Chapter Five.
Looking up at the cieling, roy just gazed off as if a movie of his memories were playing before his eyes. He never felt...so influenced or moved by someone...it was frightening. Terrifying, to the point he just wanted to run...and run...without looking back.. yet.. the person he was running from, always was on his mind. Covering his face with his hands he sighed. What was he suppose to do? A couple hours passed by...and finally the elder man caved, he reached for his cordless phone, and called ed.
Edward rolled, having slept a little. When he answered, his voice was a bit rough. "Hello?"
"...I'm sorry I left." mustang whispered lowly
Edward smiled. "That's fine."
"Surely it's not." he whispered.
"I figured you had something to do."
"I see..."
"Why did you leave?"
"I don't know.." roy answered
Edward closed his eyes, sitting up in his bed. "I see. Well, I had a message on my phone from Hughes. I start work over there tomorrow. So... I don't know when I'll have some free time."
"Then what do you suggest?" Mustang asked "Are we going to continue seeing one another despite conflicting schedules?...or..."
"I'd like that...if it isn't too much of a hastle for you."
"It's not too much of a hassle for me. Hey Ed?"
"MM?"
"You do realize that I am sorry don't you?"
"There's no need to be sorry."
"And why would that be?"
"Because you did say yourself you weren't certain what you feel."
"Edward," he sighed "nevermind. I'm sorry if i woke you."
Edward smiled softly. "Its fine Roy. I liked hearing your voice. Sleep well."
Placing the phone in the cradle after murmuing an almost inaudiable goodnight to ed, roy laid in bed, his thoughts and mind consumed by the young scientist. Eventually sleep found him and wound him up in her web.
Edward smiled softly, cuddling the pillow to him once more after he hung up. With a smile, he closed his eyes and drifted off to sleep as well.
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The following day was nothing short of excitment, as well as exhaustion, Hughes already had everything ready for Ed by the time he arrived so all the blonde had to do was clock in. He escorted him around introducing him to each individual who was a resident and staff of the quadriplegic facility. As it reached noon, Maes led Ed into the staff's cafeteria. "I realize it may seem a little bit like a nursing home, however I felt it'd be better for each scientist to know each resident on a more personal level, this way it gives each party just a spark of hope, and a relationship worthwhile. Dont you agree?"
Edward shrugged. "I suppose," he replied, watching him.
Hughes just smiled and looked at Ed. "Is there something on my face?" he asked beginning to wipe his face.
"Not at all. Its just... you remind me of someone I knew."
The man blinked looking a bit caught off guard, but quickly covered it up by laughing. He patted ed's back. "Well if that's the case...dont stare too hard...you may confuse me for them."
Edward smiled sadly at those words. "That isn't possible, since he's dead."
Gold eyes widened a little bit, sympathy immediantly filling them. He gently ruffled his hair. "If that's the case, you can stare all you'd like." he then blocked a side of his face with his hand, as if to keep the other staff members from looking at him "everyone stares anyways. I think they're just jealous of my Elysia..." he paused. "Have I showed you a picture of her?" he exclaimed "she's so precious!"
Edward started in surprise, before smiling and shaking his head. "No... but I'd love to see one."
The mans eyes lit up and pulled out his wallet full of pictures of the little girl. "This is her on her first birthday" he said full of enthusiasm, "I bought her a small cake to play in, boy did I get an earful that night from Gracia." he muttered he chuckled as if recalling the events "chocolate was everywhere," he explained to ed, smiling at him.
Edward laughed. "I'm certain she's a handful... but worth every bit of trouble. She's very adorable."
The older man ran his fingers through his hair, "..She definately is." he laughed " her and...my..well," he blushed lowering his head "lover." he cleared his throat " assure me to keep my phsyique due to all the chasing around I do."
Edward tipped his head. "Lover... you mean your wife, don't you?" he asked, wondering how much like the other world Maes he was.
Hughes just looked at him "...No, I'm not married."
Edward was surprised by this. "Oh, so you and your daughters mother are just... close... as lovers?"
Maes nervously rubbed the back of his neck. "N..no. you.. see. After Gracia and I had Elysia, she...discovered, that she really wasn't in love with me. Luckily she found someone who she loves dearly, which is Winry...and she gets visitation with Elysia."
Edward, who had been taking a sip of his water, suddenly did a sip take, his eyes wide. "Winry? Rockbell? Whoa... I never would have... guess," he murmured, coughing slightly.
Hughes looked at him "You know her? Then certaintly you must've known this for quite some time."
"Ah, no... not entirely... just met in passing."
He looked at ed forcing a smile. "She really is a nice girl."
Edward looked at him. "You don't have to lie. I'm certain Winry has her moments when she irritates the hell out of people. Besides, I'm certain your new lover is more attentive."
Maes just laughed "Attentive...lovely choice of word. So how about you.. who are you seeing?"
"I'll tell you my lover's name if you tell me yours first," Edward replied with a grin.
"How..about you go first." maes prodded, with a small grin. "besides, i'm sure yours can't be better than mine." he teased,
Edward laughed. "I asked first. Or are you embarrassed?"
Hughes shrugged "Not really embarassed, okay.. I sort of am." he leaned close "I'm with Riza.." he moved away smiling brightly "ok.. you spill who you're with."
Edward swallowed. "Um... I don't know. I might get fired..."
"Why would you get fired? You haven't done anything wrong." the elder pointed out "are you embarassed?" he teased
"Well, its more... my lover... is also a male."
Maes sweatdropped "...My bestfriend is..gay and you think i'm going to fire someone over their sexual preference?" he mumbled "is it...Havoc?"he asked
Edward shook his head. "No... and currently were bedmates... but I do know you know him."
removing his glasses, he gently placed them on the table in front of himself, thinking for a few minutes. "Tell me!" he exclaimed "I have no clue who you're talking about! Is it Breda?"
"Fuhry?"
