I am sorry for not posting I've been in a block. I know how the storrie ends, and how it beginds. it is just to get from point A to point B.

I will make this kind of chapter every so often just as a recap of the last few chapters.

Love ya

Dear diary

It's me Ness 3

I have always felt like a freak, something that doesn't belong on earth. A sick joke the universe was playing on me. But then again that's my entire family, and friends.

I was born on September 10th 2006, minutes after birth i was imprinted on by my Jacob. The love of my life, the center of my universe, but then he was uncle jay, then best friend Jake. Now fiancé, soon husband Jacob.

By my first birthday we moved away from Forks. We lived in Danalie with our 'cousins'. i was home school by grandpa and dad. i was rather well developed, and an easy learner by the age by 3 i was smarter than my uncle Em. But then again being smarter than Emmett isnt a big accomplishment. i though all the normal stuff history math English and ect. but my favorite subject was music with dad.

One night when i was young or younger about 2 looked about 6 years. i woke up in the middle of the night everyone in my family was hunting except dad, he was taken care of me. Jake had to go back to La push for pack stuff. i heard music and i traveled down the stairs and i so him on the piano.

when he heard my thoughts he walked over to me and carried me to the piano on his back and played a piece for me. it became 'Renesmee lullaby' the next day he began teaching me music, because i loved it so much. that night was a Tuesday er couldn't have regular lessons because of normal school so that's how Music Tuesday came about. me and dad connected through music even though he is sometimes the biggest asshole in the planet.

on Tuesdays he a ablseout genius and with a bit luck i im going to Julliard in the spring. dad and grandma offered to make a little donation but i want to be accepted because im talented. not because my family is rich. my dad also though me going to high school wasn't safe for me. he eventually agreed for reasons I don't want to know. Ew. he wanted to be in my class but then he was 'talked' out of that of mom again.

when i turned 6 we moved to north Dakota, and my family and i went high school. i was with my family the first 3 years, but when they graduated. i kind of wish i had agreed to let at least let someone in my family there i sort of became a loner. i became Sullen Cullen. Great nickname, high school was living nightmare. People though i was stupid because of my looks, then they though i was a pretty little know it all rich girl my only friend was Claire.

When i was 9 i went on a European tour with my aunt and uncle. we weren't allowed to go to Italia, but we did and i meet him. The man who almost ruin my life, i lucky so what he was, and i ran to the hotel and that was the end of that trip.

I went home sad angry and disgusted with myself. Jacob helped me and i fel for him i mean who wouldn't? Helped me through something so painful, and he didn't even know. he was just being himself and i fell in love and we have been like two pees in a pond ever since. Every time i was with him i forgot about Demitri. Until my dream that i have been having on and off for a month i bet its nothing. the family is coming today Alice is exiting for the wedding.

Love Renesmee 3