Summary:Holly J & Fiona starting just before rehab everything that has happened up til then is as it was in the show. Holly J finds the journal page but doesn't give it to Adam instead she keeps it with the intent of talking to Fiona about it after rehab.

Disclaimer:I don't own any part of Degrassi. I do however own my character, Hayley.

Author's Notes:This is inspired by the promo of Holly J and Fiona kissing. As well as the theory I recently thought of where the journal entry was actually about HJ and not Adam. We never saw the entry itself very clearly so we don't know for sure if it says that it's about Adam or not.

I owe a big thanks to my sis, Brittany, for helping me with Hayley and other minor details for this chapter! She was a great sounding board for me!

Sorry it took so long to get this update out. I have been having some serious rl issues. With any luck in the next 24 to 48 hours I will also have chapter 5 up since I have some writing time again finally. :)

Don't forget to review! I love reviews :D

**POVs will switch throughout the chapter**

Chapter 4

Fiona woke to someone gently shaking her shoulder. She groaned mentally not sure who was waking her but knowing that she wasn't ready to be awake. Could 3 hours really have gone by that quickly? Fiona wondered as she slow opened her eyes to find Holly J and her mom standing next to the bench. She sat up quickly and took in Holly J she looked ravishing in her dark blue jeans and chocolate brown button up that made her gorgeous sky blue eyes seem even bluer. Her strawberry blonde hair was curled just enough to frame her soft face. Fiona found her eyes drifting to Holly J's soft pink pouty lips. She thought of kissing them, feeling if they were as soft as they looked. She licked her suddenly dry lips pulling her bottom lip between her teeth nibbling it lightly as she fell deeper into thought.

"Darling?" Fiona's mom said softly touching her shoulder. "huh?" Fiona mumbled as she snapped out of her thoughts "sorry got lost in my thoughts for a minute"

"how are you feeling Fi?" Holly J asked smiling brightly at her. Fiona smiled up at Holly J and answered as honestly as she could "much better now that you're here" she knew that HJ would assume she meant her and her mom and that was fine for now.

Fiona stood up gathering her computer under her arm and snickered when she realized that HJ had already picked up her bag. "thanks HJ" she said as she turned to head back into the clinic to where her final group meeting would be held.

…

…

…

Holly J followed behind Fiona so proud of her friend for having made it through rehab. 'I just hope this lasts I cant continue to have to take care of her on top of everything else going on in my life' Holly J thought to herself as they walked into the meeting room. Holly J looked around at all the people gathered in the room. Some of them looked confused and upset to be there like they were still fighting with being there. Some she could clearly see were either close to release or had their bags and were ready to be released today after this meeting. She watched Fiona walk into the group gathered near the middle of the room and start to talk to a few people. Soon she saw Fiona walking over to her with a girl about her height, with strawberry blonde hair similar to her own.

"HJ, this is Hayley she came here the same day as me and we discovered in group that we had a lot in common." Fiona said as Holly J looked over the girl that was startlingly similar to herself. The biggest difference she found was Hayley's eyes were a strikingly intense emerald green. She couldn't help but think that it was strange how similar this girl was to herself.

"Hi Hayley nice to meet you" Holly J said offering her hand. Hayley took it with a smile. "Hi Holly J. It is nice to finally meet you. Fiona has told me so much about you" The last of that statement surprised her and it took a bit of work to not the let the surprise show on her face, she hoped it didn't show too much.

"Fi has told me a lot about you too" she said dropping her hand to her side. She smiled wide and as genuinely as possible knowing that what she had just said was an outright lie. She couldn't remember Fiona ever mentioning this girl in their few short conversations.

After a short but awkward silence Fiona smiled and said "well the meeting is about to start. Hayley I will be over in a second" she said ushering Hayley away. Fiona turned and said "HJ I am so glad you could make it I have missed you so much." She hugged Holly J tightly.

"Of course I came, Fi. I promised I would be here. I have missed you too" she said hugging her best friend back. "Im going to go sit by your mom, we will talk more after the meeting and we can go out for a late lunch" she suggested encouragingly.

"That sounds like a great idea" Fiona said as she turned to head to her seat. After a few members of the recovery group shared what they had to say, some still in denial about being an alcoholic and some coming to terms and admitting they needed the help rehab, it came time for Fiona to stand up in the group and say what she had to say. Holly J realized as Fiona stood that she would be the last to talk before the meeting was over.

Holly J watched as her best friend stepped into the middle of the circle of rehab patients and began what she could only imagine was one the hardest things Fiona would ever have to say.

She saw Fiona take a deep breath before beginning.

"My name is Fiona and I am an alcoholic. I have been sober for 42 days. The 42 days I have spent here have taught me so much. They taught me that my drinking was only a mask for my underlying problems and I am learning to become more self aware. For instance I have trouble with relationships. My ex-boyfriend, he was abusive and that was one of the reasons why I drank. I also have come to realize who in my life cares about me. Some of those people are here today and I thank them from the bottom of my heart for helping me see that I had a problem and I needed help. Mom, Holly J I couldn't have made it through this without you." She stopped for a moment to turn and smile at each of them. Holly J smiled back and laughed under her breath when Fiona subtly winked at her before continuing,

"These last six weeks have been hard but I know that life outside these walls will be a constant battle. I am an addict but I pledge to work at it every day." She finished and let out a soft sigh. Holly J watched what she could only assume was Fiona's therapist approach her offering a hand as she said, "Fiona I am very pleased to say that you are no longer an inpatient."