"Mustang," Edward said, wanting to stop his torment.
"Mustang?" he repeated looking stunned
Edward nodded. "Yeah... is that really so bad? I mean... it isn't very serious. Well, not on his end."
Putting his glasses on, Maes offered the kid a smile. "It's not neccessarily bad. It's just that i never pictured you to go after someone like him, dont get me wrong he is my friend due to that I know him more than others. He has a drinking problem for one, and I won't be the first to inform you of it, not only that but he's ...extremely ambitious...greedy..doesn't care if he soils his hands...just to get where he needs to be. But those are just his flaws. he's a great person..and a loyal friend.."
Edward couldn't help but laugh softly. There was almost nothing there that surprised him. While he was on the other side, no one really had changed. "Yeah, I got all that about him."
Hughes's eyes widened "You already knew all of that?"
"Well, not the drinking problem... but the rest of it, yeah."
"About the alcohol, it's not as if he's ...doing it just to do it. He told me he's been rather..unsettled in this 'worthless' life of his.' I've done all I can." he looked away "just dont let him know i informed you of that. now, on to other things. You said that your brother is to recieve treatment first..is it done and safe to use on a human body?"
Edward thought about his words before nodding. "Yes, its finished and ready for use on human bodys."
"When would you like to set up an arrangement to operate and put this project to work?"
"As soon as possible."
Hughes patted ed's back "..Great, I'll get you the surgical instruments you need." he stood up and went to walk away "Oh ..is there anything else aside the nessential tools you may need?"
"An actual surgon? I'm not doc. I can tell them how to set it, but I can't take out the old and put in the new,"
"you know...there's doctors all over this place finding a surgeon will be easy."
"Well, then that's good."
hughes walked off. hating to lie to the blonde about who his current lover was as well as lying about the fact that he was indeed still married. After all why would Gracia involve herself in a relationship with Winry..when she sees the girl as her own child?
Edward sighed, casting a glance toward Maes back. His mind was racing. The man had lied to him. It was almost rediculous, but silly. First of all, Winry had a massive aversion to girl-on-girl relationships, which he knew first hand. Second, Gracia had always seen Winry as a daughter. It was also well known that Riza was only interested in Roy and work. That's how she'd always been. So that could mean anything... and with him knowing so much about Roy, Ed was fairly certain the man was rather close... if not intimate... with Roy himself.
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Maes arranged and appointment with a surgeon for ed to put the new spine into his brother, the set date was in a month, due to the fact the surgeon himself was quite busy and unable to pull such an extensive operation off in less than 8 hours...successfully. Roy on the other hand was waiting outside the building for Ed, a red rose in his right hand, his fingers twirling it as he awaited nervously, as the more time went by.
Edward smiled to people he worked with at the end of work and left, smiling. As he exited the building, he blinked in surprise.
Roy smiled and walked over to him tucking it behind his ear. "there." he murmured
Edward blinked in surprise, smiling. "Hey, nice seeing you here."
He shrugged " I figured I'd stop by..." he murmured
"That was very thoughtful for you," he replied, reaching up to kiss his cheek.
Roy raised an eyebrow and leaned down a little bit, letting him kiss his cheek. "Are you busy today?" he asked softly.
"i was wanting to, have you over to my place..have something to eat...talk..."
Edward smiled. "I'm done for the day, so the rest of my time is yours."
taking his hand, roy walked with ed. HIs fingers interlaced with the youngers as he led him to his house. "How do you like working for Hughes so far?"
Ed smiled, keeping his hand in his, even as he nodded. "It was a rather interesting first day."
"Really.. tell me about it.."
"Well, he helped me set up the surgery date for my brother... and showed me around. Had me get to work... and we also had a long talk... in which he lied to me... but I didn't comment about it," Ed replied with an easy walk, keeping up with the taller man.
Roy stopped "..He lied?" he asked looking a bit shocked "what the hell would he lie about?"
"His personal life. But I didn't care. He's allowed to have his own secrets."
Roy looked confused "I wonder what kind of secrets he has." he murmured "He never tells me about his love life, well. he always says how much he loves gracia and elysia. but thats about it."
he started walking again, humming lightly "hows your leg feel today?"
"Much better thank you... and who knows."
Once they arrived to his house, roy gently led ed inside. letting go of the blondes hand once they went inside the house. He took off his shoes, putting them on a placemat by the door. "Would you like anything to drink?"
Ed moved to do the same, nodding. "Something sweet would be nice."
"I have soda, apple juice, apple cider, hot chocolate..." he called as he walked into the kitchen
"Some apple cider sounds good," Edward replied, moving to go take a seat.
opening a cupboard, roy grabbed a couple glasses, filling ed's with apple cider, and his own with hot chocolate. he handed ed the glass, before sitting down beside him sipping at the hot liquid. "mmm. It's like sex in a glass." he murmured while licking his lips.
Edward laughed softly. "Is it?" he asked, sipping his own.
He offered the mug to the blonde 'Taste it." he said softly.
Edward shook his head. "No thank. Me and Chocolate are dangerous. Well, caffiene in general."
Roy looked confused "How is caffiene dangerous to you? Your younger than me..you should be able to tolerate it besides." he took a swig keeping it in his mouth as he pressed his lips against ed's, finding another way of making the blonde taste the chocolate. WHen he was finished he looked away. sipping the drink yet again "good huh?"
Edward's cheeks darkened, even as he looked away. "Y... Yeah... but I can't sleep when I have caffiene in my system."
"The caffiene keeps you up?"
Edward nodded. "Yeah. I'm short, so it kind of wires my system."
roy sighed "mm sorry then." he said softly. "..."
Edward smiled softly, even as he moved over to him and straddled his hips, wrapping his arms around his neck. "Mm, its okay."
roy looked at him. "Is it now?" he said sultrily. He set the mug on the end table looking his lover over.
