DISCLAIMER: I do not own Twilight or any of its characters, they belong to Stephenie Meyer. I just own the characters you don't know and the plot.
AUTHORS NOTE: This is a long chapter because I didn't want to just jump into the drama so it's a little longer then usual. There is a lemon and a bit of fluff and towards the end we have the "secret" being exposed. Bella and Jacob's secret is out in the open. Dun, dun, dun…and the father of Bella's baby is revealed.
Jacob's POV
"You had a chance to tell her and you didn't take it? Why didn't you tell her?"
"Because I panicked alright. She was already upset about the whole Leah thing so I wasn't exactly going to drop the Bella bomb on her" I explained. I had told Embry and Quil that I had the opportunity to tell Nessie about me and Bella but I didn't "I just didn't want to fuck things up even more"
Quil shook his head "So you're not going to tell her?" he asked and I shrugged my shoulders "I thought you said that was your one chance, but you didn't take it"
"I know" I huffed and moved over to the car I was working on and looked down at it. I know I was an idiot for not telling her but the truth is I'm not too sure if I want her to know. That sounds bad I know but what good will come of it? If I tell her she'll dump me and we'll never see each other again so I may as well keep it a secret.
"Jacob I'm telling you this because you're my friend" Quil started "You need to tell her. Too many people know. She's gonna find out soon enough, you should be the one to tell her"
I sighed "What are you even doing here? You don't work here"
"Alright dude relax. I'm going. Just tell her okay? Because she's a great girl and you'll only end up hurting her"
Doesn't he think I know that already? My past has come to bite me on the ass. Why did it have to be Nessie's Mom?
"Hasn't she got exams and shit this week?" Embry asked and both Quil and I looked at him in shock "What?" he shrugged "Lana was going on about them. They graduate next week or didn't you realise?" he shot at me.
"I remembered" I answered, Nessie had been stressing about it for the past few days "Then maybe I shouldn't say anything just yet. I don't want her to fail her exams or something or she'll never get into college"
"Pussy" Embry laughed.
"Shut up" I grumbled.
Quil left a little while after the conversation, after he made me promise that after Nessie's exams I would tell her about Bella and me. I was shitting a brick, I wasn't going to lie. Especially after she gave me a window of opportunity and I didn't take it.
It was about 3:30 when I got a visitor. I was halfway through fixing a broken valve on one of the cars when I heard her.
"He's in the back" I heard Sam say to her and I waited for her to come round the corner. I rubbed my hands with a cloth and smiled when Nessie appeared round the corner but then my face dropped when I saw her expression.
"What's wrong?" I asked and she just walked over to me and buried her face in my chest. I wrapped my arms around her.
"I think I failed my History exam" she mumbled against my chest.
"I'm sure you didn't" I assured her and rubbed her back with my hand "You always think you've done shit when really you've done really well"
She pulled her face from my chest "I just couldn't concentrate. I guess the good thing is that I don't need History to get into Medical School. I just need to ace my Biology exam and I'll be good to go. But still it sucks that I failed on y'know?" Nessie was the perfect student, she always wanted good grades and always managed to maintain good grades.
"I know baby but like you said as long as you ace your Biology exam then you're good. And I know you'll ace it because you're so smart" I smiled and leaned down to kiss her lips "You don't have to stay over tonight if you don't want to. I'm sure you'll need to study"
"I told my parents I was having a study session at Lana's tonight with Grace so they'll think I'll be there anyway. As long as I get a little studying done tonight at yours then I'll be fine. I haven't stayed over for a few nights so I want to spend some time with you. It had been 3 days since the Leah drama and apart from that night Nessie hadn't stayed over.
"Okay. I'll pick up a pizza after work alright?"
"Mmm sounds good. What time will you be home?" I loved when she called my place home, it sort of turned me on a little bit.
"Probably around 5"
"Okay. I'll probably hang with my Mom for a little bit instead of going straight to yours. I'll meet you there"
"Sounds good. I'll see you later"
"Yes you will" she smiled and leaned up to kiss me softly on the lips "I love you" she whispered against my lips then pulled away.
