Tortured Memories
PoD- "Okay, at the beginning of this chapter it will kinda explain everything between Sakura and Sasuke and Naruto. Kay? So focus and pay attention!"
Chpater Twelve
I stared up at Kakashi. He was using the same ones from so many years ago. Why? What was he trying to accomplish by using hurtful words of the past? I rubbed my eyes and stood up. I stared at Kakashi and began to cry again.
He turned to everyone else and nodded. "You guys start moving, we'll catch up!" he called.
They didn't respond, they just headed off. I was still crying when he turned back to me and I lunged at him and hugged him tightly.
"Uhm...Sakura. It's not right for a teacher to hug his students...especially if the student is a girl and the teacher is a guy -"
"Kakashi-sensei, I hate myself!" I screamed.
"Huh?"
"I betrayed them! I betrayed them both because I had to protect that damn Kazekage! They both hate me now!" I cried harder and pulled myself away from Kakashi. I wanted to kill myself. "I'm going to kill myself! that way I'll never betray them again!" I pulled out a kunai and held it out in front of me. "Tell them I'm sorry!"
"Sakura, wait!" Kakashi shouted.
I closed my eyes and pulled my arm towards my chest as quickly as I could. Something took hold of my arm and I fought to bring the kunai even a little bit closer. I strained my arm and added the other, but still my hand didn't move any further.
"Please, Kakashi-sensei! Just let me do this!" I shouted.
"Don't even thing about it, Sakura " Sasuke stated. I opened my eyes and stared at him in front of me. he was the one holding onto my arm. "We need you for the mission. gaara won't go any further if you're not leading him."
I dropped my arms. He only saved me from myself because of the mission? He stared at me with an expression of disgust and anger. He turned and jumped away, joining the others. I stood there silently and almost on que a wind passed through, billowing my hair. Kakashi sighed and began walking.
"Sensei...why does he hate me?" I asked. I waited for an answer and stared at the ground as I dropped my kunai. He turned to me. "Why does he hate me?"
"He doesn't hate you?" Kakashi replied.
"Then why did he only save me because of the mission?"
"Sakura, I don't see why you don't understand."
"Huh?" I looked up at him. "Understand?"
"Sasuke, as you know because you've known him for so long, is complicated and usually doesn't wear his heart on his sleeve like you do. In doind so, you can never really know what in the world he's thinking unless its something he's done in the past."
"I...don't understand."
Kakashi chuckled lightly and put his hands into his pockets while staring into the sky. "Sakura, he loves you. When you went to protect Gaara how do you think he felt?"
"I don't know. Angered?"
"No. He was probably jealous, scared, maybe even a little hurt."
"Why? I was only doing what th mission made me do!"
"When you ran to Gaara instead of him he probably felt that you might leave him, might love Gaara more than him -"
"But Naruto was mad too! Why was Naruto angry, too?"
"Naruto loves you as well."
"But he an Sasuke are always fighting for no reason and sometimes over me! Why would this be any different from then? Tell me! Please, I want to understand!"
I was pushing myself so hard to understand, but I couldn't. I closed my eyes and remembered Sasuke years ago and Sasuke hours ago and finally Sasuke who was here minutes ago. Each was different. And I couldn't understand any of them better than I had previously.
"Naruto didn't mind before because it was Sasuke. Sasuke, even though they've declared each other rivals, are best friends, like brothers almost." Kakashi paused and looked at me. "But Gaara is an outsider. Someone both Sasuke and him don't know and hate because of what happened during the chunin exams."
That's right. Gaara was almost about to kill me. Sasuke and Naruto both tried to protect me, but naruto fought tooth and nail with gaara until he won and until i was saved.
"Because you protected Gaara, both probably felt about the same emotions toward you and toward the Kazekage. I doubt either is angry at you, but maybe Gaara...I hope no one's dead up ahead."
He chuckled and began to walk. I followed slowly and thought to myself. I was understanding Sasuke's position a little more now, but boys, especially him, were so confuzing. I sighed. This was going to be hard, very hard to fix.
Kakashi had me speed up so we could catch up with everyone else and when we did he resumed position at the head of the line. I remained in the back, checking the directions and scouting out enemies, but none came. I hugged myself an noticed Gaara slowing his pace. I jumped back and kicked a rock, it whirled through the air and hit him in the head. Naruto bursted out with laughter and Gaara returned to his original placement.
By this time the sun was setting so Kakashi secided it was camp for te rest of the night. Everyone seperated and did there jobs Kakashi assigned. He stayed with the annoying siblings of Suna, Naruto and Sasuke were put on food duty and I was in charge of fire wood.
I had a buddle of sticks when I came upon them at a stream. Naruto was in a tree and Sasuke stood on the bank with kunais in his hand. Naruto jumped into the water and four fish jumped from the water and Sasuke threw his kunai and pinned them to the tree.
Like during the chunin exams.
"That's good. We've got one for all of us," Sasuke stated. Naruto climped out of the water and grabbed the fish. "Let's get back -"
"You need three more," I stated.
Sasuke turned around quickly and glared at me. I felt nather sick all the sudden and I wasn't planning on actually looking up at Sasuke if he replied.
"No, Sakura, we have enough. There are four, you, Naruto, Kakashi and I," Sasuke replied.
"What about the siblings?" I asked.
"Right. We can't forget your boyfriend and his -"
I smacked him across the face and my hand burned. I saw the imprint I left on his cheek and the two scratches from my nails. Naruto just stared at us as we stood in silence and didn't move. I was panting hard. I couldn't believe I just did that. He turned his head slowly to look at me and he was about to say something but I smacked him again.
"Get three more fish!" I ordered them stormed off. I heard Naruto laughing as I walked away from them and when I showed up at the camp I dropped the fire ood in front of Kakaashi and went to lay down as far from Gaara and them as I could.
I've got to calm down. Everything will be fine. Like Kakashi-sensei said, it'll be like the old days again, soon I hope. But how soon?