward silent's Charlie finally began

" Am sorry Ness this isn't your fault" he looked into my eyes and I could see he regreated the way he treated me then he mumbled "…it's your fathers…" under his breath something I wouldn't be able to hear if I was human. "but I souldnt judge am sorry kid" he finished

"am sorry I didn't tell you"
"don't be Carlisle told me about the… Voltori they sound as bad people"

"Am not sure they can be called people"
They all laughed at me. Charlie talked about pretty much everything and we even laughed. He found out that I really was his granddaughter even though he had his suspicion he was glad to have one he was of course pissed at father for changing mom so there next meeting should be interesting. He found out why I had my special gift and he seemed to like it. And I even got to move back to his place. Wow this vacation I was half way through it and I'm was beat. Now am just waiting on Claire if she ever does get of Quil surprises surprises she got her on time.

"You here" I giggled with a mocking tone.
"Shut up am here aren't I" she giggled right back.
"Yeah you are" I hugged her tightly like the wolfs does with me all the time. Even if her scent still made my throat burn.
We got in the car and drove out of La Push into Forks down the mudded lanes into the drive way of the big old white house that I all those years ago called home.
"Ah good to be home" I said under my breath while getting out of the car we got to the door. And I got the key under the mat that open the security code. Which open the figurer print scanner. Which open the voice detector. "Nessie Cullen" I said into it.
"Access denied full name please" a robotic voice repeated.
"but I don't like my full name" I whined.
"full name please."
Claire was laughing at my debate with the machine.
"okay fine Renesmee Carlie Cullen"
"access giving."
The door open and to my surprise nothing had change every furniture was exactly where we left it 10 years ago. Me and Claire went up the stairs to Alice and Jasper's room to get some make up. And get ready Jacob said 6 o'clock so I had 8 hours that should be more than enough. I got some make up and went down stairs seing Claire admire me and dad's music set up.
"you like it?" I asked her when I so her eyeing dads guitar
"I love it your family is so rich its unlivable."
"yeah."
"can you play this" she asked while holding up my father's guitar
"well of course I can."
"could you play something for" I was a little surprised she knew I didn't like people watching me when I played. Not even Jacob. the only one was dad.
"oo-kay" it sounded more as a question when I said. It I took the guitar from her and started to play a little "what do you wanna hear."

"how about…" she said while tapping her chin "oh I got it that Taylor swift song I love it "
"oo-kay" started to play and sing:
"The way you move is like a full on rain storm" a couple minutes later "'cause I see sparks fly whenever you smile oh baby smile"

"wow Ness when I get married you are defiantly singing" she almost screamed jumping up and down while clapping for a minute there you would think she was a cartoon figure.

"wait when you get married?"
"Oh yeah… me and Quil are kind of engaged" she said grapping the back of her head.
"Really when why how" I couldn't control my rambling
"last week, because were in love, he got down on one knee and asked, I think that's all."
"Are you pregnant" I started to question her I know her she smart.
"what no why" she seemed offended.
"then why the hell would you get married at 17" okay maybe I was overeating.
"were gonna wait to I finish college but after I hope to be pregnant" she shrugged.
"I don't get it you are smart."
"am in love" she said like she was on cloud 9.
"you are stupid that's what you are."
"oh please tell me you and Jake hasn't thought about it."
"at the matter of fact we haven't" I set the guitar down and turned to face her again I could see the chock on her face.
"really then have you done it" she was honestly surprised.
"it" don't tell don't tell my brain chanted.
"you know it."
"no" I basically screamed at least not with Jacob.
"why not this isn't the 19 century"
"well since my father is from the 19 century and yeh well reads minds we haven't " I shrugged don't tell her my mind chanted louder.
"omg you a virgin" now she beyond chocked and DON'T TELL HER my brain was screamed. My face fell ever so slightly. And I sad on the couch hoping she just would let this go but knowing Claire she wouldn't.

"wait if you and Jacob haven't and you're not a virgin… omg you cheated on him"

"WHAT NO! I would never cheat on Jacob I love him"
"then spill" well no turning back now I sighed.

"Remember when I went to Europe with Rose and EM a little over a year ago."

"Yes oh my god you did it with a human."
"No it was a vampire an evil one and didn't even know he was evil til after."
"Then how did it happen."
"I was mad at my parents Rose asked if I wanted to join them. And I said sure we were in Italy and they were…busy… anyways. I went out to see the city when I meet him I was sad. And he know all the right things to say and it sort of happen."
"Wow."
"Listen Claire you can't tell anyone not even Quil. You can't even think it around my father at least."
"Don't worry I won't" she and the started to walk over to me and let me rest my head on her shoulders "but what happen." I could feel the water in my eyes I didn't wanna tell her.
"I found out who he was and what he wanted I felt ashamed went back to the hotel room. We left went home because I was so destructed. Then I so Jacob and…" by the mention of Jacob my voice cracked I was full on balding.

"…and gave up to the power of the imprint" she finished for me I told you not to tell her my brain said
"yeah pretty much" I shrugged. She leaned in for a hug.
"Come here sweets"

"Am sorry"

"for what?"

"wanting to kill you" She laugh when we were done she whispered quietly but happily

"come we gotta get you ready."

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