I must have fallen into my own dream on the way to the house. I say dream because it was the time before my personal nightmares began. I was back in his apartment and I was once again only a fifteen year old girl. I had known the beautiful man that stood before me, it seemed, forever. He was three years older than me and seemed so much more mature than any other boy I had ever known. His Dark brown almost black hair with natural blond highlights and his beautiful and deep bedroom eyes only added to his charms. He was way taller than me at my 5' 6" height. At the moment I was laying on his couch enjoying the wonderful foot rub he was giving me. I had a mixed drink in one hand and the remote in the other he kept telling me how beautiful and special I was and I just lapped up the attention. He always made me feel so special and loved no matter what else was going on. My mom really was not too keen on the relationship but she trusted me enough to let us have some time alone together. He had just crawled up me to start lavishing kisses on me when I heard a knock on the door…

I realized it was a knock on the real bedroom door and started opening my eyes when my mom peeked in through the cracked open door. I smiled at her and she came running in and hugged me hard "are you ok" she asked as she let me go. I shook my head "I'm fine," I sighed "part of me still loves him mom." My mom sighed "I know I was wondering if you would ever figure that out," she smiled "Baby he was your first love and somewhere in him is that loving guy you use to know." I frowned "I doubt it" I sighed "I can't keep all the orders I placed on him, can I?" "I don't know all of them but Mike did tell me about the order to stay away from the pride. I know if someone would not let me see one of you kids it would drive me nuts," she sighed "You have to think of his family too." I stared at the celling for a while before sighing "I will have to fly up there and take that one off of him and I think maybe I should give him a chance to explain why he came here?" I looked at my mom hoping in a way she would disagree with me but knowing I was correct and she would agree. She bent down kissed my cheek "I am afraid you are correct and I love you" she agreed before walking out of the room.

I sighed and sat up in the bed and looked around before stretching and getting out of bed. I went into the restroom before walking out the door and down the hallway to the living room. The house was extremely quiet and I thought it was empty till I entered the living room where all of the pack was sitting along with my kids, mom, Mike and the family. I walked in and smiled at all of them as they turned to look at me Nate jumped up and ran to stand in front of me. "Mom, I couldn't…" he looked so nervous "I know I'm not suppose…" I stopped him I knew what he was talking about. "Honey, it is fine" I pulled him into a hug and kissed his cheek "You don't need to apologize and we will talk about that later but for now just enjoy yourself" I smile at him "You deserve it." He hugged me back and thanked me before walking over and sitting between Sam and Jake on the couch. I smiled and turned to my other three babies "Come here" I said opening my arms. They all three came barreling at me I picked up my to babies and with them in each arm pulled Nick into a four person hug until I felt a pair of arms wrap around me from the back. All four of my children said in unison "Love you mom" I smiled "I love all of you so much." When we all pulled apart I was passed around everyone from the pack and their mates till I ended up in the only arms that mattered, Paul.

I sighed and snuggled into my beautiful mate before looking up at the women they laughed and waved for us to go. I smiled and we started to walk to the door to head to my house for some much needed snuggle time. Before we got off the porch 'Eddie tell Nate to come and see me before you guys head to the house and cottage' I felt him pushing in on me so I opened the link 'I will' I smiled and kept walking. "Why are you talking to him and not me" Paul brought me back with a start when he asked. I smiled up at him and kissed his chin "Just asked him to bring Nate by before they head back home" I kissed his chin again. "He was so worried about not following the restriction order and making you upset" Paul said before kissing the top of my head and unlocking the door and leading me inside. I nodded and kissed his lips before pulling back and going to the kitchen to make a cup of tea. "You want to stay down here or go up to bed" he asked as I entered the Kitchen door. I smiled "Living room, aero bed is in the closet" he chuckled "Do you want a cup of tea," I asked and he agreed. I made a pot of hot tea and grabbed two cups and put them on the tray with some snacks before walking out to the living room.

"Hey Handsome" I smiled when he gave me my sexy grin "I see you were busy got the pull out bed from the couch set up with the aero bed on top cool" I walked over to the end table and set down the tray than kissed his soft lips "Thank you I love you." He smiled pulling me down on the makeshift bed next to him "Well beautiful I love you too and you are welcome." We put HBO on and scanned down the list till we found "Its Complicated" and snuggled in to each other and hit play. The beginning scenery of the movie was beautiful. The first couple of minutes of the movie were all I got to see before I felt a warm soft pair of lips roaming all over my neck and collar bone. I turned my head and captured his lips before pulling back "Paul," I used my mom tone as my kids called it "I want to watch this" he frowned but nodded and I snuggled into him again. About half way through the movie Paul pulled back and looked in my eyes "You don't…" he looked deep in thought I lifted my brow "You don't want to go back to him do you." I was puzzled but then I realized what he meant I put a hand on each side of his head and pulled him down and stared in his eyes "No, I do not want him," I paused the movie and sighed. Paul looked at me almost afraid I smiled "Paul I won't lie some part of me still loves him and I always will but I am not in love with him" he smiled and I kissed him "I am in love with you, Ok." He nodded "Yep, that's all I wanted to know now resume the move," I laughed and did as he asked. We watched the rest of the movie and laughed through most of it. I am not usually into comedies but this one was funny.

Not long after the movie ended I heard the front door open "Mom" Nate called through the hall "Uncle Eddie told me you wanted to see me." I smiled and Paul got up and said "I am going to go out' he pointed to the back door 'Side and give you two a minute." I kissed him "Nate I am in the living room" I called as I watch Paul leave. My son walked in and smiled at me "Where is Paul' he asked 'and I already know I'm on restriction still and MeiMei and Ma said I have to go straight to my room and stay there." I smiled at him and patted the couch cushion "First come give me a hug and sit," after he hugged me
"Second Paul just stepped out and third we need to talk." He looked at me confused "You promise me right now that there will never be another moment like the other day correct." He nodded his head "I told you I promise I feel so bad about that I really am sorry mom" he hugged me again. I smiled and wiped the traitor tear from my face "I hope that's the case because I am going to give you a break. As of now you are no longer on restriction and I will call your two grandmothers and let them know. Please do not make me regret this." He jumped up hugged me one more time then kissed my cheek "I promise and I love you and thank you. I always said you were the best now I know it thanks." I laughed and kissed his cheek "Calm down and head to meet the family I will call in the next couple of minutes." He kissed my cheek and ran out the door.

I was laughing when I felt strong caring arms wrap around my waste and pick me up carrying me back to the make shift bed on the other side of the room. I laughed harder and kissed my strong beautiful man as soon as we were lying next to each other. "Thank you" Paul said smiling which confused me "For letting him off the hook," he explained. "Why" I asked confused to his statement. "Because I think first of all you were a little strong on him and I did not say anything because I did not want to step on your toes. I also saw how worried and how much he fretted for them whole twelve hours you here out of it. I really think he is sorry and he will not do it again," he smiled at me and I kissed him. "Well I am glad to know you agree with me and next time please tell me what you are thinking when it happens, I want to know."

We stayed on our make shift bed all night just snuggling and watching movies. Well we probably missed more movies with our make out sessions than we actually watched but we had fun. I was actually feeling like I was in my teens again and loved it. When I woke up the next morning I thought about how much fun I had last night just kissing and feeling and how much I missed out on growing up. I also made a decision that even though Pam was the next Queen of the pride I was not going to push her and make her grow up fast like I had too. I was always the one with the responsibilities from the time I was ten I was always an example and had to act way older than I was and I would never let that happen to my daughter.

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