DISCLAIMER: I do not own Twilight or any of its characters, they belong to Stephenie Meyer. I just own the characters you don't know and the plot.

AUTHORS NOTE: Thanks so much to the reviews for the last chapter. I had about 16 from that chapter, I was amazed so thank you so much. In case some of you don't know (as some of your asked) AU means Alternate Universe. Again thank you so much.

Chapter Twelve: "Confessing"

Renesmee's POV

"Renesmee could you pick up some potato chips while you're at the store. I have a huge craving for them" Mom laughed and I rolled my eyes. Its been 2 weeks since I was told about her pregnancy and 2 weeks since I confided to Jacob about the baby not being my Dad's. Dad hadn't said anything, what was he waiting for? Its obvious she has been cheating on him so why hasn't he said anything? "Renesmee?"

"Sorry, what flavour do you want?" I asked her.

"Surprise me" she smiled and rubbed her stomach gently with her hand. This was my first week of freedom so obviously Mom was using that to her advantage so I would go out and run her errands.

I smiled back at her briefly before grabbing my car keys and leaving the house. The benefit of having freedom was of course I could see Jacob, in fact I was meeting him at the store as he needed to do his shopping as well.

Jacob was already waiting at the front of the store "What's with the face?" he asked as I walked up to him.

"My mother" I sighed.

"What has she done now?"

"You mean apart from cheating on my father and getting pregnant?" I asked "She's just being annoying. Demanding this and demanding that. Its like she has never been pregnant before, its really irritating"

"Has your Dad said anything yet?" he asked as we walked inside the store.

"No. I don't know why he hasn't. He's acting like its his baby and that she hasn't done anything wrong. I don't get it"

Jacob grabbed a shopping cart "Maybe he's trying to not cause trouble. I don't know, I don't really want to think what's going on inside your Dad's head"

"Or maybe he's waiting for the right moment you know? This whole thing is killing me. I want to shout and scream and my Mom but then it would make things awkward you know? Tell me what to do"

"I can't tell you what to do baby because I don't know what to do. Maybe you just need to wait it out and see what happens. I know that's hard to do but baby this isn't your fight"

"I know its just hard" I sighed.

"I understand" he nodded.

"At least you do" I smiled.

Nothing else was said and we walked round the supermarket doing our grocery shopping. It felt nice doing something normal with Jacob, even if it was grocery shopping. It took us an hour to get all of our groceries and pay for them. He loaded his groceries into his car and then helped me with mine.

"Thank you"

"What for?" he asked.

"For helping me with the shopping and for listening to me" I answered.

He smiled and wrapped his arms around my waist "Hey that's what I'm here for okay? I told you I'd look after you"

"That's why I love you. You're just so sweet and amazing" I laughed as I buried my face in his chest but I felt Jake stiffen and that's when I realised what I had said. I looked up at him "I didn't mean for that to come out"

"W-what are you talking about?"

"You heard what I said"

He dropped his hands from around my waist and stepped away from me "We should get going. I have to get everything back you in case things melt" he laughed nervously.

"Jacob"

"No, no its fine. I'll speak to you later. Drive safe" he said kissing me on the head and climbing into his car and drove off. I stared after his car until it was out of sight. I stared in that direction for a few more seconds before climbing into my own car and driving home.

I got home and climbed out of the car. I started unloading the car and carried some of them inside the house where I found Mom in the kitchen with Dad and he was rubbing his hand over her stomach and kissing her neck.

"I thought you were supposed to be working late" I said to Dad as I dumped the bags on the kitchen counter.

"I decided to take a few days off. Following the good news" he answered and kissed Mom on the cheek. I have had enough of this, I need to say something. I just couldn't keep it in anymore.

"Dad could you help me with the rest of the groceries please?"

"Oh course" he said letting go of Mom and following me outside to the car. He grabbed some of the bags from the trunk of the car but I just stood there "What's the matter?"

"I know Dad"

"Know what?"

"I know about the vasectomy" I whispered and one of the bags fell to the ground with a smash, there goes the pickles "What I don't understand is why you're just going along with it as if she didn't cheat on you"

"Renesmee how do you know about that?"

"I found the paperwork in Grandpa's files. I was just looking through them for some information about my future"

He put the rest of the groceries back onto the floor and sat on the edge of the car at the trunk end. He patted the spot next to him so I sat down next to him.

"I wish you didn't have to find out about this"

"Why keep it from me?"

"You don't need to know these sort of things. You have enough with your studies, this is something you didn't need to deal with"

"But Daddy how can you be so calm about all of this?" I asked and I could feel the tears filling my eyes "Mom cheated on you. Don't you feel angry or upset about it?"

