I'm Really Not Okay
Chapter 5: Sooner
That day, the day of Tina's visit, there is nothing more that can done after Kurt wakes up again than a few hours of sleepy cuddling.
There is nothing more Kurt feels he can do. And he tells Blaine, not with words, he cannot find them. Sometimes, if Blaine could not read him so well Kurt would feel so much more lost than he does already too much of the time, especially these days.
Blaine is sitting cross-legged with a book in his lap at the end of the bed when Kurt first stirs.
It takes Kurt a couple of minutes to really wake up, only then he registers that he is not alone.
And as soon as Kurt's eyes drift into his direction, Blaine, who has been watching Kurt carefully since his first limb started to shake off the heaviness of sleep, Blaine, carefully places the still open book upside down onto the covers and moves to kneel on the floor beside Kurt's bed, so Kurt does not have to any longer twist his head awkwardly to look at him.
"Kurt, Baby," Blaine carefully lifts his left hand and begins to run it slow and tender through Kurt's sleep ruffled hair.
Kurt just looks back at Blaine, lips briefly parting … then meeting again in a close – words too heavy to carry any longer today.
The outward silence persists but Blaine can see the lightning clashing in the blue of Kurt's eyes.
"I love you."
Kurt swallows hard, hearing Blaine's softly whispered words, then his arms come around Blaine's shoulders and Kurt pulls him as close as he can.
Moments later Blaine finds himself back on the bed, lying next to Kurt, lying here with Kurt wound around him seconds later.
With anyone else just lying here in silence would feel crushing … and weird, to both boys.
It does not with each other.