DISCLAIMER: I do not own Twilight or any of its characters, they belong to Stephenie Meyer. I just own the characters you don't know and the plot.

AUTHORS NOTE: This is now the penultimate chapter, after this one we have the Epilogue. I'm kind of sad its ending BUT good news. I've just had a new idea pop into my head so we shall be having another story not a sequel but a brand new story. It's going to be a follow on from Breaking Dawn so it won't be AU/AH - but still full of lemons and language.

I suggest you listen to either "Down to the River to Pray" by Alison Krauss or "Happy Ending" by Mika - that's what I listened to.

Renesmee's POV

"I'm not wearing that underneath my robes"

"Why not?" Lana asked "I think its cute"

"You do realise we take off our gowns after the ceremony so people will see me in that" I stated. Grace and I were being subjected to torture at the hands of Lana. It was Saturday afternoon and we had decided to go shopping for our graduation outfits, we were graduating on Monday "I'm not wearing it"

"But it looks nice" Lana protested.

"Then you wear it"

"No its not my kind of thing"

"No. if I wear that then it will only give Nahuel and his dumb ass friends more fuel to call me a whore. So no for the last time I'm not wearing it"

"Fine" she grumbled and put the skirt, no scratch that belt back onto the rail "I don't know why I bother hanging with you two. You never appreciate my awesome fashion sense"

I looked over at Grace how looked at me and mouthed "Awesome fashion sense?" I laughed and shook my head "We do appreciate your erm awesome fashion sense but you just like different things to us. Besides I already have an outfit in mind"

"You mean your Mom already has an outfit in mind" Lana scoffed "Fine whatever. R what are you wearing?"

"I was thinking of wearing a dress. Just a simple dress you know? Nothing too glam or whatever. Just something smart and causal"

"I see" she said tapping her chin with her fingers "Something smart yet understated" she murmured then clicked her fingers "Got it" she said and grabbed something off of the rail and showed it to me "How about this? It's smart, cute yet casual" I looked at the dress. It was strapless and was black with pink roses scattered over it as well as white polka dots "Its got that summer look going on"

"Actually that's really cute" I said reaching for it.

"Don't act so surprised"

"Sorry. I'm going to try it on" I said and disappeared into the changing room and began changing my clothes.

"So how was last night?" Lana asked from outside the curtain "I saw you pouring into my bedroom at gone 4 - did he shag you rotten? As the Brits say anyway"

"Did you just say shag?" I laughed as I discarded my clothes on the floor.

"Yes it's a word that I personally think everybody should use. Its such a funny word and its not offensive"

"Right I worry about you sometimes" I giggled "And yes we did shag"

"Tell me, tell me"

"I'm not telling you about it" I said pulling on the dress.

"Why not? I tell you"

"I don't ask for you to tell me" I sighed. I zipped the dress up and looked into the mirror, it fit really well and it wasn't too short either "Do you want to see the dress?"

She slid the curtain back and looked at me "Wow that dress is so cute" she smiled then Grace's head appeared.

"That really is nice. You have to get it"

"I agree" I smiled.

"Jacob will love it" Lana smirked "He might even shag you in it"

"Lana do you have to have such a vile mouth?" Grace sighed and I laughed as they started bickering so I closed the curtain and changed back into my own clothes. After we'd had our fill of shopping we decided to fill our stomachs with food that was undoubtedly bad for you, but you only live once right? We ended up going to KFC and filling up on fried chicken, fries and sodas, I just hoped I would get into my newly purchased dress for graduation.

"I can't believe that this is the last time we'll be eating KFC as high school students" Grace sighed.

"Here she goes. She's going to get all sentimental now" Lana teased.

"I'm sorry but I can't help but think about it. We're growing up and soon enough we'll be out living by ourselves, taking care of our own apartments, paying bills etc. That's scary"

"Not me. I plan on making Embry do all of those things" Lana laughed "He's willing to do them so I should let him right?"

