THE SECRET LIFE OF AN ENFORCER
CHAPTER 2 - Nightmares
Night of the rescue, two weeks earlier...
She was soo tired, he'd been especially nasty to her today and her body bore the signs of his displeasure. He kept her energy levels low while keeping his at defense levels. It seemed her mate was finding fault with her more and more frequently as time went on. Her 18th birthing day was in a few days. After a year mated she had still not produced a cub and her mate's patience had grown thin. He beat and raped her regularly, she couldn't remember when she had a respite from his cruel treatment. She collapsed in exhaustion in the spare room's closet, the only place she'd found to get even a modicum of rest.
She woke to his shouts. He was drunk and she could hear him breaking furniture. She shrank further back into the closet and tried not to make a sound. She screamed when he ripped open the door and yanked her out tossing her to the floor. The beatings this time were so much worse. He'd broken a rib or two and her head, arms and legs throbbed. He had finally stormed out of the house and left her lying, bleeding on the floor. She realized that next time he could very well kill her. No matter how much she hurt, she had to get out now. Years later she no longer remembered how she had escaped, nor how long she had traveled before she came to Megakat City.
Her mind was struggling to remember that that time was no more, that it was just a nightmare, that she had made a new life for herself far away from her tormentor. But as she fought to get away from the past a more recent memory slipped into her mind's eye with the image of her mate's blood stained visage leering at her, his torn throat plainly visible. He lurched towards her, "What's the matter bitch? Don't you like your handiwork? Don't you realize you can never get rid of me. I will always be here because you belong to me and no one will ever have you" he laughed obscenely reaching out to grab her. She screamed in terror trying desperately to get away from him.
The screams brought the on duty doctor and an orderly running to Commander Feral's room in the Kanler Abuse Treatment Center. Rushing into her room they found her pressed in the corner, screaming, her claws and fangs extended and her eyes glowing. She was obviously caught in the throes of a horrible nightmare. Her fearsome demeanor prevented them from approaching. They could only wait and gently call out to her trying to wake her from the grip of her dream.
Gradually she regained awareness of her surroundings. She was shaking and covered in a cold sweat, she felt nauseated. Dr. Sannen tried to approach her with a blanket to wrap around her but she immediately flinched and moved away from him, hissing. He stopped and waited.
"It's alright Commander. I'm not going to hurt you. You've just suffered a bad nightmare and are in shock right now. Please let me wrap this blanket around you and I can give you something to help relax you." He coaxed gently
"Stay away from me! She hissed again. Her heart was hammering in her chest, she felt sick and disoriented. She would not let any male get near her and continued to retreat from the doctor.
Sighing in frustration, Dr Sannen retreated and signaled to a female nurse to try to aid the patient. Nurse Barbet carefully approached the volatile Commander with the blanket and was relieved when Feral allowed her to wrap the blanket around her shoulders and pull it close. She spoke soothingly and rubbed the saber's back.
Feral relaxed slowly but watched the males in the room warily. After training herself to accept that not all males were like her mate, her efforts had been completely destroyed by her mate's return and the resumption of his cruel treatment of her. Despite his demise at her own paws, she couldn't shake her learned response to the approach of a male. She silently cursed her mate. How could she be Chief Enforcer if she couldn't abide males near her. For crying out loud, nearly all her enforcers were male. She hoped the doctors here could help her get over this.
She sighed as she realized her problem was worse than just going back to work. Though her energy had been released, in about two weeks she would need to do it again and a male was required. She huddled deeper into the blanket as the true seriousness of her predicament sank in. Goddess, it just couldn't get any worse.
The next day, an exhausted Chief Enforcer greeted the female doctor assigned to her case. Dr Genzer studied her tired patient with dismay. The Commander's sleep was continuously disrupted by nightmares featuring her deceased mate. The doctor knew they had to address the underlying cause of abuse before the saber before her could get any peace. This was to be their first session.
"I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time. You know you can take a sleep aid to allow you to get some rest. I really insist that you take it. Your mind can't deal objectively until it has received some much needed down time." she urged.
"I know, I just can't abide medication, especially sleep inducing ones. They always make me goofy and lose control." Feral grumbled
"We are not talking continuous use, only for a couple of nights so that you can get some much needed rest." Dr Genzer insisted.
