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Chapter Five: "Balancing"
Renesmee's POV
"Do you know the answer Miss Cullen?" my biology teacher Mr Banner asked me.
"Double helix" I answered and he smiled and asked someone else another question. I knew he favourited me in the class, but that was only because I was the only one who showed interest in the subject and actually did the homework.
"You're such an ass kisser" Lana said from beside me and I laughed "Oh please Mr Banner, I'll do anything for an A. I'd even suck your co-"
"Miss Barnes" Mr Banner said interrupting her "Do you have something you wish to share with the class? If its important enough to disrupt Miss Cullen from her studies then please share it with the rest of us"
I took a sideways glance at Lana and shook my head at her "No Mr Banner, I was just discussing the male anatomy with Renesmee" she answered with a smile and a few sniggers erupted from the class "It was purely educational"
"See me after class Miss Barnes"
Lana didn't say anything else to me throughout the class but gave me a smile when I left her alone in the classroom, she really didn't care about school. I wish I was like her sometimes but studies came first, they always did.
So with Lana being held up with Banner I had to walk alone to my next class, luckily Grace was in that class so I wouldn't have to be alone for long. I walked over to the back of the class and took my seat next to Grace.
"What did she say now?" Grace sighed.
"Something about Mr Banner's cock" I answered and Grace groaned "Not to his face but she didn't do herself any favours anyway"
"When will she learn? I love her and everything but she needs to start behaving"
"It's been six years, why start behaving now?" I laughed.
"Good point" she laughed along with me. Class had been running for about 10 minutes by the time Lana walked in, she had a note from Mr Banner explaining why she was late so Mrs Williams didn't go to hard on her. Lana walked over to sit next to Grace and shook her head.
"I could get him done for sexual harassment or something. He totally asked me to stay behind to ogle my tits"
"That's not true. You were being a pain in the ass so he was just doing what a teacher had to do" I whispered at her.
"Whatever. He should have just spanked me or something, I'm into it" she winked and turned back to the front and was quiet throughout the rest of the class.
The day went by as it usually did, classes were interesting yet boring at the same time and lunch was of course the usual. I sat with Lana and Grace and we had our own table in the cafeteria, if anybody ever dared sit there then Lana would do her Lana look and they would instantly moved. We weren't bitches or anything but we were popular. It had its pros and cons.
My phone bleeped halfway through lunch and I looked to see that I had a message.
"Oh here comes the face" Lana said to Grace and I looked up at her.
"What face?" I asked.
"The Jacob face" Grace snickered "You get this little "away with the fairies" face whenever you get a text from him"
"I do not"
"The goo goo eyes, the little innocent smile" Lana said "You're doing it now"
"No I'm not" I protested "You guys suck" I said turning away from them and reading the message which was actually from Jacob.
Hey, I know you're at school but I just wanted to let you know I'm thinking about you. J
I smiled to myself. Jacob and I had been dating for two weeks now and it was going really well. He was such a fun guy to be around, l never stopped laughing or smiling when I was with him. I still hadn't told my parents about him and he was bugging me to tell them, he didn't want to have to sneak around but I knew that as soon as I told my parents that would be it, I would hardly see him.
I'm thinking about you too. What are you up to? I texted back.
Just eating lunch. How about you?
Same. Getting stressed about my history test. I sent back. I had a huge history test which meant a big deal. If I failed this test then I wouldn't be able to cope, I might be good at studying but I sucked at tests. Dad said it was because I stressed out too much about it, that might be true but it didn't help.
My phone rang again but this time it was Jacob calling me. I turned to the girls "I'm gonna take this outside" I said to them and they both chorused "ooooo" I rolled my eyes and walked out of the cafeteria "Hey"
"What have I said about you and stressing out over this god damn test?"
"I can't help it. I just really need to pass"
"And you will if you just calm the fuck down okay? You've been stressing about this test for 3 days. It ain't good for ya Nessie"
"I know, I know. I'll feel better once its over. Regardless of how well I did or whatever"
"You'll pass. I know you will"
"Why do you have so much faith in me?" I smiled.
"Because if I don't then I'll never be able to kiss you again?" he asked and I laughed "I'm kidding. I just believe in you that's all. Hey how about I stop by after work tonight and I'll show you just how much I believe in you?" I could hear the smirk in his voice.
My parents were out tonight so that could work "Okay. But you have to park your car down the street"
"I'm sick of this shit Nessie. Are you ashamed of me or something?"