"You're so bad to him" Grace said disapprovingly.

"No I'm not. He knows I love him"

I nearly spat out my drink "You love him?" I asked and she looked at me as if she just revealed a huge secret "Aww I didn't realise you loved him. I mean I know you've been together for the same amount of time as Jacob and I but I didn't realise"

"Don't make a big deal about it. Yes I love him, he loves me, well love each other" Lana dismissed "Now who's holding the graduation after party?" Typical Lana, spewing her feelings then quickly changing the subject.

"Not me. My parents won't allow boys in the house" Grace replied.

"Are you serious?"

"They're very religious. They think the boys will corrupt my innocence. They almost had a heart attack when they found out I was going with Seth to Prom. They prayed at least three times before I left to come to yours"

"Isn't that the fun of being with boys though? To corrupt your innocence. Embry has corrupted mine at least 5 times in one night" Lana smirked.

"Did you ever really have any innocence to begin with?" I asked. She looked at me with a glare but then smiled and shook her head "Exactly" I laughed but we were interrupted by my cell phone ringing. I looked at the called ID and groaned "Hi Dad" I sighed.

"Renesmee where are you?"

"I'm at KFC with the girls. I told you that"

"You need to get to the hospital"

"What? Why? What's happened? Is it Mom?" I asked and Lana and Grace both looked up at me.

"What's wrong?" Lana mouthed but I held up my hand and shook my head.

"Mom is fine. Its Jacob, he's been in an accident"

I burst through the doors of the ER and went straight to the nurse sitting at the little reception desk "May I help you?" she asked.

"I was told Jacob Black was bought here. He was in an accident" Dad hadn't explained anything to me, as soon as he had said Jacob had been in an accident I was hanging up the phone and was on my way to the hospital.

"Are you family?" she asked.

"I'm his girlfriend"

"I'm sorry, only family are allowed through"

"No you don't understand, I need to see him-"

"Renesmee?" I looked to my left and saw Dad standing there in his hospital greens "It's okay Monica, she's my daughter" I nearly stumbled over when I ran to him and wrapped my arms around him "Shh, shh its okay" he said "He's through here"

I dropped my arms from around him as he led my through the double doors and down the corridor "W-what h-happened?" I sniffled.

"He was in a motorcycle accident in the early hours of this morning. I have no idea what he was doing out at that time of day" I almost fainted. This morning? I was the reason he was out at that time, it must have happened on his way home. This is my fault "He ran a red light and a car collided with his bike. The driver explained everything that had happened, Jacob was pinned between his bike and a tree"

"Is he going to be okay?" I asked.

"I don't know sweetheart" he answered. We carried on walking until I could see a familiar figure sitting outside a room. Billy Black, Jacob's father. He was sitting in his wheelchair looking down at the floor.

He looked up at our footsteps "Doc, you have to tell me something. Anything" he pleaded then he looked to me "Renesmee"

"Hi Mr Black" I said and he grabbed my hand and gave it a squeeze before dropping it back down.

"Jacob is in a critical state. Both of his legs are broken as well as a few of his ribs. The impact of the bike has caused him to suffer from internal bleeding" Dad said softly but professionally "We're doing everything we can but I'm afraid we're just going to have to wait"

"Wait for what?" Billy asked.

"To see if he manages to pull through. He's currently on the life machine, he's not breathing by himself.

"What does that mean?" I asked.

"It means that he might not wake up and if he does there is a chance he will be brain damaged"

"No, not my son. Please not my son" Billy begged.

"I'm so sorry" Dad said to him and placed his hand on Billy's shoulder as a sign of comfort. I stumbled backwards until I hit one of the chairs and I fell down onto it. He might not wake up? And if he did there's a chance he'll be brain damaged? What kind of world is this? How could something like this happen to such a good guy? "You can see him if you want to" I heard Dad say and I looked up to Billy and he had his face in his hands.

