Yes. I am sorry but this IS the last chapter! :(

(SORRY! I HAD TO REPOST THIS CHAPTER! I ACCIDENTALLY DELETED IT!)

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-Jasmine

I didn't want to turn. I wanted it to be over and to be dead but that just wasn't happening. I needed to know who was calling to me. I turned around, but before I could tell who was calling to me I was on the ground, my gun skidding away from me. My confused gray eyes looked up into angry brown ones.

"What are you doing!" He yelled at me. I felt hot tears run down my face.

"Steve..." I told him in a strangled voice, trying so say more, but held back by my tears.

"What the HELL were you trying to do?" He screamed. I just kept crying though. "Damn it!" he yelled, picking me up to drag me out of the lot. I fought back with everything in me, as I tried to get my gun to end this all.

"Oh no you don't!" he told me and pulled me back. He held me close to him to stop the struggling. I wouldn't stop. I was losing it. All I could think about was getting free. I needed to end this. He seemed to pick up that I wasn't going to stop, so he lifted me up, trying his best to carry me without falling.

"Stop it, Susan!" He cried. I kept punching and kicking though, anything to get free. After a moment he burst through the Curtis' front door. I hit a good punch to his ear and out of shock he let me go with one hand. I bit the other and soon my feet touched the ground. I tried to get out of there but he blocked the door.

"Help would be nice right now!" He yelled to the others, who had just been standing there, shocked. I felt strong arms wrap around my waist and I kicked even more.

"Susan you need to calm down." I heard Darry tell me but I didn't care. He was gone. He was gone. He was gone and never coming back. He was gone.

"YOU SUCK STEVE!" I screamed, "WHY THE FUCK COULDN'T YOU HAVE JUST LET ME DIE!" I thrashed and kicked but I couldn't get out of Darry's powerful hold.

"Susan..." Soda said in a comforting voice, putting his hands under my chin, and holding me up to his face, "We can't let you die." He told me. I didn't care though. I needed to die. I needed to be with Dallas. I kicked him and tried to get a good punch in but Darry was holding my arms down.

"Let me go!" I screamed, "I need to be with him!" My world was ending and they wouldn't even let me do what I wanted.

I don't know how long I was there, but they never let me go once. It didn't matter how many times I would kick them, bite them, or punch them they wouldn't let me go. After hours I finally stopped and just melted into my captor, crying.

"Gone..." I sobbed.

"It was his choice, Susan." Soda told me. I nodded.

"I know. I just..." I trailed off and let out a loud sob, "He thinks I hate him..." I whispered. Soda pulled me out of Darry's arms and hugged me, rocking back and forth, telling me that everything was going to be okay. I knew it wasn't but I could act like it would. … No I can't. I just cried and cried. How could he just leave me like this? How could he leave everyone like this? You were going to leave everyone, just like him.

Damn it. I hate when that voice is right.

You were going to do to them what he did to you... Is that what you want?

No. It's not.

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"I'm going to miss you." I told Soda giving him a big hug. I was just getting ready for the drive to the school and stopped to say good bye to them all. I owed them my life, I really did.

It took me a while to get over Dallas...it really took a long time, but I had the whole gang to help me through it. They were there to talk to me when I thought about killing myself and they were there to stop me. They saved me and I couldn't thank them more. I was being selfish. Rachel and Mum, they already lost Dad, they can't loose me too.

"I'll miss you, too." Soda told me, "Don't forget to write." He added. I smiled at him, and said,

"I'll remember, and I'll be back for the holiday." He ruffled my hair.

"Good. I can't go forever without seeing you... And if you need any... help... just call, okay?" He added hesitantly.

"I will." He smiled as I got back in the car for the long drive ahead. Sure, four years was going to be a long time away from home, Dallas was right about that, but I would have winter break and summer break. What Dallas was wrong about was that I would forget him. I would never forget him. Ever. Even if I marry and have a family with someone else, I will never forget Dallas Winston.

Ever.

Believe it or not, this was not the ending I had in mind. I was going to let Susan kill herself and end it with the funeral... But I think I like this better!

Thank you again, and thank you to Hollster09 for beta-ing this chapter.

-Jasmine