Edward nodded, shivering slightly at the change to his voice. "Yeah, because now..." he paused and leaned in to lick and nibble on Roy's ear. "I can stay up all night with you," he whispered huskily into his ear.
Roy groaned tilting his head to the side to expose more of his neck and ear to ed, encouraging him to continue. "mmmg." he whimpered "your makin' me feel frisky, baby."
Edward couldn't help but smile at that. "Mm, good," he replied, before moving to trail his lips over his jawline and along his neck.
Roys breath hitched as his eyes fluttered closed panting softly. His cock slowly rising to the occassion as it pressed up against ed's ass. He licked his lips, "Ed.." he murmured hotly
"Mm... how about... I ride you this time?" he asked, purring into his ear, even as he sucked on his throat.
Mustang groaned hotly, quivering in anticipation. He felt as if the blood was rushing from his body down to his cock, the organ was now pulsing and throbbing as it pressed against his jeans. His heart was beating faster than normal, however he tilted his head and looked at ed, with a rather seductive gaze. "Get to it. then." he growled huskily.
edward grinned and slid seductively off his lap, before moving to kiss along the buldge in his pants, working to get them open and off of the older man with slow, easy movements. Once he was stripped from the waist down, Edward moved back and began a slow, sexual strip tease.
Raising an eyebrow, roy leaned closer, licking his lips.. his fingers grasping ahold of the couch while watching the man. His dick twitched at the sight, causing him to hiss and lean back, panting softly. He snapped his fingers and pointed at his length "fix..this.." he demanded lowly.
Edward smirked. "I plan on it." With a look, he licked his fingers and then pressed them into his own ass, preparing himself, even as he leaned in to lick the length.
It didn't take much persuasion to make the elder man cum. In fact the fact that Ed was fingering himself did Roy in as the man bucked up, his fingers pulling on blonde strands of hair as he released his essence into the others mouth.
Edward gasped, groaning, even as he swallowed it down, still working on licking and sucking on the member, hoping to get it back up.
Grunting and gasping the man arched up into his lovers mouth. his body still quivering from the orgasm and length still highly sensitive. "Ed.." he whispered breathily.
He pulled back a little, watching him. "Need a break?" he asked softly.
"Not, really.. it's just going to be a little bit harder for me to...get hard again.." Grabbing ahold of his lover, he made him stand on the couch, while turning his attention to ed's length. Pressing his lips against the tip, he gave it a little kiss before engulfing it. His hands were placed on each of the youngers buttocks, guiding the length in and out of his mouth.
He groaned, his hands slipping into his hair, panting heavily at his touch.
Closing his eyes, mustang shoved ed as close as possible, deepthroating him while his tongue swirled around the base of the mans cock, moaning hotly.He pulled back a little bit applying more suction to the organ before swallowing it yet again, His throat constricting around it as he swallowed excess saliva as well as when he voiced how arousing it was to him.
Edward couldn't help but cry out. "I... I'm gonna..." he gasped... trailing off on a moan.
Sucking harder, ebony brows drew up into a furrow. As he panted heavily. His head bobbing quickly, the slick tongue not neglecting an inch. Cheeks concaved from the amount of suction he was applying
Edward screamed and cried out, spilling his load into the hot mouth.
Swallowing it, mustang then pulled away, panting as he looked up at him.
Edward shivered, looking at him. "God... I just can't get enough of you," he murmured, his cock still hard, even after the blow job.
A lewd smile played across his lips as he looked down at eds length, as well as his own. A brow raised "I'm not one to complain." he stated thickly, as he brought his hands up to eds body, his fingers splaying along the petites blonds' body.
He sighed, groaning as he felt those firm fingers along his body.
Trailing his fingers up to ed's chest, he tweaked the mans nipples before leaning up a bit to lick and nip at them. "how often do you finger yourself?" he whispered against the moist hardened nubs
"T... That was... the first time," edward stammered, feeling his nipples stiffen at the attention.
Chuckling Roy looked at him, taking away the attention he was giving his lover. Instead he kept his hands down at his sides. "mm is that so? Tell me...what else do you plan..on doing?"
"Once I... get you hard... I plan to straddle you... and then ride your cock until we both can't see straight."
Mustang chuckled, not bothering to tell the other that he was already hard again. "What are you going to do to make my big cock stand to attention for you?.. How are you going to arouse me?" he murmured huskily
"I'm going to tease myself, while learning your body."
"Huh..? tease.. yourself?"
Edward flushed. "You looked like you enjoyed seeing me... prep myself," he murmured, looking up at him, even as he moved to lick and kiss along his chest.
Groaning hotly roy lolled his head back, exposing his throat to ed. 'If you do that..." he whispered "I'd only cum again.. just by watching you."
Edward moved to slip back onto his lap, rocked his bare ass against Roy's cock, even as he bit at his throat.
his hands automatically sought out edwards body at those actions. mustang moaned lowly, his hands grasping eds hips as he rolled his own hips a bit, letting his lover feel his erection.
Edward groaned and nuzzled his throat, while one hand reached between them to grasp Roy's cock and set it at his passage. Once he had it in place, he shifted his hips, impaling himself on the hard member.
Screaming out in bliss, roy wrapped his arms around ed holding him firmly pressed against him before getting himself a little bit more comfortable then promptly began slamming into the wanton hole. "ungh.. god..fuck..." he cried out as his body quaked in delight "mmm.. "
Edward panted heavily. "G... God... Roy!" he cried, finding himself pressing down with each thrust upward.
Pressing his lips against eds shoulder he kissed the spot. Without warning he bit down on the shoulder groaning hotly the rhythm of their joined bodies moving frantically. He tightened his grasp on his partner.
"R... R... Roy... I... I'm so... close... your... driving... me... crazy!"
licking and kissing the bite mark, roy glided his tongue from the wound up eds neck to his ear "You've already driven me there..." he murmured saucily. Continuing to thrust into the man a little bit rougher. Shifting his hips a little he continued to impale his lover, striking his sweet spot as he did so.