"Of course I feel angry and upset about it. But I love your mother, so very much. I don't expect you to understand as you don't know what it feels like to love somebody that much" I didn't really want to talk about that right now, especially after the way Jacob freaked out about what I said "Renesmee please don't hate your mother"

"I don't hate her. I just don't understand how she could do this to you. She pledged her loyalty to you in front of the family and your friends and God. How could she just do that to you? Adultery is a sin"

"Sweetheart" he breathed and took my hand in his "I've known your mother has been spreading her love" he laughed "Or however you kids describe it. Do you know why I stay with her though?"

"Why?"

"Because I love her"

"But Dad that doesn't make any sense"

"She loves me and I love her. I promised to stay with her through sickness and health and for better or for worse. We're having another baby Renesmee, I see that unborn child as mine. Your mother thinks the child is mine so we're raising the baby as ours. Please, please don't say anything"

I stared at him and saw the pleading in his eyes. I didn't want to keep my mouth shut, I didn't want to pretend that everything was okay and that there was no secret. I didn't want to have to lie for the rest of my life, I knew I would love the child regardless but I didn't want to have to keep this secret. However looking at my Dad crumbling in front of me, practically begging me to keep my mouth shut. So I went against everything inside me.

"Okay. I won't say anything"

"Thank you" he smiled and gave me a hug. I hugged him back and closed my eyes.

"What's taking so long?" I heard Mom ask and I pulled away from Dad and looked up at her standing on the porch "Is everything alright?"

"Fine darling, just fine. Renesmee and I were just discussing the baby and how excited we are"

"Aww. It is a beautiful thing" she smiled and rubbed her stomach "I hope the baby would be like you. Well apart from the rebellious side of you" she smiled at me and I rolled my eyes "I know you'll lead the baby through the right way of life"

"Really? The right way of life? You mean honesty?"

"Renesmee" Dad sighed.

"Honesty is something I hold close to my heart" Mom nodded. Was she kidding me? She cheated on my Dad and is having some other guys baby, does she really have the right to tell me that? "Bring the rest of the those groceries in and I'll make something nice for dinner"

"Actually Mom I was wondering if I could go to Jacob's tonight?"

"But Renesmee I was hoping to have a nice family meal"

"We could have it tomorrow night. Please?"

"Okay fine. Be back before 11 please"

"Thanks Mom"

I knocked on Jacob's front door and waited for someone to answer, whether it be Jacob or Embry.

The door opened and to my luck it was Jacob "Nessie?"

"Hi"

"What are you doing here?"

"I wanted to talk to you. Can I come in?"

"Yeah of course" he said and I walked inside "Is there something wrong?"

"No well maybe" I said as I dawdled in the hallway before Jacob gestured for me to walk into the living room, Embry was no where to be seen "Is Embry home?"

"Erm no he's working late" he shrugged "Do you want something to eat? I was just making some noodles"

"Yeah thanks" I smiled and sat down on the sofa as he walked through to the kitchen. I didn't know how to start this. I know what I said freaked him out but I didn't mean for it to come out. For the past month my feelings have escalated for him and I have actually fallen for him, that's normal though right? Was he just freaking out because he was a guy?

Jacob returned from the kitchen with two bowls and two forks, he handed me one of each and sat down next to me. We ate in silence, well I played with my noodles rather then ate them.

"Nessie I'm sorry about earlier" Jacob started "I didn't mean to freak out in the parking lot"

"It's fine. I would have freaked out if I was you too. I just want to know something. Did you freak out because you don't feel that way about me or did you freak because you're scared to feel that way about me?"

"I'm not scared Ness" he said and put his bowl onto the coffee table in from of him "I just, I'm not really good at this whole thing y'know?"

"What whole thing?"

"Love" he sighed, he then turned to face me so I put my bowl down next to his to put my attention solely on him "I've been in love only once in my entire life. it's a fucking scary thing I'll tell you that" I nodded because I sure as hell understood, I was scared of my intense feelings for Jacob "Her name was Leah, she was Seth's sister. She was everything to me, I did everything for her. We'd lost the big V together" he laughed "I thought she loved me as much as I loved her. I would have done anything for her, anything. I couldn't even imagine hurting her and she told me the same thing"

"But?"

"But she lied"

"What happened?"

"She cheated on me. With one of my best friends"

"Embry?"

"No not Embry. His name was Jared, we grew up together. I've known him longer then Quil and Embry. He was married to his high school sweetheart Kim. They got married a few years after school. They were 20. I came home one night to find them screwing in our bed"

"Oh my god" I breathed, it was like something that happened in a movie. I never even thought that it happened in real life, well until my mother anyway "What did you do?"

