I ran through the rain with Merlin at my side. I couldn't believe it was already eight AND it's raining. It's so easy to lose track of time. Thankfully I knew the streets like the back of my hand, the back streets, and shortcuts; instead of it taking 5 minutes to get home it only took 2. But I know that wasn't enough. I was late. And Karen would be at the door, like she always is, tapping her foot and looking at her watch. So hammy. I ran through the last bit of bushes to see my house. And there she was, doing her performance, all for my eyes I assure you.
"You're late." Her tone was low and annoyed.
"I'm sorry" I reply sincerely. I didn't mean to be late.
As she ushers me in, a since of déjà vu hits me. I've done this before... but when. My sense of sound seemed to dull as I went through the familiar motions. I feel my lips moving and hear the sound of its annoyance, but I've done this all before, I'm not that annoyed. We are arguing, me and Karen; I can tell by the faces she is making, thankfully I don't hear what she is saying. But I'm sure I've heard it all before.
Suddenly I feel a pull to go upstairs,
Oh ya
I storm off.
How immature.
Slamming my door as soon as I get into my room, I head to my vanity.
'Maybe if I practice the lines more
...
Or maybe getting into character will help.'
I put on my red lipstick and began my lines. I know them so well... until that stupid-
My father knocks on my door interrupting my thoughts and recitment.
Annoying.
"What do you want" I yell.
"Just wanted to talk to you-"
Blah blah blah. I know he is lying. He would have tried harder, he never tries. It didn't take him long to leave, in fact I don't think he broke the minute marker.
Impressive.
Of course he didn't forget to tell me where Toby is. No wonder I made that wish. My own father won't make a single effort to connect with me, not even yell at me.
Jealousy for Toby's attention.
I laughed inside my head. I wasn't thinking this then. No I was fuming then. Throwing myself on the bed.
Plop
Yup. There I go. It's like a movie. But instead of me watching, I'm playing with no control. I can't help but wonder
Why?
Why am I seeing this again?
I notice Lancelot is missing, I know where it is, even then I knew.
I stormed into Toby's room, bigger than mine and all to himself.
Spoiled.
As I neared the crib I started to feel a tear. It's hard to describe exactly how it felt,
my body was leaving me,
I could see myself walking away,
it got colder but more energy started to flow.
Instead of watching out of my own eyes, I can see me, walking away from myself.
It's not as frightening as one might expect,
just...
Strange.
I watched myself pick up Lancelot.
I am so dramatic.
Sure Toby is spoiled, but so am I
I
Slash Sarah 1
Because I assume I'm second to this equation
Starts to recite her lines.
The lines that condemned me to run the labyrinth.
Toby cries,
I get annoyed.
I say the lines then I head out,
Yes,
I know this.
A loud buzz hit as Sarah 1 got to the door.
I stood
If stood is really the word
In the bedroom
As I watched time freeze.
I froze.
But only for a moment out of shock
Sarah had just turned off the light
The room was only lit by the convenient lightening strike that hit at right on time.
The illumination cast many shadows,
One looming over Toby's crib.
I walked,
No I'm not a complete being,
So it's more like I'm gliding,
But that's a bit too,
I don't know.
Toby is mid cry.
Not a cute face,
Twisted in agony,
Dramatic,
Just like me
I smile.
Inside.
I love Toby
But what is this feeling?
I must be dreaming.
Must be.
I notice the dead silence.
Before there was a buzz,
Something I took for granted.
The silence was eerie.
Creeping around me filling my ears
I know
I know
With what?
Fear.
Why was this happening?
I looked around the room again and saw myself,
Sarah
She was in the hall
Going back to my room.
Oh.
I think I know why this is happening.
My vision goes black,
Mostly because I do not have eyes to close,
This is it.
This is when it happened, all if it.
Ok.
Its edited, but i didn't have much time. I would have more but im so busy. JEEZ
and i know this one is weird. But its meant to be.
tell me if you hate it or love it. I'd loveee to know
3 Buffy