"Crud, alright! Just for the next couple of nights, understand?" she snarled.
"Of course. When we're done here, I'll order a dose for you. Now let's talk a bit. I'm not going to force you to tell me your life story. What we'll do is just talk about anything you feel like getting out." Dr. Genzer coaxed
"I don't talk about personal matters." Feral mumbled.
"Actually that's true about most kats. But in your case, it's really important to open yourself up because hiding your trauma only allows it to fester. Life and work situations will cause it to come out at inappropriate times which could be embarrassing or down right dangerous when your attention cannot afford to be distracted. Releasing it gradually during these sessions will help believe me." she stated calmly. "Before we get started, can you tell me if your name is your true one?"
"Uh, well...Feral is my real last name, but my first name, I altered only a little to make it sound male. It's really Ulera." she said hesitantly.
"That's a beautiful name. I'll put that in your records. Now, tell me, what do you hope to get out of these sessions?" Dr Genzler asked seriously.
"I want to be able to work around males again. I need to get back to work!" Feral exclaimed.
"Okay, then that's what we'll work on. At your own pace, tell me what it is about males that really bothers you?" Dr Genzer began.
The session went on for an hour and left Feral weeping and wrung out. She was taken back to her room given lunch and the promised sleeping pill. After picking at her lunch with not much appetite, she made a face but took the pill and laid down to try and rest.
Present time...
By the end of the second week, Dr Genzer had helped her open up but still had not been able to overcome her aversion to males. The nightmares still dogged her sleep and to make matters worse Feral's energy levels were rising to uncomfortable levels. Dr Genzer was naturally concerned about her patient becoming a danger to everyone at the Center. In Feral's records, she had read the enforcer report of the incident that had brought her here. In it she'd noted that one male at least had been able to touch and comfort her. She made a call to the Deputy Mayor to ask about contacting this male for his help. Time was running out and something needed to be done immediately.
"Good morning, Deputy Mayor Brigg's office, how may I help you?" spoke the bright voice of the receptionist.
"Hello, this is Doctor Genzer of the Kanler Abuse Treatment Center. Would it be possible to speak with Ms Briggs? The matter is very urgent." she asked.
"Of course, doctor. Please hold while I see if the Deputy Mayor is free" the receptionist answered.
"Ms Briggs?" she called.
"Yes, Dorrie?" the Deputy Mayor's distracted voice answered.
"There is a Dr Genzer from the Kanler Abuse Treatment Center on line two. She says it's urgent she speak with you." Dorrie explained
"Oh, thank you. I'll take it. Please hold my other calls" she ordered
"Yes mamm." The receptionist hung up.
"Dr Genzer, what can I do for you?" Ms Briggs asked.
"I need to speak with you on an urgent matter concerning my patient, Commander Feral. I'm not certain this matter should be discussed on the phone." She explained.
"Hmmm...I see, well I think I can break away for a short time. You do mean now?" she asked
"Yes, if it is possible, Deputy Mayor. I know your time is tight but this is a matter of safety for all concerned and must be dealt with immediately." Dr Genzer apologized.
"Are we talking energy overload?" Ms Briggs asked cautiously
"I'm afraid so. Can I expect you soon?" She asked.
"Yes. I'll leave now. Should be there in about thirty minutes, alright?" Her mind speeding ahead.
"That will be fine, Ms Briggs. See you then." Dr Genzer thanked her and hung up.
A little more than thirty minutes later, Ms Briggs was sitting in front of Dr Genzer's desk.
"So what is the problem and what can I do to help you?" Callie asked getting right to the point.
"From your response on the phone, Ms Briggs, you are aware of the danger Commander Feral represent's when her energy levels get high. Her present problem is her inability of allowing any male to get close to her and, of course, to dump her energy she has to get very close indeed. I asked for your help because of your personal knowledge of the SWAT Kats." she explained.
