I felt completly alone. Where was I supposed to go? I knew I couldn't go home and Ron already told me to leave there. I did as he asked. I said good bye to the family and Harry, but didn't tell anyone why I was leaving. All Ron and I told them was that we had a arrgument and I thought it was best to leave.
I sat on the night bus wondering what I was going to do. I have a little bit of money saved, but I couldn't raise a baby with that. Putting my head in my hands I begin to cry again. I thought Ron would be a little happy. I never expected him to act like that. I can't really blame him though, I mean he is seventeen. He doesn't need to be tied down with a kid. Right? I sighed, I don't know anymore. Looking up I see the the Leaky Caludron. Maybe I can get a room there for tonight and get on the train tomorrow. I slowly move off the train with some other passagangers.
When I stepped into the Leaky Caldron I was hit by this horrid smell. It almost knocked me over when I came in. I walked up to Tom, the keeper.
"I was wondering if I could rent a room for tonight?" I asked him. I had been here before but I don't think he remembers me. He nods.
"Yes, yes. Umm... lets see... room two tweleve is open." He said and handed me a key. I give him what money I have. He hands me some back and I look at him weird. "Everyone has a discount, because of the smell. You see we got a new house elf and he got to play around and this is what it resulted in." He explained. I got to thinking. House elves don't usually play around. That sounded unusal. I shook my head and made my way up to my room, thinking no more about it. I was tired and wanted to be alone. I lock my door right after I enter.
I lay there looking up at the celiling wondering if I could do this. You know, have a baby. I didn't have a boyfriend or anyone to help raise it. The father deicdes he wants to be a prick. Sighing, I sit up. I felt like crying, but tears wouldn't come. I guess it is my body's way of telling me I have cried too much. Looking around I noticed that place is kind of dull. I never really paid much attention before. I had only stayed in a room once and that was in my third year. I shared with Ginny. I shook my head trying to rid myself from my past, knowing that wasn't possible. It was all going to come back when i got on the train to Hogwarts.
I put my hands on my stomach. It was more as an attempt to get my mind off school. I begin to wonder what it is? Boy or Girl. Will it be a witch or wizard? Or will it be a muggle? I will love it either way. I looked at my stomach. "It's alright. Don't worry about him. I will alway love you and be here for you." I told the non existing person. I rub my stomach. It was ture. I would. Not because I had to, but because this was mine. It was truley mine. I know someone can't take it from me. And it won't care how I look or anything. It will love me for me. I just fear I will have to tell it about Ron when it gets older. What if it has the Weasley red hair? Or his eyes? Or his nose? Oh gosh! What if he is a complete dupicate! I couldn't take all that. I laid back on the bed thinking about it all. What if I am wrong? What if it hates me for not being good enough for its father? What if it hates me for being a muggle born? What if...if...f...
I awoke with the sun rays on my skin. OH MY GOSH! I look around for some sort of time! Anything to tell me if I missed the train. How could I have done this? How could I have fallen asleep? I rushed down stairs with my stuff, still looking for something to tell me what time it was. Nothing did. I ran into someone, or more of something, on my way. I looked at the creature.
"Dobby!" I exclaimed. "What are you doing here!"
"Hello, Miss. It is nice to see you again. Dobby work here now. Hogwarts is nice to Dobby, but now that Dumbledore is gone Dobby has to leave." Dobby explained. I smile at him.
"Dobby, I hate to say hi and run, but I must get to school." I say. "Do you know what time it is?" He shook his head. "Tom! What time is it!"
"Nine forty five." Tom replies, giving me a weird look. I sighed with relif. I feel a quick dizziness spell and sit down.
"Miss, are you okay?" Dobby asksed. I smiled and noded.
"Yes. I guess it's normal symptoms of a pregnacy." I shruged. Dobby's eyes get the size of oranges.
"You...You mean you be pregnant?" He asked and I nodded. "Miss, where is your husband?" I laugh.
"I don't have one. Ron refuses to believe it is his, so I am on my own." I say and look down. I can't start crying again, I tell myself. Dobby shook his head.
"No. I will help!" He said and I looked at him as if he were crazy. "I will help, you no need to go through this alone."
