Summary:Holly J & Fiona starting just before rehab everything that has happened up til then is as it was in the show. Holly J finds the journal page but doesn't give it to Adam instead she keeps it with the intent of talking to Fiona about it after rehab.

Disclaimer:I don't own any part of Degrassi.

Author's Notes:This is inspired by the promo of Holly J and Fiona kissing. As well as the theory I recently thought of where the journal entry was actually about HJ and not Adam. We never saw the entry itself very clearly so we don't know for sure if it says that it's about Adam or not.

**This chapter will dominantly revolve around Fiona's last morning at the clinic. It's a Saturday and Holly J and her mother will be at the clinic around 2 for her last group meeting and then to take her home.

Chapter 3

'Today is the day' Fiona thought to herself with a long love sigh as she sat up in bed. Today was the day she was going home. She climbed out of bed and grabbed her favorite pair of tight fitting jeans, a navy blue tank, and a navy silk button up, heading to take a shower and get ready to see Holly J, who had promised to be there to get her today.

'Today is going to be a good day. Today is going to be a new beginning for me' Fiona said to herself as she finished doing her makeup in the mirror in her room. Packing up her makeup she threw it into her bag and grabbed her laptop out before closing the bag. She tucked her laptop under one arm and slung her duffel bag strap over her head and across her chest before heading out to the lounge area to wait for her final meeting with her therapy group which wouldn't happen until after 2pm because that was when her mother and Holly J would be there to get her.

On the way out of her room she nearly ran into her doctor.

"Hello Fiona" her doctor said with a smile.

"Hey doc" Fiona said as she attempted to sneak around the therapist without much conversation. "Fiona you are getting out today are you ready?"

"Yes I am so happy to be going home" she muttered sighing as she realized that she wouldn't just be able to sneak around and avoid the conversation.

"Im glad to hear that. Where were you in such a hurry to get to?"

"Just going to sit in the garden and do some writing and maybe check FaceRange since i haven't been on in a few weeks and I was told that I could be on my computer until my final meeting."

"Yes that's true you can be." She said stepping to the side with a smile. "Thanks have a good day" Fiona said with a smirk as she moved passed the doctor not staying long enough to hear what else she had to say.

Fiona sighed happily as she found a bench to sit on in the garden. Sitting she placed her bag on the ground at her feet. She opened her laptop turning it on and placing it on the bench next to as she positioned herself cross legged in front of the computer. She opened up the internet and set out to write a new blog entry.

First Day of Freedom

Today is going to be my first day out of rehab and I am looking forward to seeing the world with new eyes untainted by alcohol…

She sat there deciding if she wanted to type out everything she was looking forward to. As she was thinking her thoughts wandered to Adam, Declan, and Holly J, the three people she was most looking forward to really talking to. As much as Adam was hurt and upset by their last conversation she really hoped he would talk to her again at least once. With that thought she deleted her started blog and decided she would write later if she felt up to it. She went up to the address bar of her browser and went to the FaceRange login screen. After logging in she instantly went to her friends list and searched for Adam Torres. She sighed, relieved to see that Adam had not deleted her from FaceRange. She noticed he was online. She hovered over his name wondering if he would talk to her if she im'd him. Deciding that might not be best she opened a new message.

Subject: I'm sorry…

Message between FiFi Coyne and Adam Torres

Adam,

I know our last conversation didn't go very well and for that I am very sorry. I truly did not want to tell you what I told you that way. I get out of rehab today and I am hoping that you will give me a chance to talk to you and maybe we can be friends. I understand if you still aren't ready to talk to me. I also understand if you choose to delete me and never talk to me again. I do hope you will at least talk to me and tell me you don't want to talk to me anymore. Hope to talk to you soon.

~Fi

She hovered her cursor over the send button debating if she really wanted to send it. As she was about to click send a box popped up on the bottom of her screen with the familiar ping announcing a new message. She clicked the bar and saw the message was from none other than Adam. She smiled and read.

Adam_Torres: Hey Fi. Im really sorry about a few weeks ago just logging out on you like that. I didn't know what to say and I just didn't know how to deal with what you told me. I saw you online and thought I would message you to see if we could talk sometime when you get the chance.

She smiled as she read laughing slightly. 'I cant believe he is apologizing to me but at least he still wants to talk she thought'

She clicked the bar and began to type

Fifi-Coyne: Hi Adam. Im really sorry about the way I told you what was going on. I really didn't want to do it that way. You don't need to apologize I understand why you reacted the way you did and I don't blame you honestly. I really wish that could have happened differently. I do want to continue to talk to you and stay friends.

Fiona clicked cancel on the message she had typed out and went back to her homepage and waited as patiently as she could while Adam typed his response.

Adam_Torres: I don't want to just stop talking to you completely but Fi I just don't know how well it will work considering how I still feel about you. Those kind of feelings don't just go away. I still hurt over what you told me and how you told me. We can try to remain friends but for now can we just stick to talking on here when you can. I don't know when you get done with rehab but when you do depending on when it is maybe we can get together and talk.

Fifi-Coyne: I get out today Adam. I am just waiting for my final meeting before I actually am out of here. I know that feelings don't just go away. I am so sorry for hurting you like I did. I am more than ok with us just talking on here for now until you decide you want to get together or something.

Adam_Torres: Wow. Today huh? I didn't realize you would be out so soon. Will you be returning to Degrassi then?

