I'm so so so so so so sorry for the massive delay it was undoubtedly EVIL. I promise to never ever make it that long again, Once again sorry but i'm going to shut up now and let you guys read the new chap.

PS. if your wondering what TOCAR means it's spanish for touching.

Tocar

It's the following day and I've been locked up in my room all day, glued to the corner of my room just watching the sheets of my bed flow up and down as the wind blows pass it. My eyes feel weird like they don't belong to me, they feel out of place. I haven't had a decent night's sleep. Since I came back home last night all I done is sit in the corner of my room. Carsile had told me to come back in a few days and he'd have the test ready for me. His question still lingers in my head "Leah a human didn't do this to you. What was it?", I hadn't been able to answer him, I had just stared at him waiting for him to be done with me and just run out the door, where I wouldn't be questioned.

The ride back in Jacob's rabbit was quiet, they hadn't said anything Jacob just kept his eyes on the road and Seth was starring out the window, My mind was far out, my eyes had been glued on the window but my mind wasn't in that car it was back on the cold forest floor, by dress shoved up my thigh….

As soon as Jacob had stopped driving I ran inside the house past my Mum and into the shower.I didn't feel good after the shower but I had felt better, that quickly vanished, as soon as I walked into my room, lights turned off and I was laying down on the bed everything came back to me. His delicate hand tracing every single part of my body, my face, arms, legs. And his low whispers, his venomous words…..

I heard a low tap on my door and I stood straight up. Straightening the over sized t-shirt I wore to bed, I pretend I'm organizing the books on my shelf as an excuse to be turned around so they wouldn't see the my blood shot eyes.

"Leah, you've been locked up all day…we were thinking if you might want to watch TV with us or something…" I was shocked to hear Jacob's voice instead of Seth's. I stopped fixing the books and dropped my hands and looked back at him.

"What are you still doing here?" My voice came out croaky and weird like it didn't belong to me despite this you could still hear the harshness in my voice. Jacobs eyes were wide , I must look pretty horrendous, I had been locked in her for over a day. I glared back at him wide eyed like he was staring at me.

"What?" I spat.

I walk over to my bed and threw myself on it, I could feel Jacob's eyes on my back as I did this. I closed my eyes for a second and re opened them still finding Jacob standing in my room, with his hand on his Jaw. I watched him move his finger back and forth along his chin. I sat up half way, placing all my weight on my elbows.

"Look, Jake…"I sighed "..if you have nothing better to say than 'watch TV with us' I mimicked his deep voice "..Then get out" I pointed to the door, wishing he'd get the message and leave. But he did the complete opposite and pulled a chair out from my desk and sat down. I rolled my eyes at his stupidity.

"Are you dumb?" I questioned. "Or are you delirious, didn't't you hear a word I said?" He sighed loudly sigh and sunk himself deeper into the seat.

"No Leah, I heard every word you said." I looked at him confused.

"…yet you won't go?" My voice came out harsher than I expected.

Jacob stared at me with an almost knowing look, it made me feel uncomfortable.

He moved closer towards me and sat on the edge of my bed.

"Because youneed someone" He voice was soft. I narrowed my eyes at him.

"Everyone needs someone at some point." I could tell every word he meant because he never looked away from my eyes as he said any of it. This coming from Jacob was weird I would expect Seth to say shit like this but Jacob.

"Are you ok?" I asked. He looked at me confused and nodded.

"….no, seriously did you bump your head or something Jake." I laughed a pathetic laugh it sounded worn out. Like a laugh you'd hear from a grieving mother.

He sighed again.

"Leah stop acting like what happened to you was nothing…"He murmured low.

I blinked. Twice. I know exactly what's happened to me, I keep reliving it every other hour. He has no fucking right storming into my room telling me how to act, how else does he wants me to act? Like I'm a venerable defenseless girl who can't take care of herself. He wants me to act like one of those dumb girls that they show on TV, who look hurt and weak. Never. I'm not them right?

"What?" Jacob says

"Get out now. Get the fuck out." I point to the door. Jacob follows my finger. And gives a low sigh.

"Leah, please listen. Let me help you. I know your not feeling…great. I know that you're hiding"

I get of my bed not able to take this no more.

"No, you don't. know You have NO idea how this feels, Not a single Fucking! Clue, so don't act like you do."

My chest is heaving and I'm crying. I'm crying and I don't know why. I'm crying either because I'm angry or because what I'm feeling, I've felt before and hate, Because I'm hurt. The tears stroll down my face one by one. Jacob doesn't't realize I'm crying until my breathing comes out in hiccups. And he jumps of the Bed and instantly wraps his arms around me. I don't really notice that he's hugging me until he pulls me closer. I pull away.

"Don't touch me" I whisper. And just like the other night my finger trace up and down my arms. Rapidly. Leaving streaks of broken skin were my nails dug in. He walks after me.

"Lee I'm just trying to help." And he offers me his arms again but I only move back quicker. Backing up away from him backwards, keeping my eyes on him making sure he doesn't' magically appear behind me. Not paying attention to my path I trip over a shoe. I fall flat on my face. I look up my hair in front of my eyes, Jacob's leaning over me his hands reaching down to pull me up. I move out of his reach. Straightening up Jacob staring down at me concern written all over his face.

I get up moving towards the door and I'm getting slightly panicky my breathing picking up a pace. Just as he takes a step forward I take a step backwards. We do this again.

"Leah are you…scared of me?" he asks quietly a slight of disbelief to his voice.I'm not scared of Jacob I'm just frightened of the fact that his a man and threw my eyes at this very moment all men are him. I shake my head lightly.

"No…" I say quietly " I just don't want you to touch me that's all" I try to hide the seriousness of this answer, not make it seem like me getting sexual assault is getting to me, because it's not. I'm just not comfortable at the moment with men touching me yet. He looks at me for a long second worried.

"Leah…I'm not going to hurt you" he reassures me and I just nod my head. I know Jacob won't hurt me. He wouldn't, would he?I wipe the tears that are falling down my cheek with the back of my hand. Jacob goes into his front pocket and pulls out tissue and offers it to me I move to him slowly. He hands me the tissue and our fingers brushed past each other for a second. I watch him as he places hands in to his front pockets of his Jeans. The veins of his arm pooping up as his body tensed up, the noise his teeth made when his they were grinding against each other. He held of one of my hands, his fingers tracing the thin line of scars. I pulled my hand back quickly and Jacob mumbled a "sorry". He looked away not meeting my eyes when he said.

"Leah, who did this to you?"