"I love you too" I smiled, gave her one more peck on the lips then watched her leave the shop swaying her hips. She had a great ass.
I got back to my place at around 5:30 after picking up the pizza and I could see Nessie's car already parked outside. I hopped out of the Rabbit and made my way towards the apartment. I balanced the pizza box on my leg as I unlocked the door and walked through it, kicking the door shut with my foot.
"Baby you home?" I called out.
"In the shower" she called back. Hmm shower huh? Don't mind if I do, I am a little sweaty and dirty from work. I put the pizza box on the side and made my way into the bathroom and opened the door. Instead of a soaking wet Nessie in the shower I was greeted by a dry, dressed Nessie sitting on the toilet seat lid painting her toenails "What happened to the shower?" I asked.
"I was joking" she smiled.
"Oh that's mean"
"Yeah but you love me anyway" she said putting the lid back into the little pot and putting it on the side "Did you have a nice day?" she asked as she got off of the toilet seat.
"Busy" I answered and left the bathroom with her following after me.
"You go and sit down. I'll do this" she said stopping me "After all you've been at work all day" she smiled and shooed me out of the kitchen so I went and sat down on the sofa and switched the TV on. She came out with the pizza box and some kitchen towel and put them on the table in front of us. She ran back into the kitchen and bought me out a beer and handed it to me.
"You trying to get me drunk?"
"Maybe" she winked and grabbed a slice of pizza. We ate the pizza - well Nessie ate about two slices and I had the rest - and we watched a little TV. Nessie started clearing up and I watched her walk into the kitchen with the box and empty beer can. I sat where I was for a few seconds before getting up and walking into the kitchen. Nessie was bending over as she put something in the bin, that is not a safe position for her to be in. I smirked and sauntered over to her. I pushed my groin into her butt "What are you doing?" she laughed.
"Enjoying the view" I smiled and rubbed my hands down her back. She stood up and went to turn round but I stopped her "Uh uh stay where you are" I said and moved her hair off of her neck and pressed my lips to the nape of her neck.
"Jacob we've already talked about this. You're not fucking my ass"
"I know baby, I know. Its not your ass I'm interested in fucking" I smirked and to emphasize my point I moved my hand round to the front of her body and cupped her pussy through her jeans and she leaned her hand back onto my shoulder.
She moved her hand to place it on my butt and pushed me into her, she could clearly feel my hard on as she groaned.
"You feel what you do to me" I breathed and started rubbing my hand on her pussy "You make me so fucking hard"
"You make me feel so good" she whispered. I made her feel good? She made me feel like the luckiest guy on the fucking planet "Jacob" she gasped out.
"Yeah?" I asked as I nuzzled my nose into her hair.
"I want you inside me" And anything my girl wanted, my girl got. I pulled away from her to walk towards the bedroom when she shook her head "Do it here"
"Are you sure?" I asked and she bit her lip and nodded her head. I walked back to her and placed my hands on his hips and lifted her up until she was sitting on the kitchen counter. I stood between her legs and she moved her hands to my jeans and started unbuttoning them and pulled the zipper down, with nothing holding them up they just feel to the floor. I had already unbuttoned hers and was tugging them off of her. With her jeans on the floor with mine and leaned in and pressed my lips to hers roughly. As we kissed we each struggled with pulling each others shirts off. We broke the kiss just for a second to discard our shirts which soon joined our jeans on the floor.
Our lips met again and I moved Nessie a little closer to the edge and slipped my finger in her panties and tugged them down and I lowered my boxers until our bottom halves were completely bare. I unclasped her bra to release her tits and I grabbed one in my hand and I captured her other nipple in my mouth and she moaned at the contact. I swirled my tongue around her nipple until it got all pert and I did the same to her other one, earning myself another moan out of her.
"I need a condom" I whispered.
"I'm on the pill"
"Since when?" I asked.
"Since I told Alice me and you sleep together" she admitted "She took me to the doctors the following morning and he put me on the pill"
"So we're good?"