"Dobby, I don't want anyone to know. It will look weird for a house elf to go to Hogwarts with me." I explained and he though about that. "Plus you have a job here and I can't afford to pay you."
"True. Can I atleast come and check on Miss?" Dobby asked me. I nodded and promise him he can.
I took a deep breath looking at the barrier. This was my final time doing this and it didn't feel any different. I looked around at people staring at me. I couldn't go unless they stop that. All of a sudden there is a crash on the other side of the station and while people look I ran. I wondered what it was, but I didn't have time to look. Getting to the other side I took in the familir smell of Platform nine and three quaters. I looked around,my eyes searched from the flaming red hair or the amazing green eyes that I come to know and love. No luck though. I didnt even know why I am looking for him. He has made it clear how he feels about me.
Getting on the train, I looked for an empty compartment. I usually sat with Harry and Ron, but I knew that wasn't an option. I found one and closed the door. Gazing out the window and saw something very unusal. Was that... no couldn't be. I just... I could have swore I saw Draco Malfoy on the platform. But that was impossible. I mean, he was supposed to be on the run. He tried to kill Dumbledore last year. But looking now I didnt see anyone. Shurgging, I turned to a book I brought. I kind of wish I had brought Dobby with me now. At least he was someone to talk to. I jumped as I heard the compartment door open. I look, half expecting to see the small little house elf. Except this wasn't a house elf, or small for that matter. The person standing in front of me was about six two in height and very muscular. I guess he plays qudditch. He has dirty blonde hair, that wasn't long, but not short. It was enough to go past his eyes and he could do the cute things guys to do brush it out. You know the head flick. His eyes were extrodinary. I have never seen someones eyes that hazel. They were beautiful. I have never seen him at school, I wonder if he is new. Can you be new at Hogwarts?
"Um... Hi." He said looking at me. "Is this seat taken?" All I could do was shake my head. Now I am not usually the one to lose my head over a guy, but there was something about this one. He sat down and stared out the window. I could tell he was unconfrontable with me staring at him, so I tried not to. I found myself using any excuse I could to look at him. Like pretending to look at my book but look over the page at him. He noticed and decided to say something. "I am Lucas by the way." He extended a hand to me. "Lucas Hauther." I shook his hand.
"I am Hermione Granger." I said and gave a glance out the window. My mind went back to seeing Draco there, but the train was now moving. I looked back at him and to my surprise he was smiling. At what though? Was he smiling at me? No, couldn't be... could he? Now, I am not the prettiest girl at Hogwarts, but I don't look like the little bushy haired girl who started at Hogwarts several years ago either. My teeth had been fixed, my hair was more silky now and not bushy. I still didn't wear make up or anything though. But he did look like he was smiling at me. I smiled back, but try not to smile too big. I didn't want to scare him or anything. "Are you new? I don't think I have ever seen you around Hogwarts." He nodded to my question.
"I am new. I just transfered." He explained. "Do you play qudditch?" Funny how he just changed the topic that fast, but I shrugged it off.
"No." I replied with a shake of my head. "Do you?" Seems like a stupid question after looking at him. He nodded.
"Yeah I do. Or I did, I am hoping to this year too." He said and looked to the hall. "So, is Hogwarts all they say it is?"
"What do you mean?" I had no idea what was said about Hogwarts. I was always there or in the muggle world. I didn't hear other wizards talk about them.
"You know, secret passages, secrets beyond the normal emagionation, mystries of the great unknown, rooms no one knows about..." He trialred off. There was all that and I knew it. I just shrugged.
"I don't know, you will have to find that out yourself." Looking Lucas over I tried to figure out what house he would be in. "Are you pureblood?" I ask right out of the blue. He shakes his head.
"No, I am half and half." Ok, that rules out Slytherin then. I thought we had another Draco Malfoy on our hands. Maybe he would be a Ravenclaw.
Lucas and I talked the whole train ride there and the ride up to the castle. He was really nice to talk to. I still hadn't told him about me being pregnant, but that usually isn't what you tell someone your first time meeting them. Plus, I wanted to make a good impression. We had to go our seprate ways when we got to school yet. He was going to be in seventh year, but had to go through the sorting. I sat beside Harry and Ginny. Ron was there too, but he ignored me. I feel like crying again, but just watch as the first years come in. I see Lucas smile at me and my heart jumped. Wow... that was a mood swing, but I don't think it has anything to do with the pregnacy.
