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Chapter Eight: "Sharing"

Renesmee's POV

Four days. It's been four days since I last spoke or even seen Jacob. No sorry that's a lie. I did call him on Monday only for him to tell me he was in the middle of a meeting and that he would call me back, but he didn't. It was now Thursday, it was my party tomorrow night and I wasn't even sure if he was coming or not.

I didn't know what I did wrong. Maybe he was just really busy. When I went round to the shop on the Tuesday Seth told me that I had just missed him and he wouldn't be back until later. A lot later.

He had been a bit off since Saturday night and we had our little make out session in his room. I know that perhaps I was being a little forward but I thought he liked that. I guess he didn't how wrong was I? Maybe I am too young for him.

"Hey grumpy pants. Cheered up yet?" Lana asked sitting down next to me at lunch.

"I'm not grumpy" I mumbled as I checked my phone yet again for any messages.

"Honey staring at your phone isn't going to make it ring"

"I just don't understand. What have I done wrong?"

"You've done nothing Renesmee" Grace sighed "Maybe he just really is busy"

"Yeah. But how busy do you have to be to not be able to send a text or make a quick phone call?"

"I don't know" she answered and shrugged her shoulders.

"He's over me" I whispered.

"No he's not" Lana said.

"Yeah he is. He wants to ditch me because I'm too young for him. I'm just a stupid little girl who is too immature and stupid"

"That's not true. He is the stupid one for not calling you back" Grace stated "He is the only one losing out by not calling you. You're smart, beautiful and funny. He'd be a loser to not want to be with you"

"Then why hasn't he called me? Its my birthday tomorrow and I don't even know if he's coming to my party. He hasn't told me. He said he was coming a few weeks ago but he might have changed his mind. What if he doesn't show up?"

"Renesmee just shut up" Lana snapped "God I'm sick of this. Why are you letting a guy do this to you? He's just a guy. They're only good for one thing and you two haven't even done that yet" she sighed.

"But I like him" I whispered.

"I know you do but watching you get upset about this is just pathetic"

Pathetic? "Well I'm sorry, if I'm so pathetic then why are you still here?" I asked.

"I'm not saying you're pathetic. I'm saying the way you're acting is pathetic" she corrected "I just don't get why you're worrying about this. Its not as if he's cheating on you or anything, he's just working" I didn't answer her "You better suck it up before the end of school, we have practice later and you know that Coach doesn't give a crap about our personal lives"

She was right, I had to clear my head of this. I could think about it all when I got home from school. I could curl up in my bed, staring at my phone as I thought over and over about what I could have possibly done.

School was finally over and I was crossing the courtyard towards the Gym with Lana when I heard a familiar rumble of a motorcycle. I looked up to see Jacob climbing off of his bike and he waved me over.

"R don't even think about it. Coach will kill you" Lana warned me.

"I'll just be a minute. Cover for me" I said to her and quickly ran over to Jacob "Hi" I breathed when I reached him. God I really missed him.

"Hey" he smiled "Sorry I've been a bit MIA for the last few days. My Dad was sick" he said shrugging his shoulders. Now I felt like a bitch, here I was thinking about myself when Jacob's Dad was sick. But then again why didn't Seth tell me that?

"Is he okay?" I asked.

"Yeah. He's fine. He's strong" he laughed then yawned "Shit I'm tired"

"Have you been sleeping?"

"Not much. Been spending most nights over at my Dad's place. Hardly been home all week"

"You should get some sleep"

"But I wanted to see you. I've felt like such a dick ignoring you these past few days. Can I make it up to you?"

I know I should have gone to practice but I could miss one right? I'm sure Coach wouldn't mind too much.

"Okay" I nodded and I climbed onto the back of his bike and wrapped my arms around his waist after he had climbed on. You only live once right?

Jacob drove us back to his apartment and led me upstairs. Embry was at work, apparently Sam had given Jacob some time off because of his Dad being sick. So why had he lied to me and said he was just really busy at work? Focus Renesmee, this isn't about you.

"So what was wrong with your Dad?" I asked as I took of my jacket and put it on the sofa.

