Liv

Sighing shakily, I made my way up the stairs to Haruhi's apartment. It was freaking freezing. The rain was one thing, but the wind. Fuck.

I huffed, and watched the cold air turn into a cloud from my breath. A giddy smile graced my lips. I love that.

"Haruhi, open the door." I knocked. No answer.

I knocked again, more aggressively. "Hey, Fujioka, get the door!" My fist hit the door a tad too hard, and I could already feel it bruising. Dammit.

The lights were on, she's definitely home. Why isn't she answering? Half of me decided that she might just want some privacy, but luckily, my better half guided me to open the door to her unlocked apartment. My hands flew over my ears upon hearing the loud music playing through the house.

"I didn't know she liked Blink 182…" I muttered, heading to her room. Before turning the knob a loud sob was followed by a muffled squeak. Good god, she'd better not be drinking.

My foot rammed the door in, and what I saw next couldn't be parallel to any shock I have ever felt.

"G-girl!" I pointed at Haruhi. The two immediately split apart and Haruhi jumped on defense, wiping her mouth.

"Th-That's a girl!" My knees buckled slightly. I clapped my hand to my forehead. "Shit, Haruhi, shit!" My other hand flew to my mouth.

Her miscellaneous partner sat up. "Is this a friend of yours?" She pointed at me cocking a brow. "Haruhi, what in holy shit are you fucking doing?" I yelled through my hand.

Haruhi slammed the radio to silence. "Liv…Liv." She approached me. I picked up the nearest thing I could find to throw at her.

It was a lovely plant. "Liv, what the fuck?" She screamed as the vase and the plant connected with her shin. "You tried so hard…so fucking hard to get him back! Haruhi, you are a bitch. A straight up bitch!" I shouted through tears.

Haruhi grabbed miscellaneous partner's hand and guided her to the door. "I'll call you." The girl whispered.

"You will not." I hissed at her. I plopped on Haruhi's bed.

She looked at me with tears in her eyes. "Liv I…"

"Save it." I bit. How does shit like this happen? And now I'm caught in it. Well Liv, you know what you've gotta do.

"In the midst…Of everything that's been happening…you found the gall to cheat on him. He loved you. He loves you. He desperately loves you…Why?" Tears stung my eyes, as I turned to look at her face. Her hands were over her face as tears silently fell. She shook her head. "I couldn't…Liv, you need to understand…" But her sentence ended there. I waited, Lord knows I waited. About a good ten seconds, too.

She sat beside me. We both laid back. "What am I gonna say to him?"

My breath was shaky. "That all depends…Who do you want to be with?" It seemed like Haruhi didn't comprehend the question. But still she quietly answered, "Tamaki…More than anything…This was the first time this ever happened. I had been repressing…urges and he just…wouldn't listen. I wanted to tell him. Liv, you have to know that I wanted to tell him." She begged.

I put my hand on hers. "Haruhi…I have no idea what you're feeling right now, but believe me, I'm trying to understand."

She sighed shakily. "But, the urges couldn't compare to the love that I feel for him." Tears just kept falling.

Rage surged briefly through me and I jumped from the bed. "Well guess what, Haruhi…You have a…" Out of loss for a wittier reply, I somehow got… "Shit way of showing it!" I huffed. But it still seemed to hurt her.

"God, you don't even realize what you've done." I was now beyond understanding, and would most likely rant for hours on end. "He loves you, and you've gone off behind his back and…You're gay!" The realization hit. "You're a lesbian? Shit! Haruhi, you're a raging lesbian! Fuck!" I couldn't help but laugh a little.

"Excuse me, Liv, the correct term is bisexual. And I'd appreciate you not judging me for my orientation." She sat up. "You'd appreciate me not judging you? Really? Are you kidding? I've got every right! I mean…" I slapped my hand to my head again. "I'd appreciate you not breaking my good friend's heart, Haruhi!"

"I still love him! Liv, please just stop! I need you on my side, here!" She begged. After a few tense minutes of evaluating the situation, I spoke again, quietly. "This is the first time?" I eyed her nervously.

Haruhi nodded in an eager way to tense way. "How'd it happen?" I sat beside her again. Her face became beet red. Oh this'll be good…

Haruhi drew a deep breath. "Well, she came over crying because her girlfriend had broken up with her. It wasn't my place to talk; I didn't know really how same sex relationships work. I mean, I just didn't know if they were any different, you know? Just think of how catty a lot of girls are." She looked at me, expecting some reassurance that she was right. I shuddered thinking of how hurtful things in a same sex relationship actually could be.

"Then, we started talking. I told her I wouldn't be so bitchy. Then, she turned on loud music and started kissing me. She was crying and I didn't want her to feel worse than she did. It would like…" She paused to think of her next words. "I didn't want to offend her or anything. I was aware that Tamaki would be heartbroken, but I also knew that Willow, that's her name, would be offended too. I just decided not to count it as a real kiss. I thought of just acknowledging it as a pity, friend thing…That sounds so bad when you say it out loud, doesn't it?"

I nodded feebly. I had to admit, her story checked out. And I know for a fact that Haruhi sucks at lying. So this would be increasingly hard if she were lying.

"Did you…enjoy it? " I asked, no longer angry. I was genuinely curious. Not that I'd cheat on Tarzan with some chick. But things like…this got me curious. Not bi-curious or anything. Just curious.

Haruhi scratched the back of her head. "As far as kisses go, it wasn't my worst." She admitted with a nod. I couldn't help but laugh loudly. We were being so cavalier about this whole ordeal. It was astounding. Haruhi seemed to notice too, and she laughed with gusto.

We were about in tears on the floor when we both calmed down. And instantly, the laughter faded to pain in realization.

This was the first real laugh we had since Benji was admitted into the hospital. And Benji wasn't even there.

"So will you tell Tamaki?" I coughed after a minute. She bit her thumb nail after a bit. "Yeah…He deserves to know."

I put my hand on her knee. "Wise decision, young Jedi." I nodded. She laughed faintly. Bigger issues clouded our minds…

Tomorrow's surgery day.