AN: The partner slash sequel of Housmates with Benefits.
Standard Disclaimer Applied (with a scotch tape)
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Letting go and Pushing away isn't the same thing
I never thought he'd actually come, hell I never thought he'd actually find out and be best friends with the guy I'll marry! I mean…God! How weird is this?
I'm wearing a traditional wedding kimono. It's quite heavy but I really like it, it's elegant yet simple, just how I like it. I saw him talking with my husband.
Whoa. Husband… I'm actually married now.
If you're wondering if he knows who I am and what I've done with the last 24 years of my life, the answer would be; yes, he does know.
He knows that I've slept with many men before; he knows that I've done shit in my life but fixed it. He knows. But the fact that the one of the guys I slept with before was his best friend, that, he didn't know.
And for the better, I hope he will never know.
Ok so yeah, he knows all those shit right? Why'd he marry me?
Dunno.
But we did agree with me staying in one place in exchange of him clearing all my records. It was a win, win for me. I saw Blondie glance at me from the corner of his exposed eye.
I smiled.
This was the guy I slept with, shared a house with and all those other stuff.
Did I love him?
I don't know but I can tell you that there was something.
Love in my world is a bit on the unknown part of my life. Maybe I love him, maybe I don't. But to tell you the truth, what I am feeling for him is enough to make my chest tighten.
Maybe I miss him?
As smart as I am, I'm not knowledgeable about love.
Heh, I learned that line from Shika-kun. He's my former boss.
The reception was coming to a close and I really need to go to the little girl's room, so I did after I kissed my husband (whoa) on the cheek.
I should've but didn't expect Blondie to be standing outside the little girl's room the moment I stepped out.
I raised an eyebrow and joked; "What, you're coming out of the closet now?"
He didn't respond, I think he's serious now.
"Why'd you marry him, un?"
"I don't know"
There was no use in lying to the person I've spend a decent amount of time with.
He glared at me
"That's stupid un! If you don't love him, why'd you marry him, un?"
"Whoever said, I didn't love him?"
I turned my back and began to walk back towards the reception when Blondie grasped my wrist.
"Do you love him?"
"I don't know."
The absence of 'un' was making me restless.
"Did you love me?"
Did I? I don't know.
"Maybe, maybe not"
"Then why'd you leave?"
"Because you let me"
His grips loosen and I ran back to my husband's side.
He let me go again.
POST NOTES: The two pairings I so love and support. SasoSaku and DeiSaku, although I haven't made a SasoSaku fic yet.