"I see. It's the part of the report that stated T-Bone was able to get close to the Commander without her reacting badly?" She asked
"Yes, that's it exactly. Since you apparently have a friendly relationship with them, I was truly hoping you could convince the one called T-Bone to help. Near as I'm able to determine, there isn't much time left before the Commander loses control." she said worriedly
"I understand. I believe T-Bone will help, though I expect him to be uncomfortable about it. I will try to get hold of him right away and have him come see you." Callie was certain, based on what she had observed that day that T-Bone would agree to help.
"That will be great, Ms Briggs, thank you." Dr Genzer was relieved.
Callie went out to her car and wasted no time in contacting the SWAT Kats.
The night of the rescue, two weeks earlier...
Flying home, the SWAT Kats were unusually subdued. After arriving in the hanger they decided to do some repairs and reloading of the turbocat. They didn't talk much, each wrapped in their own troubled thoughts. They finished and went upstairs to wash up and get dinner. After ordering piazza, Jake grabbed a couple cold ones from the fridge and tossed one to Chance.
"Hey buddy, this thing with Feral got you by the tail?" Jake asked quietly.
"Yeah, I just don't know what to think. I mean, he's a she! And she's lied to everyone about who she is. But, I can sorta understand why she felt she had to, that bastard must have done some really terrible things to cause her to hide her gender." Chance looked at his partner with troubled eyes.
"I know Chance. I feel guilty about the way we've treated her all this time even though there was no way we could have known." Jake sighed heavily. "You know with her out of commission, the city is in real trouble now with Steel in charge. We'll have to step up our patrols to counteract anything that fool does much less what advantage the omegas will take."
"Crud, I didn't think about that. Feral may have been a pain in the ass at times, but she is a good enforcer commander." Chance shook his head.
"How do you feel about having to be intimate with her, Chance" Jake asked carefully. Concerned for his partner's mental well being.
"I don't know how I feel about it. Though it was necessary, I can't get over how strong an orgasm I had with her. Never experienced anything so intense before. It felt so strange laying with her and seeing the face of the Commander of the Enforcers. The whole thing is too weird for me to wrap my mind around." he shook his head in confusion.
"I don't know what to say to you Chance. You can't let it get to you though or it could effect your ability to concentrate and that could cost you your life." Jake worried
"You're right Jake. I'll try and put it aside but I know I won't be able to forget what happened." he sighed "For now let's just hit the hay. I'm really bushed."
Jake nodded agreement and they both headed to their rooms for some much needed sleep.
Present time...
The alarm rang out. Working nearby on a truck, Chance snaked a dirty paw out to snatch the phone from the wall.
"Yes Ms Briggs?" he said briskly
"T-Bone your assistance is needed at the Kanler Abuse Treatment Center" She said bluntly.
"Isn't that where you sent Feral?" Chance asked warily..
"Yes, it's Feral that needs you. I don't know exactly what happened that night between you two but it is because of that closeness that you are needed. Commander Feral is still unable to allow any male near her and her energy levels are high. Her doctor fears she is at the limit of her control and is concerned for the safety of everyone at the Center. I know it's lot to ask T-Bone but it seems you are the only one that can do this and avert a disaster." Callie pleaded urgently.
"I understand Ms Briggs. I'm not really certain Commander Feral will allow me close again, but I'm willing to try. Where is the center and who do I see?" Chance asked.
"Thank you T-Bone, I know this will not be easy for you." Callie said relieved he was willing. She gave him directions and the doctor's name then disconnected.
"What's up Chance" Jake asked as he stood nearby ready to leave if it was a call for help.
"It's Feral, she's having problems" Chance relayed what Callie had asked of him.
"Are you okay with this, buddy?" Jake watched his partner worriedly
"I have to be don't I! If I don't try she could wipe out an entire medical center, after that happens, I doubt she will ever recover. Then the city could very well decide to put her to death for being a danger to katkind." Chance growled in frustration.
"I'm sorry Chance. I know you don't really have a choice, I'm just worried about you too." Jake said concerned.
"I know Jake, I'm sorry! I didn't mean to bite your head off. This is just so messed up." He hung his head a moment and sighed, then threw back his shoulders and headed for the hidden door to the hangar. "No point talking anymore about it. I've got to go, I'll see you later." Chance said as he disappeared down the hatch.
"Good luck, buddy" Jake murmured.