"I'll come with you Billy" I whispered and stood up from the chair. He nodded and I walked behind him and started pushing him towards the door, Dad opened the door for me as we all went inside. The scene before me was enough to make me want to vomit or pass out. Jacob was laying broken on the bed with tubes coming out of him. I wheeled Billy to one side of the bed and I got a closer look at Jacob's face. He had bruises and cuts scattered across his face, he didn't look like my Jacob.

"Son you have to pull through" Billy said "What am I going to do without you huh? Who is going to teach me how to play those video games? You can't leave son, who is going to stick by my side against your sisters? You can't leave me alone with all of that oestrogen"

It was heartbreaking to watch as Billy continued to talk to Jacob. I looked down at the floor trying to compose myself when I took a deep breath and looked back to Jacob. This was my fault he was laying in that bed, I was the one who kept him out at that time. Its my fault, if it wasn't for me he wouldn't be here right now. He'd be hanging out with the guys or with me not here, not laying in a hospital bed.

"I need some air" Billy said and I watched as he wheeled himself out of the room, he didn't want my help. I moved towards the bed and just stared down at him.

I reached my hand out to run it through his hair "Hi" I whispered, I didn't really know what to say so I just said the first thing that came to my head "You can't leave me Jacob. You're the most strongest person I've ever met. You can't give up now, you have to fight" I sobbed "You have to fight for Billy, your sisters, your niece and nephew. You need to fight for us"

The slight beeping of the heart monitor and my sobs were all that could be heard in the room "I love you and you can't leave. I won't let you leave me"

I leaned down to press my lips to his fore head when the heart monitor started beeping loudly and before I knew it several people rushed into the room and obstructed my view of Jacob "His heart is failing. I need the crash team now" one person shouted "Everybody clear" they shouted and I saw them jolt Jacob's body, the beeping stopped then started.

"What's going on? Jacob? What's happening?"

"You cannot be in here" one of the nurses said "Come on outside" she said taking my arm and practically dragging me out of the room.

"No! What's going on! Tell me!" I shouted but she moved me out of the room and ran back inside. I was about to run back in when I was restrained from behind, I didn't even see who it was but I continued to struggle against them. I needed to be in there with Jacob, he needed me.

"There is nothing you can do" a voice said from the person who was restraining me. Embry "You have to let them do their job"

"No, I need to be in there" I shouted.

"Renesmee you need to calm down" I heard Dad say but I wouldn't listen "Renes-"

"Dr Cullen we need you" someone said poking their head out of the door and Dad gave me a look before darting inside the room, I could see Jacob through the doors as they swung freely. I saw someone putting a oxygen mask over Jacob's face and I knew what it was. They were trying to resuscitate him, but they were failing.

I don't know how long Embry kept hold of me until I started to relax, whether it be from exhaustion I didn't know but he slowly loosened his grip on me.

A few people walked out of the room with expressionless faces, they weren't showing any emotion at all. Dad told me they did that because they were trained to hold it altogether, I don't think that is something I would be able to do. But Grandpa told me I had to if I wanted to work in this profession.

"What's happening? What's happening to my son?" Billy asked as they walked out of the room and down the corridor, none of them answered him "Why won't anybody tell me anything?" he asked. That was when Dad walked out of the room and looked directly at Billy.

"I'm sorry" he said "There was nothing we could do"

"Nooo" Billy cried out "No please, not my son"

He was gone? No he couldn't be gone he just couldn't be "We did everything we could but his heart gave out" Dad continued and I felt myself getting dizzy, I needed to vomit I felt sick "I'm so sorry sweetheart" Dad said taking a step towards me.

"No" I said shaking my head "No you go back in there and you bring him back. You bring him now. What kind of doctor are you?" He walked towards me with outstretched arms and he tried to put them around me "No don't comfort me no. Just go in there and save him, just save him please?"

"I'm so sorry honey. He's gone. Jacob's gone"

"He can't be" I sobbed.

