Chapter 40
Part 2
(Catarina's POV)
It's hard for the first few months especially. I often times had nightmares and I woke up more than once screaming which lead to sobs so heart wrenching that they echoed through the halls of the mountain. Vancha was by my side all the time. He rarely left me and I am thankful for that. Harkat never left me either. He tried very hard to make me feel better but it was not an easy task. I know he was in mourning too. "He was my soul mate. How can I go on without him?" I sobbed against Vancha. He just held me tightly in his arms like always. He's so great. Some times I couldn't bring myself to get out of bed or even eat. Some times I couldn't even bear it to sleep alone and ended up in Vancha's arms.
They say time heals all wounds but I cannot be sure. As time went on I did get a little better. My crying decreased and I started moving around more. I met up with Darius and Annie again. I hugged Darius tightly. Annie offered her condolences to me and I nodded mumbling thank you.
I asked Vancha to change me. "Are you sure?" he asked. "It's a big decision. You might need time. It's going to be different. You won't be able to go freely in the daylight."
"I know but I don't care. I am very sure Vancha. Please, I want it now and I want it to be you."
He nodded. He went to the other Princes and told them what he was doing. No one really protested. Then he did it. It was painful but I didn't care.
After that I requested to become a Princess. There was never a Princess before. I didn't really have to but I did prove myself in the trials. I came out of them scarred and injured and burnt but it didn't bother me.
I walked around like a zombie a lot. People were worried. Vancha told them I was fine. He told them I lost my soul mate and anyone would act like this. He said it would be a very long time before I could ever return to a semi-normal way.
Two years after his death Evanna came to see me. I growled. "You witch! Don't come near me! You're evil and I hate you!" I screamed. It was the first time I had shown any emotion besides sorrow in a long time.
"I understand your feelings Catarina but I came to give you some thing. I did not come to bring any harm."
I glared. She pulls out a bundle of notebooks. "I'm sorry for your loss Catarina. Darren was an incredible boy. My father and I went to the Lake of souls. We pulled Darren out. He wanted you to have these. He asked how you are and we told him. He said he loves you very much and he misses you too. We sent his soul to Paradise where he will be waiting for you to join him one day."
I hugged the diary tightly to myself and cried. "Thank you."
Later I found out Evanna had gone against her father permanently. She hates him. She got pregnant with twins. One was Vancha's and one was Gannen's. The babies would be one third Vampire, one third Vampaneze, and one third Evanna. It would be bring a peace to our warring sides. As those kids had kids and so on the barriers between our people would be erased. I was glad for this.
I knew now that is was okay for me to go. The sides would be at peace. Vancha would have a child and Harkat would help take care of it. They would be okay without me. I was ready to go. I did not have any desire to go on. My time was up. It would be okay.
I left a note thanking Vancha and Harkat for everything. I told them this was my time and why I was leaving. I told them to give all their wonderful love to the babies. I told them I loved them also. I gave myself and them the death touch saying then left. I walked out into the sun. It burned but the pain was a kind of sweet pain. I did not cry out. Even in death I would be triumphant. I knew I would be with Shan now where I belong. Love is forever.
A/N: Wow, this has been one of the longest stories I ever worte and I love every word of it. The series was great but very sad. I hated that everyone had to die. I became so attached to each and every character through the whole journey of writing and reading. This is the first story I am posting here after being a member for almost 4 years. I am so thankful to you as my readers. It really meant a lot to me to know you enjoyed this story. Through posting this here, I once again found myself very attached. It breaks my heart to have to post the last chapter. I want to say "No, Catarina's story can't end here!" but it does. Catarina's story DOES end here. It was time. It was how it had to be. Catarina lived the life she was supposed to and she lost almost every single person who she loved. With them gone her life was no longer important. She knew that there would be a new beginning for the vampire world and that Vancha and Harkat would be okay. It was really honestly her time. Her story was over. It's simple as that. I mourn for her I assure you. I mourn for her and all the other characters who died. May they rest in peace and may the vampire gods be kind to them in Paradise. May they all be triumphant even in death.
I do have a sequal planned out. It would begin a few years after this one with Vancha's child as the main character. It would have flashbacks to Catarina's story also. I might begin it if you feel I should.
Please don't forget to comment. I love you all and I thank you so much! It really has meant a lot to me. May the luck of the vampires be with you all! Be triumphant in this life. Much love, Cat 3