Ed saw stars, feeling as if he couldn't help but tremble in sensation overload... "God... you're gonna... make me... cum again."
Smirking roy slowed down his thrusts and released his grip on ed. Instead he reached back gripping the back of the couch, his hips slowly rocking and grinding into the man. He pressed his lips against his lovers, kissing him sensually "show me how much.. you love..feeling this big cock deep inside you..." he whispered
Edward whimpered softly, even as he settled his hands on his shoulders and began to rock on the hard length, fairly bouncing on it.
Mustang groaned hotly, rolling his hips to meet ed's bounces. He placed his lips against his lovers throat nipping and sucking on his adams' apple. "mmm..." he hummed
Edward cried out, vibrating his throat where his lover was sucking on it.
panting hotly, roy licked up ed's neck to his jawline and ran his tongue along it. His thrusts picked up a little more speed encouraging ed. "...c'mon sweetheart." he whispered breathily.. "make me cum.." he whispered as one of his trecherous hands snaked inbetween their bodies stroking the blondes arousal
"A...Ah!!" Edward cried out, feeling as if he was going to fall apart. But he had to make his lover cum. That was what Roy had asked. He shifted slightly and began to rock down harder on him, taking him up as far as he could, as deep as the length could possibly go.
the elder man groaned hotly thrusting in and out of him. "mmg" he stroked ed quickly, licking his lips in anticipation. "mmm baby." he cried out he wrapped his unbusied arm around the lithe blond holding him close as he thrusted in and out of him "ungh yes.. yes.. YES.." he shouted while arching his back, trying to get as deep as possible while he coated the constricting walls.
Edward screamed Roy's name, even as his cock twitched as it spilled his release, his inner walls closing around him.
Roy squirmed continuing to stroke ed until he was milked dry, so to speak. The thrusts however, had stopped, but the expression of unadulterated euphoria was written as bright as day upon his face.
edward panted, lost to pleasure as well, even as a small smile painted itself over his lips.
unwrapping his fingers from the flaccid length, mustang looked at him, as he licked the soiled hand clean, his eyes closing a bit as he savoured the taste.
Edward shivered, even as he moved to lay against him.
"I was planning on making dinner for us.." roy said suddenly breaking the silence. "are you hungry?"
Edward laughed. "Well, I already had some protein, but sure... I could use something more."
"...I'm going to shower, let me know what you want..when I get out. In the meantime.. feel free to help yourself to anything..make yourself at home." he said softly, gently lifting the blonde off of him, he got up off of the couch heading to the bathroom. immediantly hopping in the shower.
Edward padded after him, slipping into the shower behind him. Once there, he slipped his arms around him. "I want to shower with you..."
a gentle smile graced his lips as he relaxed into ed's arms. 'Did I hurt you?" he asked softly.. "are you sore?"
Edward grinned. "Its a good sore."
Laughing softly he looked over his shoulder "A good sore huh? maybe i should do it more often hmm?"
"I like being fucking into pleasant mindlessness."
Roy blinked a bit startled "...ah. i wasn't aware of that."
"now i know."
Edward looked up at him, even as he moved to soap him up. "Something wrong?"
"No..not at all. i'm just a little tired is all." he turned around to face ed and smiled at him.
"I can cook if your tired, Roy."
"I won't allow it, besides. your too short to reach my cabinets, and.. i dont have anything you can use for a footstool."
Edward frowned. "Why such cracks from you?" he murmured.
Roy raised an eyebrow "I was just joking, but I really dont have a footstool." he murmured "my cabinets are high and I wouldn't want you to jump up on the counter, and slip and crack your head open..what is wrong with you?"
"Nothing much, I just... don't like short cracks. I get it a lot."
"People only continue tormenting you with those comments because you react to them." he shrugged "usually people pick on those whom they like."
"Well... I try not to react," he replied, washing them both up.
Roy relaxed, enjoying the gesture. he undid ed's hair and put some shampoo in it. "I know.." he muttered "..i remember."
He smiled, even as he sighed, enjoying the attention.
massaging the liquid into ed's scalp he smiled back at him as his fingers worked it into rich lather. "Have you ever...wanted children?" he blurted suddenly
Edward blinked, thinking about it. "I don't know. I've never really thought about it. Why?"
Roy just shrugged "You just strike me as the type who would be a doting father."
Edward laughed. "Who knows."
mustang pulled away to rinse off then let ed rinse himself off.
Ed smiled softly. "So, what are you making?" he asked, once he stepped out and wrapped a towel around himself, handing one to Roy.
taking the towel roy looked at him and began drying off. He wrapped the towel around his waist, then combed his hair back, out of his face. "I dont know.. I dont know what you're tastes are. So, what kind of food best suits you?"
Edward laughed. "I eat and drink just about anything... except milk."
Roy blinked "except milk?" he looked puzzled "milk is an excellent source of calcium it helps your body..gro..." he quickly shut up and looked away biting his bottom lip to keep from laughing.
Edward sighed and dried off, tossing the towel aside and heading into the living room for his clothes. "Yeah, yeah..."
Rolling his eyes mustang padded his way into the kitchen, the towel still wrapped around his waist as he began cooking. "Is stirfry okay with you?" he shouted
"Its fine."
grabbing a bag of the already made stir fry, roy ripped the bag open and poured it into a skillet, then turned it on. "Is there something bothering you?" he asked
Dressed in just his pants, Edward shook his head, sipping his forgotten cider. "Not at all."
"mm...okay then."
" Is everyone okay with you?"
"As far as I know..everyone is okay with me." he retorted "but I'm sure they whisper about me by the watercoolers, exchanging bits of gossips and disillusions."
"Well, I wouldn't know... I spent most of my time in the office."