"I'm sorry" he said and he managed to get his arms around me before I collapsed onto the floor.

Lana's POV

"How is she doing?" I asked Mrs Cullen.

"I'm not really sure. She's not saying anything" she replied "I'm starting to worry about her. Its been three days, she hasn't eaten. She hasn't said anything to anybody, she just sits in her room. She hasn't changed clothes since the moment she came home from the hospital"

"Do you mind if I go and see her?"

"Of course. Hopefully you might get a bit more out of her then I did" she said moving away from the door. I climbed the stairs to Renesmee's room and knocked on the door, I didn't get a reply so I walked in. The room was dark as the curtains were closed, I looked to the bed and found Renesmee laying on her side.

I moved across the room to her bed and sat down on the end of it "Hey" I said gently. She didn't say anything back, she didn't even move. The only movement was the blinking of her eyes and her chest moving up and down as she breathed "I'm so sorry R. I can't imagine what you're going through. Jacob wouldn't want this. He wouldn't want you to just sit here and not do anything"

She rolled over until she was facing me "You don't know what Jacob would have wanted, because he's dead and he's not coming back" she said numbly then rolled back over. I had never heard her voice sound like that before. It just sounded so lifeless, so empty.

"You're right. I don't know what he would have wanted but I do know this. Jacob loved you so much that he wouldn't want you to sit here and not eat and not talk to anybody. Because that's not the Renesmee he fell in love with"

I continued to stare at her back waiting for her to say something back but she didn't. Instead he body started shaking and quiet sobs started making themselves known.

"Oh R" I said and laid down on the bed next to her and wrapped my arms around her as her sobs turned into cries "It's okay to cry, its okay to feel this way. Just let it out. Let it all out" And that's what she did. For three hours I laid by her with my arms around her as she cried herself to sleep.

Renesmee's POV

My eyes opened, I didn't know what time it was and I didn't care. I felt a body next to mine and when I looked over my shoulder it was Lana. I remember her coming into my room and me finally letting go. When I got back from the hospital that day I just felt numb. I didn't know what to feel, I couldn't be around anybody. I just wanted to be alone, so I locked myself away in my bedroom. There were no sad looks, no comforting words being said, just me and myself alone in my room.

But waking up now I felt different, maybe it was the sleep or maybe it was the fact that I finally let someone in. I climbed out of bed without disturbing Lana and I walked into my bathroom, closed the door and switched on the light. I caught my reflection in the mirror but I didn't recognise myself. My eyes were puffy and had dark circle around them, my hair was greasy and limp and my cheeks had no color to them. I was a stranger.

I turned the tap on and splashed some water onto my face, I know it wouldn't make a difference but I did it anyway. I grabbed my toothbrush and brushed my teeth, I knew my breath smelt. Once that was done I decided to have a shower as I knew I definitely smelt, I don't know how Lana could have stayed with me.

I climbed out of my clothes and got into the shower. I let the water run down my body, loosening my muscles and cleaning the dirt off of my body. I sank down to the floor of the shower and wrapped my arms around my knees which were pressed up against my chest.

Would this pain ever go away? Would I ever stop feeling guilty for being the reason he was out at the time of the day? Would I ever be able to live with Jacob Black?

A/N And scene. Now before you start hating on me I'm extremely emotional right now, my tears haven't stopped flowing since I started writing this chapter. I know I said I was going to do an alternate ending but then I thought wouldn't that just defeat the purpose of having this ending? So after this chapter there will only be an epilogue - I also thought that I would have to change the epilogue as well if I had an alternate ending. So I'm sticking with this ending and you can just imagine the happier ending.

Now go ahead and hate me if you must but there is one thing I vow - "The next story shall be filled with love and happiness and definitely a happy ending"

I wanted to just slip in Lana's POV there to just explain things about how Nessie has been feeling so that's why its so random there. Hopefully y'all got it.

-SR-