Fifi-Coyne: Yes im getting out today. It doesn't feel like its 'so soon'. I will be reenrolling at Degrassi on Monday. I will be glad to be back. Im looking forward to seeing everyone again.

Adam_Torres: Im sure there are going to be a lot of people happy to have you back, Fi. I have to get going for now. I have some housework to do before I meet Eli at the comic book store.

Fifi-Coyne: Ok Adam take care I do hope we can talk soon. :)

Adam Torres has logged out. Fi sighed and clicked the bar on the bottom right of the screen to see who else was online. She smirked when she noticed her brother, Declan, was on. She clicked his name and typed.

Fifi-Coyne: Hey Decs :)

DeclanC: Hey Fi, how are you doing?

Fifi-Coyne: Im great it feels really good to be sober. How are you?

DeclanC: Im great. Vanderbilt is a pain but it's the fast track to Yale so here I am.

Fifi-Coyne: Decs I have something I want to tell you. Its something I used to drink to hide but my therapist says it will help my sobriety if I talk to people that are important to me about it.

DeclanC: Ok whats up Fi?

Fifi-Coyne: Its got to do with HJ. I know you don't really want to talk about or hear about her but I really hope you will let me anyway.

DeclanC: its ok Fi if it will help you stay sober I am willing to listen to whatever it is that you have to say no matter who its about.

Fifi-Coyne: Well…uhhh….im not really sure how to start this…so here goes. I have been drinking for a long time but my drinking got more intense around the time Holly J came into the picture. Everyone assumed that I hated HJ because she was taking you away from me. That's what I let everyone assume but the truth is that I was jealous of you because you had her. As wrong as I knew it was to feel that way I have been attracted to HJ since you started dating her. I didn't know how to tell you. I have fallen for her. She is my best friend but im also in love with her and I couldn't handle the feelings then and that is why I have been drinking so much. I hope you understand.

DeclanC: Fi, I know that was hard for you to admit. I had suspected that it was the case for awhile but I didn't know how to talk to you about it without making you feel cornered and causing you to drink more. I am glad you are finally admitting your feelings and dealing with this. As much as it pains me to say this because I do still love her. If you think she will give you a chance and if you think she will make you happy then go for it. I already lost her and I cant get her back. So it would be cruel of me to say that I would be mad at you if you tried it when I know I cant have her anyway.

Fifi-Coyne: Thank you Declan. I am so glad you said that. I was so scared that you would be so mad that you wouldn't want to talk to me for awhile! I love you Decs you are the best brother any girl could ask for.

DeclanC: I love you too Fi. I have to get going now but I will talk to you soon. Might even come for a visit soon to celebrate you making it through rehab and staying sober!

Fifi-Coyne: See you soon then :)

DeclanC: See you soon.

Declan Coyne has logged out. Fiona smiled wide to herself knowing that she had her brother's approval and permission was a great feeling. Nothing could stop her from pursuing the one person that had helped her through rehab unknown to her.

'I am going to tell her how I feel soon' Fiona thought to herself pushing her laptop aside and leaning against the tree behind the bench to think while she waited for her meeting time.

…

Sometime later she heard a quiet ping of a message coming from her laptop. She sat up and reached for it checking the time. 'I must have dozed off' she thought as she realized it had been over an hour since she had pushed her laptop away. She clicked the lit up box on the bottom of the screen and read.

HollyJS: Hey Fi. You ready to come home today?

Fifi-Coyne: Yes more than ready! I cant wait to see you HJ!

HollyJS: I'm looking forward to seeing you too Fi. :)

Fifi-Coyne: When do you think you will be here?

HollyJS: Probably close to meeting time so about 2. Are you that anxious to see me?

Fiona contemplated how to answer that. She wondered if HJ was being sarcastic or joking when she said the last part. She decided to play it safe and responded with "Im excited to be out of here and seeing everyone again!"

HollyJS: Fi, I have something I want to ask you about after we get you home ok?

Fifi-Coyne: Of course HJ. You can ask me anything. I also have something I want to talk to you about once I am at home again.

Just as she clicked enter to send the message she wondered if she really should have sent it. 'No going back now' she muttered and waited for HJ to respond. Several agonizing minutes later she got a new message.

HollyJS: Sure thing, Fi. We can talk whenever you feel you are ready :)

Fiona sighed and decided maybe it was best to end the conversation there before she went too far and said something she would regret blurting out this soon.

Fifi-Coyne: HJ, I'm going to take a nap before you come because I didn't sleep well last night. I was too excited about today.

HollyJS: Ok, Fi. I will talk to you when I get there then.

With that Fiona logged out. She logged out of FaceRange and turned off her computer setting it next to her once more. She leaned back against the tree again and closed her eyes. She thought about how she was going to tell Holly J the most important thing she had ever told someone before. She fell asleep against that tree with the warm sun beating down on her.

Well there it is Chapter 3. Ok I know you were probably hoping for more but I had to end it there or it would be far longer than I want my chapter to be. But don't worry! I will have chapter 4 up sooner than you realize! It will pick up right where this one leaves off.

Im sorry this is more of just a filler chapter but I felt the fact that Fiona is in love with Declan's ex needed to be addressed but he is still off in New York so I thought this was the only way. And I couldn't just leave Adam and Fi not talking.

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