"He had a few pains in his chest. The Doc thought it might have been a heart attack but it wasn't" he shrugged "Do you want something to drink?" he asked as he walked into the kitchen.

"Yeah water would be great thanks" I called after him and I sat down on the sofa "So is he going to be okay?"

"I don't know. Maybe. We've just got to watch what he eats" he replied. He walked back through to the living room with a glass of water and a beer and sat down next to, handing me the glass of water "I'm sorry I've been ignoring you all week. I didn't mean to"

"It's okay. Your Dad comes first right?

"Yeah" he nodded and laid his head back against the sofa and closed his eyes.

"Do you want me to go? If you're tired I could see you some other time"

"No, no its okay. I want you to stay. I've missed you" he said quietly.

"I missed you too" I whispered. He lifted his arm for me to snuggle into his side, which I did and he wrapped his arm around me.

"Its your birthday tomorrow. You excited?" he asked making conversation.

"I guess so. I'm more excited about the party more then anything" I laughed.

"Oh yeah. What time is that again?"

"7:30" I answered "If you need to stay with your Dad or you're too tired then I understand. You don't have to feel like you have to go"

He opened his eyes and looked down at me "Nessie I want to go. You ain't stopping me from spoiling my girl on her birthday" His girl? I liked the sound of that "And besides don't you turn eighteen tomorrow?" he smirked.

"Yeah" I smiled "But my parents and my entire family are going to be at this party. So I can't disappear"

"You could always sneak out after everybody has gone to bed. I'll still need to give you your present"

"You mean you're really not getting me a present?" I frowned.

"I was kidding Ness" he laughed "I've already got your present. I was just thinking of maybe giving you a little something extra on top…or the bottom" he winked and I rolled my eyes "I guess I could always take you out somewhere at the weekend. Sam has given me the weekend off"

"What were you thinking?"

"I don't know" he said running his hand up and down my side "I could get us a room in Seattle or somewhere. Just the two of us"

Is that all he wanted from me now? After I turn 18, he'll just want to have sex all of the time? I thought he didn't just want that from me?

"I don't know" I mumbled.

"You don't know? I thought that you wanted this?"

"I do. Its just that….never mind" I sighed.

"No tell me. What's wrong?"

"Is that all you want from me? Sex?"

He dropped his hand from my arm and leaned forward and placed his elbows on his knees and hid his face in his hands "Nessie I thought I made my feelings for you clear?" he sighed.

"You did"

"Then why are you saying this huh? You think I just want to fuck you that's it?" I flinched at his words, I was used to him swearing but he had never sworn at me like that before. With such venom in his voice "You obviously don't know anything about me"

"No Jacob that's not it"

"Then what is it huh? I can't win with you"

"It's not about winning Jacob"

"Just get out"

"W-what?"

"Get the fuck out" he shouted and I ran out of his apartment and ran home crying the entire way.

I brushed past Mom when I got home and slammed my bedroom door and locked it. I just wanted to be alone, I didn't want to talk to anyone. They would just give me the "I told you so" speech or give me sympathetic looks. I didn't need any of them, I just needed to go to bed and never resurface.

I felt someone touch my foot through the duvet and I twitched slightly and they touched my foot again.

"Go away" I grumbled, my voice was a little hoarse from crying all night.

"But sweetheart you have school. And its your birthday"

"I don't want to celebrate"

"Renesmee, sweetheart just get up and have some breakfast. You'll feel better" Mom insisted.

"I'm not hungry" I said back.

"Oh that's enough of this" I heard Alice say and the next thing I know she was pulling the covers off of me and dragging me out of bed "No guy is worth this" she sighed and pulled me into the kitchen where a stack of pancakes were waiting for me.

"How did you know it was a guy?" I mumbled.

She didn't say anything instead she pointed to a vase of pink roses that were sitting on the kitchen counter "They came early this morning"

"That was fast" I whispered and went over to read the card.

I'm so sorry about what I said. I'll see you tonight, if you still want me. J x x

I found myself smiling as I read the card but did I really want to let him off that easily? I mean he'd been ignoring me all week and the one time I got to see him he swore at me and told me to get out. Should I really forgive him so easily? What am I saying? I forgave him the moment I woke up.