Many eyes followed the colorful figure as it strode purposefully towards the elevators at the Center. T-Bone ignored the looks and whispers, too wrapped in his anxious thoughts to pay any heed. 'God, I hope I can get her to let me near. I'll have to have sex with her again. I should be disgusted but I'm sort of excited that despite the situation I don't really mind doing this. It freaks me out that I'm even thinking of Feral that way, but damn it, nothing about her is what it's supposed to be.' His thoughts broke off with the arrival of his floor. He walked down to the nursing station. A nurse looked up at him in surprise.
"I'm looking for Dr Genser, she's expecting me" T-Bone explained. The nurse told him to wait while she sought the doctor. A few minutes later, a slim female Persian came striding up to him.
"T-Bone, I'm Dr. Genser. Thank you for coming. Commander Feral is between sessions and resting so your timing is perfect." Dr Genser said relieved.
"I'm not sure what I can do, but I'm willing to do whatever it takes to help her, doc" T-Bone said quietly.
"That's all we can hope for sir, please follow me" with that the doctor led off down the hall at a brisk pace stopping at a locked door. "T-Bone, if things work out well I will leave you alone with her but the door will be unlocked. Please take all the time you need to help ease her. By the way, her real first name is Ulera. It might help for her to hear it. When you are through ask the nurses for me. I want to talk to you, alright?" she watched him closely.
"Sure doc, no problem." T-Bone said nervously.
The doctor looked in the viewing window for a moment then unlocked the door.
Lying on her side, Feral was stirring restlessly, moaning softly. T-Bone was shocked, she looked exhausted and wan. Her moaning was getting louder and more anguished. He moved to her side and gently lifted her into his arms. Speaking softly he said nonsense things hoping she recognized the sound of his voice from before.
The nightmares didn't end, they wound around her like a noose choking her. She saw Him there in her mind, mocking her, his body pressing her brutally to the bed, ripping her, making her scream and cry in pain. She beat at him and he laughed. She screamed and fought her way towards consciousness, her heart hammering, body cold and shaking, but something was different. She was being held against a strong chest and the voice gently calling to her was strangely familiar. She blinked her eyes open and beheld T-Bone. She stared at him in disbelief.
T-Bone watched anxiously as her eyes opened and focused on him. Her eyes still held some of the terror of her nightmare. It tore at him to see such fear in her face and feel her body shake and her heart beat a frantic tattoo against his chest. He continued to caress her back and speak soothingly, trying desperately to calm her.
Realizing this was the tom who had been so gentle with her on that terrible day, she wrapped her arms around him and began to sob in relief. He returned her hug and rubbed his face against hers to try to comfort and encourage her release of emotions. Dr Genser signaled to him that he was doing the right thing and to continue, she would leave them alone for now.
T-Bone leaned back against the wall and cradled the sobbing saber in his arms. He knew there wasn't much he could do but let her cry her pain out. It took a little while, she had a lot of hurt built up, but soon the crying slowed then stopped. She pushed away from him and he let her.
"I'm sorry for doing that" she said embarrassed.
"Why? You obviously really needed to do that. It's bad to hold so much inside." T-Bone said quietly.
"I...well, thank you, I guess" she said uncertainly. She really didn't know how to act around him. He was a SWAT Kat, the bane of her existence as an enforcer and yet he was also a male. A male she felt safe being near for the first time in her life. Her emotions were thoroughly confused. And then there was her problem that needed a male to solve.
As if reading her mind, the male in question began to gently stroke her paw, not making any move to touch any further than that. It felt good, but still she was nervous.
"It's okay, we'll take it slow. I won't do anything you don't want to do. All you have to say is no when it gets too much for you. Normally, I'd get to know you better before becoming intimate but unfortunately there's no choice. For everyone's safety we have to do this." T-Bone soothed gently. He paused for a moment and then stood up facing her.
"I have an idea I think you will enjoy very much. I'm guessing that you haven't been given much control over sexual situations because of your energy release needs which leaves you at the mercy of a male. Well here's your chance to be in control. Now here's what I'm going to do. I'm taking my clothes off and laying down on the bed. I'll leave it to you when your clothes come off and let you explore my body to your heart's content. I won't raise a hand to touch you until you wish me too. How does that sound to you?" T-Bone smiled encouragingly.