"I just froze. I couldn't believe what I was seeing in front of me. I mean Leah was the love of my life and Jared was my best friend. I thought he loved Kim, I just couldn't fucking believe my eyes"

"Then what happened?"

"I took her back"

"You what?"

"I know that sounds incredibly stupid but I loved her. I was willing to look past it all because I loved her so fucking much" He sounded a lot like my Dad, they both stayed with their cheating partners because of love "Truth is I never really forgot it, things changed after that. Then a few months later she left. I never saw her again"

"She just left you?" I asked and he nodded "How could she do that?"

"She's a bitch Nessie. That's why she did it. After that I just didn't give a fuck anymore. I swore I would never fall in love again, I wouldn't put myself through that pain again. I started-" he stopped.

"You started what?"

He looked at me as if he was about to admit a deep dark secret "I started sleeping around" he whispered.

"Oh"

"I know that that's not what you want to hear but it's the truth. but I promise you I am 100% clean. I don't have any diseases or whatever, I was always careful and I never got a girl pregnant" he assured me, unable to speak I just nodded my head "I was a mess, I drank too much, I stayed out late every night and I fucked everything in sight" he said and I winced at that thought "But that all changed, the guys pulled me out of it and made me see that there was more to life then all of that shit. So I gave it all up"

"How long ago did this happen?"

"About two years ago" he answered "But I saw Leah about 7 months ago for the first time"

"When we first got together?"

"Yeah but nothing happened. I wouldn't fuck this up with you. But something almost happened but I stopped it before anything happened"

I couldn't be mad at him, we had only just met so I couldn't get angry at him for something that didn't even happen.

"Did you kiss?"

"Yeah"

"Anything else?"

"No"

"Okay"

"You said you loved me. Did you mean it?" he asked.

"Yeah I meant it" I admitted, I may as well bare my soul too. It took him a lot to confess that all to me "You don't have to tell me you love me back. I don't expect you to after everything you went through but I just want you to know that I've never loved anybody the way I love you"

"What about Nahuel?"

"I think maybe I loved him but I didn't really know how it felt to love someone so much, until I met you"

I expected him to tell me to go away and to never see him again. I didn't know if he had the strength to fall in love again. I'd find it hard too. I know what it was like to have someone cheat on you, Nahuel did with me but Jacob actually walked in on his girlfriend screwing his best friend. I could see how that would mess you up.

"Jacob I'm not asking you to love me back. I just want you to know that I would never, ever break your heart. I couldn't do that to you" I whispered as I moved closer to him and placed my hand on his chest over his heart. I could feel his heart beating fast "I don't know how she could break your heart"

He placed his hand over mine and I looked up into his eyes "You are 1000 times better then she will ever be. Don't you ever compare yourself to her. I lov-"

"Hey, hey boys and girls you ready to stuff some pizza and watch some soccer?" Embry shouted as he walked into the living room, interrupting what Jacob was about to say. Jacob dropped his hand and grabbed the dirty bowls, mumbled something to himself and left the living room "Something I said?" Embry asked.

I shook my head and got up from the sofa "No, you didn't say anything" I smiled politely and walked through to the kitchen to find Jacob. He was facing the window and had his hands resting on the kitchen counter. I walked over to him and wrapped my arms around his waist and rested my chin on his back "Are you okay?"

"I'm fine baby" he whispered back and rubbed my arms with his hands "I guess Embry is not working late after all" he chuckled.

"Jacob what were you going to say before Embry interrupted?" I knew what he was about to say but I needed to hear him say it.

"I think we both know what I was about to say" he said turning around to face me. His hands found my face and he smiled "I'm fucking in love with you" I laughed "What's so funny?"

"Only you could declare your love for someone but still make it sound inappropriate"

"Yeah but you love it"

"I do" I nodded. He bent down and softly pressed his lips to mine.

"Do you want to stay over tonight?" he breathed against my lips.

"I can't. My mom wants me back by 11"

"Okay" he nodded and kissed me quickly again.

"I want to though" I said quickly.

"Are we talking about you staying the night or something else?"

"I thought they were both related?"

"Nessie you know I don't want a quick fuck. If we're gonna do this I want to be able to wake up with you in the morning. I want to do it right"

"I know. I want that too"

"Rain check?"

"Yeah. Rain check"

A/N You got a little insight into Jacob's "other" mood. I wanted him to confess the whole Leah thing to Nessie before he admitted his feelings for her. He thought that he couldn't love again but Nessie has shown him that not all girls are like Leah and Nessie has reawakened some feelings in Jacob and perhaps awakened a few "other" things. Wink, wink nudge, nudge.

So how would y'all like a lemon next chapter huh? Not foreplay but how about a full on lemon? You want it?

-SR-

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