~Authors Note: Ok, so the pause can be blamed on school, and I can be blamed for letting school and being grounded get in the way of my being grounded, also, if it counts for anything, I've been attempting to spend more time with my boyfriend,. Now, anyways I got 2 different song requests, so I picked A green day song and decided to save the other one for later, anyways, just a note on this song is that, even though it'll make me seem like a ½ green day fan, this is actually one of my favorite songs by them; This, Jackass, Macy's day parade and all the song's in their album dookie. Lol. They've been my favorite band since I was like 8, and that was without knowing who they were, so now, I present to you, My absolute favorite band, Green Day!

Phineas and Ferb: Isn't what it is

Chapter 15: Good Riddance

Another turning point

If people looked at me right now, they'd think I'm over him. They'd think I've moved on and that I've learnt to accept that he wont be mine, and part of me (a small part of me, but nevertheless is still technically a part of me) has, but the other, the major part of me, still wants to hold his hand, still wants to kiss his lips and still wants him. Both parts understand that he's not mine, but only one of them has completely moved on. I give you the chance to guess which one.

A fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist

Now I'm not saying I'm miserable, because I'm really not. Ferb though, has been. I mean literally, he hasn't even dared to speak to me, or anyone else for that matter, but that's not too odd for him, it's the fact that this withdrawal seems to make it so he can't hear any of out voices either. Phineas says he's just had lot's on his mind and he's trying to cope, but I don't think forgetting your friends is normal, but then again, who am I to talk, right?

Directs you where to go
So make the best of this test
And don't ask why

Phineas. Wow what can I say? He has been completely single since Isabella dumped him a few weeks ago, or at least that's what everyone is saying happened, I have a hunch that Phin dumped the whore, but nobody seems to agree with me. Ah well, can't be right about everything I suppose.

It's not a question
But a lesson learned in time
It's something unpredictable

No, what's weird is that Phineas, someone who I think might be the most popular kid in school, actually wants to hang out with me, and he actually asks me all the time. Several people have even asked if we were dating, which was kind of weird because it makes me feel like people might think I'm just after all the Fletcher/Finn, but if that's what it looks like I'm really sorry, because that's not what I'm trying to do.

But in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life

My head was aching. Like really aching since the day I last spoke to Ferb, which was a week and a half ago. His name in my head was like a constant drumming, or some sort of sick chant. I couldn't even read any more because my mind kept repeating Ferb, Ferb, Ferb, Ferb, Ferb. It was getting to be quite annoying and very disrupting. I've already made 2 mistakes when I was talking and said 'Ferb' instead of somebody else's name. I'm not sure how long I'll be able to hold up.

So take the photographs
And still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in

Anyways, I guess I'm going to be forced to learn how to cope, just like Ferb supposedly is.

"Amelika, are you alright? You're staying into space and you have been for the last 5 or 10 minutes." Phineas says which knocks me from my thoughts for a few moments. I hope I don't become like Ferb, so engrossed in his mind that he doesn't even know what's going on.

"I'm completely fine, I'm just thinking"

"About What?"

"I don't need to tell you, I'm allowed to have some secrets you know,"

"It's about him isn't it?"

"Who?"

"Ferb." He said flatly without the need to explain himself. Of course it was about Ferb! Who else would it be about? It's always about him! I'm sorry! "I'm worried about him is all," I explain but he shakes his head, tears falling down softly, "No, Alika, I think you love him. You love my brother," He states before getting up from my couch. I was glad right about now that my mom wasn't home.

Good health and good time
Tattoos of memories
And dead skin on trial

"And Alika, what you don't seem to understand is that he doesn't like you. He dumped you, but I love you! But I'm not Ferb! I don't read emo poetry books, and I don't have a velvety British accent! Everybody fucking thinks I'm the optimistic one and he's the pessimistic one, but it's the other way around! He gets everything he wants! He always has, and even know, he's gotten you," He finishes and I'm left reaching for words.

For what it's worth
It was worth all the while
It's something unpredictable

Hate, was the first emotion to come. Probably Because I couldn't hate Ferb for dumping me, because I couldn't get over him, so when he spoke the truth, the blatant, harsh truth, I couldn't hear it. I wanted to move on and forget, but I couldn't forget perfection. Never.

But in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life

Disappointment was next on the list. I was disappointed him for saying something so mean and hurtful and true to my face, but I was more disappointed in myself for not speaking these words earlier, for not thinking these words earlier, for not understanding what these words mean earlier, for being oblivious.

It's something unpredictable
But in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life

"Don't cry," he said as he wrapped his tan arms around me, holding me close to his warm body, and up until right then, I hadn't even known I was crying. "I'm sorry, Alika. I-I just hate that I'm not good enough, I hate that you don't love me the way I love you. Is he really that amazing?" He asks and I just blink. I don't want to lie to him. I want to be able to be strong and let this go. One of my relationships had already gone down the tubes, and the last thing I need is this one going down too.

It's something unpredictable
But in the end is right

The last thing I need is to find myself alone.

I hope you had the time of your life

~~Authors note: So the song barely fits with it if you think the title is "time of your life" but when you know that its really called "good riddance" it fits in more. Hmmmm maybe I should have been listening to the song instead of pink floyd. Oh well, can't go back now.

Peace in!

Melanie Swirls!

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