"I should text him and thank him for the flowers"

"Not until you've eaten something and gotten ready for school" Mom said to me. Presents would be opened at the party. That's how it always happened.

"Okay" I smiled "Thank you" I said and started eating my breakfast.

I got to school at around 8:30 where I found Grace and Lana waiting for me. They each gave me a hug and wished me a Happy Birthday then Lana hit me on the arm.

"Hey, what was that for?"

"For not showing up at practice yesterday. Coach totally flipped and made us run laps for 30 minutes. All because her little star didn't show" Lana explained as I rubbed my arm "You're so lucky we don't have Gym today"

"I'm sorry its just that Jacob was really out of it yesterday" I shrugged.

"Please tell me you at least boned him?"

"No" I said shaking my head.

"Blowjob?" I shook my head "He went down on you?" I shook my head again "Felt you up?"

"No, Lana just shut up alright? Not everything is about sex" I snapped and stormed off into the school building.

I practically ignored Lana for the rest of the day but she ignored me too. That is exactly what I wanted on my birthday, my best friend being mad at me. Today sucks.

I did manage to avoid Coach all day so when the final bell rang I was elated to get out of here. Alice would already be at home setting up for the party. There would be quite a few of the same people that were at Grandpa's party but I also had a few more people from school coming to mine. I only had two best friends in the school but I was popular for some reason. Nahuel always said it was because my family had money and they were well respected within the community. Ah Nahuel, I hope he wasn't coming tonight. He had been invited but hopefully he would have enough respect and not show up.

When I got home I did my homework straight away so I could enjoy the rest of the weekend and have it as my own. I had luck on my side today as we had only been given one assignment and it was just to answer a few questions on Biology. I managed to get my homework done in 20 minutes and I shoved my bag and books away to start getting ready for my party.

I'd already showered and done my hair, all that needed to be done was putting my dress on but I had two to choose from. Courtesy of Alice of course.

-plink- -plink- was the noise that came from my bedroom window. I walked over to it only for something to hit it again, was that a stone? I opened my window and looked down to see Jacob standing underneath the tree.

"Jacob" I hissed "What are you doing here? Are you crazy, you're gonna get caught"

"Then let me up" he smiled.

I sighed "Just wait there" I said and disappeared from my window and ran down the stairs.

"Renesmee don't run please" Mom called out.

"What is this? School?" I muttered but she didn't hear me. I went to the back door and opened it, Jacob was already waiting "Upstairs now before Mom sees you" I said shoving his shoulder and he moved slowly through the house "Jacob go" I hissed and shoved him again. He laughed but picked up the pace as he started to ascend the stairs "What are you doing here?" I demanded when we were in the safety of my bedroom.

"Did you get my flowers?"

"Yeah I did. They were beautiful"

He walked towards me "I really am sorry about yesterday. I didn't mean to snap at you"

"Snap? You may as well of thrown me out of the house" I joked "What happened yesterday?"

"I don't know. I was just so tired and I didn't mean to take it out on you. Its just that you drive me crazy when you start all of that shit about me just wanting sex. That's not what I want from you. Well not all I want from you" he smirked.

"I just thought because I hadn't heard from you all week that you were done with me. And then when you mentioned about getting a room I guess I just panicked. I thought that you might have just wanted goodbye sex"

"Nessie we haven't even had hello sex" he laughed huskily "If you don't want to come away with me then you don't have to. We can wait"

"I don't want to wait" I admitted "But I want to. I want to wait until there's something between us"

"There is something between us" he said and I cocked my head "Oh you mean the L word?"

"Yeah" I nodded then to my surprise he just burst out laughing "What's so funny?" I asked as he nearly doubled over "Jake shut up"

"You're not in love with me?" he asked between laughs.

"No" I said shaking my head.

"Thank god" he laughed and grabbed my face in his hands and planted a kiss on my lips before pulling away and smiling at me "I thought you were going to tell me you loved me last weekend. I have to admit I freaked a little bit"

"Jake its only been a month. I really like you but I'm not in love with you"

"I'm so glad of that fact" he smiled "Shit does that make me sound like a jerk?"