"Why did you ask me if everyone is okay with me when I obviously dont care whether I'm liked or not."
"I was merely curious."
Turning the food off when it was done, roy grabbed a couple bowls putting some in it, he grabbed some forks and napkins before walking into the living room, he handed ed his food and napkin, before sitting down. "I think people like me a little too much." he said softly. "Riza, is who I mainly talk to at work."
"I see," Edward replied, accepting his food and enjoying the meal.
"...are you jealous or something?" mustang snapped as he sat down
Edward shook his head. "No."
"I'm sure." he murmured as he began eating his own meal.'
Edward ate, blinking. "Really, I'm not," he replied.
"What would it take to make you jealous?..or do you not experiance such an emotion?"
"Actually seeing you with someone else..."
Roy looked at him, and sat his bowl down on the table before going into the kitchen and pouring himself a glass of hynotiq, putting a few icecubes in the drink, he walked back in sipping at the bright blue liquid. "ah well, then you wont get to experiance that emotion." he said calmly he sat back down beside ed, and began eating again. his glass beside the blondes.
He couldn't help but smile softly. "That almost sounds like you only see me and no one else."
Looking at him with a frown. "What is that suppose to mean?"
Edward couldn't help but laugh softly. "Oh, sorry, I didn't mean anything bad by it."
mustang just smiled a little in return and continued eating, as well as downing the alcoholic beverage, getting up a couple times to refill it.Once he was finished he got up taking their empty bowls and glasses into the kitchen placing them in the sink. "Ed? is there anything else you'd like to do? or do you want to go home?"
Edward had watched him, his eyes calm. "I should head home. I have an early day at work. And you look like you've got a lot of stuff on your mind."
Roy looked at him, his eyes cloudy as he grabbed ahold of ed's wrist. "I actually only have one thing on my mind, rather one person on my mind and it's driving me...insane." he murmured a small smirk crossing his lips he pulled ed to him
Edward looked up at him, even as he rocked up against him. "Is that true?" he asked, even as enjoyed the closeness.
groaning mustang nodded "Of course it's true..." he licked his lips "something's wrong with me..i've tried just about everything not to think about the person so much...since it basically borders on obsession...but nothing is helping." he looked at ed for a moment before pinning ed beneath him on the couch, ripping the blondes clothes off of him.
Edward moaned, enjoying the towel covered Roy on top of him. "I'm glad... because... I love you... and your always in... my thoughts..."
kissing ed deeply, roy looked down at him "yes..but you can function...normally.'' he whispered against his lovers' lips "where as i...cant focus because images of you ...teasing...and taunting me...sexually..plague my thoughts." he gently caressed ed's face then glided his thumb along ed's bottom lip. ''you can't possibly be in love with me,...there's nothing to me. i dont understand..."
Edward smiled softly, even as he took his thumb into his mouth and sucked on it. "Love... isn't something anyone understands... and I don't know what it is... I just... know... I care about you."
the man shivered, his eyes fixed on ed's mouth. "Tell me what you really think about me.." he whispered uber softly
"I think you drink to hide from thinking... but otherwise... your a rather amazing man."
Roy raised an eyebrow "...I never told you i drink."
"Roy, you had quite a few drinks with dinner... with ease. It's kind of obvious."
roy frowned and tightened his grasp upon ed. "what are you trying to say? that im an alcoholic? is that it?"
Edward winced slightly, even as he shook his head. "I didn't say that."
"No you didn't say it, but the words you chose, nicely danced around the concept. saying that I had a few drinks with dinner...with ease, " he let go of him and rubbed where he had been gripping before walking into the kitchen.
Edward got up, moving after him. "Honestly, Roy, I didn't say anything wrong. You were drinking hard liquor without wincing. I can't even drink one of those without coughing."
Roy had a cupboard door open, filled with nothing but liquor, he jumped when he heard ed in the kitchen with him and shut the cupboard door. He briskly approached ed and shoved him against the counter, "your too young to have a drink anyways." he murmured "I dont think your old enough to even touch it..."
"I turned twenty one during the two weeks we weren't talking, Roy," he replied, even as he sighed and looked right at him. "And someone with a drinking problem would have that much booze in their kitchen. Just admit it. I'm not going to love you less over it."
"I dont have a drinking problem." he protested his eyes narrowing slightly before he pressed his body against ed's "I do have another problem though.." he whispered huskily in ed's ear "wanna take care of it for me?"
Edward smiled, even as he dropped down before him, wanting to tease his cock through the towel. Yet he wasn't certain if he'd be okay for the whole round, since booze tended to make it harder for a man to get aroused.
mustang groaned hotly, after that his composure changed his eyes closed, he began licking his lips as well as rubbing his throat before he shivered then fell to his hands and knees, trying to get as far from ed as he could manage before he emptied the contents of his stomach on the floor. "..go home." he whispered raspily.
Edward didn't. Instead, he moved to tend to Roy first, helping him to lay down in the bed room with a bucket beside him, before moving to clean up the kitchen.
grunting roy frowned and got out of the bed walking out of the room looking at ed "what are you doing?" he asked
"Cleaning up," he replied softly.
"You dont have to..please...dont." he mumbled shielding his eyes "...why the hell are there three of you?" he snapped "..I can't...do all of you.." he slurred
"Because you've had too much to drink. And I told you, go get some sleep. I'll take care of here."
"...I was not drinking." he protested childishly and made his way to ed, after patting the other 'two' he pressed himself against the blonde firmly kissing ed's neck "dont you want me baby?" he purred
"I do Roy... I want you more than anything... but not like this. You're drunk. On top of that, you don't want to admit you have a drinking problem. The most I can do is just remain beside you."
"Did you realize that when you use the word 'but' everything before that is canceled out because of it?" He moved and grabbed his car keys throwing them at ed. "go home." he muttered then promptly dragged himself to his room slamming the door.
