"Toni. It's me, Lovino. I realize you're not going to answer the phone cause... well... for obvious r-reasons. I just needed to hear your voice one last time. I guess that's only gonna be through voicemail then. Look, I don't blame you for being mad at me. I overreacted. I just got so jealous a-and... I-I'm really sorry. I don't expect you to ever forgive me but... I-I-I j-just can't live without y-you. Have a great life without me. I'm sorry it had to end like this. I love you Toni. Goodbye."

Beeeeeeeep.

Would you like to delete this message?

No.

Repeat.

"Toni. It's me, Lovino. I realize..."

What was it? Perhaps the fiftieth time I'd heard that message today, and I had every full intention of hearing it fifty times more, and so I would, had it not been for the annoying ringing of the doorbell. Oh well, I could ignore it just for the sake of hearing Lovino's voice again. And again. Sadly, my intentions were cut short when someone kicked my door in.

"Get up." Marten sighed. "And get dressed."

Marten walked up to me and practically lifted me off the couch. The moment I was on my feet, my weeks gave in and I tumbled forward.

"Oh Toni." Bella, who just entered, gushed and managed to catch me. "Here, I'll help you get dressed while Marten clean up a little."

With very little willpower I stumbled to my bedroom, a place I hadn't entered for three weeks. I stopped just outside.

"I don't want to go inside." I said sadly.

"You have to go in there sooner or later." Bella reminded.

"Not today." I whispered.

Bella sighed and let me sit down on the floor in the hallway. A couple of minutes later, she returned with one of my suits.

"Come on." she said. "Arms up."

It took about half an hour before Bella got me freshened up and dressed, just in time for the sound of a car pull up on the driveway.

"Let's go." Marten said. "Feliciano and Ludwig are in the car outside."

Bella and Marten led me outside to Ludwigs' awaiting car. Ludwig was standing outside the car, looking at us with a grave look, while Feliciano was in the front seat, face turned downwards. The hour long ride that followed was quiet save for the sound of the car. Finally, we reached our destination, a small church on the country, near the place where I kissed him for the first time.

The funeral ceremony went by in a haze and I somehow managed to keep my tears in control, up until I watched his casket sinking into the ground. That's when my tears fell again, like they'd almost none-stop since Gilbert told me the truth. Gilbert and Francis supported me the best they could. Francis was also crying lightly and even Gilbert was on the verge of tears.

If only he could see this. I thought. He always thought he was so unloved, but he wasn't. We all loved him.

I was the last to leave his grave. Even Feliciano and Ludwig had left, after Feliciano fell asleep from exhaustion. I guessed he hadn't slept alright since... the accident.

"It's strange, isn't it?"

I looked around, surprised at seeing Arthur standing there, smiling sadly.

"One minute, they're in your arms and the next... they're gone." he continued.

"Did you come to mock my misery?" I asked darkly.

"I came to pay my respect." Arthur replied. "I know what it's like to loose the one you love."

"Alfred didn't kill himself!" I reminded coldly.

"No, Alfred is still alive." Arthur said with surprising softness. "But that doesn't mean he's coming back to me."

"If you've got nothing useful to say, just leave me alone." I sighed and stood up.

As I walked away from my nemesis, he called after me:

"You can't blame yourself forever!"

I turned around and looked at him dully.

"You've got to move on sooner or later."

I only shook my head and left. I would never move on from Lovi.

ONE YEAR LATER

"Excuse me, do you mind if I sit down?"

The lady in front of me was fairly attractive, slim figure, blonde hair, blue eyes, big boobs.

"What would you do if I kissed you?" I asked out of the blue.

The woman raised a questioning eyebrow.

"Well I would be worried for your safety since I have a boyfriend." she said with a semi smile.

"Any woman, even one with a boyfriend, would have gone to bed with me just from me smiling."

"That's good for you." the woman said, patting my shoulder a little. "But I'm faithful to my boyfriend... plus he would literarily kill you if you tried anything."

I chuckled.