"No I'm not ashamed of you. Its just that my parents won't understand and I don't want them to hear about you from my nosy neighbours. That's all"
"You're right, I'm sorry baby. I'm just stressed at work that's all. I didn't mean to take it out on you"
"It's okay. What time will you be over?"
"About 8 is that alright?"
"That's fine" I replied "I'll see you later then"
"Yeah later. Hey good luck with the test"
"Thanks. Bye"
"Bye" he replied and hung up the phone. It wasn't just work that had him stressed out, it was something else to but I didn't know what. After our date at La Bella Italia two weeks ago he had been a little out of it. I had asked him if it was something I had done but he just said he was stressed because of work, I didn't want to push it so I left it. I just hope that he'd confess to me what his problem was. Hopefully tonight.
Lunch was over by the time I made it back to the girls, they asked what happened with Jacob on the phone but I just gave them a smile and said I'd tell them later.
Next up was my history test, the one I was dreading. I knew that I could possibly past the test but it was just the stress of it all. Stress didn't give you a clear head so everything that I knew was hard to attain in my head, that's why I needed to calm down.
The history paper was placed in front of me and I immediately started working on it, I seemed to be doing well. Jacob was right, I could do this if I calmed down. Something else that he was right about. He always knew exactly what to say or do to calm me down or to make me smile. I always got lost in his kisses too, whenever his lips were joined with mine everything around me just seemed to disappear.
I'm not saying he was the one but I could definitely see myself losing my virginity to him, he was so kind and loyal and if I was going to lose it with anyone it would be with him. He just seemed like the guy that would still be there in the morning.
"5 minutes everybody" Mr Palms called out. Shit, focus. Enough about Jacob and focus on the paper. I managed to get the paper done by the time Mr Palms called time, I was happy with my answers and I only had to wait until the end of class to find out if I had passed or not. Hopefully I did.
"How was your test?" Mom asked as I got home from school.
"I passed" I smiled.
"You did? Oh honey that's wonderful" she said and wrapped her arms around me. I leaned into her and could smell the alcohol on her, she'd been drinking. Again. She let me go and smiled at me "I'm going to make you some brownies before we leave tonight, would you like that?" she asked.
"That'll be great Mom, thanks" I smiled and watched as she started dancing around the room and grabbing everything she needed "I'm going to do my homework okay?"
"Okay honey" she sang and I left her to it. Mom and Dad had a party to attend to tonight. It was a huge gala like they usually had, it was simply a small dinner party with friends. One that usually went on until gone midnight.
Friday night was my Grandpa's Birthday Party and Alice was arriving home tomorrow. I was so excited to see her, she was the only one I could confide to about everything. Lana and Grace weren't aware of my Mom's drinking habits so I couldn't talk to them about it but I could with Alice. My birthday party was happening the weekend after, I had to introduce Jacob to my parents before then. Perhaps I could invite him as my date to Grandpa's party, surely Dad wouldn't make a scene there would he? Not with his work colleagues and practically the entire town being there?
I finished my homework and changed into my pyjamas. It was 7:45 and Jacob was due in about 15 minutes but it had to appear that I was ready for bed and that I wouldn't be sneaking off out anywhere.
"We'll be home after midnight. Don't make it a late one" Dad said kissing my head. That always seemed to be his line.
"I'll probably just watch a movie and hang out. I'll probably be in bed by 9" I smiled at him.
"Good" he smiled "Bella, love are you ready?"
"Yes, yes I'm coming" she said walking down the stairs and I almost gagged. Those words were used in an entirely different situation a few weeks back, a situation I really didn't want to be reminded of "How do I look?"
"Amazing" Dad said and kissed her on the cheek, I watched as he nibbled - yes nibbled - on her ear "Renesmee will be in bed by the time we get home" he winked at her.
"Oh Edward" she blushed and playfully smacked him on the chest "Right Renesmee. Enjoy your night and I'll see you tomorrow"
"Alright Mom. Have a nice time you two. I love you"
"We love you too honey" she smiled and Dad practically dragged her out of the house. I watched as he pulled out of the driveway and I jumped off of the sofa and quickly did my hair before Jacob could arrive. I was about to go upstairs to change when the doorbell rang, shit.
I ran to the door and opened it "Hi" I smiled at him, trying to hide my outfit from him. I was wearing my cherry pyjamas with a pink and green dressing gown and pink Uggs - not exactly beautiful.
"You gonna let me in?" he smiled.
