Okay, this was going to be two different chapters but I felt you deserved it! WARNING! VERY INTENSE!

-Jasmine

I was on edge all day. I couldn't tell anyone... I needed to stay with them as long as I could. I just kept getting this feeling like something bad was going to happen. Though what could be worse then this? This is an amazing opportunity. I wold never get this chance again. I needed to talk to someone. What would they say though... I decided I would talk to Darry about it. He seemed like someone who wold tell me what I needed to hear. I hurried off to the Curtis', my sister had to day off so I took the car. It was early enough in the morning that Darry shouldn't have left for work yet... When I burst through the door all eyes flew to me. I could see Pony in the bathroom brushing his hair, Two-Bit was sitting watching TV and Steve was talking to Soda who was, much to my embarrassment, was wearing only a towel.

"Where's Darry?" I asked, looking around.

"Right here." He called walking out from the kitchen. I turned to him and rushed over.

"I need to talk to you. In private." I whispered. He nodded and we both went out back behind the house.

"What?" He asked. I took a deep breath and held out the letter to him. He quickly read it and looked up at me, smiling.

"This is great Susan!" He told me.
"No it's not!" I almost yelled. He tilted his head to the side.

"Please, tell me how this is bad." I sighed and ran I hand through my messy hair, I was in such a hurry to get over that I never really got a chance to brush it.

"Darry. I don't know what to do." I looked down but not before I saw the disbelief on his face.

"You are NOT thinking of turning them down." He told me. I just nodded, "NO!" He yelled and yanked my head up to look at him.

"Susan!" He told me, "This is amazing chance. This will NEVER happen again. You need to take this." I sighed.

"I don't want to leave you all." I admitted, "I just got back with Dallas. I'll be so far..."

"Dallas?" He asked, "Dallas is holding you back? Susan! Do you know how many people would KILL to get this offer. You can get out of here! They are practically BEGGING you to study with them. This is like the chance I never got. Go to school. You can come back later. If Dallas really does love you... He still will in four years." I sighed, knowing he was right. It would just hurt to leave him for so long.

"How do I tell him?" I asked. Darry ran a hand through his short brown hair.

"I'm not sure... Just talk to him. If he loves you he'll want the best for you. If he doesn't want you to take this... well then he isn't worth it." I looked down, knowing it was true. I had to take this, I would be an idiot if I didn't.

"Thanks." I told him and hugged him. He smiled once I pulled back.

"No problem. I have to go now though, I'll be late for work. You think you could stay with Pony today? I think he wants to go see Johnny and Dally." He asked. I nodded and walked in with him. He, Soda, and Steve all left for work. Though not before telling Pony that if he smoked more than a pack today that he would skin him. Two-Bit decided that he would stay with us and go see Johnny and Dally.

The walk there was boring. I never really noticed how much Two-Bit talked. Maybe it was a nervous habit.

"I swear, that guy is so greasy he glides when he walks!" Two-bit pretty much yelled. I gave a slight laugh and shook my head. We stopped at the ice cream place and Pony talked to some Soc. After that he was pretty quiet. The guy probably gave him a lot to think about. It didn't matter though, even if either of us wanted to talk we couldn't because you can never get a word in with Two-Bit jabbing over there. When we got to the hospital we all went to see Johnny. When I got in there I saw him laying on the bed. He looked horrible. I walked over and kissed his head.

"Hey Susan." He told me. I found myself starting to cry. He looked to bad. Was he even going to make it.

"Hey Johnny." I said back, "Don't try to talk. Just focus all of your energy on getting better, okay? You have to get better, honey, we need you." I told him. He gave me a weak smile and nodded. I could stay there anymore. He just looked so terrible.

"I love you Johnny, you're like my brother." I told him. I then turned to the others.

"I'm gonna go see Dally. I have to tell him something, important." They nodded and I left. When I got there a nurse was giving Dallas another gown. He took it and rolled his eyes, the moment she left he threw it in the trash. He then turned to me.

"Susan!" He smiled I walked over ans tried my best to smile.

"Hey Dally." I told him. He gave me a worried look when he saw my pitiful attempt at a smile.

"What's wrong?" He asked. I ignored his question and took a deep breath.

"You know I love you, Dally." I told him. His worry seemed to grown.

"What wrong, Susan?" He asked again.

"I got accepted into collage. I'm leaving." I told him in a quiet voice. His breathing seemed to hitch.

"What?" He asked. I could tell he was angry but trying to hold back. This wasn't going well...

"I got accepted. It's practically a full scholarship. You have to understand. I can't turn this down!" I tried to tell him but he wouldn't listen.

"Yes you can!" He yelled, "We just got back together and you're leaving me?"

"What do you want me to do Dally?" I yelled back, "Not go? Spend the rest of my life in this fucked up town?" I normally wasn't one for cursing and was surprised that slipped out.

"Stay." He told me, "Stay with me."

"Dally. This is my only chance to get out of here-"

"And leave me behind!"