Edward closed his eyes, even as tears built in his eyes. Damn it... why was he always falling in love with the wrong person? It was just... so painful. Leaving the keys there, he put on the ripped clothes and left, heading for home.
Roy just passed out when his head hit the pillow
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The next morning roy woke up with a massive headache and grunted "Ed?" he called out for the blonde... "hey.. edward?" blinking when he didn't see the man he decided to call him.
Edward answered on the third ring, just about ready to leave for work when it came. "Hello?"
"You...went home? well obviously you did.. are you busy later tonight?"
"You sent me home, Roy... and I don't know... I might be. I enjoy being with you. I just... don't want to see you hurt yourself again."
Mustang frowned "I have no clue what you're talking about. I never sent you home, nor did I hurt myself...look, if your not busy. give me a call. if you are..I guess I'll see you some other time." he hung up, then began getting ready for work
Edward sighed. Then he wrote Roy a text message. 'Roy, check you liquor cabnet. You went through almost two bottles last night. You got drunk, then sick, then kicked me out. On top of it... you didn't want to admit to it. I love you. I want to be with you. I just don't want all our dates to end with you forgetting half of it.' That done, he headed off to work.
Roy read the text and sighed heavily. He went into the kitchen checking the liquor cabnet, wincing inwardly. He must've made a complete ass out of himself infront of ed..which was something he didn't want to do, intentionally. 'I apologize that your night was horrible' he texted back to the blonde. He called riza and made up an excuse of not feeling well and coming down with the flu, to skip out on work. he turned his phone off to avoid any confrontations with anyone else.
Edward left another message, knowing that if he didn't get it now, he would whenever he turned it on. 'It wasn't. I felt worse I couldn't do more for you. Love you and hope your day goes well, Ed.'
Havoc stared at ed ,as did Breda. the two of them whispering and snickering as they looked at him.
Edward blinked, looking at them. "What?" he asked.
"Have you looked at yourself in the mirror?" Havoc asked, a cigarette hanging from his lips. "You're sporting rather, large love bites on your neck..and throat." he pointed at his adams' apple "especially here.."
Edward shrugged. "So. Just means I had a very good night last night," Edward replied, going back to work.
Havoc shrugged "Obviously." he went to walked away when Maes and Riza walked through the door hughes frowning. "I didn't spend any time with him last night." he muttered lowly defending himself against the angry woman in front of him
"He called off work, claiming to be sick hughes." she whispered "it's just not like him, is all i'm saying. He just did a little fake cough into the phone, and that was it..it's really odd. Not only that but when I did go over just a few minutes ago, all those...bottles in the cupboard were thrown into the garbage can outside...still full, and he was locked in his room. he wouldn't even answer me when i knocked on his door.."
"maybe he.. was asleep?" maes suggested
riza nodded "it's possible..i am just worried is all."
Edward sighed and put his work down. "I'm calling it a day boss, there's nothing else I can do right now," he called out to Maes.
Maes looked over at him and smiled warmly to him "Alright!" he said chipperly "Have some fun kid." Riza nodded in ed's direction acknowledging him, before looking back at Hughes.
Edward nodded and left, but he didn't go home. Instead, he moved and headed over to Roy's, knocking on his door. "Roy? You home? Its Edward."
roy answered the door fresh out of the shower, looking at ed ..."I thought you were at work?"
"I got out early. Wasn't much else I could do. Heard Maes and Hawkeye talking about you, worried, so I thought I'd give it a try."
Mustang sighed heavily and opened the door letting ed inside "I'm just tired, i called and informed riza i wouldn't be coming in today.. and fell asleep on the phone. next thing i know i hear pounding on my bedroom door asking me if i'm alright and to let her in." he shrugged "i am tired. very tired."
Edward came in and just hugged him. "Mm, you could always come stay at my place for a while. People won't bug you there."
he returned the hug getting the blonde a little wet. "Thank you, but it's not neccessary.." he kissed ed's cheek gently.
Edward smiled softly, nodding. "All right," he said, not minding getting a little wet, just enjoying holding him close.
roy smiled "are you going to stay here.. or are you going home to rest..yourself?"
"Do you... want me to go?"
"Actually..I'd like it if you'd stay..with me. but the decision is completely up to you."
Edward smiled warmly at those words. "I'd like to stay as well, Roy. I was hoping you wouldn't kick me out," he murmured softly.
Roy smiled a little bit "I'm not going to kick you out. I did, however, kick something else out." he led ed into the kitchen and opened the cabnet that was filled with snacks rather than bottles of liquor.
Edward smiled softly, even as he cuddled closer to him. "What brought this on?" he asked, kissing his chest softly.
Roy shrugged, despite shivering at the kisses. "i made an ass out of myself...in front of you." he murmured
"You weren't all bad, Roy," Edward replied in his defense.
the man smiled, "You're just being nice." he whispered
Edward shook his head. "No, I'm not. I've seen a lot of drunks... especially since I visit my brother a lot in the hospital, and there are some real assholes. You were just horny and pissy. That's light."
Mustang grimaced "Ed." he said calmly "I am always horny and always pissy." he muttered
"Then it didn't change you at all," Edward replied with a smirk.
Roy raised an eyebrow "Ah. perhaps." he muttered not finding much amusement in the situation. "I didn't say anything...did i?"
Edward shook his head. "Nothing that I could really make any sense out of."
He tilted his head "...what do you mean?"
Edward thought about it. "Well, you said you couldn't do all three of us... and asked if I wanted you. Otherwise, that's it."
Roy blinked "That's contributed to horniness..."
"I know... but I thought you knew I wanted you."
A bittersweet smile ghosted across his lips. He didn't utter a word, instead he gently pulled away from ed, walking out of the kitchen.
Edward paused, looking over at him. "Is... something wrong?"
"i just got a eerie feeling of deja vu." he murmured
Edward blinked slowly, watching him. "Oh? Can I ask why?"
