QUICK AUTHORS NOTE: I decided this was the epilogue, even though I could make it the last chapter, it just would make more sense for it to be, right… yeah ok, now story.

Epilogue.

"I think you would be rather interested in the new magazine headlines Mr. Smythe." Sebastian's butler says, handing him a magazine.

"Thank you, Harvey." He smiled and relaxed into his seat.

Sebastian had aged quite well by 26, rich, gorgeous, and finally not the stuck up asshole he was. Many people didn't know what finally changed him, but Sebastian knew good and well. He ran his fingers through his hair and sighed before turning the magazine over and reading the front cover.

What drove Smythe's Husband to Suicide?

This actually amused him slightly, to know what they would say in the article, because he could almost guarantee they had it wrong. Kurt killed himself, yes. But it wasn't because of the conspiracy's they had made in the reports; domestic violence, financial trouble, cancer, it was all slander. Sebastian wouldn't have laid a finger on Kurt, even after listening to him talk about his new fashion line, or arguing about who left the hairspray where. Nor was Sebastian anywhere remotely close to broke, in fact he would be a billionaire before the year ended, and cancer, well not yet at least, his family had a history, but he was clean of it so far.

Really only Sebastian knew what killed him, that's why he rarely cried about it. It was their secret, they were still connect even if it wasn't at a physical level. If Sebastian was completely honest, he had known Kurt was going to kill himself before he turned 20; that's why he wrote everything down.

April 1st 2019,

I made this journal so that when I die you will know our story, and by our, I do mean mine and Kurt.

May 11th 2019,

Kurt made his first fashion line today, we celebrated with ice cream cake and footloose, Oh! And sex on our kitchen table but I didn't think that was all too important.

September 2nd 2019,

We moved to a little island above Iceland, surprisingly quite hot down here, but luckily not too hot, in Kurt's words "My people burn in the sunlight."

January 24th 2020,

Kurt made me leave the house all day, I was so pissed, I was just ready to tear of his head but then I realized he had spent all day cooking dinner for us because I had told him I was stressed out from my work. This followed with a 2 hour long message and falling asleep on top of me, forget our wedding, this is officially my favorite day.

February 14th 2020,

Valentine's day! Let's just say… you wouldn't want to know what I got Kurt.

July 21st 2020,

It's hot! I really have nothing to say, I just figured I should keep up on my original schedule of forgetting to write but remembering every 3 or so months.

November 9th 2020,

Kurt is mad at me, I guess it's my fault, getting drunk and doing some stupid shit.

November 10th2020,

You know what it's like to feel like a part of you is missing, neither did until now.

November 11th 2020,

Kurt hasn't spoken to me in 3 days, maybe I should see if he is okay.

November 12th 2020,

I looked for him, I can't find him, and so I may be gone for a few days.

November 19th 2020,

Guess who came back, I don't even mind that I got the silent treatment for 3 hours just to be yelled at for 2 more, there is nothing I'd rather have than Kurt.

January 15th 2021,

Kurt seems distant lately, I hope it's not time yet.

March 18th 2021,

Kurt is losing weight again, I can't make him eat, I can only watch.

June 17th 2021,

He told me it was time, he asked me to watch, but who could watch that?

June 18th 2021,

There is this saying that says you have to better before you get worse, I call that bullshit because it's not true. Happiness isn't defined by how low you get, but how hard you try to get back up. I want to say Kurt wanted to get up, but I'd be lying.

Sebastian got up and locked his door before turning around and once again running his fingers through his hair. You see when he thought of him and Kurt he saw them as a ying yang sign; polar opposites yet they work so well together. If one part is missing both parts die, so Sebastian didn't think twice when he tiptoed up to the hang his neck over the rope and step slowly off the chair. He had positioned himself to be looking in the mirror, and even with the fire burning in his throat, on his face was a twisted smile. He always saw himself dying for Kurt, and now that's exactly what he was doing. He had left the notebook clear in sight knowing his butler would find it, with a small note on top stating simply "secrets make things dirty". He looked up to the mirror knowing he was riding on his last minutes of life. He focused on his eyes before he felt his body let go, then all in one they snapped shut. The last thing he saw before he died was a color, that color was green.

A/N: Kurt was sadly always supposed to die in this story, I thought about giving them a happy ending but I just didn't see that as their reality.

I should add another warning but I don't want to ruin the ending, so quickly I want to apologize if you were at all triggered by this story, I do not condone suicide.

Welp! It's been a journey,

Adios- RadHadder