"NO! Once I get out I'll come back, I'll get a good job! We can leave-"

"No. Four years is a long time. You'll find someone better you wont want me." He told me.

"Dally..."

"Get out." He told me and pointed to the door, "Just leave. I hope you never come back." I sighed and got up. When I got to the door I turned around.

"I won't forget you Dally." I told him. He just narrowed his eyes and shook his head.

"Go." He told me. I let out a shaky breath and left. I could hear the nurse coming back and Two-Bit and Pony coming down the hall.

"Susan!" Two-Bit called, "Where are you going?" I turned around.

"Back to the house. I'll make lunch. I can't stay here anymore. I'll tell you what happened when you get home." Pony gave me a worried looked but let me go anyways. I hurried back. How could he say that. I looked down at my hand. I still had his ring. I smiled. I don't care what he thinks, I will NEVER forget him.

When I got back I cut up some cake and made ham sandwiches for everyone. I got some water and just sat at the table staring at it.

What the fuck?

What was I doing? I didn't need him. I don't need a man. I can be great. I'll go to collage and go somewhere. People will read my name in textbooks. I will make history. I don't need Dallas Winston.

Lies. That damned voice in my head told me. I ignored it though.

Don't deny it! You love him! He is the reason you live. Ah shut up. I told it. No one asked you. After a while Pony and Two-Bit came back.

"Did you can Dally fight?" Two-Bit asked. Pony just sat down and grabbed a sandwich and nibbled on it. Seeing Johnny had made him all depressed.

"Yea." I whispered, "I told him I was leaving for collage and he just flipped." Two-Bit nodded for a second the stopped what he was doing and snapped his head up.

"WHAT?" He asked. I sighed and gave him the letter. He read it and smiled up at me.

"This is great Susan." I smiled back.

"I know, I want to stay here with him but I'll never get this chance again." I explained. Two-Bit nodded. "Dally is an idiot to tell you not to go." I laughed with him, Two-Bit always had a way of making people feel better.

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I could still hear their yelling down the street. They were all off to the rumble. I kind of wanted Pony to stay home. I didn't tell Darry but he looked bad. I saw him pop like five aspirin, that can NOT be good for you. Though I could see how bad he wanted to fight so I just kept my mouth shut.

I just couldn't get rid of that damned feeling. I knew something bad was going to happen this morning but I just that it was me and Dally fighting... I was wrong though. After that the feeling got worse. I just don't know what to think now... What was going on? The time seemed to inch by and all I did was twirl the ring on my finger... Dallas hated me. He had to. But no one else thought it was my fault... AH! Why can't I just get him out of my head?

After a while the boys came back, except for Pony. They all seemed pretty happy.

"WE WON!" Steve yelled and hugged. I smiled.

"That's great." I told him and looked around, "Where's Pony?" I asked.

"I think he left with Dally." Soda told me.

"Dally is in the hospital." I told him, "He couldn't be at the rumble."

"I guess he broke out." I sighed and went to help them with their cuts, not of them had it too bad. I didn't have to think much. They were all really happy about their win and telling me about how good they were. I laughed with them at how silly they were being. Though my laughter was cut short when Pony walked through the door. He looked like a zombie.

"Where have you been Pony?" Darry asked, he ignored him though.

"Johnny's dead and Dally is gone. We told him we won the rumble and I don't know he just died. Dally's gone, he's finally lost it." I was shocked and started to cry. Johnny?

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Dead?

Just then the phone rang I was paying attention though. But Darry's voice seemed to snap me out of my haze.

"Dally robbed a store. The cops are after him, we've got to hide him!" He told us. No. Not Dally too, I can't lose Dally too! I sprinted out the door with the rest of the gang, heading for the park. I could see him running a gun held up. Where did he get a gun? We tried to get the cops from doing anything rash but it was too late. With a sickening BANG Dallas Winston fell, dead before he hit the ground.

I didn't care anymore I ran to him and held him close, not caring that the police were yelling at me or that blood was gushing onto my white shirt. My Dallas... gone. I took the gun from his hands and quickly put it in my pants. I left and hurried away. I saw Pony fall and Steve tried to stop me but I ran past him. I knew what I need to do.

I ran into Dally's room in Buck's. He told me which one it was and if I ever needed anything to go there. I grabbed once of his shirts from the drawers and pulled it around myself. With shaky hands I looked for what I really came for. Quickly finding it I put it in my pocket and rushed out. This was not the place.

I ran to the lot. Dally and I spent the night looking at the stars here once. I smiled at the memory. Though then the image of him laying dead on the ground flashed in my mind and I started to cry again. I loaded the gun and held it in my hands. This would be easy and fast. Dallas was my reason to live. If he wasn't alive, I wasn't alive. I held the gun up to my temple, it was cold against my skin. I was just about to pull the trigger when I hear frantic yelling.

Okay... You know you HAVE to review after THAT! I mean come on! … Who do you think it is?

-Jasmine