A/N: Yes, another one. I physically can't stop writing tonight. Kind of, no scratch that, definitly afraid of what I will do if I do.
I'm Really Not Okay
Chapter 7: Suddenly
Blaine has no idea what Mike and Kurt talk about that day. Neither of the two is talking about it … at all.
But two days later, two more nights of Blaine holding Kurt … and Kurt is back in school as if nothing ever happened.
And it scares Blaine.
It scares Blaine more than all the weeks of crying and clinging and Kurt's crushing hold on him ever had, ever could.
More than being needed Blaine is scared by … not.
Mike keeps coming over the following two and a half weeks. And sometimes, sometimes when Tina, Rachel and Mercedes are having another fight over duets and solos, and all things Glee, Blain even finds the two, Mike and Kurt, stealing away into a quiet hallway or classroom … to '… to talk?' Blaine can only guess.
And it scares him, and it worries him, and 'I cannot lose you!'
But Blaine has made a promise, and what reason could he possibly give for breaking Mike's trust, after all, ' ... he is obviously helping Kurt.'
But Blaine cannot entirely help the pang in his chest, which he knows to be a stupid, egoistic impulse, 'I want to be the one to help him. At least be allowed to help helping. I'm the one supposed to make him feel good.'
And how Tina has not picked up yet, after over two weeks of this, that something is going on Blaine simply does not get.
And then there is the afternoon Mike and Kurt sit down with him and try, and try their hardest to explain. And Blaine ends up crying, bawling his eyes out, because how could he have been so egoistically stupid with something so important going on. It is just so hard being kept out of the loop, especially when it comes to someone you love.