Holly J stood and rushed over to her best friend and threw her arms around the brunette girl saying "Congrats!"

"Thanks again for coming Holly J" Fiona said with an audible sigh. One Holly J could only define as a sigh of relief. "Of course Fi I wouldn't have missed this for the world"

Fiona smiled wide and proudly stated "the days of you taking care of me are over. I'm a rehab grad now. I'm strong."

Holly J smiled at Fiona laughing softly as if she had made a joke. Silently she was overjoyed to no longer have to worry about getting Fiona to bed after she drank herself unconscious. Now she could just simply enjoy time with her best friend. As Holly J's mind began to ramble about what they could do she heard Fiona's mother's voice which snapped her back to reality.

"I am so proud of you sweetheart and so well spoken." Fiona's mother said as she hugged her daughter. "Good I will need all the public speaking practice I can get for my court appearance this week" Fiona responded.

Holly J tilted her head briefly in confusion before asking "the Bobby trial is this week?" She looked from Fiona to her mother and back again. A muffled "mmhmm" was Fiona's response before she seemed to register the worried look on her mother's face.

"Mom, what's wrong?" she asked sounding concerned. "About the trial, we need to talk." She said as all three of them began to walk towards the exit of the clinic stopping only to pick up Fiona's bag.

As they exited the building Holly J noticed Fiona stopped. She looked back at her friend quizzically. Fiona simply smiled and looked around. After a few moments she started walking again and all three got into a taxi and headed out to lunch. They decided to go to a small bistro not far from the clinic.

…

…

…

Once they were seated on the small brick terrace of the bistro Fiona looked around listening to the cars driving by just enjoying the sounds of the city as if she was hearing them for the first time. She smiled at Holly J and at her mother. Her mother still had a concerned frown set on her face.

"Mom, what is going on?" She asked not sure how much longer she could go without knowing what was wrong. "This can wait until we get home sweetheart. Let's just enjoy our lunch." She heard her mother say no doubt attempting to brush the subject aside.

"If you are avoiding it because Holly J is here mom, don't. I would probably just end up calling her to let her know what is going on anyway" Fiona stated matter-of-factly as she looked at Holly J who smiled at her. She took it as encouragement and continued to ask. "Is there something wrong? Did something happen with the case?"

She watched as her mother took a deep breath and reached into her purse. "This came from Bobby's lawyers." She stated handing Fiona a tri-folded piece of paper. Fiona took it and looked it over becoming more confused. As she was scanning the letter again she read part of it out loud. "If this financial compensation is not accepted then the trial will continue as scheduled." She looked up at her mother as she finished.

"Financial compensation?" She questioned. "Bobby is offering to pay us one hundred thousand dollars if we drop the charges." Fiona looked shocked. She couldn't even believe it. Bobby was scared, of her! That was all the fuel Fiona needed. "Forget it, mom. Bobby is guilty, and its not like we really need the money."

"Fiona, you know I'm the first person to support you but…" Her mother said with a worried tone, "the last time, with your deposition, it triggered your drinking." Fiona was starting to get frustrated.

"Mom I'm better! I have coping techniques! I learned a lot in rehab, I can handle this." Fiona argued looking at Holly J hoping she would help. Holly J didn't say anything. "Fiona a trial right now would be overwhelming for you and besides do you really want to be in the same room as Bobby?"

"You are the one that said we can't let Bobby get away with this." Fiona argued practically pleading with her mom not to make her take the deal. "Well things have changed and I just want whats best for you sweetheart. Do you understand-" "Yes I understand mom" Fiona interrupted her mother huffing for a moment. Just as she was about to argue more her mother's phone started to ring. She excused herself to answer it leaving Fiona and Holly J to chat amongst themselves.

"She doesn't think I'm strong enough. You heard her. She wants me to take the settlement." Fiona sighed feeling rather defeated. Fiona looked at Holly J her eyes pleading with the best friend to help her figure out how to change her moms mind.

"You are strong you can do this. You got through rehab. All you have to do at the trial is tell the truth. Besides you must have made one hell of a deposition if he is offering a settlement. " Holly J said. Fiona thought about that for a moment and suddenly it dawned on her. "To offer a settlement he must be scared!" She stated triumphantly.

"Help me convince my mom that the trial is a good idea?" She asked. Holly J smiled at her and nodded. Fiona sighed internally thankful to have Holly J in her life even if it was just as a friend. She admired her best friend in so many ways and what she wouldn't give to be able to tell Holly J exactly how she felt. She stared at her gorgeous best friend and longed to call her more than just her best friend.

Well there it is! Chapter 4…You are probably wondering how Fiona and Holly J are going to convince her mom a trial is a good idea. Well Chapter 5 will be the place it all gets worked out.

I know it took me forever to get this chapter up but my real life has been absolutely crazy lately and I just didn't have the time or the will to write happy things. I am happy to report that things are much better now and I will have a little more time to write and I have many things planned for Fiona and Holly J. Some of them will be plotlines similar to the show. Some will hit you out of nowhere and leave you wondering what just happened. ^_^ Either way I hope you enjoy this chapter and I hope you are as excited to see what I have in store for these two as I am excited to write it.

Leave me some reviews let me know how im doing! Am I doing great? Let me know. Am I the worst fanfic writer you've ever read? Well let me know that too. Give me ideas on how you think I could do better. Tell me what you really like about my story or my writing. I don't care either way reviews make my day. Also if you want more chapters you gotta leave me some reviews :D

Other than that I have nothing left to say but….

TTFN ^_~

~Lady Abegayle