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::Letters to You::
by
::Madame Awkward::
Hotaru Imai
Forgive me because I've forgotten how we first met. Heck, I've forgotten how we became best friends. Please don't shoot me with your baka gun because of that, I'm already beating myself up inwardly for it.
When we were young, I remembered that you were the most amazing person to me, you still are actually. You are pretty, you are smart, you are mysterious and you are intriguing. In other words, you were my idol. I followed you to almost everywhere. From kindergarten till elementary school, wherever you went, I would be trailing obediently behind you. Then on one fine day, you transferred to Alice Academy, and to say I was devastated would've be an understatement. Like what I did for my entire childhood, the ten-year-old me decided that following you to Alice Academy would be the right thing to do. Which when I think about it now, seven years later, maybe it was.
You and Natsume actually have a lot in common. You're both geniuses, both of you are cool and collected for most of the times and both of you are so emotionless on the outside, while on the inside is a whole different story. Maybe that's why I love you both so much. Yes, even though I know that you are going to hurt me physically for this, I am going to say this, I love you. And I will probably never stop loving you because you are awesome.
Despite that you are always so cold, I know better. You might not be there to listen to my rambling and bitchings, but you were always there for me when I was feeling so helpless and needed a shoulder to cry on. You'll keep a steel grip on my hand, never letting me go if I'm falling off a cliff. You are like the mother I never had. You are the rock in my life, keeping me sane when I'm on the brink of insanity. Maybe that's why no matter how many times you push me away, I'll always come back smiling at you.
During the war, I realized just how much you mean to me. When I was really down and was considering on committing suicide, you were the one who pulled me back from the grasps of death. That was when I truly understand what it meant to have a true friend. You let me cry on your shoulder everyday even though you are a clean-freak and hated boogers and tears dirtying your clothes; you wrapped your arms around me tightly when I was haunted by nightmares even though you needed your own sleep; you've kept me by your side at all times, because you're afraid that the second you look away, god knows what I'll be up to; you gripped my hand tightly, keeping me company when I'm staring into space, too numb and too devastated to do anything else, even though I'm sure you had so much more better things to do. I'm so sorry that I've complained about you not spending time with me, I take them all back. Because I know how wrong I was.
And now, after so many years of knowing each other and sticking together, we'll be graduating from the Academy and probably then, we'll separate for the very first time. You'll be going to America for college and I'll be back here in Japan. But Hotaru, I know our friendship will last and I will never ever forget you, I can never forget you. And if you're ever coming back to Japan, I'll be the first one to pick you up from the airport and I'll prepare the comfiest bed for you, even if I have to buy a million-dollar bed just for your few days visit. Because that's how much I love you.
I love you, Hotaru.
One more to goooo! Weee!