Yo, all, another chapter. Again, I played Shadowsinger, and Loki played... well, Loki. -huggles- sis
Back safe on his ship, Shadowsinger was busy training, throwing himself through a beautiful, vicious dance. He still wasn't sure what he thought after meeting Sam. He didn't hate the boy, maybe even liked him... Time and distance had weakened the bond, but he still remembered the pain of it snapping, at that point in time he would have gladly killed the one responsible... instead he had comforted him, ABSOLVED him... Sam had fought to live... Snarling, Shadowsinger continued his routine.
"Ya' look ready ta' kill an' destroy Shadow, ya' need ta' talk?" Loki asked, chuckling when the mech jumped in surprise. But seriously, after visiting the Autobot base on earth, Shadowsinger had come back looking like he wanted to truly kill something but couldn't. "Do ya' need ta' talk, bro?" she asked, using the one nickname that always worked on the small mech.
Need to talk... badly. Could talk, not so much. Pit, he couldn't even talk about this to Havok, even if Havok HAD been around... "Sis..." it was half a moan, Shadowsinger suddenly realized he'd been at this for easily a full joor non-stop. Energy levels were critically low, he hadn't refueled since he'd been back... Wish would have been pissed. "I can't. I can't... slagging..." It wasn't true though, and so the sentence remained unfinished.
"Bro?" Stepping up next to him, Loki knelt, "Shadow, ya' okay? What's wrong?" Picking him up, she cradled him and looked him over for injury, already heading for the door. "What did ya' do ta' 'urself?" the dinobot asked.
"Energy, just... low... Neglected m'sel', 'sit. No injuries, no damage." Of course, Loki was just going to get more worried about that, he was not known for neglecting his physical health. Well, let her carry him wherever she wanted, it wasn't expending any energy on his part.
Growling, Loki ran her fingers over her friend's purple and ivory armor, switching her destination from the rec. room to her office. The dinobot was lucky and had quite a bit of energon stored in her office, along with high-grade and even low-grade… it wasn't her fault, really, the twins patented 'energon hiding containers' used to do just as their name suggested, hide energon, and Loki'd been lucky to receive the extras they'd made. She sat Shadowsinger down on her desk and went to one of them, the one that was hidden behind one of the walls, and drew a cube out. "Why'd ya' go'n neglect ya'self bro? It's not good!" Loki handed him the cube and practically forced him into a position to drink it, ready to really force him if the mech refused.
"Yes, I noticed that." Shadowsinger tried not to snap, she was just worried for him, she had every right to be, both by rank and adopted familial ties. Resisting the urge to guzzle the energon, he drank at a slower, steady pace, giving his systems time to adjust to the energy. Loki watched him sternly until he finished, and the small mech tried to figure out what to tell her. "I just... was remembering things..."
Taking her favorite seat on her desk, Loki gently pulled her friend into her lap, as she almost always did when they talked. "What sorta things? A'm here fo' ya' Shadow, A'll listen, ya' know that…" The dinobot was extremely worried about her friend, he almost NEVER neglected his health…
He hated this, not being completely honest with even his claimed sister... oh, he never lied, but Shadowsinger knew quiet well that he was a deceitful little thing. But it wasn't safe, Xobit might accept, WOULD, but Loki... So... that, he knew how he would take this now... "I met Sam. He... wasn't what I expected. It reminded me... You know, I saw Megatron once in a pit fight? I think I told you that... it was the same night I met the twins? And... just, remembered my past, what I've lost..."
"Aye, ya' tol' meh…" Loki said, petting Shadowsinger's head with one of her fingers. "A'm listenin' bro, jus' let it all out, whatever ya' gotta do ta' feel better…" She continued her petting as she spoke, drifting her fingers down to rub his back plating in soothing little circles.
"You know so little about me... Which is entirely my fault. You know, you're a lot like Havok, ooh, my Dark Brother would hate that comment... Well, he wasn't so touchy, would usually calm me down by dragging me into a fight... and then dragging me to a berth... He got me into my first barfight, we took out the entire bar... Sewers are nasty. Fragger Steelspark sent me here to get me away from Havok..." Shadowsinger was babbling, carefully, but... it did feel good, uncloak some of the deception...