She stared at him in stunned amazement, was he serious? "I'm not sure about this..." she said hesitantly.
"Don't worry, it's going to be alright." T-Bone began stripping his G-suit off. She watched unwillingly. As each piece of clothing was taken off, she could see the rippling muscles of his broad chest and powerful arms and equally powerful legs. As he finished undressing her eyes zeroed in on his, at present, soft genitals and felt her face blush with heat. Smiling at her, T-Bone moved to the bed and laid on his back, his arms at his side. She stared at this really magnificent male for several minutes before slowly approaching the bed.
Hesitantly, she began stroking her fingers down his chest, slowly exploring his hard muscles, passing her paw down his flat stomach and stopping before reaching his sex that was beginning to show interest. She stared at it fascinated but continued her perusal of his body. His fur felt wonderful to her fingers and she began to enjoy caressing it over and over. She then lowered her face to his chest and inhaled his musky male scent, it stirred her senses making her body tingle. Feeling a deep need to get even closer she stripped her clothes off then slide her body over his and began rubbing their bodies together. T-Bone ached to move, all her touches and now her possession of his body were making it nearly impossible for him to remain still. He was afraid to speak in case he spooked her.
Feral had been avoiding looking into his face, but now that she was laying on him and he had not done anything about it she felt safe to study his features even though part of it was covered by a mask. He had a strong face, she wished she could see his eyes. Slowly, she lowered herself and rubbed her cheek against his. Carefully, he gently licked her face. She startled and raised up to stare at him. He smiled warmly back. Fascinated by his generous mouth she tentatively kissed him. It was nice and she tried it again this time letting him lead the way. Taking his time, he kissed her gently at first and, as she consented, more intensely.
She'd never experienced anything so intensely wonderful before and wanted more of it. She kissed him back with an intense passion that caused them both to moan and writhe their bodies together. She could feel him responding firmly against her stomach. She thought she should be afraid of what that hardness meant, but not this time, this time she felt an urgent desire for his possession. The need burned through her taking her fear away with it.
"I want you!" she barely breathed her desire.
"Ulera, are you sure?" he panted, he wanted her but needed to make sure she was ready to accept him.
"Oh yes, I'm certain! You make me feel things I never thought possible. Please show me how wonderful it can be like you did that first time" she pleaded.
"You'll only know pleasure never pain from me" T-Bone quietly assured her. Gently lifting her body a little, he shifted himself until he was positioned correctly compensating for the fact that she was so much bigger than he. "Okay, you still control the action here. Lower yourself onto me slowly until you are comfortable. You'll know what to do next." he smiled at her.
Eyeing him in excitement as she followed his instructions she felt incredible as his velvety hardness speared her insides without pain, only an intense fullness. Once seated she began a slow rocking motion. T-Bone couldn't control the moan of pleasure and it pleased and encouraged her to pick up the pace. They were soon soaring higher and higher, her body beginning to glow brightly. As the pressure increased to intense levels, her energy flowed through T-Bone's body making him even harder as they raced to completion. It burst over them like a waterfall, pulsing over and over for several minutes and finally letting go. They collapsed in a sweaty heap, hearts racing.
T-Bone was the first to recover, careful not to spook her, he gently caressed her back. She responded lazily by licking his face. He chuckled at her sated response. He was relieved that he had been successful in overcoming her fear and releasing her energy safely. "Someone seems to be pleased with herself."
"Oh, you are so different from all the males I have known. So gentle, such an incredible lover. I am very grateful to you." she purred with pleasure.
"You are very welcome, Ulera. It will be my pleasure to help you when you need me again." he purred back at her.
She sighed, "I wish it were possible for you to stay with me while I sleep. I think you might keep the nightmares at bay."
"Well, I'm sorry I can't too, but, hey, I can stay for a little while right now so you can get some rest if you'd like? You look very tired." He murmured
"I am" she sighed heavily, "Thank you, I appreciate it." They rolled till they lay side by side, T-Bone grabbed a sheet and covered them both. She snuggled against his chest and closed her eyes. He continued to caress her shoulders soothingly as he felt her ease into slumber.