I'm doing a little recap. Alex and Addison have 2 years of difference between them. When Alex's brother told Addison about the fake Alex's death she was 19 years old. Alex left New York with his mother, his brother and sister some weeks after Alex's father left them. They moved to Iowa and Alex left the Army too. Alex went to College after he worked some years, that's why is a 37 years old intern. He's at his first year as an intern. The other story line are the same as in the show. Only Alex is older.

The elevator was crowded that morning. Alex was leaning against the wall reading a newspaper. He was near the second door, Meredith stepped inside with Shepherd and the Chief. Alex shook his head with a sarcastic smirk. He disliked so much Derek. And the funny thing is that he didn't know why.

"What are you doing here, Richard?"

"I'm going back to work." The Chief replied.

"You're not cleared for surgery."

"Leave me alone. I've been sitting home for a week. Watching Oprah give away things on TV. Oprah, Derek. You clear me now or I'll hurt you."

"You should've thought about me clearing you before you gave Chief to Burke and invited Satan to Seattle."

"Satan?"

"Good morning. Richard, I like the hat." Addison stepped inside the elevator, brushing her arm against Alex's. The elevator now was less crowded. Addison, Richard, Meredith and Derek were giving Alex their backs. Alex eyes were studying Addison. "Nice ass." He thought with a smirk.

"Satan speaks." Derek smirked.

"Actually I prefer to be called Ruler of all that is evil, but I will answer to Satan." Addison smirked too, but more annoyed than her husband.

"Why is she still here?" Derek asked to Richard, clearly not happy and comfortable with Addison behind him.

"I asked her to stay. We have a pediatric surgery attending on maternity leave."

"Actually, I could use you on a consult. Will you meet me up, there, Derek?"

"Yeah. Fine."

"See you, Richard." Both Addison and Derek said when Dr. Webber left the elevator. Addison's phone was ringing so she picked up the call.

"Skipping rounds? Derek asked Meredith. Derek, Meredith, Addison and Alex were now the only one in that elevator.

"Avoiding mother, she has being admitted this morning." Meredith shrugged, acting like she didn't care.

"Meredith…"

"You've got a wife." She whispered, nodding towards Addison still on the phone.

"Yes."

"You're life is complicated."

"Yes."

"I don't need that. I have complicated all on my own."

"Yes."

"Stop saying yes."

"I'm trying not to make any sudden movements."

"You think this is funny?"

"Addison's leaving. She has no more patients here. There's no reason to be here." Derek whispered, with a satisfied smile. Alex's eyes snapped to his boss. He felt his face burning when he took a quick look to the red woman with the nice ass. Alex swallowed. In front of him was Addison. His Addison. His breath was more quickly now.

"No reason?" Meredith asked skeptical.

"None whatsoever."

"Well now, isn't this cosy? Can I join in or are you not into threesomes?" Addison asked, after have ended the call.

"I have to go." Meredith sighed and left the elevator as quickly as she could.

"Meredith.." Derek tried to stop her but she was already gone, so he turned to Addison. "You really are Satan. Your realize that, right? If Satan were to take physical form, he'd be you. Everywhere, all the time."

"I am so not Satan." Addison sighed exhausted.

"Why haven't you gotten on your broomstick and left?"

"Stop being petty." She fired.

"Addison, stop being an adulterous bitch." Derek fired back. Alex gritted his teeth. He couldn't believe it. She wasn't his Addison anymore. Yes, she has always been a smartass but the mouthful one was him. He never heard her speaking like that. And what hurt him more is the way Derek was talking to her.

"You are going to forgive me eventually? You can't just… There was a time you thought of me as your best friend?"

"There was a time when I thought you were the love of my life. Things change." In the meanwhile Addison handed him some documents. "Divorce papers."

"The lawyer said they're ok. I haven't signed them yet. The ball's in your court. If you sign, I'll sign. I'll sign and be on the first plane out of here."

"I'll sign them immediately. I want you out here as soon as possible."

"Derek, have you ever thought that, even if I am Satan and an adulterous bitch that I still might be the love of your life?" Derek looked at her in a weird way, like he was thinking about it. And then he left. Now Alex and Addison were the only one in the elevator.

"There was a time when I thought of you as my best friend and the love of my life too. I have to say that thing is changed too." Alex said in a rough and irritated voice. He wasn't angry at her, he was angry at himself and at Addison's father. She moved on. She got married thinking that he was missing, maybe dead. He wasn't able to do relationships. He hadn't a relationship after Addison, only random fuck.

Addison froze. She recognized that voice. She didn't hear that voice in almost 20 years. She thought that voice was death.

Addison slowly turned to face him, her heart was beating fast. She was pale, ready to pass out.

"I'm going crazy." She laughed hysterically. "I'm alone in an elevator, talking to a ghost. This situation with my husband made me go crazy."

"I wish that I'm a ghost, Adds." Alex was looking at her with his jaws clenched.

"No, no, no. You're dead. You're…your brother told me." She was hysterical.

"I wish. I would prefer to be dead instead of see you and Dr. Shepherd talk like that." He growled, biting every words.

"I'm alive. I'm alive, Addison. I really am in front of you." Alex grabbed her hand and rested it on his heart. "I'm alive." He repeated and Addison was staring at him. She then slapped him. So hard that her hand hurts. He swallowed, putting his hand on his cheek now red for the slap.

"You left me. You left me like a freaking coward. You send your brother to tell me that you went missing. 20 years spent waiting for you. Trying to convince myself that you couldn't be dead. You don't even know what my life was after your brother told me. You don't know how my life became."