Trying to make sense of the words, the dinobot recognized some of what was being said, but the rest… went right over her head. But she just nodded and remained silent, keeping up with her stroking to let Shadow know it was okay to continue his speaking. Loki was still worried, although being confused by her friend was normal… she wasn't sure about his topic shifting… it just wasn't him.
No reaction, no comments? Twisting a little, the mech caught the nod, she was listening then... she was confused, and worried, still very worried... "I miss him. I MISS him, even if I shouldn't... Havok knew, I think he was the only one who did..." Slag! Was he overenergized, no, that was impossible, he'd drunk slowly... that was SO not the way he'd intended to word that, bad enough he was letting this slip, but to make it so clear that Havok wasn't the one he was missing so...
"Who, bro?" Loki asked gently, fingers pausing just momentarily before switching around to rub the mech's chest plates in the same way. It was the same soothing touches she'd always used, the ones that always relaxed who was getting them.
Slag... frag, there was no getting out of this... And Loki knew him too well, knew just how to relax him even when he didn't want to relax... "My... my bonded..." Shadowsinger offlined his optics, he didn't want to see her reaction to that, bad enough that he would feel it, hear it... Could he... no, there was no reason to have hid it if his bonded was a 'bot, he would have to admit it he was 'con...
"'Ur bonded?" the dinobot asked, shifting back to petting Shadowsinger's head again. She never knew her friend was bonded, he'd never mentioned it… unless it was supposed to be a secret… but why would it be a secret...? "Missin' any bonded woul' be hard Shadow'…"
"He's dead," Shadowsinger stated emotionlessly. "He was Decepticon. Hadn't seen him for ages, and then he died. ...Thank Primus we never completed it..." Thank Primus he had had time to learn to live alone... The small mech shivered, he knew Loki well enough to know she wouldn't reject him just for this, and it was good to admit it to someone... even if she still couldn't know everything.
Loki wasn't sure what to say exactly and ended up staying silent for a moment, shifting to hold her friend closer. She nodded after a minute and then finally spoke, "A' betcha miss 'im though… A' know A'd miss mah bonded… though A'm not lucky 'nough ta' get 'ne anyway."
"Lucky..." He never had figured out if he were lucky or not, lucky to have survived, perhaps, but lucky to be bonded, let alone to the one he had feared so... "We had... no clue what we were doing, so very... little idea... But we never regretted it, I never regretted it, up until he went missing I know he hadn't either..." He was back to babbling, trying to burrow against Loki. For a moment he considered actually doing that, she was so warm and nice inside... Then reality hit and Shadowsinger wondered just what he was thinking. If nothing else, Loki would probably object, REALLY object, and she'd be right, this wasn't the time for that.
Again Loki remained silent, letting her touches show that she was listening and didn't mind that Shadow wanted to be close. He seemed to be needing it… needing it badly, and the dinobot didn't mind contact, no, not at all, she was used to being the one who instigated it… and the loss of a mate… that did explain her friend's actions, Loki wished she could help more, but was unsure how…
"'S why I know s'much random info about 'cons, know how things work... Or at least used to, Starscream really fragged stuff up..." Random information, explanations of a sort. "I'm loyal. I know you know that, but... I am, even with... I've never knowingly betrayed the 'bots, we didn't use the information we'd learned..." Part of that had been a function of Shadowsinger's non-existent rank at the time, but he needed it said, needed to know that Loki believed him...
"That was never questioned bro, A' know ya' loyal, an' if ANY'NE thinks not A'll personally slag 'em!" A low growl tore itself from Loki's throat before she could stop it and she tightened her grip around Shadowsinger, still petting him gently. "Ya' tell me if any'ne says anythin' 'bout ya'!"