"We're good" she nodded and reached down and wrapped her hands around my cock, even though I was already hard she still stroked my shaft up and down a few more times before I stepped closer to her and pulled her to the edge as she bought my cock into contact with her already wet pussy, it was fucking glistening then moved me inside of her. Her legs wrapped around my waist as our movements started and she wrapped one arm around my neck while her other hand was resting on the kitchen counter. My hands were firmly on her ass as I thrust in and out of her.
I grunted out her name as I slipped out of her only to drill back inside of her. Moans erupted from her lips as our lovemaking continued.
I could feel every inch of her, the past few times we had sex I had used a condom so I couldn't feel all of her but now I could and she felt fucking amazing.
"Jacob I'm coming" she panted and I picked my pace up with my dick sliding in and out of her as I wanted to cum with her.
"That's it baby" I grunted as I pulled out and slammed into her again. She started tightening around my dick and I could feel my orgasm building inside of me, I could feel it "I'm gonna cum" I said.
Her nails started digging into my back as she got closer to her release and with a few more thrusts from me she screamed out my name in ecstasy and her heels dug into my ass as she milled me for all I was worth. I came a second after her screaming out "fuck" as my warm seed spilled inside of her. I practically climbed on top of her as I rode out my orgasm.
I leaned my head on her shoulder and gently kissed it "That was hot" I mumbled and she laughed.
"I'm still horny" she whispered and I pulled away from her shoulder and looked at her.
"You're kidding?" I asked and she shook her head "Well in that case" I said and lifted her up from the counter by her butt and walked towards the bathroom with my dick still buried inside of her "How about we get cleaned up"
"Will you give me sponge bath?" she giggled as we got inside the bathroom.
"I'll make sure every inch of you is seen to" I laughed and switched on the shower.
After sex in the shower Nessie changed into a pair of my boxers and one of my old school jerseys - which drowned her - and sat down on my bed. I grabbed a pair of sweats without underwear and looked over at her.
"What's that?" I asked her as she pulled a book out of her bag on the floor.
"It's my Biology book. I said I had to study"
"Oh okay. Do you want me to leave you to it?"
"No you can stay" she said and patted the bed. I walked over to the bed and sat down. She moved over to sit in between my legs and put her back against my chest.
I looked at the front of the book "Biology A-Z" I read the title "That sounds really um interesting"
"I'm not asking you to read it" she said and turned the page. I moved her hair over her shoulder and placed a kiss on her collar bone "Jake I have to concentrate. My Biology exam is at 8am tomorrow and I need to pass this exam"
"Okay sorry no distractions" I laughed and just read over her shoulder as she continued to read every detail of this book.
The alarm went off at 6:45 the following morning and I groaned as I hit snooze and opened my eyes.
"Baby you need to get up" I whispered and brushed some hair off of Nessie's face and gently kissed her cheek.
"5 more minutes" she grumbled and I chuckled.
"You're such a child"
She scrunched her nose up then her eyes fluttered open "What's the time?" she asked then yawned.
"It's 6:46" I answered.
"I guess I should get up"
"You don't have to be at school until 7:45 right?"
"Yeah"
"Well that leaves us 59 minutes to do what we wish" I smirked and rolled over onto my side and trailed my hand down her face.
"No Jake. I can't be distracted today"
I smirked and rolled over so I was hovering over her "Who says you'd be distracted?" I asked kissing her neck.
"Jake no I can't. I'm gonna be late"
"No you won't be"
"I will. Jake we can't have sex now. I have too much on my mind"
"Then I'll give you something else to think about for a few seconds"
"No" she said and shook her head "Jake stop" she giggled as I sucked on the spot just underneath her ear "You're such a horny asshole"
"Yup" I nodded and slid my hand up underneath the jersey she was wearing and grasped her breast "C'mon how about a little good luck fuck?"
"Never had one of those before"
"Oh they're the best" I said squeezing her boob "They set you up for a good day. It's sort of like breakfast. Gives you a clear head" I grinned
"In that case" she smiled and suddenly grabbed me through my sweats "Fuck me Black" she giggled "But I can't be late"
"You won't be" I promised.