"You and your husband have just gave me a pretty good recap. So you became a bitch? Someone that screw an other man while she's married?" Alex smirked annoying and she slapped him again. More hard and angry this time. It wasn't his fault. He was full of angry. He carried his angry for 20 years and now he couldn't stop it.

"I loved you every day. Every freaking day of my life I loved you." Now she was again Addison Forbes Montgomery-Shepherd. Double certified surgeon and OB/GYN. She wasn't Alex's Adds anymore. "But now I hate you. I've been disappointed in my life, but never like I am now. I have cheated on Derek.." she said angry, and Alex thought that she really was Satan in that moment. "I regret it the moments later, and now I regret the day that I fell in love with you."

She was an inch away from his face and he cut her of kissing her. Alex crushed his lips on hers, pinning her against the elevator wall, hiding the hurt that came from her words. She tasted the same. Addison almost gave up but then she pushed him slapping him for the third time.

"Stay the hell away from me." She said to him with her voice raised. The elevator reached her floor and she left it without looking back at him.

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There was a knock on her door. She quickly went to open it thinking that it was Alex. She was waiting for him. They planned that night a week ago..When she opened the door, she raised her eyebrows seeing Alex's brother instead of Alex.

"I..have to tell you something." He began slowly, going inside her room. "Alex..Alex is not coming."

"He could have called me.." Addison sighed, her heart dropped to her feet.

"He can't call you anymore. Addison, it's better if you sit down."

"What are you saying? Just say what you have to say, please."

"He went missing during a drill. There are small chances that he's alive." He faked some tears, just to be more persuasive.

Everything went dark to Addison. She couldn't breath, speak, her world was spinning so fast that she was feeling sick. She felt Alex's brother's arms taking her and he carried her on the bed. He stayed there with her the whole night. She didn't sleep. She cried the whole night and he could feel her pain too. When he asked her how she was feeling she simply shook her head and for a month she didn't speak to anyone. Even to her brother.

"Is this sit taken?" a very good looking guy, with fabulous dark hair asked her in the cafeteria. She shook her head and he sat down with his friend.

"I'm Derek, by the way." He introduced and himself and then his friend. "And he's Mark."

"Addison Adr..Just Addison." Addison Adrienne was Alex's girlfriend. And Alex wasn't there anymore.

"So just Addison." Derek smiled and Mark grinned amused by his friend's behavior.

"We saw you in some classes, we can study together you know. You're always alone.."

"Yeah, whatever, we can study together." She simply smiled. But that wasn't her smile, was a sad one.

Everything was dead in her with Alex. She felt in love with Derek, that was true. She let him fall for her too. They began to be inseparable but that wasn't the same like it was with Alex. She loved Derek, she really loved him, and he loved her back. She really thought that he was the love of her life, she meant it. And the same was for Derek…but their put so much in their career that they stop to look at each other like they always did. They became lazy, they didn't fight anymore. Derek didn't see her anymore. They were married, they lived together, but Addison felt a lot of distance between her and her husband. In those days she let herself think back to Alex, to how things were different with him. He always put her in the first place. And she did the same. She missed him. Always. Addison 'transformed' Derek in what Alex was for her: bestfriend, boyfriend. And then husband.

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"Alex I need help here." Izzie yelled him when he stepped inside the pit. "They're pregnant, we need to call the OB/GYN quickly."

He didn't reply, just nodded. Izzie began to suture her patient. Alex waited there reading to the patients' charts, not really focusing on them. He was thinking to Addison and how bad he talked to her. He was in shock too just like her.

"Alex, call the She-Shepherd now." She repeated when Alex didn't move.

"Going. Hey nurse, call dr Montgomery-Shepherd freaking now." Alex growled toward the nurses' station.

"We have to move you, don't worry you're in very good hands." Izzie was speaking to her patient while Alex's patient, pregnant as well, rose from her stretcher.

"Where are you bring her?" she was following Izzie.

"Ma'am you can't leave the pit." Alex following them too but he thought that he could runs some ob/gyn exams on his patient.

"Karev what are you doing? Why your patient is running in the hallways?" Addison yelled at him.

"She was following her friend, I thought that.."

"You thought what? It's irresponsible." She snapped at him.

"I THOUGHT THAT I COULD RUN SOME EXAMS ON HER TOO." He yelled back angry. Everyone stared at them. Dr Bailey too, and could tell that she was angry like hell.

"Sorry." He mumbled to Addison, who was livid.

"I once was your bestfriend, your girlfriend. But now I'm your boss, that you like it or not. You don't get to talk me like that. Is that clear?" Alex simply nodded, staring back at her.

"Is that clear, Karev?"

"Yes, Dr Montgomery."

"It's Montgomery-Shepherd, Karev."

"For me it'll be always Montgomery, the Montgomery-Shepherd is a bitch that cheats on her husband." He whispered, raising an eyebrow. Addison was fuming with anger. "How Addison Adrienne became a whore? How that happened?"

"You're a doctor, how that happened? Especially when I was the one who always helped you study because you were so lazy to do your homework? What about the Army? You were so lazy that you left your dream too?" she fired back , whispering, and walked away.

"I don't know what's going on between the two of you, but you can't yell at your boss." Dr. Miranda Bailey hit him with her charts. "Am I clear?"

"Yes, Dr. Bailey."

"You know what? The best punishment that I could give you is put you on Dr. Montgomery-Shepherd's service. So..Have fun."

"Fuck, this is a nightmare." Alex hissed after left.

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