Roy turned around facing Ed, "I don't know why...I just feel like I've had this conversation with you...before...but..I know I couldn't have." he looked bewildered shivering
Edward shook his head. "Not that I remember... in either world."
He looked away "Of course not."
Edward sighed and once more moved over to Roy, once more attempting to be close to him by pressing close to the taller man.
Mustang just looked down at him. Obsidian eyes peering into golden, as if searching for something.
Edward met his gaze, his feelings showing in his gold gaze.
Gently taking ed's chin into his fingers, roy's eyes filled with sympathy. "You're a sweet person..." he said softly
"Where's the but...?" he asked in a low tone, not missing that look and hating that he'd feel sympathtic to him at all, just because he loved him.
"there is no but, i just said that your a sweet person."
"Well... I don't know about that. I'm normally a bit of an ass."
'I believe you fell in love with the wrong person' roy thought to himself and forced a smile onto his lips "you are not."
Edward sighed, moving to take a seat on the couch. "Mm... well, I'm a lot more in control of my emotions now."
the elder man raised an eyebrow "In more control of your emotions?" he repeated softly looking at him curiously. "because you hide them? or because you know how to wear each mask so perfectly no one doubts you?"
"I used to be set off at every little thing."
"I'd rather feel something than feel...nothing. Wouldn't you?"
he sighed and sat down next to ed "Tell me something. Do you believe there is a God?"
"I don't."
"That's right." Roy looked up at the cieling "you always believed in science, and only that." his eyes filled with slight pain. "If you don't believe in god, how can you focus on living so well?" he asked "Certaintly it's not because you can't see him. Because you can't see air...and yet you breathe it. So tell me Ed...do you even truly want to be here?" he inquired.
"Of course. Look, there are plenty of people who live without believing in God. I believe in science... that's just how I am. It doesn't mean I want to die just because there isn't some higher power. I believe that we have the ability to love and care because we, as people, don't want to be alone."
"Excellent answer. I too, don't believe in a higher being, but only because if he did exist.. he's truly one demented individual and one with the devil. Watching the suffering. I think it's nothing but false hope. I think it's like those occults,...people selling their souls.. buying in someones bullshit. Yet." he looked at the blonde "I hate the scientific version of how humans came to be. That.. is a crock of shit." he smiled serenely "scientists always have to have a reason for every little thing, everything is a fucking formula. Every little detail has to be calculated, observed..hypothesized, so on and so forth." mustang gently touched ed's face. "the people you believe have the ability to love and care, due to the fear of being alone...are the same people slaughtering innocent lives, for drugs. for money. People only truly give a damn about one another for one holiday,christmas, and that's it. Charities, while some are commendable, there are also frauds, just out to get money from the people who do truly give a shit about others"
"Yes, I know that. But I don't know how people came about. Or why we're here. I don't even understand the real reason behind why people fall in love. Or why they hate and kill. Honestly... I don't have to analyse it all just to understand it. All I understand is that for better or worse, I have fallen in love with you... with your faults and your postitives. That's all it is," he told him, looking right at him.
roy's shoulders seemed to slump. "you have no clue what your getting yourself into.." he whispered softly as he looked right back at him. "Edward," he sighed softly "I do care about you, but don't you get what I am trying to do? Im trying to save you some heartache."
Edward gave him a small smile, even as he felt like he just took a punch to the gut. In other words, Roy didn't love him... and he'd realized that... and he was trying to let him down. "Of course. I should let you finish what you were doing."
"And what is it that your letting me finish doing?" the man questioned
Edward shrugged. "I don't know."
"What would you say if I told you that the world on the other side of the gate was nothing more than an illusion, we created in our minds? What would you say if I told you there is no other me? What if I told you the person you despised in that paralel universe is, in fact looking at you right now?"
Edward looked right at him. "If that is true, then that's how it was. The reason I had problems with that you was because you always pushed me away."
"I push everyone away." Roy pointed out. "but you don't believe me, do you?" he clicked his tongue "there is no difference between him and me, edward...because he is me." he closed his eyes. "I just dont understand why you're in love with me. Is it because I showed you that passion exists without love? Is it because I've had sex with you?"
Edward shook his head. "That isn't why. I don't understand why I fell in love with you. I just know I have. People can change how they feel... or is that not allowed?"
The man leaned close his lips lingering over the blondes'. "People change how they feel all of the time."
"Then no matter if your the same or not... that doesn't change the fact that I'm now in love with you."
mustang put his forehead against the youngers' "And my intentions of sparing your feelings isn't what you want to hear is it?"
"If you don't feel the same way, then say so and I'll leave you alone. But if there is even a chance of you loving me in return... I won't back down."
"If I didn't feel something for you I would have ended it before it was starting to get serious. I refuse to tell you I'm in love with you, until I absolutely know for sure. Those three words aren't easy for me to accept or to say. And yet those words mean the most to me. "
"Then I don't expect them back. Just let me love you. I know the risks... I accept them. Just let me be with you until you can understand for certain what you feel," Edward told him his expression serious.
Roy smiled a little "Im not going to win this argument am i?"
"I told you... if I'm gonna be hurt either way... I'll take all I can get before it happens."
"the whole philosophy with taking the good with the bad huh?" roy smirked as he looked at him "Didn't your mommy tell you...not to play with fire?" he taunted lightly clearly amused by ed's determination to remain at his side, so to speak.
Edward didn't reply, knowing any talk of his mother was something he couldn't speak of.
Mustang frowned and pulled away, his eye twitching as he looked at the blonde. "Ed..." he said firmly. "tell me what the hell you did or i'll put a fire up your short ass." he snapped.
"I don't remember my mother in this world... this place. If what you say is true... and the me on the other side of the gate and the me now are one and the same... then while being in the illusion world... I used alchemy to try to bring her back to life when she died. You knew that... if you are the Roy from both places."