"What do you mean they wouldn't let you sit the exam?"
"Exactly that. Apparently you're not even allowed to be two minutes late" Nessie scoffed.
"So what now? Will they let you sit it another time?"
"No. That was my last chance and I screwed it up"
"Baby its gonna be fine-"
"Do not tell me its going to be fine. I missed my Biology exam - there are no re-takes there are no second chances. This was my one shot and now its gone. Ruined"
"Don't say that"
"You know what this is your fault"
"My fault?"
"Yeah you and your stupid, horny ass cock. I told you I couldn't have sex with you this morning but you kept pushing and because of you I missed my exam. Now I'm not going to get into Medical School"
What the fuck? My fault? "Don't turn this around on me. You were the one who drove to school not me. Do not blame me"
"Why couldn't you just go one morning without getting yourself off?"
"Do not talk to me like that" I shouted and Embry looked over at me. I shook my head and walked into the back room for a little more privacy "This is not my fault, I left the apartment before you did. Besides who was the one who kept fucking begging me last night huh?"
"Don't even start on me"
"Well don't start on me. This isn't my fault. I'm sorry you missed your exam, I really am. But don't you fucking dare try to blame this on me"
"I can't even talk to you right now" she snapped.
"Yeah well right back at ya" I shot back and hung up on her. How dare she fucking blame this on me? I left the apartment at 7:45 and she was still at the apartment, so how is it my fault? It takes her 5 minutes to get to school.
A knock came at the door "Everything alright Jacob?" Sam asked and I looked up at him and shook my head "Girl troubles?"
"Story of my fucking life" I sighed and ran my hands down my face "I don't know how you and Emily have managed to stay together for this long without killing each other"
Sam laughed "We have our moments but we love each other and we love Wyatt, so we're happy. What happened?"
"Nessie missed her exam at school and it was a big deal" I answered.
"Well of course it's a big deal"
"No big deal as in she's not gonna get into med school now. And she is fucking blaming me for it"
"She is probably just upset right now. I'm sure she doesn't mean what she said"
"Oh no she meant it" I know Nessie, I know what she's like "She just drives me fucking insane"
"But you love her" Sam pointed.
"Of course I love her but she still drives me nuts"
"That's the whole package Jacob" he laughed "Give her some time to calm down, she'll realise that she overreacted and she'll come and talk to you. She just needs some time to process everything"
To say I was pissed off for the rest of the day would have been an understatement, I was really, really pissed off. I kept snapping at people, even if Embry coughed I would end up giving him a death glare. I hated fighting with Nessie. We hadn't fought that many times but when I knew she was mad at me it just made the day so bad.
Embry cleared his throat and I looked up at him "Don't hit me or anything but I just wanted t ask if you were coming to Seth's later?"
"Seth's?"
"Yeah y'know game night" he shrugged "You haven't been for the past few weeks and I thought that maybe you could do with a guys night"
"You know what that actually sounds like a good idea. I could do with getting completely wasted" Especially after all of that drama with Nessie "What time is everybody gonna be there?"
"Usual time. We're always going to First Beach for a bonfire after. Fancy it?"
"Definitely" I nodded.
I finished work at 6 and I hadn't heard from Nessie for the rest of the day. I went home to get showered and changed to be at Seth's for 7:30. I hadn't really hung out with the guys since getting together with Nessie so I was going to enjoy tonight.
When I got to Seth's he was surprised to see me there but welcomed me in as if I hadn't missed a night yet. It felt good to just chill out with the guys, playing Xbox, playing poker and drinking beer. Lots and lots of beer.
"So no Nessie tonight?" Quil asked as he practically cornered me in the kitchen.
"Its guys night" I shrugged.
"No I thought you might have seen Nessie tonight that's all"
"Decided to hang with you guys" I smiled and smacked him on the back "You don't mind do ya?"
"No not at all. Good to have you back" he smirked.
Once the beer had run out that was when everybody decided to head down to First Beach where we would be meeting up with some more people who would have plenty of crates of beer.