"Even if I told ya... he was high ranking?" he shouldn't have said that, it got to close... but Loki's reaction was gratifying, and he selfishly milked it. "No... that was unfair of me, I don't doubt you. Truly, I don't... you're takin' this surprisingly well..."
Shaking her head, the spinosaurus dinobot actually leaned down to nuzzle her friend, narrowly catching herself and keeping from licking him. "O' course A' still trust ya', an' A' always will! It's not that surprisin' that ya'd get a bond-mate high up, no matter what side o' th' fight, ya' a strong lil' guy Shadow', jus' like A' tol' ya' when A' firs' met ya'!" And he was, extremely strong and feisty, perfect as a friend to the dinobot.
Shadowsinger was glad he was hiding already, he found himself wanting to curl up in embarrassment at that statement. "Wasn't cuz I was strong... I'm fairly sure the only reason I survived was because... heh, I'm good at submitting..." Well, that just made things sound totally wrong. "I don't... want this to change anything 'tween us, sis. He's dead, and I LIKE bein' with ya. ... and you're still taking this well..."
"It won', why would it?" Loki asked, blinking in surprise and wonder. She actually did lick her friend then and nuzzled him again, shifting so he could hide easier if he wanted. Shadowsinger was so small compared to her… Loki was actually surprised that he hadn't crawled under her armor already, since he was trying to get even smaller…
He sighed at the lick, that alone was proof that she wasn't going to let this change anything. Shadowsinger blinked dumbly as the spinosaurus shifted and basically presented him with the perfect entry into her systems, well, if she didn't MIND... "Eh, some people are weird about things," was the only real explanation he could give before he slipped under her armor and curled up, it was SO warm and safe here, her energy playing across his systems gently...
Used to Shadowsinger climbing under her armor, Loki was able to control herself, standing and walking across the room. If Shadowsinger was going to hide out in her armor, she was definitely going to go someplace more comfortable… at the very least her or his quarters, depending on whose she found first.
The small mech purred a little as Loki's movements sent more energy over and through him. "You know... I bet we could sneak me int'all sorts a'places like this, if we wanted..." The thought came to Shadowsinger randomly, and he laughed, still a little shaky but feeling much, much better now.
"Aye, tha's true… wanna come ta' a higher-ups meeten' some time? Me an' 'Bit could use 'normal company…" Loki came to her room first and entered, lying on her berth so that she could curl around the mech under her armor without crushing him. "Comfy?"
"If that got found, Red'd go even more paranoid than usual... didja just call meh normal?" She'd stopped moving, and... laid down. And curled around him, as weird as that probably was. "Humm... very comfy..." Shadowsinger uncurled himself and spread himself over her systems, he wasn't looking for an overload, but the soft arousal, the sheer level of intimate contact, was soothing, needed.
"Th' twins'd calm 'im down, an' ya' know what A' meant… some times them stuffy ol' bots need ta' relax…" Loki shifted slightly, knowing that the energy from the move would relax Shadow more. "But think o' how fun th' look on th' Prowler's face'd be!" she said, giggling.
Shadowsinger giggled back, shifting back to a purr as further energy played through him. "I still don't find freaking Prowl out to be... hum, that much fun." He squirmed up higher, climbing up her torso, from in here he could actually see her spark chamber... it was pretty.
Tail curled around her, Loki shifted again, needing to make sure movement wasn't going to hurt her friend. His own movement was careful and actually comforting, letting the dinobot relax as she knew Shadowsinger was doing.
It was kinda unfair of him, but the small mech really didn't care. Revving his engine just a little in a happy purr, Shadowsinger reached Loki's spark chamber and carefully curled around it, it was so WARM... "'m jus... gonn'recharge 'ere... m'k?" He slagging well hoped it was okay, since he really wasn't sure he felt like crawling all the way out again.
"Ya' do that, A'm gonna hit th' hay too…" Loki said, not surprised that the heat now around her spark was the small mech. It was making her tired, but it was a comfortable tired, extremely warm… so nice…
Oh, good, it was okay... With a final rev of his engine, Shadowsinger fell into recharge, feeling better than he had for ages.
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