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::Letters to You::

by

::Madame Awkward::

Ruka Nogi

Hi there, bunny boy. You were one of the first students in Alice Academy to have shown me kindness, although you were shy back then and your best friend was Natsume. It wasn't that I didn't expect to be friends, just not this close.

Ruka-pyon, you are an absolutely one-in-a-million gem, do you know that? You are the best guy friend a girl can ever ask for. You listen to my rants, even if it's two in the morning. You bring me soup when I'm down with a cold. You'll spend time with me watching chick flicks without a word of complaint. Shortly put, you are like my fairy godfather, my guardian angel.

I'll admit, I've taken you for granted before. Remember that cute rabbit pendant you gave me which I lost lasts year? When I found out that it was no longer hanging on my necklace, I looked everywhere for it. I cried like my cat died at the fact that I couldn't take good care of it, because it was a token of our friendship. When I told you about it, you told me that it's alright and that you can just buy another one for me, but I could see the hurt in your eyes. That's what got me thinking; what if what I lost was not just a pendant, or any other gift you gave me? What if I lost you as a friend? That's when I realized how important our friendship is. A friend like you is truly one-in-a-million. I never find anyone else to replace you.

I have to apologize to you, Ruka. I know during the War, I was a mess, and I was all emo on you and being a bitch. When the truth is, I wasn't the only one who was grieving. Koko, Mochu, Hotaru, Sumire and you were all grieving, though in different ways. I know even though you pretended to be so strong and all, I knew you were trying to make me feel better, I knew it was because you didn't want me to feel worse than how I did. When the truth is, you weren't any better. Natsume was your childhood friend; he was your greatest friend, just like how you are to me. I'm sorry, Ruka. I understand that I was a bit too much. For whatever nasty words I told you during that period of time where I'm oh-so-very-close to insanity, I take them back and I sincerely apologize for them.

Ruka, I have something to confess. I knew that you liked me, not as innocent as the best-friend-type of love; I knew you wanted us to be more. I knew that. But please forgive for not being able to ask you directly about it. Perhaps I was scared what would've happened to our friendship, like in those cheesy movies. But really, I have wondered what would've happened if I did asked you about it. Ruka, you'll always be the best guy friend I ever had.

Like it or not, Ruka-pyon, you made a mark in my heart, in my life. Your mark is not like some footsteps in the sands on the beach, where it could be washed away by the waves. Your mark is, to quote Jordin Sparks, just like a tattoo. And meeting you, having you play an important role in my life is just such a blessing. I thank you for it.

I love you, Ruka-pyon.

P.S. I know you've moved on after I started to date Natsume. And currently, she's waiting for you. I'm rooting for you. ;)

Two more to go.