Chapter One

"Ugh," I said while placing my head in my hands. I was so nervous about my MCAT test coming up and I had to do well so I could enter medical school next year at NYU. I shouldn't be this nervous, since I had always done so well in school, but I was. This had become my life since…that day. I still remember it so vividly. I was so ready to end it all. I just couldn't see what the use was to go on hurting like that. And then, I just turned to my right and saw those beautiful brown eyes…on a beautiful girl. Her smile made me realize that life was worth it. So from that day on, I strived to be the best in my class, go on to medical school so I could follow in my dad's footsteps. I also knew I wanted to continue in the hopes that one day, I would see that girl again and thank her for…well for saving my life.

Just then I heard my phone ring. I grabbed it, looked at the caller id and smiled. "Hey Alice."

"Edward! How are you? I've missed you!"

I laughed. "Alice, you saw me two weeks ago!"

"But two weeks is just too long brother. Please tell me you have at least come out of your room some from studying."

"Of course…I still have classes."

She sighed. "Edward, you know you're going to ace that test…if you overstudy its bad."

"Says who?" I asked.

"Says everyone silly. So anyways, the reason I am calling is to tell you you are leaving your apartment tonight to come over to mine for dinner and movie night. Everyone is going to be there. Even Bella!"

I laughed again. "You know, I'm beginning to think Bella is your imaginary friend. You talk about her all the time, but I've never seen her."

"That's because you rarely go out with us Mr. Studies A lot!"

"Ok ok I'll be over there. What time?"

"Seven. See you there!"

I hung up and looked at the clock. It read 4. So I had a little longer to study before I got ready. I returned to my books and study guide and sighed.

I knocked on the door and waited for an answer. Alice threw the door open. "Edward, how many times have I told you to just walk in! Geez!"

"Well sorry if I have manners Alice,"I said while pulling her in for a hug.

"Well everyone is in the living room. Grab something to drink in the kitchen. The pizza is in the living room with the gang.

I grabbed a soda and walked into the room. Jasper and Alice were on one couch, and Rosalie and Emmett on the other. I sighed quietly. I loved that Emmett and Alice had found someone…but I sometimes felt like the fifth wheel, even though they told me not to. We had all been friends since high school, it was in college Alice and Jasper and then Emmett and Rosalie got together. And thinking about that made me think about….

"EDWARD!" Emmett boomed. He got up and gave me that handshake guy hug deal. "You've returned to the land of the living!"

I rolled my eyes. "I'm sorry. Some of us have a big test coming up that will, oh I don't know, determine their future!"

Emmett rolled his eyes in return. "Yeah yeah whatever. Like you're not mister smarty pants or whatever."

He went back to the couch and I followed to give Rose a hug and then say hey to Jasper. As I was doing this Alice's phone rang.

"Hello? BELLA! Where are you?" She waited a while as I guess Bella gave her a reason. "Awww man! I hope she gets feeling better, but I was really excited to see you! You're like my brother…I never see you anymore. Well next time ok….no way to get out of it ok? Alright love ya girl bye!" Alice closed her phone and pouted. "Bella's not coming so I guess we can start."

I laughed. "I still think she's imaginary!"

"No she isn't!" as she stuck her tounge out at me. "And I can prove it. Everyone else has met her…you would have to if you ever hung out with us."

I looked around the group to see if Alice was right. Damn.

"She does exist Edward. She is such a sweet girl! Alice and I met her last year on campus. OOOOOOO…wouldn't Edward and her make a cute couple!" Rose beamed. Alice joined her in jumping up and down and clapping!

"Oh yes yes yes!!!! We'll set it up an……"

I cut her off. "No."

Alice looked at me. "Come on Edward. She would be so good for you." She came and sat by me. "I know its been hard, but maybe you need to get back out there." She wasn't trying to push me, she just wanted me to be fully happy, at least in that area.

I smiled. "I know, just not yet."

She smiled, hugged me then joined Jasper on the couch.

I changed the subject. "So what are we watching tonight?"

Jasper answered for me with a roll of his eyes. "Since we picked last time the girls said it was there time…so it's a chick flick. The Holiday."

I grunted. Just what we needed. Alice started the movie and snuggled with Jasper on the couch…just like Emmett and Rose were doing. I took a bite of the pizza and had a sip of my soda. About halfway through the movie, I start messing with my phone. I didn't want to just leave because I knew that would upset Alice. I honestly had gotten better…but it was still hard to think about.

"I just can't do it Edward."

"Yes you can. I believe in you."

She smiled. "Ok, I'll do it."

I stopped the memory before I lost it. I noticed the movie was ending and the girls were wiping tears away.

"Ok ok I will admit. That movie isn't too bad," Emmett said.

Jasper and I started laughing at him. Emmett got upset.

"Shut up….I do have a sensitive side." Jasper and I looked at each other and started laughing again. This time Alice and Rose joined us.

"Whatever," he got up and went into the kitchen.

"Oh come one Em, don't be like that," Rose said as she followed him to the kitchen.

I got up and grabbed my keys. "Well I better get going, I'm glad I came over sis."

She got up and hugged me. "Me too! Don't stay away for too long again ok?"

I nodded and messed with her hair. She pushed me away laughing and I hugged Jasper. "See ya later man."

"See ya."

As I was walking out I yelled, "Bye Em bye Rose!"

"Bye Edward." Em just grunted. I got in the elevator and pushed the button for the ground floor. I truly had the best friends ever. They had always been there for me. I unlocked my car and climbed in. I started the car and took off, think how glad I was that I was still here to enjoy simple nights like these.

A/N: Sorry no Bella yet…I've got to build up the story, just didn't want to jump in yet. But I do hate these beginning chapters building up to where I want to get!