They didn't disappoint. The music was already blaring and the bonfire was already burning by the time we got there.
"Well, well, well look who it is. Hello stranger" Claire, Quil's girlfriend said as she hugged me. Guys night was only restricted to Seth's house, First Beach bonfires were a unisex thing.
"Hey Claire" I said as I hugged her back.
"Haven't seen you round here for a while"
"Yeah been busy" I shrugged.
"So Quil tells me. So where is this infamous girlfriend of yours?" she asked looking around the beach.
"Not here"
She looked back to me "She's not here?" she asked and I shook my head "Oh okay" she nodded and left it at that.
"I need beer" I said and excused myself to go and grab a can of beer from the make shift tables by the sound system. I spent most of the night just catching up with some guys from school and meeting their girlfriends etc, it made me miss Ness so much. Maybe I overreacted today, I mean she was stressed out there was no excuse for my behaviour. I excused myself from the guys I was talking to and grabbed my phone out of my pocket and hit Ness' speed dial.
"What do you want Jacob?" she answered.
"I wanted to apologise" I replied "Look I'm sorry I hung up on you. That was a shitty thing for me to do. I was just angry"
"I'm sorry too. I don't blame you, I was just upset"
"I know baby"
"Where are you?"
"I'm at First Beach at a bonfire, just hanging with the guys"
"Oh. Are you having fun?"
"Would be better if you were here. Do you want me to come and get you?"
"You've obviously been drinking so you shouldn't be driving. I'll just see you tomorrow"
"No baby I want to see you. Can I come over?"
"My parents are home and what did I say about drinking and driving?"
"Oh yeah. Can't you drive here?"
"My parents won't let me out. Its gone 10" she laughed, shit was it really? Man time flies when you're drinking beers "I'll just see you tomorrow after school or something. I wanted to ask you something anyway"
"Oh yeah? What's that?"
"Its Prom next week and I wanted to know if you would come with me"
"As your Prom date?" I chuckled.
"No as my chauffeur. Of course as my date"
I didn't make it to my Prom, I made it to the back seat of the limousine with Leah. That was about it.
"Yeah I'll check my diary" I teased.
"Jacob" she whined.
"I'm kidding. Of course I'll go with you" I laughed.
"Thank you" she replied then she lowered her voice "I'm not wearing any panties"
What? "Y-you're what?"
"I'm not wearing any panties" she repeated.
"Why Miss Cullen are you trying to seduce me? Because its kind of working" I laughed and I shifted my dick in my jeans.
She moaned down the phone "I wish you were here"
"Give me 10 minutes and I will be"
"No you can't. My parents would kill you"
"I'll be quiet. I'll sneak in through your window"
"You can't be quiet Jacob" she laughed then I heard a gasp on the end of the phone. What the fuck was she doing? "Oh Jacob" she breathed. Fuck was she touching herself? "Jacob" she breathed again and before I knew what I was doing I was palming myself through my jeans.
"Ness you've gotta stop"
"Why?"
"Because I'm at the beach fucking rubbing myself off and I don't want to get arrested"
"You're right. I'm sorry"
So was I? This was the first time Nessie ever instigated phone sex and I had to be the one to tell her to stop. If I was at home then I would be fucking jacking it off right about now.
"I've gotta go but I'll see you tomorrow okay?"
"Okay. I love you Jacob"
"I love you too baby. Goodnight"
"Night" she replied and the phone went dead. Shit I needed to jack off and I needed to do it now.
The next few days went by better then that day. Nessie was more relaxed now her exams were over, she was still upset about missing her Biology exam but she said something about taking a year out anyway so there was a way she could re-sit another exam or something. That made things easier and also Prom was in a few days. I didn't like the idea of wearing a tux and hanging out with high school kids but Embry had been roped into being Lana's date so at least I wasn't alone.
"I think I'm gonna have to get drunk before I go there" Embry moaned.
"it's a high school Prom the punch will be spiked" I laughed.