"I was muttering mumbo jumbo to confuse the hell out of you." he sighed "you shouldn't have automail body parts if only your mind and soul transferred into this realm. So, explain that one to me genius."
"Also.. how could I forget your mother was a homunculus?" he muttered under his breath. "things dont add up here ed."
"I have them because I listened to Winry when she worked on my body all the time. She always complained. So I took the time to learn. Plus... Hoeinheim was here... for a while. And he helped me out as well." Edward sighed and leaned back. "I know they don't make sense... but I've been through that gate three times. I've learned way too much for one person. So things like this are rather easy to understand."
"What did you learn?" mustang demanded
"A lot I can't use here... Alchemy... as it was on the other side isn't accessable here."
A dark brow raised "then how do you explain how I caught your sheets on fire?"
"It was science, Roy. Nothing more. Science is a lot like Alchemy. The only difference is that it takes a lot more work to get things worked out to the way a simple thought and alchemy circle would normally manage."
Mustang didn't say anything else, instead he looked away from the young man. He laid down on the couch, his legs resting on eds as his feet dangled over the sofa's armrest.
Edward closed his eyes, before opening them again and shifting so he could rub Roy's legs gently. "There's a lot I wish I could access. Things I'd love to tell people. But... for some reason... I can't share it. Its like I'm the only one... and it stops me from saying anything to anyone about it."
"I dont care." roy muttered "What's the point of talking about what's beyond the gate? After all I've never seen beyond it, I only know what your telling me...and frankly I find it irritating because I want to see it for myself. I'm tired of relying on these...irrelivant dreams and simple words." he moved his legs, squirming a bit. "my legs are sensitive, stop."
Edward frowned, dropping his hands. "You... shouldn't say things you know nothing about! That gate is the equivalent of death. When you see it... you lose something! So damn it... don't ever say you want to see it!! Got it!?" Edward yelled, feeling anger at his words.
"And yet, here you are, only missing an arm and a leg. If that's all I have to lose to see it, then I want to see it!"
"I lost a lot more than that!!" he argued, moving to stand up, his whole body tense. "I've lost my life... my brother, my whole world... because I wanted to do something that wasn't supposed to be done!"
Roy just looked at him even keeled. "Relax," he muttered "didn't you just say it's not possible since alchemy doesn't exist in this world? so how could I possibly risk death for something that doesn't ...exist...so to speak."
Edward tensed. "Would you be willing to kill for such a thing?" he asked in a soft... low voice...
"That is a stupid question ed, you said yourself it doesn't exist here. or are you going back on that...suddenly just because i want to see this god damn gate."
"There is one way... at least... I think there is... but it will come at the cost of a life to get it."
The corners of roys lips curled up at that. "I'm enjoying you changing the story." he replied in a sing-song tone. beginning to get irritated, he looked at ed. "why dont you take a chill pill hot shot? Do I really strike you as the type of person who'd kill someone just to gain something in return?"
Edward relaxed. If Roy said it that way, then he wouldn't. But Roy was someone who wanted to move far in the world... it was possible he'd change his mind someday... and Ed wasn't so certain Roy wouldn't kill the one he needed to. "All right."
"...You know... it's not healthy to be in the way of something someone wants." he whispered softly
"Then kill me and you'll have it," Edward replied in a very calm voice, even as he didn't feel like it.
Roy sat up and quickly got up off the couch, slapping the blonde across the face, hard. His eyes were narrowed and a scowl dressed his lips. "How about you kill me then you can get back everything you fucking lost!" he yelled "you get everything back,...to the way you want it. and you dont risk losing anymore than you already have."
"It only works with someone who's gone through the gate before, Roy... that's why I asked if you were willing to kill. I don't intend to go back again... because no matter which side I'm on, it'll be the same. At least here... I have someone I love and I can help others, as well as a way to help my brother. This is all I care about now."
"I see how it is. I'll find another way to see this...'gate' with my own eyes."
Edward closed his eyes, wanting to scream. Instead, he did something better. He merely turned and moved to leave. Roy didn't care... he didn't want to listen. God... the gate was worse than the Phlisophers Stone.
"Walk outside that door." roy started childishly "then don't come back. I'm only human, and have my own curosities, and i'm allowed to have them. I'm merely curious. Yes I want to see the gate, but if the only way to get to it is by killing you, or killing another person for that matter...i know that in its self is something I can not do. Maybe I am being childish, by saying I want to experiance something, extraordinary. but you shaming me for wanting to see what you've seen is nothing more than you being a hypocrite."
"I would love to trade. You can have my knowledge and I'll take your ignorance of it... with ease. I hate knowing that I've seen it because of sacrafice. I wish I'd never learned about the damn thing!"
Mustang turned away from Ed "I'm not ignorant edward. I heard what you've been saying. I get it. I just stated it intriques me." he quietly stepped from the livingroom "whether you stay or go is your choice. At this point, it doesn't fucking matter."
Edward closed his fists in frustration. damn it... why is it no one understood him? He wasn't saying all of this to be mean. He was saying it because he cared about Roy and didn't want to lose him forever... just because he was curious. He also wished he could forget all he'd learned... but he just couldn't. Yet... as long as Roy and him were together... he'd just be a reminder to Roy of all he knew and that Roy didn't. He couldn't torment him like that. With a tear spilling from his eyes, he turned, opened the door, and quietly left.
Hearing the door close, roy frowned, mixed emotions brewing up inside of him. he had wanted the blonde to stay. he had wanted to run after him...and tell him to stay. and yet he didn't. He didn't budge, or make an effort to retrieve the chance at...love, he just lost.
A/N: Yes, Roy in fact has more issues than Ed does. I realize all the splitting up and getting back together may be a tad bit annoying, but when someone is in fact attracted but doesn't want to commit, it does tend to happen, in actuality, so please bere with us. Please review, we'd love to see more comments.
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