"Gryffindor!" The hat yells as it is placed on Lucas's head. I smileed, a little bigger than others. He comes and sits next to me.
"Hey." I said and blush a little. Ginny takes notice and smiled at me. He nodded.
"So, what time do you guys usually go to the dorms?" Lucas asked, to everyone.
"When the Headmaster tells us we can I guess. It will be different now that Dubledore isn't here." Ginny explained and looked at our new Headmaster. Sighing I look at my plate.
"You okay, Hermione?" Lucas asked me, looking at me with concern in his eyes. I smile and nod.
"Yeah, I am fine."
I walked into Charms, which I had first this year. I looked around for a place to sit. I saw Ron and Harry, but didnt go over. Ron was giving me that look that tells me not to. I took a place in the back and open my book, feeling a little bit abandoned and helpless. I hear someone sit in the seat next to me and pay no attention until I hear them clear their throat. Looking up I see Lucas. I smiled, feeling kind of stupid.
"So, this class any good?" He asked, not looking at me, but around the room.
"It is okay." I replied, studing his facal sturcture.
"In other words BORING!" He nearly yelled and I laughed. I liked charms though, but I didn't want to seem like a know it all in front of him.
After class we walked to lunch together.
"Want to go outside?" He asked , motioning toward the grounds. I looked out the window.
"We are supposed to go to lunch." I said, I am not the one to break a rule unless it is seriously needed.
"Is that a no?" He asked looking at me now. For the first time I felt his eyes scan over me. It was a little unconfrontable.
"Yeah, it is. You can go, I won't tell, but I don't break rules." I said with a shrug and turn into the girls bathroom. I felt like I had just made a fool of myself. He probably hated me now.
I waited until I knew he wasn't out by the door and walked out. I headed for lunch... alone.
"Hermione!" I heard someone yell out. It was a male voice. Lucas maybe? I turned to see I was wrong. It wasn't Lucas. This time it was Harry. I wasn't for sure if Ron had told him or how he will take it.
"Hey, Harry." I said, not looking at him.
"Hermione, I haven't seen you much. Are you okay?" He asked me.
"I will be fine, Harry. I am late for lunch, do you need something?" He looked a little hurt by this.
"Hermione, just because you and Ron had a fight, doesn't mean we can't be friends, does it?" He asked me.
"I guess not. But did he even tell you what the fight was about?"
"No, he tell anyone, he keeps it a secret." He said, and it made since. I nodded. "What was it?"
"Have him tell you, because it isn't my place." I simply said and walked off. Isn't that just like Ron to keep this a secret. He probably knew Harry would have sided with me on this. Oh well, I didn't care anymore. Instead of going to lunch I told Ginny I didn't feel good and went up to the Dormotories and laid down.
"Hermione..." A voice was saying in a distance far away. "Hermione!" I open my eyes to see two pair of green eyes right infront of my face. Almost screaming I widen my eyes.
"Ginny! What are you doing!" I ask, sitting up.
"Trying to wake you up. It is time for dinner and Harry has been asking about you." She explained and I nodded. I walk down to the common room and see Harry and Ron sitting by the fire. Harry waves a hand to tell me to come over. I look at Ron and I am not for sure if it is the best idea. I sighed and go over anyway.
"Hey Hermione. Feeling any better?" Harry asked me and I smile.
"Yes, much, thank you." I said and looked at Ron. He didn't look mad or sad. As a matter of fact he gave me a smile.
We sat there and acted as if nothing happened and we were all friends again. It didn't feel right, but it felt better than being left out. We went to dinner together. After dinner Ron pulled me aside.
"Hermione, listen. I still want to be friends. I forgive you for lying to me about being pregnant." He said and I was a little confused. Did he think I wasn't? Did he think I would lie about that? Did he know me at all. I gave a harsh laugh and shake my head.
"Ron, I wasn't lying about anything."
"Hermione, come on. We both know you can't get pregnant after one time." How could he be doing this? I could and I did. I just turn and walk away. He calls after me, but I ignore him. Things were never going to be normal again.