"Not enough though, I'll need sedation to go there. You didn't go to Prom so you don't know how lame it actually is"
"I'm sure its not that bad"
"Says the guy who has never been to one. Trust me, they're so geeky"
"What's geeky?" Lana asked as she walked into the shop with Nessie walking behind her. Lana leaned in to kiss Embry on the cheek while Nessie came and sat on my lap.
"Nothing is geeky" Embry smiled.
"Didn't you just say Prom was geeky?" I smiled
"You said Prom was geeky? How could you say that? Embry Prom is like the farewell party. After that we're off in the real world" Lana said.
"Thought that was Graduation" Nessie laughed.
"Whose side are you on?" Lana shot at her.
"Yours definitely yours" Nessie nodded quickly and I laughed and rubbed my hands up and down her thighs in a comforting way "I personally think that Prom is only geeky if you make it geeky. At the end of the day you go there to have fun and having fun is not geeky"
"And that's why you're my best friend" Lana smiled.
"I thought I was your BFF?" Embry asked her.
"No you're my BBF - Best Fuck Forever" she said "Nessie is my Best Friend Forever"
"Why does everything always come back to sex with you?" Nessie asked her "I mean we get it. You guys have a healthy sex life, no need to brag about it"
"Okay fine no more sex talk"
"Thank you. No about Prom are we going to share a limo?"
"Well seeing as Jake never left his limo at Prom I think maybe we should take the same limo just to make sure he does go this time" Embry chuckled.
Both Nessie and Lana looked at me "You never got out of the limo?" Lana asked and I shook my head "Horn dog"
Nessie shifted uncomfortably on my lap, she knew that I would have been with Leah and ever since they met she didn't like hearing about her. When she asked about my tattoo I had over my heart I couldn't exactly lie about it. I'll get it removed or get something tattooed over it but I haven't got the chance yet.
She turned round to look at me "Can I talk to you for a second?" she asked and I nodded. She hopped off of my lap and grabbed my hand as she led me outside.
"And she thinks I'm obsessed with sex" I heard Lana shout out.
When we got outside Nessie let go of my hand "Baby what's the matter?" I asked her.
"I found out something about my Mom" she started and I felt my stomach drop "I couldn't believe I was stupid and I didn't realise" What could I say? I don't even know how she found out about it.
"Look Nessie you have to understand that-"
"I mean I know the baby wasn't my Dad's but I didn't expect it to be his" What? This isn't about me and Bella?
"You mean you know who the father is?" I asked and she nodded her head "Well who is it?"
"Nahuel's Dad"
"Nahuel's Dad?" I repeated "How did you find out?"
"There have been rumours about Nahuel's father cheating on his wife but apparently the affair didn't last long at all, only a few weeks. Around the time that my Mom got pregnant. I always knew those two were close but I didn't think anything of it. I just put two and two together. How is that going to look? Nahuel's Father is Portuguese the baby is going to be mixed race, how are they going to hide that?"
"I don't know" I answered honestly "I know this is going to sound really bad but its not your problem. I mean I know it will make things harder for you and who knows what people are going to say but you can't take responsibility for your parent's mistakes. This was your Mom's fault not yours"
"But I just don't want any scandal in my life"
I smiled and wrapped my arms around her "You wouldn't be a Cullen without a scandal"
"Gee thanks" she muttered.
"You're welcome. Just try to not think about it alright? I know your Dad said to not say anything to your Mom so just take it day by day okay?"
"What did I do to deserve such a great boyfriend?"
"I don't know. I'm not that great" I shrugged.
"You are to me" she smiled.
"Nessie I've got to tell you something and its not something you're gonna like"
"What's the matter?" she asked "Tell me"
"Not here. Let's go somewhere else"
"Okay" she nodded.
I ended up taking her back to my apartment, Sam said that he could cover me for the rest of the afternoon. I don't know why now seemed like the best time to tell her but she needed to know and I couldn't hold onto this secret anymore.
"Jacob what's wrong?" Nessie asked as she sat across from me on the sofa "Whatever it is can't be that bad"
"It is" I said and she frowned "Its something about my past"
"If this is about Leah then I really don't want to know"
"It's not about Leah but it is about a past liaison"
"Okay" she said slowly.