"I used to be that kind of a boyfriend once upon a time."

The girl looked at me in question for a while.

"You don't look too well. Maybe you should stop drinking." she said.

"I like drinking." I argued, moving my glass aside. "It numbs the pain."

"Yeah, self-harming does that." she muttered. "So what happened?"

I looked at the girl for a while before I answered.

"We had a big fight, and I said something really bad, and..." I could feel the tears well up in my eyes again. "And t-then he k-killed himself."

The woman gasped in shock and unexpectedly hugged me.

"I'm so sorry for your lost." she said. "It's gonna be okay."

I nodded weakly and released myself from her grip.

"It's been a year already, and yet I haven't desired anyone else but him."

The girl looked like she was about to say something again but she was interrupted by an all too familiar Brit.

"Excuse me man, do you mind if I have a word with my friend here in private."

The girl looked up, blinking a few times (probably shocked by his eyebrows).

"Of course." she said and stood up.

Before she left she gave me another pat on the shoulder.

"It's gonna be okay."

And like that she was gone too.

"You still haven't letten go of Lovino." Arthur concluded as he sat down next to me.

"You really love to torture me." I muttered and gulped my drink.

"Here." Arthur said and placed a small golden key in my hand. "This will help you get Lovino back."

"What?" I asked.

"In about a minute, a magical door will apear that will take you back in time." Arthur explained. "If you play your cards right, you will be able to stop him from jumping off that bridge."

"If you can turn back time, why don't you just let me undo the fight?" I asked, glaring suspiciously at Arthur.

"I can't do that, since no one even knows where the problem started." Arthur argued. "Look do you want this or not?"

"How do I know I can trust you?" I asked, eyeing the key suspiciously.

"You don't." Arthur only answered and just then a door appeared from nowhere.

If I can save Lovi...

And so I did it.

Just as Arthur promised, I found myself back in the stool, with Gilbert and Francis next to me.

"You're really not gonna answer?" Gilbert asked from next to me.

I gasped. That ment I'd already turned my phone off. How long did I have?

"I've gotta stop him!" I muttered and without further explanation I ran out of the bar.

"Wait!" Francis called.

"I've got a bad feeling about Lovi!" I called back. "I think he's gonna do something stupid."

I ran at top speed towards the bridge. The very same bridge where we had our first date. And there he was, leaning out from the railing of the bridge, staring down at the cold water beneath him.

"LOVI!" I called frantically.

Lovino turned his head to me and I could tell he was crying, but still he gave me a weak smile as I closed up on him.

"I'm sorry." he said before he let go and fell.

I let out a horrified scream and without thinking I jumped in after him. The cold water hit me hard and I gasped in shock. Quickly, I regained my composure and searched for Lovino. It took a few minutes, but I finally saw the top of his head being pulled away from my by the stream. With some leftover strenght I finally reached him and pulled his head above water.

"I'm sorry Lovi." I said holding him tightly. "Hang in there. We're gonna make this through. Do you hear me?"

"Bastard, why the hell did you jump in after me?" Lovino asked, trying to muster some of his attitude into his tired voice.

"I love you, Lovi." I said, fighting to keep him up. "I'm sorry about everything I said. Please don't give up."

"Can you promise me you'll stay with me forever?" Lovino asked, looking at me with tired eyes.

"Always and always." I said, smiling brightly at him.

"Come on, let's get out of this god damn water." Lovino said with a semi smile. "It's too cold."

Feliciano's POV

Ring. Ring. Ring. Ring.

"Chao ~ this is Feliciano Vargas." I said brightly in the phone, feeling all refreshed after the wonderful night I had with Luddy (my fiancé) last night.

"Yes, this is police inspector Tradien."

"Vee~ how can I help you?"

"I'm afraid you will have to come down to the hospital."

"Vee? Why?" I asked.

"A lady found two bodies at the riverbank this morning." the policeman said. "They are both alive, but just barely."

"Oh how awful, but I don't see..." I didn't want to finish that sentence.

"One of them has been identified to be your brother."