"Erm"
"Nessie let me in" he laughed and I moved away from the door "Ooo pyjamas" he smirked and I felt myself flush. He closed the door and appraised me "You're breaking every fantasy I have here Nessie. Where's the skimpy lingerie?"
"I was going to change"
"Into skimpy lingerie?" he asked.
"No!" I shouted.
"Oh I don't mind you staying like this. I think its kind of cute" he said grabbing hold of my dressing down and yanking me towards him "I like Cherries" he grinned and leaned down to kiss me.
"Dammit, I almost got it in" I shouted as Jacob laughed "Okay try again"
"You're not going to get it in" he taunted me.
"Watch me" I said as I climbed up onto my knees and lifted my hand. I narrowed my eyes and eyed my target then threw the grape, I watched as it landed in his mouth "Yes!" I knew I'd get it in.
"Lucky shot" he said as he chewed on the grape.
"Didn't anybody tell you not to talk with your mouth full?" I asked raising my eyebrows.
"Nope. Must have missed that conversation" he smirked and swallowed "My turn" he said taking a grape out of the bowl and aiming at me. I watched as he threw the grape but as I leaned over to catch it I fell off of the sofa and landed in a huge heap on the floor "Shit, are you alright?" he laughed as he got down onto the floor.
"Ow" I said rubbing my head "That hurt"
"Are you alright?" he asked again and cupped my chin with on of his hands and lifted my head up to look at him. His other hand grazed my head and I winced as he came into contact with the sore bit "You've got a bump, that should go down by the morning"
"It hurts" I moaned then I felt him press his lips onto my head.
"I know. Shall we drop the grapes for a bit?" he asked and I nodded my head. He climbed back onto the sofa and pulled me with him, I sat with my back to his chest "How did your test go today by the way? You didn't tell me"
I leaned my head back against his shoulder "I almost failed my history test today. I hope you're please with yourself"
"Me? What did I do?"
"You districted me"
"How exactly? I wasn't anywhere near you" he said then I felt the vibrations of his laughter through his chest "You were thinking about me during your test weren't you?"
"No" I lied.
"Liar. What were you thinking about?"
"I wasn't thinking about you"
He placed his lips at my ear and whispered "You're a terrible lair y'know? Tell me the truth or I won't ever kiss you again"
I turned round and raised my eyebrows "You really think you could go through with that threat?" I asked.
"Yes. I happen to be a very patient guy"
"Now who's lying" I laughed and he stared at me, still waiting for my answer "Okay fine I was thinking about you. I was thinking about you and me"
"What about you and me?"
I didn't really want to have this conversation, especially with me wearing what I was wearing and being this close to him.
"Nessie tell me" he breathed.
"I want to tell you something but you have to promise not to get all weird about it"
"Okay. I promise, now what is it?"
"I'm a virgin" I whispered and looked at his face which appeared to be relatively calm which confused me "Didn't you hear me?"
"Yeah I heard you"
"Well why didn't you react?"
He laughed "How did you want me to react?"
"I don't know. I just didn't expect you to not react"
"Nessie" he sighed and moved so he was facing me and I was no longer leaning against him "I don't care if you're a virgin or not okay? I'm not here for that. I'm here because I like you and I wanna spend time with you. I thought I already told you that?"
"You did but I just thought that…." I trailed off and shook my head.
"You thought that that's all I wanted from you" he finished and I shook my head.
"Not that that's all you wanted from me. Just that you might want that from me"
"So what if I do? If we have sex one day then great, fantastic but I'm not going just wait around for that to happen. I like you Nessie, I really like you. I know losing your virginity is a big deal, it always is to girls. So don't worry alright? Even if you never wanna have sex I'll still be here"
I smiled at what he said "Really? You mean even if I never want to have sex with you, you'll still stick around?"
"I kind of hope that you do want to have sex with me one day but if you don't then you don't. Either way I'll still stick around"
"That's kind of sweet"
"Yeah, don't ever tell the guys that" he mumbled and I laughed "Come here you" he said grabbing me and pulling me against his chest "You know as I'm withholding from sex I think that you should do something in return"
"What's that?" I asked.
"Introduce me to your parents" he said simply and I froze.
A/N Not really a cliffy because we all knew that's what Jacob wanted. Next chapter will be Carlisle's birthday party where Jacob will be attending with Nessie and he'll meet the folks. I'm thinking he might not click with Edward. What do you think? Hehe
-SR-