"I'm going to explain what happened first before I tell you about her" I started and she nodded her head so I continued "It wasn't that long after the whole thing with Leah happened. I was about 22 and you know I said I was heavy on the drink and drugs. There was a girl at a bar once, well she wasn't really a girl more like a woman. We talked, we drank together then we ended up making out and things turned"
"Did you have sex with her?"
"No there was no sex. Just sexual contact" I frowned at the way I said it "She passed out before anything happened back at my apartment and nothing will ever happen with her. Ever. I didn't and don't have feelings for this girl it was just a mistake"
"Jake I'm not going to hate you about a girl or a woman you had "fun" with years before me. Its not right for me to be angry about it" Wait until you hear who it was then we'll see how you feel then "Do I know her?"
"Yeah you know her. You know her real well actually. Shit I don't want to do this"
"Jake just take a deep breath and just tell me alright? There is no way I could ever hate you"
"The woman in the bar was Bella" I whispered her name then stared at Nessie for her response. Suddenly she burst out laughing and I shook my head.
"Oh my God I thought you were being serious" she said smacking my arm playfully "You're such an ass" she laughed.
"Ness I'm not kidding" I said seriously and her smile dropped a little bit.
"I don't get the joke" she said shaking her head.
"Well maybe because its not a joke"
"Oh my God" she breathed "You're not kidding. Oh my God you're not kidding" she started saying over and over. I reached towards her "Don't you touch me. Don't you dare touch me" she said standing up from the sofa "H-how could you? I mean how could you do that?" she asked.
"Nessie I didn't plan it. It just happened but we didn't have sex"
"Don't!" she shouted "I don't want to hear you say anything else"
"You're not going to let me explain?"
"I think you've said enough. I cannot believe this" she shouted then glared at me "Why didn't you tell me? Why didn't you tell me before? I gave you a chance to tell me and you didn't. I said if there was anything you needed to tell me for you to tell me"
"I tried to tell you, I did. I just didn't know how to tell you"
"So you tell me now?"
"I had no other choice"
"Oh my God" she said and gripped her head in her hands then started pacing the living room before dropping her hands "I gave up everything for you. I risked everything. I lost my chance of getting into to college, I got kicked off of the baseball team and it was all because of you"
"Nessie please just calm down"
"I loved you. I gave you my virginity. Is that why you wanted to sleep with me? Because you couldn't have her?"
"No!" I shouted "No that is not what I did. Nessie I love you and only you. I don't have any feelings for you Mom whatsoever. I want to be with you"
"Well I don't want to be with you"
"Don't say that. Please baby don't say that"
"Baby? Baby? I'm am not your baby. I can't look at you right now, I can't even be in the same room as you. You make me sick"
"Nessie no" I said as she started making her way to the front door "Nessie wait please" I said running after her. She managed to get the front door open but I slammed it shut with my hand and she was pinned between me and the door "Please don't go, just let me explain"
"Jacob let me out"
"No"
"Jacob let me out" she repeated.
"No I won't lose you. I can't lose you. You said you would never break my heart but you are. Nessie you're breaking my heart"
"Yeah?" she asked then turned round to face me "Well you broke mine first" she whispered and I watched a tear fall down her cheek. I raised my hand away from the door to her face to wipe away her tear. I managed to place my hand on her cheek and she leaned into it and closed her eyes. I moved closer to her when her eyes opened "I never want to see you again" she whispered and shoved me away and ran out of the door.
"Nessie" I whispered even though she was long gone "Please stay" I added and collapsed onto the floor.
A/N There you go. This was 17 pages and it was super hard to write. I wanted to keep it real. So that's why it wasn't so "in your face" because its no always like the movies and those drama, drama soap operas.
Just to give you a heads up: I have two endings to this story. A happy one and a sad one. I know which one I'm going to choose but after I finished this story I will put up the alternate ending as a one shot. I'm not giving away what ending I have picked.
-SR-