After Seth left with the kids I walked to Nick's room and started the cd him and his doctor made for relaxation. 'When you're ready to talk call me, Mom' I left a note on the front of his stereo after looking at my son rocking in his closet. I walked out of the room and closed the door to let him calm himself and come back to be with all of us. I knew now it was just a waiting game which just killed me, I hated to see my children upset, but I knew he had to come back on his own. I sighed and made my way down to the living room.
When Paul came into my sight I ran into his open arms. He pulled me close and held me while I cried into his chest. I could run the whole pride and never let my emotions get in the way but let one of my kids hurt or suffer in any way and I was a babbling fool. "Babe, you need to calm down" Paul whispered into my hair "How are you going to help him work through this if you're so upset?" I started taking deeper breaths and then followed his breaths as I listened to his strong heartbeat. I stayed glued to him until the tears stopped and I could breathe normal again. When I pulled back my beautiful partner smiled my favorite smile and kissed me softly.
He led me to the couch and sat me down on his lap. I curled up on his lap and placed my ear right above where his heart was beating. "Sweetheart, I know this is hard but just remember what the doctor said about the boys and how we have to try to treat them as normal as possible" he sighed "I hate to see them like that I could not even remember about the cd." I shook my head "That does not mean that I am better than you at this, honey, I just have been at it way longer. Before a couple of months ago I had no clue what they had or how to deal with it." I sighed and wiped the tears that where flowing again. "I just hurt so badly when they hurt" I curled into him again and we sat in silence for a long while.
When I was calm and strong enough to deal again I sat up "I think I should run and check on Nate. If Nick calls for me before I come back tell him I will be right back and I love him" I kissed him before I stood up. He nodded "I will, I think checking on Nate would be wise he was really upset over what happened. I think he believes you are going to be pissed at him and lay into him." I shook my head and got one more hug and a kiss from him before walking out the door and down to Sam and Emily's.
I knocked on the door and Embry opened it and pulled me into a hug which I returned "Everything ok" he asked as he released me. I shook my head negative "He has not calmed enough to talk yet. How are the kids?" He sighed "I feel bad for him and Emily took the kiddos to the store and Nate and Sam have been down the basement all day." I nodded and walked to the basement door and knocked on it "Leave us be" Sam used his Alpha and I chuckled. "I will not" I yelled "I need to see my son" I heard someone run up the stairs and the door flew open. "Mom, I am so sorry" my son said as he ran into my open arms. "From everything I heard you have nothing to apologize for" I said and kissed his head he clung to me and I could feel him sigh in relief. I led him to the back yard and sat at the pick nick table. He rested his head on my shoulder "When you talk to him tell him I am not mad and I love him so much." I smiled it still amazed me how they knew things about each other "I will and I love you please just relax and have some fun with the guys." He nodded and we hugged again before he headed back into his father's house as I began to walk home.
I felt the familiar pressure of someone wanting to contact me mentally so I opened the link and heard 'Mom, I am ready to talk' Nick thought at me. I smiled 'On my way honey be there in a couple seconds' and he pulled away. I sighed and walked the rest of the way to my home Paul meeting me at the door with his beautiful smile. "Hey beautiful, I missed you" he said as he pulled me into him holding me tight and kissing my lips lightly. "He has not called you" he pointed towards the steps "but he has been moving around." I smiled and kissed his lips one last time before unraveling myself from his grasp. "I know he contacted me" I said and my handsome mate raised an eye brow looking so confused. I chuckled and tapped my head before I thought 'Don't you know how special I am.' He nodded and kissed me once more before letting me go to my son.
I knocked on the door and cracked it open "Safe to come in" he chuckled "Yeah I think I'm done throwing things." He sighed "I don't even remember today and that is bad how I cannot remember a whole day. Mom, it scares me when things like this happen why can I not be normal like Nate?" I smiled "First off there is no such thing as normal and second everyone has to get over their own hurdles and I guess this is yours. As for the not remembering the day we will have to ask doc McCarther about it next week" I could tell how upset he was. I said all this before walking up to my shaking son and pulling him into my arms and he burst into tears "I hate this" he said between sobs as he held me tight. I sighed and just held him and let him cry and my resolve to start in on his punishment gone I decided to call the doctor tonight to see if we could get in earlier to talk about this.
When he calmed down I pulled back and held his face in my hands and whipped the tears away. "Baby, you don't remember what happened today at all" I asked. "The last thing I remember is you hugging us goodnight last night" he said while looking lost in thought. "Mom, what did I do' he asked 'you looked really upset when you came in here" he took a deep breath. I sighed and told him what Nate and Paul told me and he ran out of his room to look at the TV. When he came back in he looked defeated "I did that" he had tears in his eyes and his fist held tight "Everyone should hate me." I stood up shaking my head "Don't you ever let me hear you say that again and don't leave me again" but he was already slipping and he went to his bed. "I am going to go to bed love you" he said as he lay down. I smiled and walked over to him and kissed his forehead and made sure he was tucked in. I walked out of the room and into the waiting arms of my wonderful boyfriend.
When we got into our room I picked up my phone and dialed while lying in my beautiful mates lap. "Hello boss" Sandy answered and I sighed "What's up who's having a meltdown." Paul chuckled and I glared he held out his hand and I handed the phone over. "Hey Sandy its Paul we had an event with Nick this afternoon" he told her everything "and he says the last thing he remembers is last night when Dawn kissed them goodnight last night." She sighed "Um let me call Denny and see what he advice he has and I will call you guys right back" she paused "and Paul I know our queen get her to calm down and tell her none of this is her fault." Paul chuckled at my scowl "You know her well and I am already working on that. I know we have to be strong to help him through this." One he hung up I smacked him upside his head as I got off of his lap "Ow don't abuse me she's right" he grumbled as he lay back on the pillow.
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