"No not at all" I smiled "I'd be freaked if someone I had been dating for a month turned around and said they were in love with me"

"You're not like any other girl I've met"

"Good. I don't want to be like every other girl you've met"

"I like you Nessie" he smiled.

"I like you too" I laughed and we met in the middle and shared a kiss. Like every kiss goes with us it didn't take us long for the kiss to turn a little more intense. Especially when Jacob's hands made their way to my butt and he started cupping my ass cheeks.

A knock came at my door "Renesmee, can I come in?" Mom asked and my eyes flew open and I tried to break away from Jacob's grasp.

"Jake let go" I whispered.

"No" he smirked and kissed my lips again.

"Renesmee" Mom called again.

"Jake stop" I said against his lips as I tried to pry his hands off but he wasn't having any of it he tightened his grip on me "Jake please" I begged before he started kissing my neck "Oh God" I moaned.

"Renesmee are you even listening to me?"

"Mom just wait a second" I gasped out and I grabbed hold of Jacob's hair and started pulling on it.

"Ow fuck, fuck" he hissed. And he dropped his grip on me and I let go of his hair "What the fuck Ness?"

"Hide" I whispered.

"Where?"

"Closet" I said and he rolled his eyes "Jacob please?"

"Fine" he huffed and walked over to my closet and got in it.

"Renesmee?"

"Yeah Mom come in" I said and the door opened.

"What took you so long?" she asked.

"Sorry?"

"What were you doing in here?" she asked looking around my room.

"Nothing" I smiled "Was there something you wanted?"

"I wanted to talk to you about something" she said seriously "Something important"

"Okay" I replied slowly "What is it?"

"It's about Jacob" she said and I heard something make a noise in my closet and I prayed that Mom didn't hear it.

"What about Jacob?"

"I think I know why you two had a falling out"

"We didn't fall out" I said quickly and she raised her eyebrows "Okay we did but we made up. Its nothing to worry about. Honestly"

"Are you two having sex?" she asked.

What is everybody fascination with having sex? It's really starting to annoy me. I took a deep breath and answered "No we're not. I'm not ready for that Mom and Jacob respects that" This was so awkward, especially as Jacob was just a few feet away

"I know he's a man and men have urges. I just want you to be careful. Which is why I want you to go on the pill"

"Mom are we really having this conversation right now?"

"It's just that we never had this convresation before. Your Grandmother never had this conversation with me either. And what happened? I became pregnant with you when I was 17. I don't want that to happen to you"

"Mom it won't. Because I'm eighteen so I'm a little late" I joked but she didn't find it funny at all.

"That's not funny Renesmee. I'm trying to be serious here.

"I know Mom. I'm sorry. You don't have to worry about it. I'm not going to have sex unless its with the right guy. You know when I'm in love"

"Good. I still want you to go onto the pill though. I know how sometimes guys slip one past the goalie"

"Ew" I muttered and I swore I could hear Jacob laughing from inside the closet.

"I'll make an appointment for you at the Doctors on Monday. I'm guessing that you wouldn't want your Father or Grandfather doing it" she smiled.

"Yeah not the best idea" I agreed.

"Okay. I'll do that. I'll let you finish getting ready" she said and kissed me on the head. She walked to my bedroom door opened then said "Hello again Jacob" then shut the door behind her. She knew he was here the whole time and yet she still had to have the "conversation"? How sneaky of her.

My closet door opened "How'd she know I was here?" he asked.

"I don't know. She's a Mom don't they have like superhero powers or something?" I shrugged.

"Probably. Hey I've gotta go home and get ready. See you later though right?"

"Unless you have somewhere else you need to be"

"Well I'm seeing my other girlfriend at 10 but I'm sure I can fit you in for at least an hour" he smiled.

"Funny"

"I thought so"

"Get outta here" I said poking him in the chest.

"Happy Birthday Renesmee Cullen" he said leaning down to kiss me and I eagerly kissed him back.

"Thanks. No go, you have a present to wrap" I smiled.

"Yes Madame" he bowed before walking out of my bedroom. I'm thinking that maybe my birthday won't be as bad as I thought it was going to be.

A/N Party is next. Do you want drama or a calm party? Guess you'll have to find out won't you? No outfits for this chapter but there will be next chapter.

-SR-